WEBVTT 00:00:19.000 --> 00:00:25.600 This is yet again another Sunday though that Chad is asking me to preach 00:00:25.600 --> 00:00:31.120 on something he didn't want to preach on. I know what that's what I said I was 00:00:31.120 --> 00:00:35.560 like this is the second time he asked me to preach on rest and I am not good at 00:00:35.560 --> 00:00:43.280 it. So we're gonna roll with this this morning. We've been going through our 00:00:43.280 --> 00:00:51.120 unforced rhythms for the last five weeks I think now and I really think I 00:00:51.120 --> 00:00:56.560 maybe the last person that Chad should have asked to teach about rest and about 00:00:56.560 --> 00:01:02.280 Sabbath and Chad a couple weeks ago he spoke on grief and he liked joke that 00:01:02.280 --> 00:01:04.560 like he's terrible at sitting with other people's grief and that was a 00:01:04.560 --> 00:01:08.720 really hard sermon for him to write and he like laughed it off as like I'm in 00:01:08.720 --> 00:01:11.880 any a gram seven and you know all the any a gram sevens in the room they took 00:01:11.880 --> 00:01:14.960 the test and they high-fived themselves because they won and he did it on stage 00:01:14.960 --> 00:01:19.040 I was like all right yeah that's right. I on the other hand am a any of 00:01:19.040 --> 00:01:25.960 gram two wing three and you will see a lot of that today that the two is the 00:01:25.960 --> 00:01:31.400 helper the one that earns love through doing things for others and often times 00:01:31.400 --> 00:01:37.400 through suppressing their own needs and I have heard women in like post 00:01:37.400 --> 00:01:42.360 evangelical spaces and deconstruction spaces be like that church tried to put 00:01:42.360 --> 00:01:46.360 me in this box of the quintessential biblical woman and blah blah blah and 00:01:46.360 --> 00:01:50.480 then I bloomed out of it and I was actually in any a gram four or six or 00:01:50.480 --> 00:01:58.120 whatever and I'm like I love that for you I actually am a two and I'm like the 00:01:58.120 --> 00:02:04.800 two is to the number two so what I do sometimes is tied and subconsciously 00:02:04.800 --> 00:02:11.280 tied it's like my perception of how loved I am and so this is sort of a hard 00:02:11.280 --> 00:02:16.040 sermon for me to talk through and write this week it's something that I'm deeply 00:02:16.040 --> 00:02:21.000 aware of and honestly it just made all this immensely difficult for me the idea 00:02:21.000 --> 00:02:29.040 of Sabbath and rest often just stays that an idea and I described it to Amanda in 00:02:29.040 --> 00:02:33.960 the back she's a teacher and she agreed that teachers have the same they do the 00:02:33.960 --> 00:02:38.480 same thing that people in health care do and I'm a nurse we have the same 00:02:38.480 --> 00:02:43.960 mentality sometimes and in health care it's it's like it there's this calling to 00:02:43.960 --> 00:02:53.280 help and a calling to do and in that in the calling it sort of makes you stick 00:02:53.280 --> 00:02:59.280 through even though the pay doesn't match the cost of living or it makes you 00:02:59.280 --> 00:03:04.040 stick through even though it is like draining like mentally and physically and 00:03:04.040 --> 00:03:07.760 spiritually and it just kicks you down and sometimes beats you up sort of 00:03:07.760 --> 00:03:12.760 literally and then suppressing your own needs to meet 00:03:12.760 --> 00:03:19.080 others becomes like this trophy and and just when you're about ready to throw 00:03:19.080 --> 00:03:22.920 in the towel you get this like glimpse of hope of like this is why I chose to do 00:03:22.920 --> 00:03:26.720 this because this life was saved because this kid I made a difference in their 00:03:26.720 --> 00:03:32.120 life and and then you just like forget it's an amnesia you forget all the other 00:03:32.120 --> 00:03:39.120 like toxic pieces of it and so that toxic cycle just keeps on continuing so 00:03:39.120 --> 00:03:47.200 you just resolve that it's worth it and the systems that we are in are designed 00:03:47.200 --> 00:03:55.680 as like this grind culture they're designed to to make you earn your worth 00:03:55.680 --> 00:04:01.600 and your belovedness and I've always thought that if you could just give me 00:04:01.600 --> 00:04:09.320 a to-do list of how to rest I dominated okay like my wing three would come out 00:04:09.320 --> 00:04:14.760 and I would do it well I would have it planned out on my calendar I would check 00:04:14.760 --> 00:04:19.680 it off I would write it down just so I could check it off okay but then the 00:04:19.680 --> 00:04:24.120 problem comes is I know myself and I would add a prerequisite and I would have 00:04:24.120 --> 00:04:28.000 to get my three non-negotiables for that day done in order to reward myself with 00:04:28.000 --> 00:04:31.880 this rest and then if I do and I take that rest then I might have to earn that 00:04:31.880 --> 00:04:35.160 time back by staying a couple hours late to finish the things that I didn't get 00:04:35.160 --> 00:04:42.240 done on my to-do list anybody else or is that just me yeah okay okay so I'm not 00:04:42.240 --> 00:04:45.600 just I'm not just preaching to myself this morning because I was writing this 00:04:45.600 --> 00:04:48.600 and I was like oh my god I hope other people feel this way or else I'm just 00:04:48.600 --> 00:05:00.160 alone and this is this is not an unforced rhythm that is forcing another 00:05:00.160 --> 00:05:08.480 thing that I can and will fail at and I asked Vin my husband like can you help 00:05:08.480 --> 00:05:18.120 me think of a specific story of like me not resting he's like your life okay 00:05:18.120 --> 00:05:22.000 that's fair that's fair I'll give you that I couldn't narrow it down either in 00:05:22.000 --> 00:05:26.300 fact I like jokingly was like the only thing I could think of was like we 00:05:26.300 --> 00:05:29.000 recently went and saw spider-man and then we got home we were like looking at 00:05:29.000 --> 00:05:31.840 our aura app and looking at our heart rates and my heart rate looked like I 00:05:31.840 --> 00:05:35.720 was sleeping and I was engaged the whole time it was like in the 50s and 60s and 00:05:35.720 --> 00:05:38.680 his was like a little bit higher like he was like anticipating what was gonna 00:05:38.680 --> 00:05:44.640 happen I was just like was that rest I don't know so trying to define what 00:05:44.640 --> 00:05:49.000 rest even is and what that looks like in the day-to-day it's just really hard 00:05:49.000 --> 00:05:58.720 this is just the forced rhythm that I live in and based on your reaction I 00:05:58.720 --> 00:06:03.560 think I'm not the only one but it's just like this mentality of if I don't do it 00:06:03.560 --> 00:06:08.280 who will and then I just feel this sense of ownership because it has to get done 00:06:08.280 --> 00:06:14.400 you know so in an attempt to honor the heart of this series because Chad did 00:06:14.400 --> 00:06:19.520 send me like a list of things I like not to stick by but like reminders of 00:06:19.520 --> 00:06:25.160 like it needs to be enforced and how to like stay into the heart of this series 00:06:25.160 --> 00:06:31.040 right I want to look at this differently than what I've looked at it in the past 00:06:31.040 --> 00:06:35.600 and five weeks ago I think we have to start back in the beginning of the series 00:06:35.600 --> 00:06:42.520 Chad talked about naming this series unforced and I want to remind you where 00:06:42.520 --> 00:06:46.400 that word comes from because it isn't just branding for the series it's really 00:06:46.400 --> 00:06:52.160 the entire point and so in Matthew 11 verses 28 through 30 it says are you 00:06:52.160 --> 00:07:00.400 tired worn out burned out on religion come to me get away with me and you'll 00:07:00.400 --> 00:07:03.560 recover your life. 00:07:02.850 --> 00:07:07.270 I'll show you how to take a real rest. 00:07:07.270 --> 00:07:10.250 Walk with me and work with me. 00:07:10.250 --> 00:07:12.330 Watch how I do it. 00:07:12.330 --> 00:07:15.270 Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. 00:07:15.270 --> 00:07:18.690 I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. 00:07:18.690 --> 00:07:24.530 Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly. 00:07:24.530 --> 00:07:30.090 Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. 00:07:30.090 --> 00:07:35.970 Those are three words that my brain just doesn't know what to do with, and it sounded really 00:07:35.970 --> 00:07:37.170 good during the series. 00:07:37.170 --> 00:07:38.170 It really has. 00:07:38.170 --> 00:07:39.170 I really like the ideas. 00:07:39.170 --> 00:07:47.010 I've tried the practices unforced, not scheduled, not optimized, not white-nuckling 00:07:47.010 --> 00:07:52.810 it through it, rhythms, not a task, not a box, not a streak. 00:07:52.810 --> 00:07:59.770 I'm going to break on day four and then just throw in the trash because I broke it. 00:07:59.770 --> 00:08:00.770 Grace. 00:08:00.770 --> 00:08:04.490 And I want to say this carefully because I understand some people are coming from backgrounds 00:08:04.490 --> 00:08:12.730 where grace was something that you only received after you sufficiently were sorry for whatever. 00:08:12.730 --> 00:08:21.370 Grace means it is already yours before the effort, not because of it, unforced rhythms 00:08:21.370 --> 00:08:22.930 of grace. 00:08:22.930 --> 00:08:27.850 And then look at who the invitation is addressed to. 00:08:27.850 --> 00:08:30.250 It said, are you tired? 00:08:30.250 --> 00:08:32.410 Are you worn out? 00:08:32.410 --> 00:08:34.890 Burned out on religion? 00:08:34.890 --> 00:08:37.970 That's the guest list. 00:08:37.970 --> 00:08:40.170 That's the whole guest list. 00:08:40.170 --> 00:08:44.610 If you came in here already behind and already feeling depleted and already planning all the 00:08:44.610 --> 00:08:50.730 things you need to do to prep for Monday or Tuesday depending on if you're off tomorrow, 00:08:50.730 --> 00:08:54.250 then this verse is talking to you specifically. 00:08:54.250 --> 00:08:57.930 You didn't even have to qualify. 00:08:57.930 --> 00:09:00.350 You don't have to be good at rest. 00:09:00.350 --> 00:09:06.770 And I'm going to say that over and over and over and over and over again today, okay? 00:09:06.770 --> 00:09:09.810 Daniel, what is that thing that he says the TLDR? 00:09:09.810 --> 00:09:10.810 What does that stand for? 00:09:10.810 --> 00:09:11.810 I don't even know. 00:09:11.810 --> 00:09:12.810 Yep. 00:09:12.810 --> 00:09:13.810 There you go. 00:09:13.810 --> 00:09:14.810 Too long. 00:09:14.810 --> 00:09:15.810 Didn't read. 00:09:15.810 --> 00:09:16.810 You don't have to be good at rest. 00:09:16.810 --> 00:09:17.810 We walk away with anything today. 00:09:17.810 --> 00:09:18.810 Okay. 00:09:18.810 --> 00:09:19.810 I'm going to put some caveats on. 00:09:19.810 --> 00:09:20.810 I'm going to put some actual pieces on it. 00:09:20.810 --> 00:09:21.810 I'm going to give you a little bit of history. 00:09:21.810 --> 00:09:22.810 All the things. 00:09:22.810 --> 00:09:23.990 But you don't have to be good at rest. 00:09:23.990 --> 00:09:29.370 And I'm saying that as much to you as I am to me, okay? 00:09:29.370 --> 00:09:35.930 God rested first and in Genesis 2 by the seventh day, God had finished the work he had 00:09:35.930 --> 00:09:36.930 been doing. 00:09:36.930 --> 00:09:39.570 So on the seventh day, he rested from all of his work. 00:09:39.570 --> 00:09:42.850 And then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy because on it, he rested from 00:09:42.850 --> 00:09:45.330 all the work of creating that he had done. 00:09:45.330 --> 00:09:52.970 And the word rest in here means manua, and that is not just the absence of work. 00:09:52.970 --> 00:10:01.370 It's like a state of tranquility and celebration and fulfillment, a place made for something, 00:10:01.370 --> 00:10:03.250 not just emptied of something. 00:10:03.250 --> 00:10:10.050 And here's what I want you to sit in today is that God is not tired. 00:10:10.050 --> 00:10:16.290 Genesis is not describing a God that overdid it on Thursday and needed to rest on Friday. 00:10:16.290 --> 00:10:17.290 He just needed a minute. 00:10:17.290 --> 00:10:19.250 That's not how that works. 00:10:19.250 --> 00:10:24.090 God's rest was at the completion of creation. 00:10:24.090 --> 00:10:27.730 Rest is the last thing built and it's built on purpose. 00:10:27.730 --> 00:10:31.410 It isn't the recovery from creation. 00:10:31.410 --> 00:10:35.290 It's part of it. 00:10:35.290 --> 00:10:41.610 And then there's the detail that I love because humans actually show up on day six, which 00:10:41.610 --> 00:10:48.770 means the first full day of a human being's existence was the day off. 00:10:48.770 --> 00:10:55.130 We rested before we worked, before even Adam did one single thing. 00:10:55.130 --> 00:10:58.170 They bore the image of God. 00:10:58.170 --> 00:11:03.890 And the first thing that image did was stop. 00:11:03.890 --> 00:11:07.290 Rest is not the reward at the end of the design. 00:11:07.290 --> 00:11:11.050 Rest is the design. 00:11:11.050 --> 00:11:13.930 You don't have to be good at rest. 00:11:13.930 --> 00:11:18.690 You were made in the image of someone who did it first, who created it intentionally 00:11:18.690 --> 00:11:25.610 in the design of your humanity. 00:11:25.610 --> 00:11:29.610 And there are two different places in the Bible where the Sabbath is an actual command. 00:11:29.610 --> 00:11:33.650 So we're going to talk about those because the first one in the Ten Commandments and Exodus 00:11:33.650 --> 00:11:35.930 20, it says, "Rest because God rested." 00:11:35.930 --> 00:11:38.890 And that's what we just talked about, creation, design, identity. 00:11:38.890 --> 00:11:44.490 It is who you are designed to be, to have rest. 00:11:44.490 --> 00:11:48.450 Deuteronomy 5 says something else entirely. 00:11:48.450 --> 00:11:52.770 And I want us to read the whole thing, which my husband made the slides, and he was like, 00:11:52.770 --> 00:11:53.770 "This is a really long slide." 00:11:53.770 --> 00:11:55.290 And I was like, "Yeah, I know." 00:11:55.290 --> 00:11:59.010 But we're going to not leave out the best parts. 00:11:59.010 --> 00:12:02.690 These days, you shall labor and do all your work. 00:12:02.690 --> 00:12:06.410 But the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord your God. 00:12:06.410 --> 00:12:12.370 On it, you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male 00:12:12.370 --> 00:12:17.970 or female servant, nor your ox, your donkey, or any of your animals, nor any foreigner 00:12:17.970 --> 00:12:23.530 residing in your town so that your male and female servants may rest as you do. 00:12:23.530 --> 00:12:26.810 Remember that you were slaves in Egypt. 00:12:26.810 --> 00:12:31.250 And that the Lord your God brought you out of there with a mighty hand and an outstretched 00:12:31.250 --> 00:12:33.210 arm. 00:12:33.210 --> 00:12:43.610 Look who is on that list, the kids, the workers, the animals, the immigrant. 00:12:43.610 --> 00:12:46.930 This is not a self-care tip. 00:12:46.930 --> 00:12:50.250 This is a labor law. 00:12:50.250 --> 00:12:53.050 It's an economic command. 00:12:53.050 --> 00:12:57.530 And it runs downward, and that's the part that I want you to see, because it reaches 00:12:57.530 --> 00:13:02.930 the people whose work makes somebody else's rest possible. 00:13:02.930 --> 00:13:07.510 And then it reaches past the household entirely to the foreigner in town who has no family 00:13:07.510 --> 00:13:13.850 there and no property and nobody obligated to advocate for him. 00:13:13.850 --> 00:13:21.130 So that your male and female servants may rest as you do, as you do, the same rest. 00:13:21.130 --> 00:13:28.250 Not lesser, not a lesser version for people with less power, which means that rest doesn't 00:13:28.250 --> 00:13:35.050 have to look like an expensive retreat or the vacation that we're saving up for. 00:13:35.050 --> 00:13:38.810 So if it's accessible to everyone, let's dig in more. 00:13:38.810 --> 00:13:42.490 Because the reason that is given is memory. 00:13:42.490 --> 00:13:44.570 You were slaves. 00:13:44.570 --> 00:13:48.370 You know what it is to have a body that only counts for what it produces. 00:13:48.370 --> 00:13:50.650 So do not build that for anyone else. 00:13:51.600 --> 00:14:01.540 That's God at the center of this command, not a God issuing a rule about Saturdays. 00:14:01.540 --> 00:14:06.000 It is a God who keeps showing up on the side of people whose labor is being taken from 00:14:06.000 --> 00:14:11.900 them and who wrote a rhythm into the law specifically so that people who got free wouldn't turn 00:14:11.900 --> 00:14:18.100 around and rebuild the same machine with themselves at the top. 00:14:18.100 --> 00:14:24.200 Which means that rest that stops with me isn't Sabbath yet. 00:14:24.200 --> 00:14:33.040 Zach Lambert, when we did the Better Ways to Read the Bible series, he talked about how 00:14:33.040 --> 00:14:38.360 taking a Bible that's being used as a weapon to condemn and exclude and handing it back 00:14:38.360 --> 00:14:41.320 to people as something that heals. 00:14:41.320 --> 00:14:43.920 And the Sabbath is a textbook case of that. 00:14:43.920 --> 00:14:50.000 We took a liberation, one with teeth, one that actually costs a household something, 00:14:50.000 --> 00:14:55.200 and shrink it to a private rule about our own Sunday afternoon. 00:14:55.200 --> 00:14:59.960 One more line item that we can be behind on and fail at, because I don't know who else 00:14:59.960 --> 00:15:05.160 is going to go home and meal prep today. 00:15:05.160 --> 00:15:12.800 Tricia Hersey and her book, "Rest is Resistance," which I'm obsessed with this book, it's amazing. 00:15:12.800 --> 00:15:18.840 She is making a version of the same argument from inside a different history from the lens 00:15:18.840 --> 00:15:21.360 of African-American history. 00:15:21.360 --> 00:15:25.720 In "Rest is Resistance," she writes as the descendant of people whose labor was stolen 00:15:25.720 --> 00:15:28.240 outright. 00:15:28.240 --> 00:15:32.080 And I want to stay here for a minute because it would be very easy for me to quote a black 00:15:32.080 --> 00:15:40.280 woman on rest and then move straight along to my calendar and my version of rest. 00:15:40.280 --> 00:15:47.880 There were generations of people in this country who were not permitted to stop, whose bodies 00:15:47.880 --> 00:15:56.040 were valued at exactly what they could produce, and not one thing more. 00:15:56.040 --> 00:16:03.720 For whom rest was not a spiritual practice or a self-care tip, it was contraband. 00:16:03.720 --> 00:16:09.600 Stopping could get you hurt, and the church was in on it. 00:16:09.600 --> 00:16:15.240 There was preached at enslaved people to keep them working, slaves obey your earthly masters. 00:16:15.240 --> 00:16:18.120 That verse got a lot of pulpit time. 00:16:18.120 --> 00:16:24.000 The same book that says to remember that you were slaves and the Lord your God brought 00:16:24.000 --> 00:16:33.520 you out was handed over with that part kept quiet. 00:16:33.520 --> 00:16:41.280 So when Hersey in "Rest is Resistance," says when she says that rest is resistance, 00:16:41.280 --> 00:16:44.920 she's not just being clever. 00:16:44.920 --> 00:16:51.440 She is saying that what was taken is worth taking back, that a body permitted to stop 00:16:51.440 --> 00:16:57.360 is a body that has quit being a unit of production. 00:16:57.360 --> 00:17:03.640 She says that we've been bamboozled, that we live in a culture without a pause button, 00:17:03.640 --> 00:17:07.960 that the knowing that our bodies came with as infants when we cried out and recognized 00:17:07.960 --> 00:17:13.560 our own physical needs has been taken from us and swapped out for disconnection, and 00:17:13.560 --> 00:17:18.680 a lot of the time just disconnection with self. 00:17:18.680 --> 00:17:24.200 And that is not a modern remix of Sabbath. 00:17:24.200 --> 00:17:30.600 His Deuteronomy told again, on behalf of people who had been enslaved in Egypt, the 00:17:30.600 --> 00:17:35.480 same God on the same side. 00:17:35.480 --> 00:17:38.320 And now I want to be careful here. 00:17:38.320 --> 00:17:45.800 And I'd rather say this out loud than skate past it, because my tiredness is not that. 00:17:45.800 --> 00:17:49.800 Nobody owns my body, and I can leave. 00:17:49.800 --> 00:17:54.160 Whatever I'm carrying, it is not what she is writing about, and I'm not going to borrow 00:17:54.160 --> 00:17:57.040 that weight to make my point land today. 00:17:57.040 --> 00:18:02.800 But I think the historical context of rest and Sabbath and the weight of that is worth 00:18:02.800 --> 00:18:06.160 sitting with. 00:18:06.160 --> 00:18:16.560 And there's an underlying lie, and it's measured on a different scale, but it's the same lie, 00:18:16.560 --> 00:18:24.880 that a person is only worth what they can produce. 00:18:24.880 --> 00:18:28.000 And here's the thing about Pharaoh's economy. 00:18:28.000 --> 00:18:30.360 It didn't end. 00:18:30.360 --> 00:18:31.960 It incorporated. 00:18:31.960 --> 00:18:35.160 It learned to offer benefits packages. 00:18:35.160 --> 00:18:43.200 And it got extremely good at calling itself a calling. 00:18:43.200 --> 00:18:46.120 The whole "if I don't do it, who will?" 00:18:46.120 --> 00:18:52.280 I think I've said that sentence for so many years, that it's almost like a devotion. 00:18:52.280 --> 00:18:55.000 And it isn't. 00:18:55.000 --> 00:18:58.480 It's the most profitable sentence I know. 00:18:58.480 --> 00:19:07.120 Because a system that runs on depletion never has to force people like me, I'll just volunteer. 00:19:07.120 --> 00:19:08.960 And here's what I keep missing. 00:19:08.960 --> 00:19:14.440 This was never something I was supposed to fix one tired person at a time. 00:19:14.440 --> 00:19:18.120 Deuteronomy doesn't say "rest harder." 00:19:18.120 --> 00:19:20.800 It doesn't say "manager calendar better." 00:19:20.800 --> 00:19:23.520 It writes "rest into the law." 00:19:23.520 --> 00:19:27.200 For the kids, for the workers, for the animals, for the immigrant who has nobody. 00:19:27.200 --> 00:19:31.600 Because the people who had been worked to the bone were never supposed to turn around and 00:19:31.600 --> 00:19:35.240 build that for someone else. 00:19:35.240 --> 00:19:40.320 So rest here isn't a private achievement, it's an arrangement. 00:19:40.320 --> 00:19:45.720 It lives in schedules, it lives in policies, it lives in laws. 00:19:45.720 --> 00:19:49.920 It lives in who gets a day off and who doesn't and who decides that. 00:19:49.920 --> 00:19:55.840 And whose voices are represented as policy makers and lawmakers that are protecting the 00:19:55.840 --> 00:20:01.560 more vulnerable and what it looks like to value rest. 00:20:01.560 --> 00:20:06.320 Which means that Sabbath isn't finished when I finally sit down. 00:20:06.320 --> 00:20:11.180 It isn't finished until it reaches the person with the least power in the room. 00:20:11.180 --> 00:20:15.160 So you don't have to be good at rest. 00:20:15.160 --> 00:20:19.760 And it's also important to understand the history and the context of that. 00:20:19.760 --> 00:20:24.240 That it isn't Sabbath until it's Sabbath for everyone. 00:20:24.240 --> 00:20:31.520 That it's not exclusionary. 00:20:31.520 --> 00:20:35.840 And another important piece, and I'm going to try to say this carefully because I want 00:20:35.840 --> 00:20:40.680 to name what exhaustion costs. 00:20:40.680 --> 00:20:43.160 I'm not trying to scare you into resting. 00:20:43.160 --> 00:20:47.000 I don't think that that would be the wisest approach in a sermon that's like talking about 00:20:47.000 --> 00:20:48.880 unforced rhythms, right? 00:20:50.850 --> 00:20:57.990 but I do want us to be aware of the toll that it takes on the body, just exhaustion 00:20:57.990 --> 00:21:01.650 itself and Chad has talked about some of this and some of the previous sermons in 00:21:01.650 --> 00:21:07.770 the series. Brene Brown has a list of guide posts in her the gifts of imperfection 00:21:07.770 --> 00:21:12.130 and one of them contrasts these two connected ideas. It's cultivating play 00:21:12.130 --> 00:21:20.150 and rest and she lines that up with letting go of exhaustion as a status 00:21:20.150 --> 00:21:30.330 symbol and productivity as self-worth. So cultivating play and rest looks like 00:21:30.330 --> 00:21:38.290 letting go of exhaustion as a status symbol, productivity as self-worth. We do 00:21:38.290 --> 00:21:43.450 this. In health care it is like practically a competitive sport. I haven't 00:21:43.450 --> 00:21:48.170 sat down since 6 a.m. I haven't eaten. I stayed two hours past my shift. We hand 00:21:48.170 --> 00:21:53.010 each other our depletion like it's proof that we care. And how many other jobs in 00:21:53.010 --> 00:22:01.130 the room sort of do that too? Yes. Yes. I haven't taken care of myself or met any 00:22:01.130 --> 00:22:05.610 of my own needs today but I did X, Y, and Z and so I am productive and I am 00:22:05.610 --> 00:22:14.170 valued and I am a good mom and I am a good nurse and I am a good teacher. Chad 00:22:14.170 --> 00:22:19.290 recently shared what the research on sleep loss says and it surprised me but 00:22:19.290 --> 00:22:23.450 what sleep deprivation takes from a person isn't primarily happiness. It's 00:22:23.450 --> 00:22:30.850 the capacity to be moved. Tired people don't hurt more. They delight less and 00:22:30.850 --> 00:22:36.570 like none of you in here stepped into the profession or the role of motherhood or 00:22:36.570 --> 00:22:42.570 fatherhood or theahood or whatever you know like you never you didn't step 00:22:42.570 --> 00:22:46.690 into those roles with the intention to just like burn out. Like it was with a 00:22:46.690 --> 00:22:57.010 good heart and yet we just set our own needs aside to meet every other. Tired 00:22:57.010 --> 00:23:01.610 people don't hurt more. They delight less so you like lose out on the reason 00:23:01.610 --> 00:23:07.450 you're even doing those things for those people that you love. We spent a whole 00:23:07.450 --> 00:23:13.530 week on this series about like noticing and awareness and awe on the practice 00:23:13.530 --> 00:23:16.570 of actually seeing the thing in front of you that we don't have to invite God 00:23:16.570 --> 00:23:21.250 into the room. God is already here. We're like changing our awareness right and it 00:23:21.250 --> 00:23:26.690 turns out that the first casualty of a life without rest is the equipment that 00:23:26.690 --> 00:23:32.250 helps you rest. Which means an exhausted nervous system cannot tell the 00:23:32.250 --> 00:23:36.490 difference between a sunset and a stoplight. 00:23:39.050 --> 00:23:47.330 And that's not a character flaw. Nobody in here is spiritually deficient for 00:23:47.330 --> 00:23:55.690 being tired. That is just what depletion does to the body. And I found myself 00:23:55.690 --> 00:24:00.530 recently when people ask me how things are going answering that I'm tired. But 00:24:00.530 --> 00:24:06.770 I'm not just sleepy. I'm tired. I'm worn out. 00:24:07.930 --> 00:24:12.450 So when we say I don't have time to rest and there's too much that matters the 00:24:12.450 --> 00:24:17.610 cost of that trade is the ability to be moved by the things that matter. Including 00:24:17.610 --> 00:24:23.370 the people that we're doing it all for. You don't have to be good at rest. But I 00:24:23.370 --> 00:24:28.890 do think it's important that we recognize the cost of that exhaustion. That grind 00:24:28.890 --> 00:24:32.650 has been quietly taking away your capacity for all and wonder as a payment. 00:24:32.650 --> 00:24:39.370 And now I read that and I wrote that and I was like okay so then it's my 00:24:39.370 --> 00:24:46.370 responsibility to get back the capacity for on wonder. I can do this and no okay. 00:24:46.370 --> 00:24:49.810 So I'm gonna flip that a little bit because I do think it's important to 00:24:49.810 --> 00:24:55.410 understand the history and the context and then the cost. But I don't want it to 00:24:55.410 --> 00:24:59.530 turn into like guilt into okay I then I have to do X Y and Z so that I can feel 00:24:59.530 --> 00:25:03.690 rest and so that I gain back that capacity for on wonder yes I did it. 00:25:03.690 --> 00:25:10.410 That's not how it works. So I'm gonna compare this to something okay. A heart 00:25:10.410 --> 00:25:20.530 beat. It's not a skill okay. Bear with me. Because everything I've said so far I 00:25:20.530 --> 00:25:27.890 actually believe and I still don't do it. Because somewhere in me rest became one 00:25:27.890 --> 00:25:33.690 more competency and it's a competency that I'm underperforming on. One more area 00:25:33.690 --> 00:25:40.210 where I am apparently bad at something. Brian Zond has a framework that I found 00:25:40.210 --> 00:25:45.290 in one of his sub-stack articles that I can't shake. He said life is rhythm, 00:25:45.290 --> 00:25:54.570 breath, heartbeat, seasons, tides. When your body falls out of rhythm you're sick. 00:25:54.570 --> 00:26:02.010 If the rhythm doesn't get restored you die that's biology. And he reads Sabbath 00:26:02.010 --> 00:26:06.890 the exact same way the daily prayers the seasonal feasts and above all weekly 00:26:06.890 --> 00:26:11.530 Sabbath all of which are built to establish a holy rhythm in people. But 00:26:11.530 --> 00:26:17.370 here's the line that got me. He says a heartbeat isn't a skill. You don't get 00:26:17.370 --> 00:26:24.210 better at your heartbeat. You don't practice it and improve. You either fall 00:26:24.210 --> 00:26:30.730 out of rhythm or you get restored to it. And the restoring isn't something that 00:26:30.730 --> 00:26:34.970 you achieve. It's something that happens to you. And if we're talking medically 00:26:34.970 --> 00:26:39.450 like literally through defibrillation or a cardioversion or other medical means 00:26:39.450 --> 00:26:46.250 like you're not the one fixing your heart rate, your heartbeat, right? So all of my 00:26:46.250 --> 00:26:51.690 anxiety about being bad at rest, about failing the practice, about the fact that 00:26:51.690 --> 00:26:56.450 I'd absolutely turn it into a checklist with a prerequisite and a reward is 00:26:56.450 --> 00:27:05.410 anxiety about a category error. Rest was never a skill I was going to master. I 00:27:05.410 --> 00:27:13.170 don't have to get good at it. I just have to keep coming back to the rhythm, which 00:27:13.170 --> 00:27:20.250 means failing at rest this week doesn't disqualify me from it. It just 00:27:20.250 --> 00:27:27.930 means that the next beat is coming. Mark 227, the verse that Chad started us 00:27:27.930 --> 00:27:32.370 with in week one, is the one that this whole series just keeps on circling back 00:27:32.370 --> 00:27:34.610 to. 00:27:33.350 --> 00:27:38.510 This Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath. 00:27:38.510 --> 00:27:41.190 Jesus isn't loosening a rule here. 00:27:41.190 --> 00:27:45.810 He's claiming to be the one that sets the rhythm. 00:27:45.810 --> 00:27:49.550 He's saying this whole thing was built for you. 00:27:49.550 --> 00:27:51.870 You were never built to feed it. 00:27:51.870 --> 00:27:53.790 You don't have to be good at rest. 00:27:53.790 --> 00:28:00.490 You can fall back into a rhythm that was made for you. 00:28:00.490 --> 00:28:02.870 So let's go back to something that I said in the beginning. 00:28:02.870 --> 00:28:05.710 I tied it jokingly to my Enneagram number, 00:28:05.710 --> 00:28:08.270 but I think it resonated with some people. 00:28:08.270 --> 00:28:10.910 The degree to which I believe I'm loved is sometimes 00:28:10.910 --> 00:28:15.510 tied to what I do for people and what I can accomplish. 00:28:15.510 --> 00:28:18.910 Brian Wrecker writes about fear-based faith, 00:28:18.910 --> 00:28:20.910 and he says something that stuck with me. 00:28:20.910 --> 00:28:24.750 If you grew up believing God was watching for your failure, 00:28:24.750 --> 00:28:29.870 your nervous system learned that stopping is dangerous. 00:28:29.870 --> 00:28:32.350 That's not a character flaw either. 00:28:32.350 --> 00:28:35.510 That's an old story your body still believes, 00:28:35.510 --> 00:28:37.990 running quietly underneath the theology 00:28:37.990 --> 00:28:40.110 that you've since changed your mind about. 00:28:43.990 --> 00:28:46.910 It takes about a year is what he said in his book 00:28:46.910 --> 00:28:50.030 to deconstruct a belief. 00:28:50.030 --> 00:28:52.550 Your body takes considerably longer. 00:28:52.550 --> 00:28:54.550 It's like your mind's not meeting your body, 00:28:54.550 --> 00:28:57.590 and so your body, you have this visceral memory of. 00:29:00.590 --> 00:29:02.870 And so I want to say this out loud and mostly to myself. 00:29:02.870 --> 00:29:06.910 But at Jesus' baptism, before he has healed one person, 00:29:06.910 --> 00:29:11.950 before a single sermon, before miracles and crowds, 00:29:11.950 --> 00:29:17.510 before the cross, the voice from heaven says, beloved. 00:29:17.510 --> 00:29:20.950 This is my son, whom I love, with him I am well pleased. 00:29:20.950 --> 00:29:22.110 And well pleased with what? 00:29:25.150 --> 00:29:28.310 He hasn't done the ministry yet. 00:29:28.310 --> 00:29:29.910 That's the point. 00:29:29.910 --> 00:29:32.270 The belovedness comes first. 00:29:32.270 --> 00:29:34.870 It isn't the performance review at the end. 00:29:34.870 --> 00:29:38.670 It's the ground he stood on the whole time. 00:29:38.670 --> 00:29:42.590 Cole Arthur Riley in her book This Here Flesh 00:29:42.590 --> 00:29:45.670 said, "Our dignity may involve our doing, 00:29:45.670 --> 00:29:48.990 "but it is foremost in our very being, 00:29:48.990 --> 00:29:52.190 "our tears and emotions, our bodies lying in the grass, 00:29:52.190 --> 00:29:53.630 "our scabs healing." 00:29:53.630 --> 00:29:57.350 And if that is true, it means that our belovedness 00:29:57.350 --> 00:29:59.990 is the ground. 00:29:59.990 --> 00:30:02.070 It's not the goal. 00:30:02.070 --> 00:30:04.710 It's the ground that we're standing on. 00:30:04.710 --> 00:30:06.070 It's where we're starting from. 00:30:06.070 --> 00:30:10.150 It's not the goal that we're aiming for. 00:30:10.150 --> 00:30:13.990 Then rest isn't something that I owe or something that I earn. 00:30:13.990 --> 00:30:18.470 Rest attaches to belovedness and not obligation. 00:30:18.470 --> 00:30:21.390 Rest is the act of believing that about yourself 00:30:21.390 --> 00:30:24.910 before you maybe feel it. 00:30:24.910 --> 00:30:28.830 Which is why I think it is so hard for all of our teachers 00:30:28.830 --> 00:30:32.390 and nurses and parents and pastors and reformers 00:30:32.390 --> 00:30:38.390 and achievers and everybody in here who has quietly built a life 00:30:38.390 --> 00:30:43.950 where being needed is how they know that they're loved. 00:30:43.950 --> 00:30:47.150 Stopping doesn't feel restful in that. 00:30:47.150 --> 00:30:49.950 It actually feels like exposure. 00:30:49.950 --> 00:30:52.590 If I'm not doing, then what am I? 00:30:52.590 --> 00:30:56.670 It feels like what Taryn said, another itchy tag on your shirt 00:30:56.670 --> 00:31:00.350 just reminding you that you're not enough. 00:31:00.350 --> 00:31:01.590 Beloved. 00:31:01.590 --> 00:31:02.950 That's it. 00:31:02.950 --> 00:31:03.870 That's the answer. 00:31:03.870 --> 00:31:07.790 And it's infuriatingly short. 00:31:07.790 --> 00:31:09.390 And I've been trying to make it longer for you. 00:31:09.390 --> 00:31:13.270 But you don't have to be good at rest. 00:31:13.270 --> 00:31:16.350 You were beloved before you were useful. 00:31:16.350 --> 00:31:18.950 So this doesn't have to be a skill you get good at. 00:31:22.590 --> 00:31:25.350 But now I want to name the thing that is going to happen 00:31:25.350 --> 00:31:27.990 if you actually try this. 00:31:27.990 --> 00:31:30.110 Because I'd rather tell you now than you think 00:31:30.110 --> 00:31:32.230 that you're failing and you did it wrong. 00:31:32.230 --> 00:31:34.910 Rest is probably going to feel like nothing is happening. 00:31:38.150 --> 00:31:41.350 It's going to feel like you're falling behind. 00:31:41.350 --> 00:31:43.070 The thing you stepped away from is just 00:31:43.070 --> 00:31:45.230 going to end without you. 00:31:45.230 --> 00:31:48.670 This was a nice idea for people with different lives. 00:31:48.670 --> 00:31:51.870 Maybe it isn't meant for me. 00:31:51.870 --> 00:31:54.870 Brian Zond has a reflection on Holy Saturday 00:31:54.870 --> 00:31:57.110 that I found in another one of his substacks. 00:31:57.110 --> 00:31:58.910 We know Friday. 00:31:58.910 --> 00:32:00.030 We know Sunday. 00:32:00.030 --> 00:32:02.230 We've got songs for both. 00:32:02.230 --> 00:32:04.710 But Saturday is also in the gospel. 00:32:04.710 --> 00:32:06.150 Paul lists it. 00:32:06.150 --> 00:32:09.990 And he says he was buried like it counts. 00:32:09.990 --> 00:32:12.870 And what happened that day? 00:32:12.870 --> 00:32:14.230 Nothing. 00:32:14.230 --> 00:32:18.150 Jesus was dead and in a tomb and nothing happened. 00:32:18.150 --> 00:32:22.630 For the disciples, Saturday was probably worse than Friday. 00:32:22.630 --> 00:32:24.230 Friday, you're in shock. 00:32:24.230 --> 00:32:26.190 Saturday, the shock wears off. 00:32:26.190 --> 00:32:27.870 Hopelessness moves in. 00:32:27.870 --> 00:32:30.430 And you still have to feed people and clean and get 00:32:30.430 --> 00:32:35.590 through a day where God is obviously not doing anything. 00:32:35.590 --> 00:32:36.830 You still have to keep going. 00:32:40.190 --> 00:32:49.390 So when you stop and the Sunday comes, it didn't come 00:32:49.390 --> 00:32:53.350 because anybody worked for it. 00:32:53.350 --> 00:32:56.590 The disciples didn't rest correctly, 00:32:56.590 --> 00:33:00.710 and therefore they were honored with resurrection. 00:33:00.710 --> 00:33:02.590 It came while everyone who loved him 00:33:02.590 --> 00:33:04.030 was doing absolutely nothing. 00:33:06.750 --> 00:33:08.510 So if you try this and you stop this week 00:33:08.510 --> 00:33:12.070 and you feel useless and you're like nothing is happening, 00:33:12.070 --> 00:33:17.670 when you're sitting there, that's not failure. 00:33:17.670 --> 00:33:18.670 That's holy Saturday. 00:33:21.510 --> 00:33:24.070 And you don't have to be good at rest. 00:33:24.070 --> 00:33:26.030 It might feel like nothing. 00:33:26.030 --> 00:33:30.270 And that isn't a verdict on how well you rested 00:33:30.270 --> 00:33:32.990 or about the outcome or what comes next 00:33:32.990 --> 00:33:36.110 or how good you were at rest. 00:33:36.110 --> 00:33:39.670 And so this is when I had to leave you with a practice 00:33:39.670 --> 00:33:40.970 for this week. 00:33:40.970 --> 00:33:42.750 And I really actually struggled with this one 00:33:42.750 --> 00:33:44.150 because I needed it to be something 00:33:44.150 --> 00:33:47.550 that I couldn't mess up, right? 00:33:47.550 --> 00:33:50.110 But that was the rule that you can't fail it. 00:33:50.110 --> 00:33:53.670 If you create a practice that you can fail at, 00:33:53.670 --> 00:33:55.630 then it's a scoreboard. 00:33:55.630 --> 00:34:00.270 It's not enforced, right? 00:34:00.270 --> 00:34:03.030 And in week one, Chad mentioned a study on clergy 00:34:03.030 --> 00:34:07.150 who practiced Sabbath and how it didn't find the measurable 00:34:07.150 --> 00:34:09.790 health benefits that everybody assumed it would. 00:34:09.790 --> 00:34:13.150 So I think that's an important thing to mention here. 00:34:13.150 --> 00:34:15.190 Because if Sabbath only mattered because it 00:34:15.190 --> 00:34:17.150 made you healthier and calmer and sharper 00:34:17.150 --> 00:34:19.790 and more productive on Monday, then it 00:34:19.790 --> 00:34:24.790 would just be a recovery wearing a religious outfit. 00:34:25.350 --> 00:34:29.510 It would be Pharaoh's economy with a devotional attached. 00:34:30.390 --> 00:34:34.390 You'd still be resting in order to produce something. 00:34:36.310 --> 00:34:40.470 And that's the exact cycle that we're trying to get out of here. 00:34:40.470 --> 00:34:42.310 And I know what I did to you a few minutes ago. 00:34:42.310 --> 00:34:45.150 I told you what exhaustion costs, your delight, 00:34:45.150 --> 00:34:47.110 your capacity to be moved, all that. 00:34:47.110 --> 00:34:49.770 And I'm not gonna turn it into a sales pitch of like, 00:34:49.770 --> 00:34:52.770 you have to earn that back, okay? 00:34:54.550 --> 00:34:56.190 I'm not gonna stand up here and promise 00:34:56.190 --> 00:35:00.830 that practicing the Sabbath is going to fix your anxiety 00:35:00.830 --> 00:35:03.570 or your depression or your burnout or your marriage. 00:35:04.670 --> 00:35:06.210 It might not fix anything. 00:35:08.750 --> 00:35:09.810 And that's allowed. 00:35:10.830 --> 00:35:12.750 We do it because of what it is, 00:35:12.750 --> 00:35:14.310 not because of what it produces. 00:35:14.310 --> 00:35:15.930 This is not transactional. 00:35:18.150 --> 00:35:20.670 So the same as the week's prior, 00:35:20.670 --> 00:35:22.950 one small practice that I wanna leave you with. 00:35:24.870 --> 00:35:26.310 And again, it had to be a goal 00:35:26.310 --> 00:35:28.910 that failing it would be weird 00:35:28.910 --> 00:35:30.350 because if you can't fail it, 00:35:30.350 --> 00:35:31.510 then it is in the scoreboard. 00:35:31.510 --> 00:35:33.430 So, and I'm gonna be honest with you, 00:35:33.430 --> 00:35:35.970 I actually was going to do like schedule two hours 00:35:35.970 --> 00:35:36.950 out on your calendar. 00:35:36.950 --> 00:35:39.270 And then like that became the joke of the sermon 00:35:39.270 --> 00:35:41.630 because I wouldn't be able to make it stick. 00:35:41.630 --> 00:35:43.110 I would literally like be like, okay, 00:35:43.110 --> 00:35:44.030 well, I'm gonna move it to this day 00:35:44.030 --> 00:35:45.710 because there's too many meetings on that day. 00:35:45.710 --> 00:35:46.790 And let me get all of these things 00:35:46.790 --> 00:35:48.030 done on my checklist first. 00:35:48.030 --> 00:35:49.310 And then I can do this, 00:35:49.310 --> 00:35:50.910 oh, but then if I do this for two hours, 00:35:50.910 --> 00:35:52.190 then I might just stay two hours 00:35:52.190 --> 00:35:53.550 so that I can get this other stuff done. 00:35:53.550 --> 00:35:54.750 And then I can see my night shift. 00:35:54.750 --> 00:35:57.790 And I probably would have like reason through a way 00:35:57.790 --> 00:35:59.730 to like make myself more productive. 00:36:00.790 --> 00:36:03.910 So I really took that in mind when I was creating this, okay? 00:36:05.870 --> 00:36:08.190 Tricia Hersey, like even, 00:36:08.190 --> 00:36:10.510 she had like this long list in here 00:36:10.510 --> 00:36:12.870 of different ways that rest could look. 00:36:12.870 --> 00:36:16.790 And she said long baths and tea rituals and walks 00:36:16.790 --> 00:36:19.070 and dancing and not answering that email right away. 00:36:19.070 --> 00:36:20.750 And it's a beautiful list, 00:36:20.750 --> 00:36:22.470 but I found it completely overwhelming 00:36:22.470 --> 00:36:24.070 because I read it like a menu 00:36:24.070 --> 00:36:27.030 of 11 more things that I'm not currently doing well. 00:36:28.470 --> 00:36:30.270 So I was like, okay, so how do I find this 00:36:30.270 --> 00:36:32.550 so that it doesn't just like leave you already feeling defeated 00:36:32.550 --> 00:36:34.190 when you leave here today? 00:36:34.190 --> 00:36:38.250 And two words in her list in here just stopped me. 00:36:39.350 --> 00:36:41.190 Rejecting urgency. 00:36:43.990 --> 00:36:45.150 So here's the practice. 00:36:45.150 --> 00:36:47.030 And it's not a mood, it's not a feeling 00:36:47.030 --> 00:36:48.910 and it isn't a menu. 00:36:48.910 --> 00:36:51.810 I want you to pick one boundary this week. 00:36:53.030 --> 00:36:55.230 Not a feeling, a boundary. 00:36:55.230 --> 00:36:57.710 A time that you stop. 00:36:57.710 --> 00:37:01.070 And not necessarily, unless you can, that's great, 00:37:01.070 --> 00:37:04.690 two hours of uninterrupted successful peace, 00:37:05.550 --> 00:37:07.030 but a line. 00:37:07.030 --> 00:37:09.150 At 8.30, I'm gonna close my laptop. 00:37:10.150 --> 00:37:12.150 After dinner, I'm not gonna take the call. 00:37:13.310 --> 00:37:15.430 Saturday morning, the group text can wait 00:37:15.430 --> 00:37:16.750 until I've had my coffee. 00:37:17.990 --> 00:37:19.650 Set a boundary. 00:37:20.590 --> 00:37:23.030 You don't have to feel restful in it. 00:37:25.550 --> 00:37:27.110 You don't have to enjoy it. 00:37:28.790 --> 00:37:31.670 You don't have to be good at it, okay? 00:37:33.830 --> 00:37:35.950 I am going to add two caveats. 00:37:35.950 --> 00:37:37.430 So there are two rules to this. 00:37:37.430 --> 00:37:40.310 And they're like semi, just like, I know myself, okay? 00:37:40.310 --> 00:37:43.110 And some of you guys like made similar responses to me 00:37:43.110 --> 00:37:46.150 in this, so this might be helpful to have these two rules, okay? 00:37:46.150 --> 00:37:48.690 Number one, no prerequisites. 00:37:49.750 --> 00:37:51.950 You don't get to clean the house first. 00:37:53.110 --> 00:37:55.630 You don't get the inbox down first. 00:37:55.630 --> 00:37:59.230 The boundary is not something that you unlock, okay? 00:38:00.150 --> 00:38:01.830 It's not something that you earn. 00:38:02.870 --> 00:38:04.350 It's just setting a boundary. 00:38:06.270 --> 00:38:09.790 And then two, don't earn it back. 00:38:09.790 --> 00:38:11.870 And this is like really hard for me, okay? 00:38:13.030 --> 00:38:15.230 No making up the time. 00:38:15.230 --> 00:38:17.990 No staying late Thursday to repay Tuesday. 00:38:17.990 --> 00:38:19.710 That's not rest, that's a loan. 00:38:20.830 --> 00:38:22.190 Set a boundary. 00:38:24.710 --> 00:38:27.310 There's one guy that I work with 00:38:27.310 --> 00:38:28.590 who's been here a couple times now, 00:38:28.590 --> 00:38:31.510 but he is so good at setting boundaries 00:38:31.510 --> 00:38:34.950 in such like a kind way that it's impressive. 00:38:34.950 --> 00:38:37.870 And like, I actually just look up to him in that. 00:38:37.870 --> 00:38:39.350 It's so respectful in the way he does it. 00:38:39.350 --> 00:38:41.430 I'm like, dang, that is like so beautiful 00:38:41.430 --> 00:38:43.750 because I just keep saying yes to everything. 00:38:46.470 --> 00:38:51.470 One boundary, not a feeling, a boundary, 00:38:51.630 --> 00:38:52.990 a time that you stop. 00:38:54.430 --> 00:38:57.470 And then when you keep it badly, 00:38:57.470 --> 00:38:59.550 when you close your laptop at 8.30 00:38:59.550 --> 00:39:00.730 and then you lie there and you're running 00:39:00.730 --> 00:39:02.390 through your two list anyways, 00:39:03.310 --> 00:39:04.590 and then you draw the line, 00:39:04.590 --> 00:39:07.110 you draw that boundary and you step over it twice, 00:39:08.830 --> 00:39:13.010 keep it badly, keep it anyways. 00:39:13.950 --> 00:39:16.430 That's the rhythm starting. 00:39:16.430 --> 00:39:21.270 A heartbeat that skips isn't a heartbeat that failed, 00:39:21.270 --> 00:39:23.070 it's a heart that's still going. 00:39:25.230 --> 00:39:29.130 A heartbeat is not a skill, it's just that rhythm, right? 00:39:30.470 --> 00:39:32.230 So here's what I wanna leave you with 00:39:32.230 --> 00:39:35.750 for a few of the voices that we've talked about this morning. 00:39:35.750 --> 00:39:39.590 You don't achieve rest, you return to its rhythm. 00:39:41.110 --> 00:39:45.350 You don't earn rest, you are freed for it. 00:39:45.350 --> 00:39:48.990 And you don't perform for rest. 00:39:48.990 --> 00:39:50.790 You were beloved before it. 00:39:52.830 --> 00:39:55.310 Sabbath isn't limited to a day of the week. 00:39:55.310 --> 00:39:58.210 We live in an established Sabbath. 00:39:59.550 --> 00:40:02.550 So let it invade the routine 00:40:02.550 --> 00:40:04.750 that you're going back to tomorrow or Tuesday. 00:40:05.950 --> 00:40:08.390 Not just the vacation that you're saving up for. 00:40:10.190 --> 00:40:12.270 Let it interrupt your schedule 00:40:12.270 --> 00:40:14.010 and give you reason to pause. 00:40:14.870 --> 00:40:17.430 Even if it is just one boundary. 00:40:18.830 --> 00:40:22.730 Go rest well, not so that you'll be more useful after, 00:40:23.670 --> 00:40:26.470 not so that you'll finally feel like the version of yourself 00:40:26.470 --> 00:40:27.830 you keep meaning to be. 00:40:29.150 --> 00:40:32.430 Just rest because you were made in the image of a creator 00:40:32.430 --> 00:40:34.030 who rested first. 00:40:35.750 --> 00:40:39.510 And the rest was a place that was made for you 00:40:39.510 --> 00:40:41.670 before you did anything to deserve it. 00:40:42.790 --> 00:40:45.350 You don't have to be good at rest. 00:40:46.710 --> 00:40:48.150 You just have to be held. 00:40:50.150 --> 00:40:54.350 Arsenal family, I love you guys so much. 00:40:54.350 --> 00:40:59.430 Go love well and love yourself well this week, okay? 00:40:59.430 --> 00:41:04.190 Set one boundary and it's okay if you don't do it well. 00:41:06.590 --> 00:41:08.990 Go love well, it's who you're made to be. 00:41:08.990 --> 00:41:10.110 Love you Arsenal. 00:41:10.110 --> 00:41:11.100 (audience applauding)