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Okay.

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Welcome everybody.

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I've been

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I've been gone for a couple of weeks

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then

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it's gonna be back

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with you all.

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I was

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I was on retreat

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in monastery in British Columbia.

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I've been up there a number of times

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over the years for

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retreat.

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And so it's quite familiar and

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very easy to just kind of get into

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the routine and,

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you know, remember what to do and when

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to do it, and

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it's very quiet. There's no,

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no neighbors.

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No nothing.

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Done. Son, who's the avid up there. He

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calls it a gently. He calls it a

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a low sensory environment.

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And I would say so.

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Not a lot of distractions,

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Nothing to do, Really, Nowhere to go.

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And it's on, you know, some amount of

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acreage, and there's a

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sort of a

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a marsh,

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you know, not too far from the

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from the building and so there's a little

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bit of exploring that 1 can do some

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trails.

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There was a bear sighting

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this time. Yeah, By the cars. Somebody probably

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left or granola la bar or something, you

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know, and their

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glove box and the pair showed up for

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it, but I never saw a pair.

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And then I found out on the way

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home that

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1 of the monks also

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spotted a moose.

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A moose.

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Jealous.

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I sort scared to moose.

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That's okay.

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And I was funny

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describing you're telling a friend about that yesterday

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and I so, I can't believe there were

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moose there move.

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And she goes, isn't Canada, like, where moose

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are.

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Oh, yeah.

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They're kinda known for moose. Right?

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They're on, like flags and pictures and maps,

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and yeah. Maple leaves on moose.

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But, you know,

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a lot of people,

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medi and friends and family and

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have very sweet and politely asked me. How

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is your retreat? Yeah.

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And that such a funny question. Like, a

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rates right up there with how are you?

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Like, wow, I'm mixed. Yeah

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because that's the human experience.

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How are you a

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and I'm trying to

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I've been trying to train myself to stop,

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asking that question,

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but it purse persists. It's a cultural zeitgeist.

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How are you?

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It's our way of saying I love you,

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you know? Or I want to talk to

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you or

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we're in community.

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That's how are you? You know, it's kind

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of a

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any answer is fine.

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Like, a

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the other day, somebody said to have a

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great.

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What was it?

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Oh, great.

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It wasn't a great birthday, but it was

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something specific to me. And I was like,

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you too.

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Made no sense. You know, but I was

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just

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me being in community that's is what we

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do Those are words that we use.

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But, you know, I had to sort of

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think about this. Like, how was my retreat?

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From the from the... So I'll just reflect

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on it a little bit.

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Right. You know, from the outside, it doesn't

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look like much. But you know what, It's

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like, well, I walked a little bit back

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and forth here,

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my sat over there.

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And then I didn't want sit over there,

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so I sat over there.

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And then I went back to the front,

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like,

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Yeah. It's just kind of like this fun.

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Like, from the outside, it just really looks

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like, not much at all.

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I want, you know, after 3 days, I

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left the building.

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I'm sort of... I'm very easily distracted,

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you know, and even in a low sensory

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environment, no distractions, no neighbors, no noises.

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Kind of place I stopped to stay inside.

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I have to, like, I'm grounded.

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The first several days of any retreat.

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I just take off my shoes, and that's

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it.

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I stay home.

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And so after a few days, I

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I felt confident to walk to the marsh,

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which is like, 2 minutes, you know, from

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the front door

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I was like,

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Oh, why haven't I been hearing?

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This is gorgeous.

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And then I was like, oh, that's why.

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Look at stop in all these creatures that

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looks like a swimming spider beetle. And now

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I'm scared, but also enchanted, and I'm gonna

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go back and I'm gonna look at the

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Pacific Northwest book, and I'm gonna figure that

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1 out and

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No. It doesn't take much

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to get, like, way off track.

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Of, you know, you're like me.

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So nothing,

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you know, nothing sort of un

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or unto happened when I went to the

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Marsh, but

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you know, even like, bringing back some of

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that sensory,

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kind of information, especially,

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fun stuff, or beautiful things or gorgeous sounds,

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you know,

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taste me right off. You know right into,

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like

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what I like, what I don't like?

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I was sort of joking that I had

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all these

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Disney Princess moments, You know, there...

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Because,

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you know, like these mar

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These mar

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are on the land and they really love

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the people. So then, you know, there's grass

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from here to eternity, but they're eating like

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the little new grass.

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in the courtyard,

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but they're really adorable yellow bell garments. Like,

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they just they'll watch and you can watch

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them. So we would have these, like,

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And we just lost each other and then

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a chip monk would run pass, and the

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bird would fly over and then robin would

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pop up, and I would just feel like

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Know. I'm a safe princess in the woods

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like they all love me.

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You know

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and then I go back inside. Care.

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I'm just kinda like these funny moments of

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moving between, like, this real delight, you know,

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and kind of

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this hard work,

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this hard work of settling

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the mind,

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settling the body.

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And taking care of the heart

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and being in silence.

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But I know

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You know, I know myself. I've been doing

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this song enough to know that I'm. You

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know, I'm easily distracted.

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Sure.

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But I also am

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settled

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with some joy. You know, I have to

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bring up joy. Joy is

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It's an enlightenment factor.

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No. We have to step through joy.

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To get

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to the end of suffering. We have to

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walk through it.

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And so finding ways to bring up joy

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in a really whole sum

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way

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is part of that kind of low sensory

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kind of retreat experience for me. Like,

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It can't just be a flop.

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Get up sit down. Get up sit down.

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Get up sit down. That's a misery.

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I know the power of Wholesome joy,

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and the Buddha talked about it. You know,

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it's part of the path.

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So, you know,

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making sure that there's is wholesome joy

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infused and every day,

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every

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more than every day.

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Just kind of soaking it in.

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And I've never done a retreat, like a

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meditation retreat that wasn't.

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I'm an acid retreat. So I've only been

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on retreats with monks.

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Monks.

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you know, it's very quiet. There's... It's total

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silence, except multi t time. There's questions and

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some conversation sometimes.

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And there's no dinner, you know, you're done

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eating it, noon

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noon 15.

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Alright? So the rest of the

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evening is really about

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just practice.

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You know, you don't... You're done. Like,

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You eat. It's the highlight of the day.

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And then you're done. And then you're fat,

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you know, then you're like, you know, you've

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got this open kind of

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period to

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sort of sit and log and reflect and

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read a bed if you like,

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acting, you know, move your body,

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it is it's very, as a very strong

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container for practice.

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Get up early, do P, you know, kind

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of a sit together in the mornings sit

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together at night, and then these 2 periods

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of really open practice time,

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lunch delicious lunch.

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And then everybody gets a job. You know,

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you have some kind of chore. Like, if

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you ever been on retreat, you know, Like,

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so ever to gets the chore and

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my chore. They call a yogi job, but

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it's a chore. You it's something you would

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do at home and like.

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That's go that's gonna be

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the definition of a yogi job. Like, something

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you would do at just at home and

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dislike,

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but on retreat, it sort of

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becomes your world in a way, you know,

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like, I had to. They had this new

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chin downstairs, and

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and my job was to load the dishwasher

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twice a day,

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unload at once.

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And kind of sweep and wipe things down

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and stuff I was this sort of this

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kitchen

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steward

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dishes person.

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And at first, I was like, well, that's

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too much.

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I to do dishes.

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Twice a day?

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I know.

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What?

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Why?

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But, you know, within a few days,

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Oh, man.

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Come in my kitchen and fill the wrath.

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this my domain.

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This is I'm doing this

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a dear sweet,

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fellow retreat and tried to

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sweep my floor. Like

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on the first day,

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like out

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This is a 5 minutes

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of my day that I'm not sitting or

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walking or, you know,

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be gone, you know? So that was the

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end of that. I took care of that

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right away. Yeah.

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But my dad... You know, I told my

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parents a years ago, I went on a

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retreat. Down in California with a

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and

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and I told my parents a story about

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how somebody

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sort of had this job and somebody sort

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of took it right away. They just started

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doing it because it seemed like it was

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part of their job It made sense, but

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you're not allowed to talk.

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So then this was like,

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oh, you can really do this link.

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Cringe and blink, you know, and like

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deal with it internally. And if you're really,

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really, really upset you can leave a note

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for the, you know, like, the person the

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what the steward. Right? But that's

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not classy.

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You can.

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Such and somebody took my job.

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That's not classy. You know? Plus you have

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1 less job.

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But, you know, in this low sensory environment,

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it's

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interesting

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to see.

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What we cling to?

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What we cling to?

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You know, how can I fill up the

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time? How can I

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you know,

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enjoy this or how can I

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get get what I want or at least

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cube what I have, you know,

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And, you know, at this point after this

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many retreats this many years, it's very low?

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There's not a lot of suffering for me

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and and, you know, this...

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Because I'm

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thrilled. You know, I'm thrilled to be there

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and

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at the end, 1 of the monks that

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I. I noticed you spent a lot of

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time in the solo. That was great good.

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You know, it so it's lovely to see

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people putting in in in the effort, and

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I,

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you know, my my response was

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yeah. Well, this is a gift from everybody

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in my life.

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Like, I have kids at home.

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I have

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this all this, I don't wanna be away

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from and, you know, it's money and it's

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time and

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you know, seeing these these opportunities as a

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precious gift

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from everyone in your life, you know that,

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It does light that fire of

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I wanna practice.

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You know. I wanna sit. I wanna walk.

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I wanna work.

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Wanna do dishes.

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Yeah.

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I don't have a dishwasher at home, so

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it's actually kinda fun.

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They got a dishwasher nap. So out that

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exciting stuff.

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And

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I'm just feeling really grateful

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for this

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time

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to do

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what looks like nothing

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to other people.

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But in here it's really something. There's really

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something going on.

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And

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you know, toward the end.

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Or at the end when we were allowed

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to talk again, which is just a

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hysterical. Like, the first

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day we were allowed to talk a bunch

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of us relate to Putin. Okay. It's just

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that fast to, like, mindfulness is like offering

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out the window way. You know.

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But I did ask, you know, 1 of

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my fellow treatments had it how did it

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go when they said

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Oh, I felt like I was

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this is 1 of those retreats Said I

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felt like I was watering the tree.

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It's kind of this like,

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oh, I couldn't see the results

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during the retreat. I felt like I was

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watering the tree.

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And

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I thought, you know, I can really relate

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to that. I felt like I was watering

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the tree a lot

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last week or when I at a couple

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weeks ago.

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I was excited. I was, you know, I'd

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walk past the saw and I'd really be

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drawn toward it, and I'd sit down, and

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then I felt like I was watering the

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tree.

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But when I got home,

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I realized the tree had really been watered.

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I could see... I couldn't see the difference

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in the low sensory environment, you know,

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in my mind in my reaction time in

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my this space around my heart. I couldn't

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see it. There.

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Because there's tons of time and

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space and, you know,

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support

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But when I got home,

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in his family and work and

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kids and busy and noise,

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I really felt like a watered

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tree.

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I was I was felt very calm,

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very gentle.

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Very open to

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being with things the way that they were.

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And

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so it was kind of a sweet like,

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delayed

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gratification. You know.

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Oh, yeah.

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I'm well watered,

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and I watered myself.

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So

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you know, those are just some some thoughts

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on,

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taking time and the buddha said,

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you know, seeks sol,

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seeks seclusion.

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Actually,

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delight in it.

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Delight

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in

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secluded.

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So I I think that I

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I tried to do that over that week.

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Just delighted in seclusion.

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And let a lot of things fall away

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and watered the tree, and

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you, now I can

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Now I can feel the benefits of that.

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Alright. So just some thoughts for this morning.

447
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Thank you.

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School Would you like to

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add in anything or say a few words?

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Very nice Dom. Thank you very much.

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The only thing that came to mind for

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me was

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I'd like to introduce you all to the

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incoming spiritual director Princess.

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Yes, he could. Swanson.

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Sketch you a little crown.

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Hey, Gotta be careful for you say around

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him.

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Reminds me of

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I was listening to talk this morning by

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Adam Su add when he was set.

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Ama for, you know, the

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aj

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tomatoes nineties birthday in Bay socket.

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And, hey, you know, a hundred and 40

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hundred 40 monastic

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have gathered in England this last month.

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For,

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Aj Tomato. He's a most senior western monk

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in our lineage

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for his birthday and

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for

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Just a huge amount of people, You know,

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in a number of them. And tomatoes has

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been in reps for 58 years.

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And a good number of them had...

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Were in ropes much longer than that. Actually,

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and they were actually there at Aj Cha,

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monastery,

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when Aj Sam tomato went to or ordained,

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and they had a number of these tie

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monks. There

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had come to celebrate

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in England and,

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like, I listened to pos on and he

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said,

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He said, yeah. I've been in rope 50

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year. He just celebrated our commemorate at 50

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years. I've been rob's 50 years, and I

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was like, eleventh in line

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because they sit.

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According to, you know, according to how long

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they've been in ropes. This is kind of

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a

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a chronological line

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and then Aj

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Was saying,

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he was like, yeah, It showed up, and

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then, you know, I keep... Every time somebody

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else comes, I get further and further and

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further down the line he goes, pretty soon

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I'm gonna be doing dishes.

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And he goes, that's okay.

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And then what he said next was because

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when you wanna

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be somebody,

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be nobody and when he wanna be nobody

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be somebody.

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And that was a really sweet

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piss kind of

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takeaway from. Was like, I wish I listened

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to this 2 weeks ago. Anyway, when you

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wanna be somebody be nobody when you wanna

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be nobody be somebody.

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So

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I was a Disney princess, but now I'm

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back to nobody.