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Before the, Ayahuasca
before the mad
Jake P podcast.
Still releasing.
There have actually been people downloading,
which is really cool.
People have been listening.
85
percent
of you listen to 75
percent
or more
of my episodes.
That's cool.
There were 54 downloads
last Wednesday. That's cool. It's like, 50 people.
So
who knows?
Who knows who is receiving these transmissions,
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18940
downloads.
All time of the magic podcast.
Not bad.
Not 18000 per episode, not a million per
episode. 18000 total, it's probably averages 50 per
episode.
It's 50 people
who otherwise would not listen to my rambling.
Hopefully you take something from it.
Hopefully, you take the
the human,
the human side,
the
we're all human. I'm human.
You're human. We have to let each other
be fucking human.
We are not perfect.
I am not perfect.
I am 1 of the craziest motherfuckers you
ever met.
I assure you.
And sometimes I just... Sometimes the anxiety
gets
so
strong in me that I just
I just wanted I just wanted it over.
I just wanted to be over.
I should not have written that fucking book.
It fucks with me. I don't know. I
like, don't know you've I don't know what
I was thinking.
Writing a book.
Like,
it just opens you up for all this
shit. All I did was
tell a story. I just wrote down a
bunch of stories
in
essentially, in in in service of telling a
bigger story.
And
you know, when people don't like your shit,
as I've said before, they don't say anything.
Someone
this old friend of mine who's a
complete
psychotic
alcoholic who Ahead and talked to in a
few years
kinda... We got back in touch, and I
thought maybe this person was
sober this time and then we're texting 1
day, and all of the sudden,
the tone of the texts changed.
All of a sudden, everything was a little
weird.
And next thing I know. I'm I'm being
told that my book was shitty or sub
par at best. And so
wouldn't surprise me if someone told her that
or someone thought that, that's fine if you
think that.
But I've had enough people
not think that.
So if you have...
It it's no si dream in which everyone
just agrees. Yeah. That album is fucking awesome
from start to finish. It's more like
some people think it's awesome and some people
think the writing is amateur
or
some people just aren't entertained by it. Barely
anybody finish or completes or finishes a book
anymore.
Anyway, But my point is it's just a
mind fuck. It's a mind fuck dealing with.
I could not be imagine being
an artist
and re, you know, that records an album
that sells
10000000 copies. And then
records another 1, and everybody thinks it sucks,
and that's all you hear is how bad
this album sucks.
Like, I I couldn't imagine how defeating
that would be
to an artist.
You know?
And all artists are... It's it's
it's a narcissistic
pursuit. Any sort of art that you create
has some degree of na
as
fundamental within it because it's
it's so you.
It's so you.
It's all you. It's like, you had to
you had to dig into the deepest depths
of your soul
to create this thing. And so you're gonna
come out of it a little bit self
absorbed. You're gonna have a weird
relationship to it. You know? So for me
it was like my baby,
and then people
think your baby sucks,
you know, and it's like,
what you're gonna do.
It's not for everybody. You are not for
everybody. You are for your people. But
but again, sometimes the anxiety around the whole
thing
attacks me. And it's it's like it's like
being...
It's like the devil is capturing me or
something. It's fucking crazy. So
don't make art.
Stop making art. It would be...
It it just got me present to, like,
There's this guy I know,
2 guys, I know. 1, they're both painters,
and 1 of them had a this is
a long time ago, 1 of them had
an art show.
At his house.
And
he was just... Like... There were
pieces of art from both of these people
who I knew
for sale.
And 1 of the guys
sold like,
I don't know, 15000 dollars worth of art,
and the other guy didn't sell any.
How do you think the other guy feels
or felt.
It's like, I poured my entire heart and
soul into this thing? And then I
went so far is to be part of
an art show,
and people showed up and nobody bought my
art, but everybody bought the other guy's art.
Like that's the most. That's like
that's like suicide shit.
At least some people liked my book.
So I don't have to go there.
I don't have to go to... I don't
have to go. I go to the suicide.
I go to the suicide route for other
reasons.
Like anxiety
regarding
or
anxiety related to
some of the other responses.
I got a cup... I got an ear
full from somebody that I grew up with,
and there's this other person that won't
talk to me. Hasn't even read it. Won't
talk to me ever again and,
you know, it's just like, fuck. What are
you gonna do. And I was I was
responsible,
I I spoke with people ahead of time.
I told people.
You know, all names were changed except for
1, and I got permission from the widow
of that person whose
name was
not changed.
Explicit permission multiple times. I got explicit permission
from a few people.
So what you're gonna do,
you know? And
I guess art... I've I read a quote
that said art should
disturb the comfortable
and comfort the disturbed.
And I think my book did that. Can
you hear the na? Can you hear the
na and all this? I think it did.
I think it
I think it fucked some comfortable people up
and that's just
the way it is. That's that means the
art done art, the art done done the
art job.
And I was getting supported around it not
long after it came out, and, colleague of
mine said to me. I... Shared all this
before. So just skip this episode if you
want.
He said if if the art was bad,
you'd be hearing crickets, and then I was
like,
yeah.
You're right.
So the art done art.
Fucking art.
I've heard it said, I believe Osha said
that creativity is the most
profound form of rebellion or effective form of
rebellion or
It's the best way to rebel is by
being creative.
And in this day and age,
it's all we got.
I mean, we're all under some...
Someone posted on Facebook the other day that
does it seem like most of the population
is just under some sort of tran.
It's like, yes.
It seems like
Pete, there's just...
There is a shit show going on.
There is
there is such a shit show going on.
Like,
foreign powers
are watching
the shit show. The president is Mia.
Last I checked. Nobody knows where he is.
The president resigned
or... No. There was there was a coup
of some sort. Like, they they ousted Biden,
like Biden released this weird letter on Twitter
that said he's not gonna run. He didn't
resign. He said he's not gonna run for
reelection. The last person that did that was
L j in the midst of the Vietnam
war. He then went on to drink himself
to death in his Texas ranch,
according to my
history of war professor
American warfare professor back in college. His name
was professor Gui who he was drunk all
the time.
And he brought history alive. This dude was
awesome But that's what happened to L j.
The Vietnam war just it just wore away
at him.
And Biden just insane.
You know, he's got dementia or Parkinson's and
they were...
I mean, please. Can we just admit that
the the
whoever it was. It's like Fox News and
and those news sources are like, he's insane.
He's lost his mind. He's got dementia. And
then the Msn, you know, at the Msnbc
nbc's and the Cnn of the world, are
they're like, he's great. This is the best
Biden. He's doing wonderful.
He's great.
Fuck fox news. Fuck those conservative republican pieces
of shit.
And now
the
the Democrats
and the
Ms msn and the Cnn
are
like,
admitting he's insane, insisting he should resign and
then
seemingly c him out and then replacing him
with Kamala
without an election of any sort? Isn't there
supposed to be an election?
Right?
So anyway, this is all just completely fucking
insane.
Most people,
there are a lot of people who are
completely entrance by this thing. They're just captured,
but I think more and more people are
just like this is fucked up.
Something ain't right.
Something is not right people.
This does not
help with the anxiety
I experience.
About the book and everything else. It just
contributes to it. So I am just trying
to stay the fuck
off
Youtube
and
Facebook,
unsuccessfully,
unsuccessfully trying.
And and
I'm trying to learn Blue grass. I'm actually
succeeding in learning blue grass.
Blue grass flat picking is
so
freaking fascinating and fun to learn. It's really
challenging, but it's also very accessible.
But I'm...
I've been spending minimum 2 hours a day,
just learning these
flat picking songs.
I've got 1 of them down. It's called
Salt Creek, and I'm working on that on
this other 1 called Cherokee Shuffle, which is
such a fucking cool song. Look it up.
A cherokee shuffle.
And that's my act of rebellion.
What is yours?
What is your act of rebellion?
Are you h amortized as well? If you're
listening to the magic p podcast, you're probably
not entirely h ties.
Some of you might be clinging to something,
as am I,
And I've been very wrong on this podcast
as I've said before. It's
it's it's hard to... It's not really hard
to admit when you're wrong. It's hard
knowing
that
you got caught up in some sort of
tran, you got h
by something,
and then said things from that state of
being advertised
that alienate
people from you.
It's all from it's all from propaganda.
Like, think about
prop the propaganda that the Nazis were able
to pull off with, like, pamphlets. They would
just like drop pamphlets.
Pamphlets about Jews. You know, you had to
like,
like, I don't know what you had to
go through to get a copy of mine
comp.
But that was like the propaganda to mine
comp, and I'm just imagining paper pamphlets.
Paper pamphlets being handed handed out by Nazi
sympathize.
Think of what how powerful that propaganda was.
Right? Think of what that sort of
paper hand out propaganda
was able to accomplish 6000000 people.
And so so imagine then what
technology
mixed with propaganda
is capable of.
Like, who knows
what they are sitting around
figuring out
regarding
broadcasts
impacts or how broadcast
affect
the human mind or our psychology.
Just imagine the
sinister
store sort of
things that are more than likely happening
behind the scenes at some of these media
outlets
I can't believe I'm saying this shit, but
it occurs as if Fox is more truthful
than the other ones.
At least they own that, like,
they don't like certain things. At least they
own that, like, they don't agree with the
homosexual lifestyle or whatever. At least they don't
hide their bigotry. But I have noticed that
even a lot of the conservatives are now.
You hear I'm saying,
I don't care if you're gay. Just keep
the pride stuff away from the kids. I
don't care if you're gay.
Just keep people with penis out of my,
out of women's restrooms or locker rooms. I
don't care if you're gay, just
please don't have a 6 foot 4
woman with a penis, kicking the shit out
of all of the other little college girls
at swimming.
So I've kinda noticed that. There's almost like
this weird sort of tolerance kind of baked
into it.
But
it seems as if
again, like,
there is...
It's like less deception on be heart of
on behalf of the
the conservatives.
Charlie Kirk being 1 like Charlie Kirk,
doesn't seem like a bad guy to me.
Tucker Carlson doesn't seem like a bad guy
to me.
Who else?
The, like, Meghan Kelly doesn't seem like a
terrible person to me. A lot of these
conservatives are just saying, Don't you see how
fucking ridiculous all this shit is?
Can't you see?
Can't you see that a 6 foot 480...
Hundred 85 pound person with a penis
kicked the shit
out of this other
girl in swimming or these other girls that
swimming me? Like, is it... Are we really
that bigoted?
Can't you see? And
1 day, I was just like, yeah, I
could totally see. That... I get what you're
saying that makes sense. I get what I
get
what you're saying that makes sense.
And then, you know, the the woke stuff
is just, like,
diversity or die, diversity or die, diversity your
die.
So weird.
So weird. You know? And I don't like
that I was referring to, like,
woke people is goddamn woke ins years ago.
I'm not proud of that. And Was just
a tran. I was under.
What can you do? But forgive yourself a
move on? It occurs as if
my...
I'm just I'm just programmed to be tormented.
The torment will never end
the torment will never end. Maybe I should
go to another Ayahuasca ceremony. It's been like,
12 or 13 years,
14. I think it's been 14 years Maybe
that is exactly what the doctor ordered. I
I was drinking I ayahuasca away before it
was cool.
I was... First time I did Ayahuasca was
in the south side of Chicago in this
in, like,
not a very nice neighborhood with 3 people.
Me and 2 other people and the shaman
and
the facilitator.
And
that was before I ayahuasca blew up. So
that's how cool I am.
To you hear how the hips burnt his
lip? He drank his coffee before it was
cool
anyway,
that's a whole other thing. The Ayahuasca world.
Like,
there is some ko energy floating around in
those spaces, and there's also some magical
transformational, beautiful,
divine
connected ancient
transformational
energy
in that world
as well. So
take it for what it's worth? Does that
even make sense? Is that even relevant to
say? I don't know. I'm gonna go back
to learning Cherokee shuffle?
And thanks for listening. I appreciate every 1
of you.
Have a beautiful night. Bye bye.