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You're listening to the Living BDSM podcast episode

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four thirty three. Kayla Lords here with the

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one, the only, the your shirt makes you

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look like you might be a little

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sad, but it's really a funny pun. It's

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a sad manatee. It is.

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Like, I wanna cry for this manatee. I

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wanna cry for all the manatees. I'm a

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Florida girl. I know,

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how they what happens with them. Yeah. And

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it is it is heartbreaking. It is. John

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Brownstone, by the way. There's

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That one

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Sideways? Yeah. Real quick. Mhmm. Mhmm.

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Mhmm. I I got nothing.

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I was thinking,

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y'all will hear, in the Monday episode next

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Monday's episode, how I couldn't find anything snarky

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to say. And I'm realizing I'm not finding

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a lot snarky to say one.

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You know, I'm I'm very content

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with us. And two, I just I don't

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know. Like, creatively, the snark is just not

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there right now. The sarcasm just isn't there.

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I'm feeling way too, like, genuine or some

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shit. I know. What? I know.

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You I know it happens.

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What the fuck? I know. That's not what

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we're here to talk about, though.

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This week, we're talking about 20 nope. What

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are words? Twenty four seven power exchange and

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total power exchange. What they are and whether

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they're the same thing. Spoiler, not quite.

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Welcome to the Loving BDSM podcast. If this

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is your first time listening, glad to have

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you. If you're back for another week, welcome

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Lola also welcomes you back. Loving BDSM is

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produced every Monday and Friday for your kinky

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pleasure in education. Show notes are found at

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podcast every Wednesday. All links are in the

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show notes. Okay. Before Okay. It looks like

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everything's working. I don't trust it. That's far.

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Before we get into Okay.

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There. Knock the wood. This week's episode who's

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being chaotic now?

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Who? Who's being chaotic now? Excuse me.

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I would like to do some announcements. There

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are a couple of them. One, I'm happy

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to say after I kinda weirdly teased it

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in ways that not everybody would have picked

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up on anyway because I don't know how

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to do that.

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The twenty twenty five

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dom sub virtual summit

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is coming back March 31 through April 3.

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Attendance is free. You can register for free.

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A free ticket gives you access to each

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day's,

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sessions for twenty four hours. So you don't

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have to be there live. You just gotta

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go watch them within the twenty four hours.

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There will be, for anybody who has a

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budget for it, a paid option that gives

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you other stuff.

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if you you don't have it, but you

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want some good BDSM education

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Mhmm. You can attend for free.

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We have a session that

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is so right up our alley, and

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after the summit will be the reason we

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do a series on this,

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how to make your dynamic

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work in the real world, which is kind

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of our fucking jam. It's kind

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of like what we do here.

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but there are also plenty of other,

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really good educators and sessions. Princess Rara, who

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is watching live right now, has a session

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on kink comparison, which, like, I just saw

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the title. It's not a session I can

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go see yet, and I immediately had thoughts

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and ideas for some of our future content.

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So thank you for for that. Rara.

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Evie,

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a session. Sonya Megatron has a session. Luna

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Motatus has a a session. There are sessions

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on bondage. There's there's at least one, maybe

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two people who are kink therapists who have

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some things. Like, it's

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it's good y'all.

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The link to go check it out, see

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what's

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what, register if you're interested, is in the

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places. Let me just say again ticket is

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free. For free for free. This is one

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of those situations where what we were tasked

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you might have experienced where you sit through

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an hour of somebody, like, giving you very

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basic information and then they end it with,

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but if you buy you no no

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giving you very basic information and then they

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end it with, but if you buy you

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no. No. No. Like, these are actionable tips.

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a session where anybody who watched it walked

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away with, oh, I can try this. I

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can think about that. This is a way

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to do this. So it's actual legit

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value,

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and you don't have to pay for it

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if you ain't got the budget for it.

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So that's, March 31 through April 3. If

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you happen to be on our email list,

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you'll hear about it again. Just sayin'. We'll

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talk about it again next week cause I

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want as many people who want to attend

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Second announcement, less exciting but it's a thing.

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This Friday, don't ask me what the date

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We are doing our Friday night, livestream.

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It starts at 09:30PM

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It's chaotic. We hang out. It's

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it's got a bonus section vibe, but more

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kinky questions for folks who are watching live

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episode goes live for you, 09:30PM

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till eleven. We used to not really have

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We have notes? We have notes.

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So the reason we're doing this episode is

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because we had more than one question in

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not to be confused with our Monday q

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you will often see it. Every time I

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see TPE, I have to go, wait. Wait.

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That's right. Total Power Exchange. Total Power Exchange.

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I have to go, wait. What? And then

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it goes, oh, I go, oh, yeah. Ethical

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nonmonogamy.

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I just don't walk around with a lot

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of acronyms in my head, you know?

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I think about them. Okay.

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I tend to think in I tend to

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think in full words. I don't usually think

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it's been a hot ass minute, and it

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certainly was never to talk about total power

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exchange because I think even I had

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misconceptions

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about what that specific term could be and

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could mean. And in the middle of answering

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that question from folks during that episode, I

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I'm I can't take the time I want

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So here we are.

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So the one thing I did

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had some kind of work and knowledge and

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I thought what I thought

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was the thing was probably the thing is

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I made sure to look up Total Power

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Exchange. Because if you ask me what twenty

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four seven is, I got that. We live

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it. We live our version of it. Total

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Power Exchange was like, am I misunderstanding?

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I came across some sources that made me

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roll my eyes. I did not include those.

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I came across a couple of sites where

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I was like, even if this is not

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exactly specifically how I would define it, this

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is good info. I have linked it in

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the places for anybody who wants more perspectives

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on specifically

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the way

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it is commonly I'm gonna air quote that

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cause commonly is based on what I personally

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have seen. That does not mean other people

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don't talk about it other ways in other

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tends to be defined as the power exchanges

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where the dominants have all of the control.

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of the control,

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almost at a micromanagement

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level, where a submissive does not

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sit, stand, leave the room

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without

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the permission of the dominant. And I think

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that's way too narrow of a definition.

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And as with many terms and labels, that's

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really the inherent problem

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air quote commonly understood definition,

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even if that's not your specific definition of

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it, is way too fucking narrow. And as

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with everything, it's a spectrum of things. And

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so I just kinda wanna talk about it.

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I consider us, and we consider us, twenty

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four seven.

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I do not consider us total power exchange.

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Here's why. I do have a reason for

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Okay. Because based on how I think of

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total power exchange and only not that narrow

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definition I just gave,

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it's because we have one area of our

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life where power exchange Doesn't mean that. Has

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no say. And it's and for me Mhmm.

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say we're total power exchange, but not in

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the way most people think. And see, to

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me,

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kind of looking at it to me,

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when talk about something like, total power exchange,

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to me, now you're talking, like, things like

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high protocol and,

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you know Oh, there's lots of rules that

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you have to follow and there's Yes. And

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again, I think that's another

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part of the spectrum of what it can

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be to be total power exchange. Because

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there are absolutely people out here in relationships

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where they're in well, if we understood what

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all their nuance is, that's total power exchange,

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But they might not have And they have

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a lot of rules because I think that

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in some of those This is subjective, but

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a air quote strict power exchange. If it's

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gonna be total, there probably has to be

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a lot of

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rules. Here's why I would classify us

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if we if everything came through our power

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exchange as total power exchange because here's the

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thing. It's the same reason I classify us

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as twenty four seven.

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You are always the decider.

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Outside of parenting, there's not a decision that

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gets made in this house that you have

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not either had your hand in, pre approved

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whatever I might do, or directly said

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yes or no.

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Let's be real. I don't usually go asking

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questions where I think the answer might be

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no. I know better.

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But you know what I mean? Yeah. And

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do I think that's a very loose

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perspective of total power exchange? Yes. Do I

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think that that is a definition

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that a lot would not fit a lot

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of people's

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feelings about or understand or vibe? Abso fucking

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lutely. But that goes back to what we've

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said many times anytime we have to talk

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about a label or a term, which is

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words do have meanings. Yes. And we should

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understand those general meanings. But within kink, you

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can make the term, if it suits you,

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fit you. You don't twist yourself in the

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knots to fit the term.

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So my understanding of total is that there's

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no part other than parenting. There's no part

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of our life that you don't have say

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in. You don't have, if you want it,

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total control.

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Now twenty four seven,

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I classify us as twenty four seven for

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that way as well. Okay. But the way

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I have seen it defined by others makes

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sense. And, again, I think you can

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use this term the way that suits you

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best. But,

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typically, the way I see twenty four seven

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defined is that for people in twenty four

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seven, which is this true for us as

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well,

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there's no point where we just, like, take

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off our I don't take my sub hat

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off and and I'm not submissive. Right?

339
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It goes back to, I think, the whole

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argument of they're not argument, but the

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oh, I can't think of the word. But

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basically that for some people, kink is an

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activity.

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And for some people, especially specifically power exchange,

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it is their identity.

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So we don't have to be doing a

347
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kink thing. We don't have to be actively

348
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in our power exchange.

349
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We are still

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in a power exchange relationship

351
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Mhmm. All the time.

352
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Right? Yes. So

353
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that's how I think of twenty four seven.

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And I think a lot of people think

355
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of twenty four seven that way. But

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when I was looking through talking about total

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power exchange,

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the ways of few people who I did

359
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not link to because I just didn't like

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that overall vibe. I was like, no.

361
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They were like, oh, Total Power Exchange,

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is when you're twenty four seven. So they

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conflated

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Total Power Exchange and twenty four seven as

365
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being identical.

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Do I think

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that if you're in total power exchange, you

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are twenty four seven? Yeah. Because how can

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you not be? Mhmm. But I think you

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can be

371
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twenty four seven like we define it, and

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I can't call us total power exchange because

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we you don't have total control because of

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the one thing where I you know, we're

375
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equals. But I I absolutely

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agree that there there is an overlap.

377
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Absolutely. Absolutely. I still can't decide who's the

378
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umbrella. Is twenty four seven the umbrella and

379
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total power exchange comes under? Is total power

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exchange the umbrella? And like, I still Everything

381
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falls under that. Because

382
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I you know, I think most people if

383
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depending on how they feel about the terms

384
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and how they define them for themselves, there

385
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are plenty of people who thinking about it

386
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that granularly. Right? Might go, oh yeah, well

387
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we are total power exchange because there's no

388
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part of our life our power exchange doesn't

389
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touch, and there are gonna be other people

390
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out there who can relate to there's no

391
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part of our life the dominant partner does

392
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not have some say over.

393
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That to me

394
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is total power exchange.

395
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Yes,

396
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you can

397
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swing the whole other way on the

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graph,

399
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and it can be a dominant who makes

400
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every decision

401
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for their submissive.

402
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And I think even with that, there's there's

403
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fluidity because I can see it being that

404
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a dominant make has made a lot of

405
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decisions, and those are rules that submissive follows.

406
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And then you get to the other end

407
00:14:42,830 --> 00:14:45,149
of that, and it's that micromanagement where that

408
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specific does not move unless their dom tells

409
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them to. And that is something that we

410
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have witnessed in two cases.

411
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I think it is the exception not the

412
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rule. I

413
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I personally if somebody asked my opinion and

414
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y'all didn't, but I give it for free.

415
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It's not something I would recommend anybody strive

416
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for unless, man, you just feel a fucking

417
00:15:06,184 --> 00:15:08,365
calling for it. Like, it's gotta be like

418
00:15:08,690 --> 00:15:10,549
beating a drum in your chest.

419
00:15:10,929 --> 00:15:13,889
You gotta do it. The Jumanji drums are

420
00:15:13,889 --> 00:15:16,070
like in your head, I've gotta do this.

421
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Right.

422
00:15:17,169 --> 00:15:18,470
Because I just

423
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that level

424
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sort of requires a person,

425
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the submissive,

426
00:15:24,684 --> 00:15:25,184
to

427
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be willing to

428
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give up everything on certain levels

429
00:15:30,764 --> 00:15:32,684
with the trust and and knowledge that they'll

430
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be taken care of, but it also

431
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does not seem to acknowledge from the little

432
00:15:37,165 --> 00:15:38,039
bit I've seen

433
00:15:38,839 --> 00:15:40,600
the reality that what happens if the dom

434
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is incapacitated?

435
00:15:42,120 --> 00:15:43,559
What if the dom can't speak? What if

436
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the dom's in in the hospital? What if

437
00:15:45,879 --> 00:15:48,199
the dom's so sick they're, like, just puking

438
00:15:48,199 --> 00:15:50,054
into a bucket next to their bed that

439
00:15:50,134 --> 00:15:52,455
There's no giving, like what are the the

440
00:15:52,455 --> 00:15:53,434
fail safes? Yeah.

441
00:15:53,975 --> 00:15:56,054
The fail safes, I I think that is

442
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something that needs to be

443
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talked about

444
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ahead of time. I mean, if if you

445
00:16:01,335 --> 00:16:03,595
are going to to do

446
00:16:03,975 --> 00:16:06,449
a a total power of change and it

447
00:16:06,449 --> 00:16:07,669
is going to be

448
00:16:08,209 --> 00:16:11,669
that narrow And highly managed. And highly managed,

449
00:16:12,769 --> 00:16:13,829
you have to

450
00:16:15,089 --> 00:16:16,709
you have to have that

451
00:16:17,490 --> 00:16:19,089
in there just like we have a tough

452
00:16:19,089 --> 00:16:21,169
love clause. Yes. Yes. Okay. Because you can't

453
00:16:21,169 --> 00:16:23,165
be in control of everything if your control

454
00:16:23,384 --> 00:16:26,105
harms us or you. Right. So, you know,

455
00:16:26,105 --> 00:16:27,945
the the same thing goes for that. There

456
00:16:27,945 --> 00:16:29,165
there has to be

457
00:16:30,184 --> 00:16:32,105
a fail safe. Yeah. It's the only word

458
00:16:32,105 --> 00:16:34,205
I can think of. Yeah. You know, to

459
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to cover that if it happens. Mhmm.

460
00:16:37,620 --> 00:16:39,000
You know, when I think about

461
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you know, I because I've seen it. I've

462
00:16:41,779 --> 00:16:43,399
seen the a little bit of derision.

463
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Fuck fuck the person with that, who looks

464
00:16:46,019 --> 00:16:47,139
at us and was like, you can't be

465
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twenty four seven. There you don't seem to

466
00:16:48,585 --> 00:16:49,865
have a lot of rules. I seem to

467
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have a lot of leeway. Yeah. Well, it's

468
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because and this is what I would recommend

469
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for anybody who is interested in that kind

470
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of dynamic, but thinks it it's

471
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too much. It's too overwhelming. They don't wanna

472
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go to that end of

473
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the spectrum where it's micromanagement. Neither do we.

474
00:17:05,329 --> 00:17:07,490
Right? But for folks who are interested in,

475
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like, living their power change and it being

476
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incorporated into their whole life Mhmm. You know,

477
00:17:12,609 --> 00:17:15,089
it's a lot of it's ongoing negotiation, but

478
00:17:15,089 --> 00:17:16,230
it's a lot of negotiation.

479
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And there's a lot of when I say

480
00:17:18,565 --> 00:17:21,304
upfront, this occurs all the time, but there

481
00:17:21,765 --> 00:17:24,484
are moments in time Mhmm. Where the rules

482
00:17:24,484 --> 00:17:27,125
are negotiated and understood so that for a

483
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dom like JB who does not have the

484
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time, inclination,

485
00:17:30,269 --> 00:17:32,750
or willingness Yeah. Or mental capacity, because I

486
00:17:32,750 --> 00:17:35,230
don't blame you. I couldn't either, to watch

487
00:17:35,230 --> 00:17:37,250
me every moment of the fucking day,

488
00:17:37,869 --> 00:17:39,789
nor do I don't want anybody breathing down

489
00:17:39,789 --> 00:17:41,230
my neck like that. Thank you very much.

490
00:17:41,230 --> 00:17:42,430
I would like to still love him at

491
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the end of a fucking day. But if

492
00:17:43,789 --> 00:17:45,090
he is the reason I'm overstimulated,

493
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it's gonna be tough.

494
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You know, we baked that in so that

495
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the

496
00:17:52,235 --> 00:17:55,115
I understood what my behavior needed to be.

497
00:17:55,115 --> 00:17:55,775
I understood

498
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what I was what was expected of me.

499
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As

500
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I personally am inclined to do, and I

501
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know a lot of people dom or sub

502
00:18:04,759 --> 00:18:07,000
who do this, I take on extra. I

503
00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:08,619
do more than was negotiated

504
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because

505
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JB allows me to, but also because I

506
00:18:12,759 --> 00:18:14,119
want to. I want to take care of

507
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him in that way.

508
00:18:15,445 --> 00:18:17,285
I want to serve in that way. But

509
00:18:17,285 --> 00:18:19,605
the you gotta do this no matter what

510
00:18:19,605 --> 00:18:20,105
stuff,

511
00:18:20,484 --> 00:18:22,244
we are not talking about it every damn

512
00:18:22,244 --> 00:18:24,965
day. Nobody's got time for that. Jimmy does

513
00:18:24,965 --> 00:18:27,125
not have time to follow me all day

514
00:18:27,125 --> 00:18:28,325
long going, did you do the thing? Did

515
00:18:28,325 --> 00:18:29,224
you do the thing?

516
00:18:29,605 --> 00:18:30,119
Fuck that

517
00:18:30,839 --> 00:18:33,480
shit. We set the expectations early. We keep

518
00:18:33,480 --> 00:18:35,400
the lines of communication open. That's the other

519
00:18:35,400 --> 00:18:36,700
thing I think that

520
00:18:37,240 --> 00:18:39,079
people get wrong about. It would be both

521
00:18:39,079 --> 00:18:41,500
twenty four seven and total power exchange because

522
00:18:42,119 --> 00:18:43,660
it would be unrealistic otherwise.

523
00:18:44,674 --> 00:18:45,575
Needing to

524
00:18:46,275 --> 00:18:48,595
interject with air quotes in real life, needing

525
00:18:48,595 --> 00:18:50,295
to, like we did for a few years,

526
00:18:50,515 --> 00:18:52,194
go on autopilot, which is what I like

527
00:18:52,194 --> 00:18:52,934
to call it.

528
00:18:53,394 --> 00:18:55,474
And I think even if you need to

529
00:18:55,474 --> 00:18:57,795
take a beat to pause the power exchange

530
00:18:57,795 --> 00:18:59,174
for any length of time,

531
00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:01,920
You know, there are too many people who

532
00:19:01,920 --> 00:19:03,759
would say that's not 20 fourseven. That's not

533
00:19:03,759 --> 00:19:05,680
total power exchange. And I would go back

534
00:19:05,680 --> 00:19:06,180
to,

535
00:19:06,559 --> 00:19:09,940
in those moments, do you each individually still

536
00:19:10,240 --> 00:19:12,480
feel and know yourself to be Dom and

537
00:19:12,480 --> 00:19:12,980
Sub?

538
00:19:13,785 --> 00:19:14,825
I think you can at least make the

539
00:19:14,825 --> 00:19:16,744
argument that no matter what the activities are,

540
00:19:16,744 --> 00:19:18,505
at that point, you are still twenty four

541
00:19:18,505 --> 00:19:19,005
seven.

542
00:19:19,465 --> 00:19:19,965
The

543
00:19:20,505 --> 00:19:22,744
physical acts of your power exchange may have

544
00:19:22,744 --> 00:19:24,664
to stop. But, I mean, think about it

545
00:19:24,664 --> 00:19:26,769
this way. Mhmm. What happens if you are

546
00:19:26,769 --> 00:19:29,109
in that more highly managed type

547
00:19:29,490 --> 00:19:31,890
of total power exchange, and I go back

548
00:19:31,890 --> 00:19:34,690
to Dom is puking guts up sick. Dom

549
00:19:34,690 --> 00:19:35,589
is in hospital.

550
00:19:36,690 --> 00:19:38,289
Dom's got a broken leg and can't follow

551
00:19:38,289 --> 00:19:40,965
you. Dom's got, you know, depression and literally

552
00:19:40,965 --> 00:19:42,825
cannot function. Right? Like,

553
00:19:43,205 --> 00:19:45,045
do you just stop being a submissive in

554
00:19:45,045 --> 00:19:46,724
that moment? Do they just stop being a

555
00:19:46,724 --> 00:19:47,945
dominant and No.

556
00:19:48,565 --> 00:19:49,065
No.

557
00:19:49,845 --> 00:19:50,904
No. No. And,

558
00:19:52,164 --> 00:19:52,825
you know,

559
00:19:54,130 --> 00:19:55,109
I knew one

560
00:19:56,210 --> 00:19:58,869
couple who did this years ago. Mhmm.

561
00:20:00,930 --> 00:20:02,230
For lack of better terms,

562
00:20:02,609 --> 00:20:04,289
I'm gonna call it they had a backup

563
00:20:04,289 --> 00:20:05,910
dom. Oh, wow.

564
00:20:06,304 --> 00:20:07,744
K. Well, this was a good friend of

565
00:20:07,744 --> 00:20:10,304
theirs. It wasn't like somebody they randomly Yeah.

566
00:20:10,304 --> 00:20:12,304
It wasn't a little bit random. It was

567
00:20:12,304 --> 00:20:14,244
somebody that that they knew

568
00:20:14,625 --> 00:20:17,265
that in case the big d got sick,

569
00:20:17,265 --> 00:20:18,085
got incapacitated

570
00:20:18,785 --> 00:20:20,484
Right. You know, God forbid died,

571
00:20:21,350 --> 00:20:23,509
there was somebody there so the submissive just

572
00:20:23,509 --> 00:20:26,070
wasn't left floundering. Right. And to help them

573
00:20:26,070 --> 00:20:28,170
ease into what transition and whatever whatever.

574
00:20:28,869 --> 00:20:30,549
And that's the kind of thing like, that

575
00:20:30,549 --> 00:20:32,309
is that is the only thing that makes

576
00:20:32,309 --> 00:20:34,150
sense to me two things make sense to

577
00:20:34,150 --> 00:20:35,515
me. That is one of them. If you're

578
00:20:35,515 --> 00:20:37,914
gonna go with that really highly managed, lots

579
00:20:37,914 --> 00:20:40,954
of rules, lots of Mhmm. Direct engagement from

580
00:20:40,954 --> 00:20:43,934
the dom. Right? You what's the fail safe?

581
00:20:44,075 --> 00:20:46,394
Also, I think if that either is not

582
00:20:46,394 --> 00:20:48,359
an option or that just doesn't work or

583
00:20:48,359 --> 00:20:50,519
maybe even if it does, there have to

584
00:20:50,519 --> 00:20:52,460
be real life conversations about,

585
00:20:52,759 --> 00:20:53,339
you know,

586
00:20:53,880 --> 00:20:55,960
subs, especially if you're in a situation where

587
00:20:55,960 --> 00:20:58,839
your dom has financial control. Because see, financial

588
00:20:58,839 --> 00:21:00,599
stuff can either be seen as a service

589
00:21:00,599 --> 00:21:01,980
and you have total control.

590
00:21:02,359 --> 00:21:04,595
Maybe not control, but, like, your fingers are

591
00:21:04,595 --> 00:21:05,335
in the money.

592
00:21:05,715 --> 00:21:08,674
Or the one that's more stereotypical, but I

593
00:21:08,674 --> 00:21:09,654
don't know how common.

594
00:21:09,955 --> 00:21:12,195
The Dom has financial control, if you even

595
00:21:12,195 --> 00:21:14,295
play with financial stuff at all. Right?

596
00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:18,319
Whoever is not the one with their fingers

597
00:21:18,319 --> 00:21:20,159
and the money and the accounts needs to

598
00:21:20,159 --> 00:21:22,339
know where to get to that information.

599
00:21:23,039 --> 00:21:25,359
You know, early days in us doing the

600
00:21:25,359 --> 00:21:27,440
podcast and people would talk about twenty four

601
00:21:27,440 --> 00:21:29,440
seven and somebody would say that their ideal

602
00:21:29,440 --> 00:21:31,684
situation is as a submissive. They never have

603
00:21:31,684 --> 00:21:32,724
to think about it. They never have to

604
00:21:32,724 --> 00:21:34,565
touch it. They never have and they're completely

605
00:21:34,565 --> 00:21:36,005
taken care of. And I'm like, yeah. Yeah.

606
00:21:36,005 --> 00:21:36,744
Yeah. But

607
00:21:37,205 --> 00:21:39,525
do you know how to log in? Do

608
00:21:39,525 --> 00:21:41,765
you know what your bank is? Do you

609
00:21:41,765 --> 00:21:44,724
know how to pay the bill? Like, you

610
00:21:44,724 --> 00:21:45,785
can't you can,

611
00:21:46,319 --> 00:21:46,819
to

612
00:21:47,119 --> 00:21:48,259
me, the

613
00:21:49,919 --> 00:21:51,919
best way to mitigate risk because this is

614
00:21:51,919 --> 00:21:55,519
a situation where this is very risky. Like,

615
00:21:55,519 --> 00:21:57,759
people can do it, and some people do

616
00:21:57,759 --> 00:22:00,000
it because they're fucking predators and abusers to

617
00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:01,855
begin with because this is a way to

618
00:22:01,855 --> 00:22:04,414
take advantage of somebody. You get them under

619
00:22:04,414 --> 00:22:06,494
your absolute and total control and then cut

620
00:22:06,494 --> 00:22:07,554
them off from everything.

621
00:22:08,174 --> 00:22:09,075
That's I mean,

622
00:22:09,694 --> 00:22:10,194
it's

623
00:22:11,454 --> 00:22:12,894
that is the thing you have to guard

624
00:22:12,894 --> 00:22:14,734
against. Like, this is not a thing brand

625
00:22:14,734 --> 00:22:15,394
new relationships

626
00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:17,179
ought to be doing or considering.

627
00:22:17,480 --> 00:22:19,240
You can think about yourself in kind of

628
00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:21,559
a twenty four seven way if you want

629
00:22:21,559 --> 00:22:22,859
to inhabit your identity

630
00:22:23,640 --> 00:22:24,539
all the time.

631
00:22:24,919 --> 00:22:27,579
But if your goal is to be highly

632
00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:29,335
managed and to have lot, you know, the

633
00:22:29,335 --> 00:22:31,275
domed have lots and lots of control,

634
00:22:31,575 --> 00:22:34,455
that's not a new relationship thing. That's a

635
00:22:34,455 --> 00:22:36,855
we've been to fucking gather for a long

636
00:22:36,855 --> 00:22:38,634
time, and there's a lot of trust.

637
00:22:38,934 --> 00:22:40,875
And we know how each other operates.

638
00:22:41,400 --> 00:22:44,200
You know? We've been through shit together, and

639
00:22:44,200 --> 00:22:46,119
we still like one another. You know what

640
00:22:46,119 --> 00:22:47,099
I mean? Like,

641
00:22:47,640 --> 00:22:48,140
because

642
00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:50,460
there's gonna come a day where,

643
00:22:51,000 --> 00:22:52,599
you know, the dom's not in control or

644
00:22:52,920 --> 00:22:55,099
Mhmm. The thing that gets forgotten, because

645
00:22:55,565 --> 00:22:57,805
not always, I'm sure, but in most cases

646
00:22:57,805 --> 00:23:00,605
in these kinds of relationships, that sub provides

647
00:23:00,605 --> 00:23:02,765
service. Maybe they don't consider themselves a service

648
00:23:02,765 --> 00:23:04,525
sub but they are providing a lot of

649
00:23:04,525 --> 00:23:05,984
effort and work and labor

650
00:23:06,365 --> 00:23:07,345
in that relationship.

651
00:23:07,940 --> 00:23:09,400
Well, doms, what happens

652
00:23:10,019 --> 00:23:11,559
when your sub is incapacitated?

653
00:23:11,859 --> 00:23:13,480
Do you know how to make a sandwich?

654
00:23:13,700 --> 00:23:15,240
I hope to fuck you do.

655
00:23:15,700 --> 00:23:17,480
Do you know how to

656
00:23:18,339 --> 00:23:19,859
do the things your sub does for you

657
00:23:19,859 --> 00:23:21,974
that you can't not do? Like, if what

658
00:23:21,974 --> 00:23:23,734
if you did say, well, sub, you're gonna

659
00:23:23,734 --> 00:23:25,255
pay the bills. You're gonna you're gonna come

660
00:23:25,255 --> 00:23:26,855
talk to me. We're gonna I'm gonna decide

661
00:23:26,855 --> 00:23:29,515
things, but you do the physical act of

662
00:23:29,894 --> 00:23:31,035
getting the bills paid.

663
00:23:32,295 --> 00:23:33,700
Do you know how to log in and

664
00:23:33,700 --> 00:23:36,820
pay your electric bill? Because that sub is

665
00:23:36,820 --> 00:23:38,420
out of commission for any time. You're gonna

666
00:23:38,420 --> 00:23:40,039
be sitting in the dark. Okay?

667
00:23:40,340 --> 00:23:41,480
These are the things

668
00:23:41,940 --> 00:23:43,480
where I am the killjoy.

669
00:23:44,980 --> 00:23:45,720
The fantasy

670
00:23:46,580 --> 00:23:48,120
of total power exchange,

671
00:23:48,494 --> 00:23:49,234
the idealized

672
00:23:49,615 --> 00:23:51,315
version in somebody's head

673
00:23:51,934 --> 00:23:54,974
is gonna run smack into reality at some

674
00:23:54,974 --> 00:23:57,555
fucking point. And there's certain parts of reality

675
00:23:57,615 --> 00:23:59,535
you can't prepare for. Like, you can kind

676
00:23:59,535 --> 00:24:01,200
of imagine it, but maybe you don't wanna

677
00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:03,039
imagine it or you know it's a possibility,

678
00:24:03,039 --> 00:24:04,480
but you're like, no. That won't happen to

679
00:24:04,480 --> 00:24:04,980
us.

680
00:24:05,839 --> 00:24:08,240
I'm too fucking anxious for that shit. My

681
00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:12,480
risk assessment level is is like, everything's risky

682
00:24:12,480 --> 00:24:13,299
to me. Okay?

683
00:24:13,934 --> 00:24:16,274
Everything's a potential problem to me.

684
00:24:16,654 --> 00:24:18,274
So I got a lot of questions.

685
00:24:18,654 --> 00:24:21,054
Other folks don't look at the world that

686
00:24:21,054 --> 00:24:21,554
way.

687
00:24:22,014 --> 00:24:24,595
I'm gonna say if you naturally

688
00:24:24,974 --> 00:24:28,150
don't think of the risks, I'm gonna say

689
00:24:28,150 --> 00:24:29,910
and that I am begging you to think

690
00:24:29,910 --> 00:24:30,650
of the risks.

691
00:24:31,029 --> 00:24:33,370
What happened just think in best case scenario.

692
00:24:33,670 --> 00:24:35,190
What happens if it if, you know, it's

693
00:24:35,190 --> 00:24:36,470
just the flu? What happens if it's just

694
00:24:36,470 --> 00:24:37,990
a broken leg? That's not great, but that's

695
00:24:37,990 --> 00:24:38,730
better than

696
00:24:39,190 --> 00:24:41,625
in the ICU. Like, I'm I'm not trying

697
00:24:41,625 --> 00:24:43,644
to, like, depress anybody, but

698
00:24:44,025 --> 00:24:45,785
what do you do if you can't do

699
00:24:45,785 --> 00:24:47,644
the thing that you were supposed to do

700
00:24:47,704 --> 00:24:50,365
in a situation where there's this much control?

701
00:24:51,144 --> 00:24:53,785
Which is why I love the version of

702
00:24:53,785 --> 00:24:55,704
power exchange that we have figured out for

703
00:24:55,704 --> 00:24:56,204
ourselves.

704
00:24:56,720 --> 00:24:57,220
Because,

705
00:24:57,759 --> 00:25:00,000
look, you're not allowed to to leave this,

706
00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:02,240
earthly plane without me. We're going out like

707
00:25:02,240 --> 00:25:03,220
Thelma and Louise.

708
00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:06,960
Nope. Hey. My kids have already gone. Mom,

709
00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:08,500
you're not gonna be right.

710
00:25:08,880 --> 00:25:10,660
And they said, when? And I said, if,

711
00:25:11,234 --> 00:25:13,075
you know, mister John goes first. I was

712
00:25:13,075 --> 00:25:15,234
like, no. If not when, if we're going

713
00:25:15,234 --> 00:25:15,734
together.

714
00:25:16,355 --> 00:25:17,095
The oldest

715
00:25:18,115 --> 00:25:19,554
looked at me like I was kinda crazy,

716
00:25:19,554 --> 00:25:21,394
but also with understanding of, yeah, you're not

717
00:25:21,394 --> 00:25:24,115
gonna survive already. Not mentally. I will not

718
00:25:24,115 --> 00:25:25,255
be mentally well.

719
00:25:29,369 --> 00:25:29,869
But,

720
00:25:31,929 --> 00:25:34,809
like, I know mentally, emotionally, I will not

721
00:25:34,809 --> 00:25:36,250
function well if you are not in my

722
00:25:36,250 --> 00:25:37,769
life. But because of the life we've set

723
00:25:37,769 --> 00:25:39,069
up for myself for ourselves,

724
00:25:39,690 --> 00:25:40,349
I can

725
00:25:40,809 --> 00:25:43,095
pay the bills. I can call somebody to

726
00:25:43,095 --> 00:25:45,734
come fix something if it's broke. Right? Like,

727
00:25:45,734 --> 00:25:47,195
you have the control.

728
00:25:47,734 --> 00:25:50,775
Mhmm. You have the decision making power. Yeah.

729
00:25:50,775 --> 00:25:52,775
But I still have enough autonomy that I

730
00:25:52,775 --> 00:25:54,455
I can function in ways that work for

731
00:25:54,455 --> 00:25:56,134
me. You have access to every account I

732
00:25:56,134 --> 00:25:57,869
have. Well, I took over as a a

733
00:25:57,869 --> 00:26:00,430
service the money Well, true. During during the

734
00:26:00,430 --> 00:26:01,710
the dark times. Yeah.

735
00:26:02,269 --> 00:26:04,509
Because I was desperate to, like, protect your

736
00:26:04,509 --> 00:26:06,269
mental health as much as possible. What I'm

737
00:26:06,269 --> 00:26:07,569
saying too is, you know,

738
00:26:08,349 --> 00:26:10,910
any account that I have anywhere regardless of

739
00:26:10,910 --> 00:26:12,509
what it is, you have access to it.

740
00:26:12,509 --> 00:26:13,569
We know each other's,

741
00:26:14,724 --> 00:26:16,325
every I think everybody does this except people

742
00:26:16,325 --> 00:26:18,404
who are, like, way tech savvier and more

743
00:26:18,404 --> 00:26:20,984
paranoid. You have kind of a standard password

744
00:26:21,044 --> 00:26:23,444
you kinda use in most places. Maybe you

745
00:26:23,444 --> 00:26:25,544
change the numbers or the special character.

746
00:26:27,204 --> 00:26:29,880
We have, like, three that we rotate through,

747
00:26:29,880 --> 00:26:30,619
two or three,

748
00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:32,460
and we know them. But also,

749
00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:35,880
you have created for things that only you

750
00:26:35,880 --> 00:26:37,559
really access because only you need them. I

751
00:26:37,559 --> 00:26:39,400
know where to go find the password. Right.

752
00:26:39,400 --> 00:26:40,759
I I know how to get into your

753
00:26:40,759 --> 00:26:42,984
email. I sure should know how to reset

754
00:26:42,984 --> 00:26:45,065
a password and can probably guess what that

755
00:26:45,065 --> 00:26:46,904
password is if you forgot to write it

756
00:26:46,904 --> 00:26:49,945
down. But we're just you know, that to

757
00:26:49,945 --> 00:26:51,945
me, that's how this kind of stuff works.

758
00:26:51,945 --> 00:26:53,785
I don't wanna get into his account. I

759
00:26:53,785 --> 00:26:56,069
don't need to. But if something happens, I

760
00:26:56,069 --> 00:26:58,470
could. You can. Right? We're not gonna all

761
00:26:58,470 --> 00:26:59,210
sit here

762
00:26:59,829 --> 00:27:01,750
dark, either hot or cold depending on the

763
00:27:01,750 --> 00:27:03,829
time of year, and hungry because one of

764
00:27:03,829 --> 00:27:05,769
us is unable to do

765
00:27:06,230 --> 00:27:09,775
our highly selective function in this house. And

766
00:27:09,775 --> 00:27:12,174
that's the thing I caution with any level

767
00:27:12,174 --> 00:27:14,494
of total power exchange, any level of twenty

768
00:27:14,494 --> 00:27:16,974
four seven. You know, we've we did an

769
00:27:16,974 --> 00:27:17,474
episode

770
00:27:18,015 --> 00:27:20,174
ages ago about codependence, and I think that's

771
00:27:20,174 --> 00:27:21,954
when we learned the term interdependence.

772
00:27:22,894 --> 00:27:23,394
And

773
00:27:23,899 --> 00:27:27,659
we are absolutely dependent upon one another, but

774
00:27:27,659 --> 00:27:28,559
we are also

775
00:27:29,339 --> 00:27:30,399
aware that

776
00:27:30,700 --> 00:27:33,759
we wouldn't want to, but we could minimally

777
00:27:33,980 --> 00:27:36,859
function on our own. That's this thing that

778
00:27:36,859 --> 00:27:38,079
partners in these situations

779
00:27:38,615 --> 00:27:40,775
have to be aware that they can do.

780
00:27:40,775 --> 00:27:41,755
Mhmm. You know?

781
00:27:43,575 --> 00:27:44,855
Which is why I would give a lot

782
00:27:44,855 --> 00:27:46,955
of side eye to somebody very young

783
00:27:47,494 --> 00:27:49,575
pulled into a total power exchange with lots

784
00:27:49,575 --> 00:27:50,234
of micromanagement

785
00:27:50,535 --> 00:27:52,710
and lots of decisions made by probably the

786
00:27:52,710 --> 00:27:55,190
older, more experienced partner. That would freak me

787
00:27:55,190 --> 00:27:56,789
the fuck out on behalf of a very

788
00:27:56,789 --> 00:27:59,029
young person. Because my question if you were

789
00:27:59,029 --> 00:28:01,109
my kid's age, 19, 20, I'm a be

790
00:28:01,109 --> 00:28:01,429
like, how

791
00:28:02,230 --> 00:28:03,849
do you know how to pay the bills?

792
00:28:04,549 --> 00:28:06,194
Do you know how to do have you

793
00:28:06,194 --> 00:28:08,515
ever had that experience of being independent enough

794
00:28:08,515 --> 00:28:09,654
that you can kinda, like,

795
00:28:10,994 --> 00:28:12,595
fumble through life like the rest of us.

796
00:28:12,595 --> 00:28:13,095
Right?

797
00:28:13,634 --> 00:28:15,075
That, you know, we talk what was that

798
00:28:15,075 --> 00:28:16,595
same episode that q and a? Somebody asked

799
00:28:16,595 --> 00:28:18,115
about age gaps, and I tend to be

800
00:28:18,115 --> 00:28:18,775
kind of

801
00:28:19,154 --> 00:28:21,519
hands off on age gaps because we're all

802
00:28:21,519 --> 00:28:23,519
supposed to be adults. But you really wanna

803
00:28:23,519 --> 00:28:25,519
get my attention and make me worried for

804
00:28:25,519 --> 00:28:27,599
somebody? Tell me about a total power exchange

805
00:28:27,599 --> 00:28:29,440
where that one person has no lived experience

806
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:31,440
as an adult. And they were roped into

807
00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:32,894
that. That's fucking predatory.

808
00:28:34,095 --> 00:28:35,775
You know? Because now, yeah, it's real easy

809
00:28:35,775 --> 00:28:37,214
to be trapped in a situation like that.

810
00:28:37,214 --> 00:28:38,734
And people God knows. I think we have

811
00:28:38,734 --> 00:28:41,075
all heard stories. We likely all know somebody

812
00:28:41,214 --> 00:28:42,755
and or we are somebody

813
00:28:43,055 --> 00:28:45,214
who has found themselves in relationships where they

814
00:28:45,214 --> 00:28:47,009
got trapped and they were old enough and

815
00:28:47,009 --> 00:28:47,670
they had

816
00:28:47,970 --> 00:28:49,809
they had autonomy and knew how to, like,

817
00:28:49,809 --> 00:28:50,630
be a functional

818
00:28:51,009 --> 00:28:52,930
adult on their own and they still got

819
00:28:52,930 --> 00:28:54,150
trapped. So

820
00:28:55,009 --> 00:28:57,570
total power exchange does it's not come without

821
00:28:57,570 --> 00:28:59,625
its risks. And that is the like, people

822
00:28:59,625 --> 00:29:01,704
romanticize it. Like, oh, yeah. I'm always on

823
00:29:01,704 --> 00:29:03,224
my knees. I'm always on my collar. I'm

824
00:29:03,224 --> 00:29:05,144
always doing this. And I'm like, okay. But

825
00:29:05,144 --> 00:29:06,204
do you raise children?

826
00:29:06,984 --> 00:29:08,744
Anybody got a job? Anybody got a job

827
00:29:08,744 --> 00:29:10,184
with a boss they don't like? Anybody got

828
00:29:10,184 --> 00:29:11,619
a job with an asshole boss that makes

829
00:29:11,619 --> 00:29:12,919
you work? You know, like,

830
00:29:13,220 --> 00:29:15,059
how is this working in the real life?

831
00:29:15,059 --> 00:29:16,519
Are you having the conversations

832
00:29:17,220 --> 00:29:19,539
to plan for real life instead of that

833
00:29:19,539 --> 00:29:20,039
romanticized

834
00:29:20,579 --> 00:29:22,839
airbrushed black and white erotic photography

835
00:29:23,140 --> 00:29:23,640
version

836
00:29:24,259 --> 00:29:26,195
of Total Power Exchange that many of us

837
00:29:26,195 --> 00:29:27,955
are sold. Excuse me.

838
00:29:29,474 --> 00:29:30,134
So yeah.

839
00:29:30,835 --> 00:29:32,835
Kim says in live chat, while I'm dealing

840
00:29:32,835 --> 00:29:34,914
with menopause brain, I'd love twenty four seven

841
00:29:34,914 --> 00:29:36,674
TPE just because it would come with lists

842
00:29:36,674 --> 00:29:38,539
and rules that I can write down. Guess

843
00:29:38,539 --> 00:29:41,180
what? You could do something like that. You'd

844
00:29:41,180 --> 00:29:43,200
have to take the time to

845
00:29:43,500 --> 00:29:45,819
negotiate it ahead of time. Right. But you

846
00:29:45,819 --> 00:29:47,339
you could see, that's the thing that I

847
00:29:47,339 --> 00:29:48,720
think is more doable

848
00:29:49,420 --> 00:29:49,920
personally.

849
00:29:50,940 --> 00:29:52,079
You're free to disagree.

850
00:29:52,674 --> 00:29:55,394
Is that you plan the relationship as as

851
00:29:55,394 --> 00:29:57,154
highly managed as you want it to be.

852
00:29:57,154 --> 00:29:59,394
Mhmm. But you plan it ahead of time

853
00:29:59,394 --> 00:30:00,134
and and

854
00:30:00,755 --> 00:30:03,555
understand the expectations because any power exchange of

855
00:30:03,555 --> 00:30:06,000
any flavor, everybody should understand the expectations.

856
00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:16,259
Fuck down and refer to them as needed.

857
00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:19,279
It's I think that gets a little harder

858
00:30:19,279 --> 00:30:21,315
when life is a little bit more there's

859
00:30:21,315 --> 00:30:22,534
more up and downs in life.

860
00:30:22,835 --> 00:30:25,075
Like, if if folks are somehow in in

861
00:30:25,075 --> 00:30:27,554
this economy still working the same job for

862
00:30:27,554 --> 00:30:29,634
thirty years and the same schedule and they

863
00:30:29,634 --> 00:30:31,154
know what they're doing day in and day

864
00:30:31,154 --> 00:30:33,954
out and you have that sameness to your

865
00:30:33,954 --> 00:30:36,269
life, it could be very easy to plan

866
00:30:36,269 --> 00:30:38,589
something that's more highly managed, which I think

867
00:30:38,589 --> 00:30:40,109
is the term I'm I'm just going with

868
00:30:40,109 --> 00:30:41,650
when we talk about total buyer exchange,

869
00:30:42,589 --> 00:30:43,970
because there's predictability

870
00:30:44,669 --> 00:30:45,569
in it. Right?

871
00:30:45,869 --> 00:30:46,369
But

872
00:30:47,414 --> 00:30:49,494
may maybe I'm projecting. I just don't know

873
00:30:49,494 --> 00:30:51,735
how many people have that much predictability in

874
00:30:51,735 --> 00:30:52,475
their life.

875
00:30:53,894 --> 00:30:56,315
Certainly not in this economy. You know?

876
00:30:56,695 --> 00:30:57,195
So

877
00:30:57,575 --> 00:31:01,275
that's where sometimes for some people, I think

878
00:31:02,039 --> 00:31:04,920
total power exchange falls apart because there's an

879
00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:05,420
unpredictability

880
00:31:05,799 --> 00:31:08,039
to life. Mhmm. So planning ahead can be

881
00:31:08,039 --> 00:31:09,180
difficult. Or

882
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:12,860
if I came to you all day long,

883
00:31:13,480 --> 00:31:15,295
hey, daddy. What do you think daddy. What

884
00:31:15,295 --> 00:31:16,255
do you think of that? Hey, daddy. Can

885
00:31:16,255 --> 00:31:17,455
I do this? Hey, daddy. Can I go

886
00:31:17,455 --> 00:31:17,955
here?

887
00:31:18,335 --> 00:31:20,434
You would be so fucking done with me.

888
00:31:20,654 --> 00:31:22,434
Part of that's personality, though.

889
00:31:22,815 --> 00:31:25,215
But if we tried to have the total

890
00:31:25,215 --> 00:31:27,055
power exchange that I think would fit best

891
00:31:27,055 --> 00:31:28,575
for us, which is what I'm suggesting for

892
00:31:28,575 --> 00:31:29,555
Kim, which is

893
00:31:30,470 --> 00:31:32,789
plan all those rules that you're willing to

894
00:31:32,789 --> 00:31:33,990
live by and that you want and all

895
00:31:33,990 --> 00:31:35,910
that control that your partner might want ahead

896
00:31:35,910 --> 00:31:36,809
of time and just

897
00:31:37,269 --> 00:31:39,349
make it routine, make it part of your

898
00:31:39,349 --> 00:31:42,150
day so there's less back and forth, back

899
00:31:42,150 --> 00:31:42,809
and forth.

900
00:31:43,745 --> 00:31:45,424
But there will be times when it wouldn't

901
00:31:45,424 --> 00:31:47,025
be able to it wouldn't work. Right? That

902
00:31:47,025 --> 00:31:48,404
that chaos factor.

903
00:31:49,265 --> 00:31:51,045
Jamie's gonna be done with me

904
00:31:51,585 --> 00:31:52,085
after

905
00:31:52,545 --> 00:31:53,745
the end of the day of that many

906
00:31:53,745 --> 00:31:57,205
questions. Mhmm. Anybody who has raised small children,

907
00:31:57,424 --> 00:31:59,099
you remember you remember that feeling

908
00:31:59,480 --> 00:32:02,440
where every other word was why? Why? What?

909
00:32:02,440 --> 00:32:04,279
How does this? Why is this? By the

910
00:32:04,279 --> 00:32:05,720
end of the day, you're like, I my

911
00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:07,640
brain's leaking out of my ear. I don't

912
00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:09,559
know why the sky is blue, and I'm

913
00:32:09,559 --> 00:32:11,419
not even gonna Google it right now.

914
00:32:11,880 --> 00:32:12,700
To me,

915
00:32:13,954 --> 00:32:15,414
that's what it could be

916
00:32:15,795 --> 00:32:17,575
for people who are trying to

917
00:32:19,075 --> 00:32:21,795
force a certain type of power exchange that

918
00:32:21,795 --> 00:32:25,234
does not take into account the unpredictability and

919
00:32:25,234 --> 00:32:27,609
chaos that that life can bring. I and

920
00:32:27,609 --> 00:32:29,210
I'm not there's somebody out there going, but

921
00:32:29,210 --> 00:32:30,809
I fucking love that. Come ask me 80

922
00:32:30,809 --> 00:32:33,049
questions in a row. I'm happy for you

923
00:32:33,049 --> 00:32:34,970
and maybe you can make that work. That

924
00:32:34,970 --> 00:32:36,570
would work for you. And there are people

925
00:32:36,570 --> 00:32:38,329
who are built for that Right. Who can

926
00:32:38,329 --> 00:32:39,849
do that. I am not one of those

927
00:32:39,849 --> 00:32:42,464
people. No. You're not. Okay. No. I No.

928
00:32:42,464 --> 00:32:43,525
I And I

929
00:32:44,305 --> 00:32:45,984
know it, and I admit it. And I

930
00:32:45,984 --> 00:32:47,045
think that's where

931
00:32:48,144 --> 00:32:49,984
these are the kinds of conversations to have,

932
00:32:49,984 --> 00:32:53,045
and I think that's another Mhmm. Factor in

933
00:32:53,184 --> 00:32:53,684
broadening

934
00:32:54,065 --> 00:32:55,740
our understanding and our

935
00:32:56,220 --> 00:32:58,940
our definition of total power exchange. It's just

936
00:32:58,940 --> 00:32:59,940
like our our

937
00:33:00,380 --> 00:33:02,059
a lot of people conflate total power exchange

938
00:33:02,059 --> 00:33:03,900
in twenty fourseven. It's one and the same.

939
00:33:03,900 --> 00:33:05,519
So when I say we're twenty fourseven,

940
00:33:05,980 --> 00:33:08,154
people go, but but JB's not controlling every

941
00:33:08,154 --> 00:33:10,528
movie yet. Because that's not how we define

942
00:33:10,528 --> 00:33:11,621
the twenty four seven. Right. Twenty four seven

943
00:33:11,621 --> 00:33:13,835
to us, using literal definitions of words, we're

944
00:33:13,835 --> 00:33:15,755
not making shit up, is that we are

945
00:33:15,755 --> 00:33:16,255
always,

946
00:33:16,634 --> 00:33:18,255
every moment of the day,

947
00:33:19,434 --> 00:33:20,734
daddy and baby girl.

948
00:33:21,515 --> 00:33:23,359
Do we tamp it down when it's more

949
00:33:23,359 --> 00:33:25,600
appropriate to try to, like, blend in with

950
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:27,519
the vanillas? Sure. You know? Or to be

951
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:29,140
we gotta be a parent? Absolutely.

952
00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:31,200
But there's not a moment

953
00:33:32,080 --> 00:33:34,240
the moment we can put put that mask

954
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:35,460
down and be ourselves,

955
00:33:36,240 --> 00:33:37,539
we're back to it. Right.

956
00:33:37,875 --> 00:33:39,714
I think that another tell me what you

957
00:33:39,714 --> 00:33:42,275
think about this. Mhmm. I think another it's

958
00:33:42,275 --> 00:33:43,174
not a misconception

959
00:33:43,555 --> 00:33:45,315
because there is a place for it. But

960
00:33:45,315 --> 00:33:47,315
I think another thing that too many people

961
00:33:47,315 --> 00:33:47,815
believe

962
00:33:48,195 --> 00:33:50,214
of Total Power Exchange and twenty four seven

963
00:33:50,434 --> 00:33:52,214
is that there have to be

964
00:33:52,809 --> 00:33:54,269
a lot of fucking rules.

965
00:33:54,570 --> 00:33:55,070
Now,

966
00:33:55,609 --> 00:33:56,509
highly managed

967
00:33:57,210 --> 00:33:59,690
power exchange? Yeah. Yes. In some form or

968
00:33:59,690 --> 00:34:02,570
fashion, however you decide that. But, I mean,

969
00:34:02,570 --> 00:34:04,590
technically, I have one basic rule,

970
00:34:05,134 --> 00:34:06,734
and that is I have I can say

971
00:34:06,734 --> 00:34:09,635
I have to be polite. Mhmm. I mean,

972
00:34:09,694 --> 00:34:12,335
does that rule get, like, bent when we're

973
00:34:12,335 --> 00:34:13,534
in the middle of, like, the kind of

974
00:34:13,534 --> 00:34:15,054
arguments where we're like, who are

975
00:34:15,614 --> 00:34:16,514
when this happens?

976
00:34:18,175 --> 00:34:19,155
Uh-huh. Yes.

977
00:34:20,180 --> 00:34:22,760
My righteous anger is not polite.

978
00:34:23,780 --> 00:34:24,280
Ew.

979
00:34:24,579 --> 00:34:26,900
But you don't push me to righteous anger.

980
00:34:26,900 --> 00:34:29,160
I No. Once every couple of years, mad.

981
00:34:30,820 --> 00:34:32,760
The other things I do are tasks,

982
00:34:33,220 --> 00:34:33,960
are routines,

983
00:34:34,335 --> 00:34:35,074
our expectations.

984
00:34:35,454 --> 00:34:38,434
You could classify those as rules, sure,

985
00:34:38,815 --> 00:34:39,315
but

986
00:34:40,094 --> 00:34:41,715
we are not a highly managed

987
00:34:42,335 --> 00:34:45,394
power exchange. No. And and we

988
00:34:46,670 --> 00:34:48,530
actually kinda tried that in the beginning.

989
00:34:48,910 --> 00:34:51,010
We we've sucked at it so bad.

990
00:34:51,550 --> 00:34:53,869
Yeah. And and the thing with that was,

991
00:34:53,869 --> 00:34:54,510
you know, the

992
00:34:55,309 --> 00:34:57,550
that was the type of dynamic I was

993
00:34:57,550 --> 00:34:58,784
familiar with. That's what

994
00:34:59,505 --> 00:35:01,664
I came into lifestyle learning and and, you

995
00:35:01,664 --> 00:35:04,005
know, having had at some point myself

996
00:35:04,464 --> 00:35:04,964
and

997
00:35:05,905 --> 00:35:06,405
Yeah.

998
00:35:07,025 --> 00:35:08,864
You know, so that's what what I was

999
00:35:08,864 --> 00:35:11,190
trying and and that's something too, you know,

1000
00:35:11,269 --> 00:35:13,030
you you can try this, you can you

1001
00:35:13,030 --> 00:35:15,130
do your TBE twenty four seven

1002
00:35:15,510 --> 00:35:18,309
and and, you know, if it's not working

1003
00:35:18,309 --> 00:35:20,789
change it up. Right. Change it up, you

1004
00:35:20,789 --> 00:35:22,650
know, don't be afraid to do that.

1005
00:35:23,030 --> 00:35:25,674
You can. No one's gonna come out and

1006
00:35:25,674 --> 00:35:26,875
no one's gonna pop out from around the

1007
00:35:26,875 --> 00:35:28,554
corner and say you're doing it wrong. Right.

1008
00:35:28,554 --> 00:35:30,315
And anybody on the Internet who tells you

1009
00:35:30,315 --> 00:35:32,714
they're doing it wrong, please just delete, block,

1010
00:35:32,714 --> 00:35:35,114
mute Right. Make them go away. Mhmm.

1011
00:35:35,914 --> 00:35:37,275
This goes to a thing I said to

1012
00:35:37,275 --> 00:35:39,039
you today and I think it might be

1013
00:35:39,039 --> 00:35:40,639
its own episode at some point because I

1014
00:35:40,639 --> 00:35:41,839
am in love with the fact that I

1015
00:35:41,839 --> 00:35:43,440
came up with this. I don't I did

1016
00:35:43,440 --> 00:35:45,139
not invent these words.

1017
00:35:45,679 --> 00:35:48,079
Somebody else just probably said it. But we

1018
00:35:48,079 --> 00:35:49,699
were talking about I was like, kink,

1019
00:35:50,319 --> 00:35:52,880
all parts of kink, power exchange, all of

1020
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:55,125
it. It is highly customizable.

1021
00:35:55,664 --> 00:35:57,525
Mhmm. It's completely customizable.

1022
00:35:58,224 --> 00:36:01,585
The only three requirements requirements, communication consent and

1023
00:36:01,585 --> 00:36:03,505
risk assessment. You have to know what the

1024
00:36:03,505 --> 00:36:05,904
risks are and then use your own threshold

1025
00:36:05,904 --> 00:36:07,424
to decide if you're willing to accept that

1026
00:36:07,424 --> 00:36:07,924
risk.

1027
00:36:08,869 --> 00:36:11,289
But even those things are customizable.

1028
00:36:11,750 --> 00:36:14,630
I literally just finished a fucking workbook on

1029
00:36:14,630 --> 00:36:16,630
communication and I made myself crazy because I

1030
00:36:16,630 --> 00:36:18,710
was like, there's all these caveats I can

1031
00:36:18,710 --> 00:36:20,869
put in here about how here's the broad

1032
00:36:20,869 --> 00:36:22,704
strokes of communication, but also,

1033
00:36:23,244 --> 00:36:25,405
like, you know, there's so many ways to

1034
00:36:25,405 --> 00:36:27,804
do it so that it is effective for

1035
00:36:27,804 --> 00:36:30,605
you. That is true of every facet of

1036
00:36:30,605 --> 00:36:32,465
kink. And the problem is

1037
00:36:33,005 --> 00:36:35,950
too many folks come across these one true

1038
00:36:35,950 --> 00:36:38,769
wearers, these real ways, these right ways.

1039
00:36:41,710 --> 00:36:45,570
And it stunts that ability to think creatively.

1040
00:36:46,030 --> 00:36:46,530
Now

1041
00:36:46,910 --> 00:36:48,829
I say that as somebody who gets overwhelmed

1042
00:36:48,829 --> 00:36:50,075
with too many options, and I know I'm

1043
00:36:50,075 --> 00:36:51,675
not the only person out there like that.

1044
00:36:51,675 --> 00:36:53,454
So sometimes what we need are examples

1045
00:36:53,755 --> 00:36:55,615
absolutely to see what is possible.

1046
00:36:57,515 --> 00:36:59,275
But the there are too many people who

1047
00:36:59,275 --> 00:37:00,175
get stuck

1048
00:37:00,474 --> 00:37:02,155
and think I have failed at kink. I

1049
00:37:02,155 --> 00:37:03,914
can't do twenty four seven. I can't do

1050
00:37:03,914 --> 00:37:05,819
total power exchange. I can't do this. I'm

1051
00:37:05,819 --> 00:37:07,800
not a real that. I'm because

1052
00:37:08,659 --> 00:37:10,599
you're trying to make this

1053
00:37:11,059 --> 00:37:13,639
thing that you this very limited definition,

1054
00:37:14,500 --> 00:37:16,739
you're trying to fit it instead of making

1055
00:37:16,739 --> 00:37:18,760
it fit you. That is true of every

1056
00:37:18,820 --> 00:37:21,204
fucking aspect of this, including what we're talking

1057
00:37:21,204 --> 00:37:22,565
about today, which is twenty four seven and

1058
00:37:22,565 --> 00:37:24,484
total power exchange. I do not worry about

1059
00:37:24,484 --> 00:37:26,644
the what the world thinks about our relationship,

1060
00:37:26,644 --> 00:37:28,264
even though I put it on the Internet

1061
00:37:29,445 --> 00:37:30,344
twice a week,

1062
00:37:31,684 --> 00:37:33,844
because it works for us and we are

1063
00:37:33,844 --> 00:37:34,344
very

1064
00:37:34,980 --> 00:37:37,059
comfortable and there was a word I wanted.

1065
00:37:37,059 --> 00:37:37,559
Content?

1066
00:37:38,019 --> 00:37:39,000
That and

1067
00:37:39,940 --> 00:37:41,079
can't think of the word.

1068
00:37:43,539 --> 00:37:46,280
In what we have, we Yeah. Like, there's

1069
00:37:46,579 --> 00:37:48,420
there are no doubts for us. There's no

1070
00:37:48,420 --> 00:37:50,375
doubts for the words that we use. There's

1071
00:37:50,375 --> 00:37:52,695
no doubts for the way we express ourselves

1072
00:37:52,695 --> 00:37:54,614
in our relationship. There's no doubts for that.

1073
00:37:54,614 --> 00:37:55,114
Now,

1074
00:37:55,815 --> 00:37:58,534
did we, like, meet one another online and

1075
00:37:58,534 --> 00:38:00,295
just poof? It was like the fuck no.

1076
00:38:00,295 --> 00:38:03,514
No. Our power exchange has been through multiple

1077
00:38:03,574 --> 00:38:03,989
iterations

1078
00:38:05,030 --> 00:38:07,269
years. Partly every time I think because I

1079
00:38:07,269 --> 00:38:09,369
had to. You know, we started,

1080
00:38:11,829 --> 00:38:12,730
sir and

1081
00:38:13,110 --> 00:38:15,030
you tried pet, that didn't work. Sir and

1082
00:38:15,030 --> 00:38:16,630
little one, and then it was sir and

1083
00:38:16,630 --> 00:38:18,309
baby girl, and then it was daddy and

1084
00:38:18,309 --> 00:38:20,335
baby girl. Mhmm. And And then we've been

1085
00:38:20,335 --> 00:38:22,275
daddy and baby girl the whole time, but

1086
00:38:22,335 --> 00:38:24,974
we went from long distance relationship where we

1087
00:38:24,974 --> 00:38:26,894
were hardly ever in the same room, to

1088
00:38:26,894 --> 00:38:28,735
trying to live together and we try to

1089
00:38:28,735 --> 00:38:31,934
highly manage all these rules, all this shit

1090
00:38:31,934 --> 00:38:32,755
power exchange.

1091
00:38:33,375 --> 00:38:34,760
That crashed and burned.

1092
00:38:35,780 --> 00:38:37,719
We reconfigured it

1093
00:38:39,219 --> 00:38:41,780
and relaxed things and just kind of went

1094
00:38:42,019 --> 00:38:44,099
instead of it for us, I think, worrying

1095
00:38:44,099 --> 00:38:46,034
about all the things we do, let's just

1096
00:38:46,034 --> 00:38:47,714
focus on who we are and how we

1097
00:38:47,714 --> 00:38:50,114
relate to one another in our power exchange.

1098
00:38:50,114 --> 00:38:52,135
That's, I think, a little bit more meaningful

1099
00:38:52,275 --> 00:38:54,114
to both of us Yeah. More than the

1100
00:38:54,114 --> 00:38:56,114
the actual activities. Mhmm.

1101
00:38:56,755 --> 00:38:59,074
And even that has adjusted over the years

1102
00:38:59,074 --> 00:38:59,574
because

1103
00:39:00,034 --> 00:39:01,014
when we

1104
00:39:01,329 --> 00:39:03,349
first moved in together in 2014,

1105
00:39:04,049 --> 00:39:04,549
had

1106
00:39:07,329 --> 00:39:09,030
a three, almost four year old,

1107
00:39:09,650 --> 00:39:11,109
and so then a

1108
00:39:11,889 --> 00:39:14,324
seven, almost eight year old. That's a different

1109
00:39:14,465 --> 00:39:15,525
life than

1110
00:39:15,985 --> 00:39:16,485
teenagers

1111
00:39:17,265 --> 00:39:19,824
who can be left alone at home. Or,

1112
00:39:19,824 --> 00:39:21,905
you know, when you become the chauffeur of

1113
00:39:21,905 --> 00:39:23,985
a of a child and are taking them

1114
00:39:23,985 --> 00:39:25,045
here, there, and yonder.

1115
00:39:26,300 --> 00:39:26,880
You know,

1116
00:39:27,579 --> 00:39:28,559
all of those

1117
00:39:29,820 --> 00:39:32,159
transformations in, like, all of our life

1118
00:39:33,579 --> 00:39:36,059
affected our power exchange. And then as we

1119
00:39:36,059 --> 00:39:38,699
have willingly put on the Internet for literal

1120
00:39:38,699 --> 00:39:41,155
fucking years, then parts of our life imploded.

1121
00:39:41,375 --> 00:39:42,275
That absolutely

1122
00:39:42,735 --> 00:39:44,894
changed Yeah. The powertrain. And now here we

1123
00:39:44,894 --> 00:39:46,574
are, our whole shtick this year is we're

1124
00:39:46,574 --> 00:39:48,014
trying to get it back and reconnect. And

1125
00:39:48,014 --> 00:39:49,215
and, you know, the whole thing with the

1126
00:39:49,215 --> 00:39:51,295
with the whole twenty four seven and and

1127
00:39:51,295 --> 00:39:51,954
the TPE,

1128
00:39:52,574 --> 00:39:53,635
you know, it's

1129
00:39:55,019 --> 00:39:55,519
it

1130
00:39:56,219 --> 00:39:58,719
it changes, it grows, it evolves,

1131
00:39:59,180 --> 00:40:01,019
and and that's something, you know, if if

1132
00:40:01,019 --> 00:40:02,940
you reach a point you say, oh my

1133
00:40:02,940 --> 00:40:05,280
gosh, this isn't working, this isn't, you know,

1134
00:40:06,155 --> 00:40:08,795
we failed. No, you haven't failed. You need

1135
00:40:08,795 --> 00:40:11,034
to change time to change it up. You

1136
00:40:11,034 --> 00:40:11,534
know,

1137
00:40:12,234 --> 00:40:13,534
we are not the same person

1138
00:40:14,315 --> 00:40:15,775
we were five years ago,

1139
00:40:16,234 --> 00:40:18,234
ten years ago, fifth, you know. Right. You

1140
00:40:18,234 --> 00:40:20,315
know what I'm saying? So it it only

1141
00:40:20,315 --> 00:40:20,815
goes,

1142
00:40:22,059 --> 00:40:23,739
you know, kind of hand in hand that

1143
00:40:23,739 --> 00:40:24,719
if we change,

1144
00:40:25,339 --> 00:40:27,739
what we're doing is gonna change. Right. As

1145
00:40:27,739 --> 00:40:30,460
our life circumstances have changed. Right. You know,

1146
00:40:30,460 --> 00:40:32,139
when we went from having little kids who

1147
00:40:32,139 --> 00:40:33,199
slept very deeply

1148
00:40:33,500 --> 00:40:35,420
to teenagers who are up a lot longer

1149
00:40:35,420 --> 00:40:38,295
than we are, certain things changed. Right? Right.

1150
00:40:38,434 --> 00:40:39,335
When we were

1151
00:40:40,755 --> 00:40:43,635
parenting younger kids who had lots of questions,

1152
00:40:43,635 --> 00:40:46,034
but they weren't, like, nosy about what we

1153
00:40:46,034 --> 00:40:47,954
were doing. Right? They just thought that was

1154
00:40:47,954 --> 00:40:50,309
normal. That's how their parents behave, so that's

1155
00:40:50,309 --> 00:40:53,349
how life is. To teenagers who get to

1156
00:40:53,349 --> 00:40:55,030
see more of the outside world and go,

1157
00:40:55,030 --> 00:40:57,110
why are you doing it though? Like, there

1158
00:40:57,110 --> 00:40:59,349
are there are and I'm using parenting as

1159
00:40:59,349 --> 00:41:01,750
the example, but every part of life does

1160
00:41:01,750 --> 00:41:05,204
this. Has your health changed over any time?

1161
00:41:05,344 --> 00:41:06,965
Guess what? You already know

1162
00:41:07,425 --> 00:41:10,085
it's impacted you. Right? It's impacted your relationships.

1163
00:41:10,144 --> 00:41:12,465
It's changed how you relate to another and

1164
00:41:12,465 --> 00:41:15,344
or what you're physically doing together and how

1165
00:41:15,344 --> 00:41:18,460
your relationship is structured. And I say as

1166
00:41:18,460 --> 00:41:19,519
a person who

1167
00:41:19,900 --> 00:41:22,619
only likes the change that I decided was

1168
00:41:22,619 --> 00:41:25,740
a good change and planned for and,

1169
00:41:26,539 --> 00:41:28,460
bought all the supplies for. Those are the

1170
00:41:28,460 --> 00:41:30,000
only changes I really like.

1171
00:41:31,644 --> 00:41:34,204
Chain having to change things in your power

1172
00:41:34,204 --> 00:41:36,785
change because your life circumstances have changed

1173
00:41:37,325 --> 00:41:39,405
Mhmm. Like you just said, it's not a

1174
00:41:39,405 --> 00:41:40,945
failure. No. It is

1175
00:41:41,565 --> 00:41:42,865
the natural progression.

1176
00:41:43,805 --> 00:41:44,305
And

1177
00:41:44,605 --> 00:41:45,105
the

1178
00:41:45,900 --> 00:41:47,440
the whole time for us

1179
00:41:47,900 --> 00:41:49,039
since we've lived together,

1180
00:41:49,500 --> 00:41:51,839
we're we've been twenty four seven. And this

1181
00:41:52,299 --> 00:41:54,559
the nature of our power exchange has shifted

1182
00:41:54,619 --> 00:41:56,159
in all kinds of ways.

1183
00:41:56,940 --> 00:41:59,534
I'll I'll say again, And I guess it'll

1184
00:41:59,534 --> 00:42:00,355
be true,

1185
00:42:01,534 --> 00:42:04,414
when the kids are, like, self sufficient. They're,

1186
00:42:04,414 --> 00:42:05,934
like, living their own lives and paying their

1187
00:42:05,934 --> 00:42:06,914
own fucking bills.

1188
00:42:07,534 --> 00:42:09,375
Maybe then we'll call ourselves total power exchange

1189
00:42:09,375 --> 00:42:10,974
because the only reason I don't consider us

1190
00:42:10,974 --> 00:42:12,014
that is because of that one fact. With

1191
00:42:12,014 --> 00:42:14,389
the kids. Yeah. And parenting is is

1192
00:42:14,690 --> 00:42:16,369
a not as a big a part of

1193
00:42:16,369 --> 00:42:17,650
our life as it once was, but it's

1194
00:42:17,650 --> 00:42:19,089
still a good chunk of it that there

1195
00:42:19,089 --> 00:42:20,949
are times I have to be fully autonomous

1196
00:42:21,010 --> 00:42:22,769
to just go, yeah, that's what we're doing,

1197
00:42:22,769 --> 00:42:24,530
and then catch him up later and hope

1198
00:42:24,530 --> 00:42:25,909
he's okay with it.

1199
00:42:26,609 --> 00:42:28,724
Which I mean, that you know, damn. You

1200
00:42:28,724 --> 00:42:30,724
know what's funny about that? On one hand,

1201
00:42:30,724 --> 00:42:32,325
I don't have a single fucking problem with

1202
00:42:32,325 --> 00:42:33,065
that because

1203
00:42:33,525 --> 00:42:35,125
they're they're our kids and we gotta take

1204
00:42:35,125 --> 00:42:36,805
care of them. On the other hand, is

1205
00:42:36,805 --> 00:42:39,204
this submissive who just considers you the decider

1206
00:42:39,204 --> 00:42:42,164
all the time? Whew. There's some anxiety there.

1207
00:42:42,164 --> 00:42:43,845
Like, what if he really doesn't like what

1208
00:42:43,845 --> 00:42:45,530
I decided or did?

1209
00:42:46,949 --> 00:42:48,949
For us, this won't be true for everybody.

1210
00:42:48,949 --> 00:42:50,869
I know. But for us, we tend to

1211
00:42:50,869 --> 00:42:53,269
be on the same page about things and

1212
00:42:53,269 --> 00:42:55,670
we are not overly precious about our own

1213
00:42:55,670 --> 00:42:56,570
fucking ideas.

1214
00:42:57,164 --> 00:42:59,164
If I can make the case for why

1215
00:42:59,164 --> 00:43:00,765
doing it this way when JB would never

1216
00:43:00,765 --> 00:43:02,765
have chosen that makes fucking sense, he's like,

1217
00:43:02,765 --> 00:43:03,985
okay. That makes sense.

1218
00:43:04,445 --> 00:43:06,525
If he can get through my issue with

1219
00:43:06,525 --> 00:43:08,445
anything changing that I'm unprepared for and and

1220
00:43:08,445 --> 00:43:10,445
my feelings about that and tell me, hey,

1221
00:43:10,445 --> 00:43:11,949
I did this but here's why, and this

1222
00:43:11,949 --> 00:43:13,809
is the outcome. And I can see it.

1223
00:43:14,510 --> 00:43:16,269
I don't I don't need to argue my

1224
00:43:16,269 --> 00:43:18,349
point. I trust him. That's that's a big

1225
00:43:18,349 --> 00:43:20,030
part of it. I fucking trust him. Just

1226
00:43:20,030 --> 00:43:22,110
make the decision. Make sure the kid makes

1227
00:43:22,110 --> 00:43:23,410
it out alive. Okay?

1228
00:43:24,349 --> 00:43:24,849
Yeah.

1229
00:43:25,804 --> 00:43:27,484
But it is a very weird feeling to

1230
00:43:27,484 --> 00:43:29,565
me, which is why I think that based

1231
00:43:29,565 --> 00:43:31,005
on how we look at these things and

1232
00:43:31,005 --> 00:43:33,404
define our relationship, I would be perfectly happy

1233
00:43:33,404 --> 00:43:34,625
with total power exchange

1234
00:43:36,125 --> 00:43:38,284
minus, you know, if parenting wasn't an issue.

1235
00:43:38,284 --> 00:43:40,045
Sure. Sure. You know, part of it is

1236
00:43:40,045 --> 00:43:41,030
I I think

1237
00:43:42,289 --> 00:43:44,469
my personal opinion, if anybody asked,

1238
00:43:45,170 --> 00:43:47,910
is if you are parents or raising children,

1239
00:43:48,210 --> 00:43:49,989
I don't care, guardianship, whatever,

1240
00:43:50,530 --> 00:43:51,750
that is to me,

1241
00:43:52,690 --> 00:43:54,530
minimum, the one aspect that should not be

1242
00:43:54,530 --> 00:43:57,545
power exchange because one partner does not always

1243
00:43:57,545 --> 00:44:00,105
know best in any situation but definitely that

1244
00:44:00,105 --> 00:44:03,405
situation. Right? In my case, I have been

1245
00:44:03,625 --> 00:44:05,565
taking care of these children from literally

1246
00:44:05,944 --> 00:44:07,784
they spat out of the womb. Okay? I

1247
00:44:07,784 --> 00:44:09,304
almost shot the one across the room. He

1248
00:44:09,304 --> 00:44:10,489
was so close. It was it was a

1249
00:44:10,489 --> 00:44:11,230
wild story.

1250
00:44:12,889 --> 00:44:15,289
I am not abdicating that responsibility. I'm not

1251
00:44:15,289 --> 00:44:17,609
handing that responsibility to anybody. I will share

1252
00:44:17,609 --> 00:44:18,269
that responsibility.

1253
00:44:18,809 --> 00:44:20,589
The rest of my fucking life?

1254
00:44:21,210 --> 00:44:22,815
Psssh. Please somebody take responsibility for it.

1255
00:44:23,934 --> 00:44:25,474
I don't think I can be trusted.

1256
00:44:28,574 --> 00:44:29,795
And and yet,

1257
00:44:30,094 --> 00:44:32,014
I we neither one of us at this

1258
00:44:32,014 --> 00:44:33,635
point in life want a highly managed

1259
00:44:33,934 --> 00:44:35,880
total fire exchange. We don't that does not

1260
00:44:35,880 --> 00:44:37,880
work for us. No. It it doesn't fit

1261
00:44:37,880 --> 00:44:39,639
our life right now. No. It doesn't fit

1262
00:44:39,639 --> 00:44:40,380
our personalities,

1263
00:44:40,679 --> 00:44:42,920
though. Mm-mm. You know what's funny? We love

1264
00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:43,739
to be together.

1265
00:44:44,199 --> 00:44:46,599
We get kinda lonely for one y'all, we

1266
00:44:46,599 --> 00:44:48,299
live together. We work together.

1267
00:44:48,760 --> 00:44:49,260
We

1268
00:44:49,674 --> 00:44:51,914
we work at our house. Like, we don't

1269
00:44:51,914 --> 00:44:53,135
go anywhere

1270
00:44:53,594 --> 00:44:55,914
practically without each other. We are 24 fucking

1271
00:44:55,914 --> 00:44:57,775
seven more together. And yet,

1272
00:44:58,074 --> 00:44:59,835
when our day kinda pulls us apart just

1273
00:44:59,835 --> 00:45:01,375
in different parts of the property,

1274
00:45:02,074 --> 00:45:03,679
we'll be like, oh, I missed you. Like,

1275
00:45:03,679 --> 00:45:05,780
we want to be together, but

1276
00:45:06,159 --> 00:45:07,760
there are parts of our personality and parts

1277
00:45:07,760 --> 00:45:09,440
of our life that it we're not gonna

1278
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:10,500
get anything done

1279
00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:12,980
if we are constantly up each other's ass.

1280
00:45:14,795 --> 00:45:17,035
And so I say that to say for

1281
00:45:17,035 --> 00:45:18,875
the person out there who's like, well, I

1282
00:45:18,875 --> 00:45:20,394
thought I wanted twenty four seven. There's something

1283
00:45:20,394 --> 00:45:22,155
about that appeals to me, but this one

1284
00:45:22,155 --> 00:45:23,914
example I've seen, I can't do that and

1285
00:45:23,914 --> 00:45:25,515
I don't like that, so clearly I don't

1286
00:45:25,515 --> 00:45:26,954
like twenty four seven or I don't like

1287
00:45:26,954 --> 00:45:28,015
total power exchange.

1288
00:45:28,394 --> 00:45:30,829
Maybe you don't. Maybe you don't. But maybe

1289
00:45:30,829 --> 00:45:32,670
it's just your definition's been too narrow and

1290
00:45:32,670 --> 00:45:34,590
you're not customizing it for the life you

1291
00:45:34,590 --> 00:45:36,750
have. You want or what works for you.

1292
00:45:36,750 --> 00:45:39,010
Yes. Not one of us has to justify

1293
00:45:39,070 --> 00:45:41,070
our fucking power exchange and our kink life

1294
00:45:41,070 --> 00:45:43,570
to another goddamn soul. Okay?

1295
00:45:44,030 --> 00:45:45,094
The The only person who has to be

1296
00:45:45,094 --> 00:45:46,775
in agreement with you is the person you're

1297
00:45:46,775 --> 00:45:49,815
in the relationship with. Right. You know, I

1298
00:45:49,815 --> 00:45:51,255
highly recommend if you do go to the

1299
00:45:51,255 --> 00:45:53,974
virtual summit, please, please, please, please watch, Rah

1300
00:45:53,974 --> 00:45:55,434
Rah's session on comparison.

1301
00:45:55,734 --> 00:45:57,460
I don't know what what words she's gonna

1302
00:45:57,460 --> 00:45:59,059
say, but I know she's gonna tell you

1303
00:45:59,059 --> 00:46:00,680
to stop fucking doing that because

1304
00:46:01,940 --> 00:46:04,019
comparison is the thief of fucking joy. And

1305
00:46:04,019 --> 00:46:06,099
that I don't I don't like, like, pithy

1306
00:46:06,099 --> 00:46:08,039
little sayings, but that one's true.

1307
00:46:08,735 --> 00:46:10,175
Too many people are looking at what other

1308
00:46:10,175 --> 00:46:11,375
people do and going, well, I can't do

1309
00:46:11,375 --> 00:46:13,215
it exactly word for word like that, so

1310
00:46:13,215 --> 00:46:15,454
clearly I'm doing it wrong. Or you're coming

1311
00:46:15,454 --> 00:46:16,275
across the

1312
00:46:16,815 --> 00:46:18,815
grotesque people online are like, this is the

1313
00:46:18,815 --> 00:46:20,094
one true way. And if you don't do

1314
00:46:20,094 --> 00:46:21,695
it this way, you're doing it wrong. Fuck

1315
00:46:21,695 --> 00:46:23,460
them. I hate them so much. Or or

1316
00:46:23,460 --> 00:46:26,039
you get, I want exactly what they have.

1317
00:46:26,099 --> 00:46:27,300
We used to get that a lot, and

1318
00:46:27,300 --> 00:46:29,539
I would always go, no. You do you

1319
00:46:29,539 --> 00:46:30,360
really don't.

1320
00:46:30,739 --> 00:46:32,980
We have an episode in our archives from

1321
00:46:32,980 --> 00:46:35,159
five or six years ago. I literally said,

1322
00:46:36,534 --> 00:46:39,255
please watch out for those hashtag relationship goals.

1323
00:46:39,255 --> 00:46:40,614
Like and I used us as the example

1324
00:46:40,614 --> 00:46:42,135
because it was happening a lot at the

1325
00:46:42,135 --> 00:46:43,675
time. I was like, no. No. No. No.

1326
00:46:44,454 --> 00:46:46,855
We're we're wrecks. Okay? We got our own

1327
00:46:46,855 --> 00:46:49,929
fucking issues. Please don't try to be exactly

1328
00:46:49,989 --> 00:46:50,730
like us.

1329
00:46:51,909 --> 00:46:54,309
Be whatever the best scenario is for you

1330
00:46:54,309 --> 00:46:56,549
and your relationship. That's what you need to

1331
00:46:56,549 --> 00:46:57,369
do. Yeah.

1332
00:47:00,230 --> 00:47:00,730
So

1333
00:47:01,030 --> 00:47:02,409
let's try a recap.

1334
00:47:02,710 --> 00:47:04,414
Okay. Twenty four seven

1335
00:47:05,035 --> 00:47:06,875
in the broadest sense of the word means

1336
00:47:06,875 --> 00:47:09,515
there's no real stop to who your you

1337
00:47:09,515 --> 00:47:11,215
are, your identity, your power exchange.

1338
00:47:11,515 --> 00:47:12,655
Even if the activities

1339
00:47:13,914 --> 00:47:15,914
die down, even if you need to pause

1340
00:47:15,914 --> 00:47:18,590
because somebody got hit by a car on

1341
00:47:18,590 --> 00:47:20,750
their motherfucking motorcycle and your life sort of

1342
00:47:20,750 --> 00:47:22,289
imploded all at once. Right?

1343
00:47:22,750 --> 00:47:23,809
But I'm not bitter.

1344
00:47:24,269 --> 00:47:25,869
You hold that close to the vest, don't

1345
00:47:25,869 --> 00:47:27,489
you? We're traumatized. Yeah.

1346
00:47:27,949 --> 00:47:29,090
Look, I would be

1347
00:47:29,469 --> 00:47:30,829
I'd be a wreck if I didn't let

1348
00:47:30,829 --> 00:47:32,030
it out, so we're just gonna have to

1349
00:47:32,030 --> 00:47:33,614
let it out, and I'll never get over

1350
00:47:33,614 --> 00:47:33,695
it.

1351
00:47:36,255 --> 00:47:38,675
So broadly speaking, twenty four seven just means

1352
00:47:39,054 --> 00:47:41,375
your power exchange is not something you turn

1353
00:47:41,375 --> 00:47:43,235
off and on and it's not maybe

1354
00:47:44,015 --> 00:47:46,735
maybe it's not bedroom only. You know? It

1355
00:47:46,735 --> 00:47:48,969
kind of comes out into other parts of

1356
00:47:48,969 --> 00:47:50,809
your life. It inhabits other parts of your

1357
00:47:50,809 --> 00:47:52,809
life in whatever way makes sense for your

1358
00:47:52,809 --> 00:47:54,409
life, and in a meaningful way to you

1359
00:47:54,409 --> 00:47:56,329
and your partner. So that in some way

1360
00:47:56,329 --> 00:47:57,710
you're like, yeah 20 fourseven

1361
00:47:58,089 --> 00:48:00,265
this is who we are to each other.

1362
00:48:00,565 --> 00:48:02,005
Are there a lot of rules? I don't

1363
00:48:02,005 --> 00:48:02,505
know.

1364
00:48:02,885 --> 00:48:04,244
Are there a lot of activities? I don't

1365
00:48:04,244 --> 00:48:05,445
know. Do you have to ask your dom

1366
00:48:05,445 --> 00:48:07,364
for permission on all things? I don't know.

1367
00:48:07,364 --> 00:48:08,965
That's for you to decide based on the

1368
00:48:08,965 --> 00:48:11,465
life you live. Total power exchange

1369
00:48:12,565 --> 00:48:14,265
is twenty four seven,

1370
00:48:14,909 --> 00:48:15,409
but

1371
00:48:15,949 --> 00:48:16,609
it means,

1372
00:48:17,150 --> 00:48:18,829
in my mind, there's not a facet of

1373
00:48:18,829 --> 00:48:20,429
your life that is not governed by your

1374
00:48:20,429 --> 00:48:22,609
power exchange on some level,

1375
00:48:23,230 --> 00:48:24,049
some level.

1376
00:48:24,429 --> 00:48:26,269
And truly, the only reason I don't consider

1377
00:48:26,269 --> 00:48:27,809
us that is because of

1378
00:48:28,135 --> 00:48:30,375
the parenting. I'll just say it 85,000,000 more

1379
00:48:30,375 --> 00:48:32,555
times to really drive the point home.

1380
00:48:34,055 --> 00:48:36,375
But you can define that for yourself. You

1381
00:48:36,375 --> 00:48:37,894
might have a similar setup to us where

1382
00:48:37,894 --> 00:48:39,575
we have the parenting thing. We're co equals

1383
00:48:39,575 --> 00:48:41,880
there. That there's no there's compromise. There's no,

1384
00:48:42,279 --> 00:48:44,059
you know, one overriding the other.

1385
00:48:44,679 --> 00:48:46,119
But everything else you do and you might

1386
00:48:46,119 --> 00:48:48,199
go, but that's total power exchange to us.

1387
00:48:48,199 --> 00:48:50,279
That's fine. I'm not gonna tell you how

1388
00:48:50,279 --> 00:48:52,119
to define it for yourself. But total power

1389
00:48:52,119 --> 00:48:55,239
exchange, my point is, it is much more

1390
00:48:55,239 --> 00:48:57,984
and has the capacity to be much more

1391
00:48:57,984 --> 00:48:59,764
than those highly managed,

1392
00:49:00,385 --> 00:49:01,525
shit ton of rules,

1393
00:49:01,905 --> 00:49:04,144
get permission for absolutely everything, every moment of

1394
00:49:04,144 --> 00:49:06,545
the day kind of things. You can have

1395
00:49:06,545 --> 00:49:08,224
that. You can work towards that if that

1396
00:49:08,304 --> 00:49:09,425
if that's what you want and you can

1397
00:49:09,425 --> 00:49:10,469
make it work with your life.

1398
00:49:11,349 --> 00:49:12,170
But it is

1399
00:49:12,710 --> 00:49:14,650
less than that as well.

1400
00:49:15,829 --> 00:49:18,489
In whatever way makes sense to y'all.

1401
00:49:18,869 --> 00:49:20,150
None of us need to be walking around

1402
00:49:20,150 --> 00:49:21,050
here justifying

1403
00:49:21,750 --> 00:49:22,489
how we've

1404
00:49:23,015 --> 00:49:24,614
you know, put together our power exchange for

1405
00:49:24,614 --> 00:49:26,695
the life we're leading right now because nobody

1406
00:49:26,695 --> 00:49:28,695
else is living our fucking lives. Nobody else

1407
00:49:28,695 --> 00:49:31,015
has our personality. Nobody has else has our

1408
00:49:31,015 --> 00:49:32,635
mental illnesses, our physical

1409
00:49:33,175 --> 00:49:33,675
disabilities,

1410
00:49:34,055 --> 00:49:34,135
our

1411
00:49:34,949 --> 00:49:37,109
you know, our jobs, our bills, our

1412
00:49:38,469 --> 00:49:38,969
so

1413
00:49:39,989 --> 00:49:42,309
yeah. That to me, that's 20 fourseven and

1414
00:49:42,309 --> 00:49:44,550
that's total power exchange. And I guess my

1415
00:49:44,550 --> 00:49:46,789
my conclusion, tell me if you agree, twenty

1416
00:49:46,789 --> 00:49:47,289
fourseven

1417
00:49:48,565 --> 00:49:49,065
is

1418
00:49:49,765 --> 00:49:50,664
the umbrella,

1419
00:49:51,605 --> 00:49:54,405
and total power exchange fits under the umbrella.

1420
00:49:54,405 --> 00:49:55,065
Yeah. Yeah.

1421
00:49:56,005 --> 00:49:56,505
Yeah.

1422
00:49:57,605 --> 00:49:58,105
Look.

1423
00:49:58,405 --> 00:50:00,804
I think reasonable people can agree to disagree.

1424
00:50:00,804 --> 00:50:02,164
I think you can define that anyway. You

1425
00:50:02,164 --> 00:50:03,684
could go, no. No. Total power exchange is

1426
00:50:03,684 --> 00:50:05,590
the umbrella, and but that's just how my

1427
00:50:05,590 --> 00:50:06,869
brain is looking at it. Looking at it.

1428
00:50:06,869 --> 00:50:08,010
Yeah. Yeah.

1429
00:50:08,469 --> 00:50:10,090
Because total power exchange,

1430
00:50:11,349 --> 00:50:13,829
in my mind, is always twenty four seven

1431
00:50:13,829 --> 00:50:15,510
in some way. Right? Because if it's a

1432
00:50:15,510 --> 00:50:18,150
total power exchange Mhmm. Then that the Dom

1433
00:50:18,150 --> 00:50:19,769
has some level of control

1434
00:50:20,364 --> 00:50:21,025
and power

1435
00:50:21,885 --> 00:50:23,905
totally all the time. But

1436
00:50:24,285 --> 00:50:26,945
twenty four seven does not have to be

1437
00:50:27,644 --> 00:50:29,265
total power exchange.

1438
00:50:30,445 --> 00:50:31,565
I think it's a little bit of a

1439
00:50:31,565 --> 00:50:33,244
mind fuck. And quite frankly, what I would

1440
00:50:33,244 --> 00:50:34,525
say is I don't think there's a right

1441
00:50:34,525 --> 00:50:36,065
or wrong answer. You're right.

1442
00:50:36,659 --> 00:50:37,319
The only

1443
00:50:38,900 --> 00:50:40,119
right or wrong

1444
00:50:42,019 --> 00:50:43,699
is see looking at one example and then

1445
00:50:43,699 --> 00:50:45,800
deciding because you can't do that one version

1446
00:50:45,940 --> 00:50:47,539
that you can't do it or you're doing

1447
00:50:47,539 --> 00:50:48,119
it wrong.

1448
00:50:48,500 --> 00:50:50,175
Or to look at somebody else's example

1449
00:50:51,135 --> 00:50:52,655
example and it doesn't match yours and to

1450
00:50:52,655 --> 00:50:53,875
think they're doing it

1451
00:50:54,255 --> 00:50:54,914
wrong. So

1452
00:50:55,614 --> 00:50:56,655
that's where we go wrong with it. I

1453
00:50:56,655 --> 00:50:59,315
think Mhmm. Again, because, man, there's always somebody

1454
00:51:00,494 --> 00:51:03,739
somewhere who gets real fucking snarky. Yes. Words

1455
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:04,780
mean things.

1456
00:51:06,840 --> 00:51:07,340
Yes.

1457
00:51:07,960 --> 00:51:10,519
But, also, you can tailor that. There is

1458
00:51:10,519 --> 00:51:11,659
some wiggle room

1459
00:51:12,199 --> 00:51:14,280
in what these terms mean and what they

1460
00:51:14,280 --> 00:51:15,739
mean to you as an individual.

1461
00:51:16,199 --> 00:51:17,900
It also does mean that you

1462
00:51:18,305 --> 00:51:20,385
end up explaining yourself more. When you tell

1463
00:51:20,385 --> 00:51:22,545
somebody you're twenty four seven and you're in

1464
00:51:22,545 --> 00:51:24,065
a conversation with them, you might then need

1465
00:51:24,065 --> 00:51:25,585
to go, this is what this means to

1466
00:51:25,585 --> 00:51:26,405
us. Right?

1467
00:51:27,105 --> 00:51:29,105
But it's only if you want to, quite

1468
00:51:29,105 --> 00:51:29,605
frankly.

1469
00:51:31,105 --> 00:51:31,605
I,

1470
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:34,480
silent in the live chat, says maybe they're

1471
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:37,420
both umbrellas, but you've got two hands. I

1472
00:51:37,599 --> 00:51:39,679
kinda like that. I'll take any analogy because

1473
00:51:39,679 --> 00:51:40,739
I'm not good at those.

1474
00:51:42,639 --> 00:51:44,239
I do I think it's that's one of

1475
00:51:44,239 --> 00:51:46,260
those weird ones where I if you

1476
00:51:47,744 --> 00:51:50,005
same, okay. If you don't,

1477
00:51:50,464 --> 00:51:52,304
okay. Yeah. As long as it makes sense

1478
00:51:52,304 --> 00:51:52,964
for your

1479
00:51:54,224 --> 00:51:56,244
situation. That's that's what I would say.

1480
00:51:56,545 --> 00:51:58,864
There you go. I made myself hot well,

1481
00:51:58,864 --> 00:52:00,545
I mean, it's hot outside. Mhmm. But I

1482
00:52:00,545 --> 00:52:02,130
I raised my blood pressure, and I made

1483
00:52:02,849 --> 00:52:03,909
my my throat sore.

1484
00:52:04,289 --> 00:52:05,730
And they said it was gonna be a,

1485
00:52:06,130 --> 00:52:07,269
high pollen day.

1486
00:52:07,730 --> 00:52:09,750
Mhmm. And they are absolutely correct.

1487
00:52:10,210 --> 00:52:12,929
Yeah. My white car is yellow. Yeah. And

1488
00:52:12,929 --> 00:52:15,489
I saw somebody driving a dark colored car,

1489
00:52:15,489 --> 00:52:17,034
maybe it was black, and it was yellow.

1490
00:52:17,034 --> 00:52:19,594
Yes. Now I can tell my eyes not

1491
00:52:19,675 --> 00:52:20,574
won't don't aren't

1492
00:52:21,514 --> 00:52:24,255
my eyes keep watering. Mhmm. Mhmm.

1493
00:52:25,994 --> 00:52:28,650
So did we help? Did we annoy? Is

1494
00:52:28,730 --> 00:52:30,909
it clear as mud you I

1495
00:52:32,569 --> 00:52:33,230
don't know.

1496
00:52:34,250 --> 00:52:35,929
All I want is for somebody out there

1497
00:52:35,929 --> 00:52:38,569
to go, okay. Okay. I can do this

1498
00:52:38,569 --> 00:52:40,089
the way I want. I'm not wrong. I

1499
00:52:40,089 --> 00:52:40,664
didn't do

1500
00:52:41,304 --> 00:52:43,385
it wrong. You know, this is achievable, whatever.

1501
00:52:43,385 --> 00:52:44,985
And then I want somebody else who's like,

1502
00:52:44,985 --> 00:52:47,485
oh, wait. It shouldn't be like this hellscape

1503
00:52:47,704 --> 00:52:49,804
that I'm living in. It can be different.

1504
00:52:50,344 --> 00:52:51,324
Yes. It can.

1505
00:52:52,905 --> 00:52:53,579
But yeah.

1506
00:52:54,460 --> 00:52:56,539
Because it's all fucking customizable. We're gonna do

1507
00:52:56,539 --> 00:52:58,140
that episode. It'll be a ranty one, I'm

1508
00:52:58,140 --> 00:52:59,980
sure, that has no real general point other

1509
00:52:59,980 --> 00:53:01,579
than we'll play a drinking game over how

1510
00:53:01,579 --> 00:53:02,800
many times I say customizable.

1511
00:53:03,980 --> 00:53:05,500
Just like we should have played a drinking

1512
00:53:05,500 --> 00:53:06,780
game with this one how many times I

1513
00:53:06,780 --> 00:53:09,315
said highly managed, but then we probably somebody

1514
00:53:09,315 --> 00:53:10,914
gets sick. And I don't need that kind

1515
00:53:10,914 --> 00:53:13,155
of liability, so maybe we shouldn't do that.

1516
00:53:13,155 --> 00:53:13,894
I don't know.

1517
00:53:15,394 --> 00:53:15,894
Anyway

1518
00:53:16,275 --> 00:53:18,195
Anyhoo. Do you have anything else you would

1519
00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:19,795
like to add? No. You did a good

1520
00:53:19,795 --> 00:53:21,414
job, girl. Oh, thank you, daddy.

1521
00:53:22,034 --> 00:53:22,534
I

1522
00:53:23,074 --> 00:53:24,630
I feel like I've run out of words.

1523
00:53:24,869 --> 00:53:26,549
I ran out of steam on the topic.

1524
00:53:26,549 --> 00:53:27,449
Does that help?

1525
00:53:28,710 --> 00:53:30,949
If people ask more pointed questions in the

1526
00:53:30,949 --> 00:53:32,469
future, I could see coming back to it

1527
00:53:32,469 --> 00:53:34,949
because it's a nuanced topic. There's There it

1528
00:53:35,190 --> 00:53:36,549
there's more to it. There's a lot under

1529
00:53:36,549 --> 00:53:38,469
that umbrella. The this we're just talking about

1530
00:53:38,469 --> 00:53:40,489
the umbrella. Yeah. Yeah. Mhmm.

1531
00:53:40,925 --> 00:53:43,724
Not the person standing under it. Nope. Or

1532
00:53:43,724 --> 00:53:45,984
whichever hand they're using to hold whichever umbrella.

1533
00:53:46,045 --> 00:53:46,864
That's true.

1534
00:53:47,405 --> 00:53:49,025
I'm not allowed to hold the umbrellas.

1535
00:53:49,565 --> 00:53:50,065
I,

1536
00:53:50,525 --> 00:53:51,824
hit other people accidentally

1537
00:53:53,085 --> 00:53:54,625
on a busy London sidewalk.

1538
00:53:57,289 --> 00:53:58,809
No. I'm not I don't get to control

1539
00:53:58,809 --> 00:54:00,409
the umbrella. But I'm a Florida girl. I

1540
00:54:00,409 --> 00:54:02,250
don't like fucking using umbrellas anyway. Give it

1541
00:54:02,250 --> 00:54:03,550
five minutes. The rain will stop.

1542
00:54:04,890 --> 00:54:08,190
Anyway Anyhoo. Gonna do a bonus section.

1543
00:54:08,570 --> 00:54:10,454
This one this one a little more off

1544
00:54:10,454 --> 00:54:12,054
the rails than usual, didn't it? Are we,

1545
00:54:12,375 --> 00:54:14,134
are we good, girl? You shouldn't ask me

1546
00:54:14,134 --> 00:54:15,755
that. I'm not in charge of that.

1547
00:54:17,734 --> 00:54:19,414
Keep it kinky, y'all. And we'll see you

1548
00:54:19,414 --> 00:54:20,234
next week.

1549
00:54:30,250 --> 00:54:31,550
Can I talk to the crickets?

1550
00:54:32,010 --> 00:54:33,869
Yes. That was the fastest

1551
00:54:34,250 --> 00:54:37,050
move from Keep it kinky y'all to

1552
00:54:37,644 --> 00:54:39,485
hey, I almost forgot I needed to ask.

1553
00:54:39,485 --> 00:54:41,164
I'm usually waiting for you to write down

1554
00:54:41,164 --> 00:54:43,325
numbers. Yeah. Yeah. I I like these this

1555
00:54:43,325 --> 00:54:45,805
little trick I learned. I know. Only ten

1556
00:54:45,805 --> 00:54:46,305
years

1557
00:54:46,765 --> 00:54:50,045
later. What the fuck? Look. Look. Learn late

1558
00:54:50,045 --> 00:54:52,690
than never? It proves there's always something new

1559
00:54:52,690 --> 00:54:54,610
to learn. You can teach an old dog

1560
00:54:54,610 --> 00:54:56,869
new tricks. I wasn't gonna go there.

1561
00:54:58,050 --> 00:54:59,650
I'm not trying to get into that kind

1562
00:54:59,650 --> 00:55:00,630
of trouble today.

1563
00:55:01,170 --> 00:55:02,309
Thank you very much.

1564
00:55:02,930 --> 00:55:04,849
It's okay for me. Yeah. You'd you'd be

1565
00:55:04,849 --> 00:55:06,905
in trouble. Exactly. But if you said it

1566
00:55:06,905 --> 00:55:08,364
to me, I would just cry.

1567
00:55:08,664 --> 00:55:11,144
True. Because I yes. I'm getting older, but

1568
00:55:11,144 --> 00:55:11,644
I

1569
00:55:12,025 --> 00:55:14,105
I don't know about aging gracefully. Yeah. I

1570
00:55:14,105 --> 00:55:15,724
don't think I've got it. Yeah. No.

1571
00:55:17,304 --> 00:55:19,405
No. I I've I've you know,

1572
00:55:20,150 --> 00:55:22,070
we we've talked about what we've been going

1573
00:55:22,070 --> 00:55:23,829
through with Lola a little bit and I,

1574
00:55:23,829 --> 00:55:26,390
you know, I've, She heard you and opened

1575
00:55:26,390 --> 00:55:27,610
her eyes. Ditching.

1576
00:55:28,710 --> 00:55:29,210
And,

1577
00:55:30,309 --> 00:55:32,644
you know Hi, Lola. I I, you know,

1578
00:55:32,644 --> 00:55:34,244
when we were going through all that stuff

1579
00:55:34,244 --> 00:55:35,764
with the vets and trying to find the

1580
00:55:35,764 --> 00:55:37,364
right meds for her and everything, I was

1581
00:55:37,364 --> 00:55:37,864
like,

1582
00:55:38,804 --> 00:55:40,664
you and I, kid, we ain't we ain't

1583
00:55:40,964 --> 00:55:42,885
nothing about this is graceful for either of

1584
00:55:42,885 --> 00:55:43,385
us.

1585
00:55:45,590 --> 00:55:48,170
No. You're aging more gracefully than you realize.

1586
00:55:48,550 --> 00:55:50,550
Maybe. I don't know. I mean, do do

1587
00:55:50,550 --> 00:55:52,389
you have a top of your head that's

1588
00:55:52,389 --> 00:55:54,789
literally split between your dark your dark side

1589
00:55:54,789 --> 00:55:56,650
and your My dark your dark side.

1590
00:56:00,155 --> 00:56:01,434
I mean, the dark side, I don't know

1591
00:56:01,434 --> 00:56:02,594
if It could go either way. I could

1592
00:56:02,635 --> 00:56:05,594
Right. Well, that's always been true. And, actually,

1593
00:56:05,594 --> 00:56:07,594
it's not either way for you. It's always.

1594
00:56:07,594 --> 00:56:09,515
I could go always, and we know we

1595
00:56:09,515 --> 00:56:10,655
know. We know.

1596
00:56:12,630 --> 00:56:13,529
Part of your charm.

1597
00:56:15,589 --> 00:56:16,730
But but yeah.

1598
00:56:17,429 --> 00:56:18,949
Yeah. No. I I see it every time

1599
00:56:18,949 --> 00:56:20,069
I, you know, look at Look in the

1600
00:56:20,150 --> 00:56:21,210
yeah. Yeah. Podcast,

1601
00:56:21,829 --> 00:56:23,829
folks, even if you don't usually watch YouTube

1602
00:56:23,829 --> 00:56:25,509
video, you're a podcast listener. I'm just saying,

1603
00:56:25,509 --> 00:56:25,965
go find one

1604
00:56:27,885 --> 00:56:28,030
one of our more recent videos Yeah. And

1605
00:56:28,030 --> 00:56:29,325
just look at the top of JB's head.

1606
00:56:29,325 --> 00:56:31,085
That's all I'm saying. I think there's a

1607
00:56:31,085 --> 00:56:31,405
little,

1608
00:56:33,005 --> 00:56:35,164
spot happening here too. Do you want me

1609
00:56:35,164 --> 00:56:36,765
to tell you that it's been happening for

1610
00:56:36,765 --> 00:56:38,420
a few years? Yeah. I don't look back

1611
00:56:38,420 --> 00:56:40,820
there very often. So I look. I'm good

1612
00:56:40,820 --> 00:56:42,500
though. I figure the back of my head

1613
00:56:42,500 --> 00:56:45,400
is not my problem. It's somebody else's problem.

1614
00:56:45,539 --> 00:56:47,079
I don't have to look at it.

1615
00:56:47,380 --> 00:56:48,260
I mean, I don't want to be a

1616
00:56:48,260 --> 00:56:50,920
rat's nest back there. Yeah. No. I've,

1617
00:56:53,444 --> 00:56:54,964
it's where I like to rub the top

1618
00:56:54,964 --> 00:56:56,804
of your head, and I'll there's a little

1619
00:56:56,804 --> 00:56:58,085
bit of, oh, god. Did I did I

1620
00:56:58,085 --> 00:57:00,904
rub too much? Like, worry stone? Like,

1621
00:57:01,605 --> 00:57:04,269
did I just polish that brass statue? Like,

1622
00:57:04,269 --> 00:57:06,390
you're gonna whoop my belly. I'm gonna go

1623
00:57:06,390 --> 00:57:08,190
away and rub my ham. I wish it

1624
00:57:08,190 --> 00:57:09,250
worked that way.

1625
00:57:09,950 --> 00:57:11,010
Fucking hell.

1626
00:57:14,110 --> 00:57:16,815
Fucking hell. Wish it worked that way. Look.

1627
00:57:16,815 --> 00:57:18,494
I'll rub you wherever you'd like to be

1628
00:57:18,494 --> 00:57:21,295
rubbed, but, you know, what what made that

1629
00:57:21,295 --> 00:57:22,675
face? You made a face.

1630
00:57:24,894 --> 00:57:26,494
Yeah. I did. Did you leave the door

1631
00:57:26,494 --> 00:57:28,894
open? Yep. I've just been screaming about twenty

1632
00:57:28,894 --> 00:57:31,214
four seven, and we didn't even close the

1633
00:57:31,214 --> 00:57:32,275
office door.

1634
00:57:32,889 --> 00:57:35,369
Hopefully, the kid is smarter than we are

1635
00:57:35,369 --> 00:57:36,429
and just closed

1636
00:57:36,730 --> 00:57:37,710
their damn door.

1637
00:57:38,250 --> 00:57:40,969
He he he sits with his headphones most

1638
00:57:40,969 --> 00:57:43,070
of the time. That child don't hear shit.

1639
00:57:43,130 --> 00:57:45,210
No. I think it's because he mostly just

1640
00:57:45,210 --> 00:57:47,085
doesn't want to. Right. Right.

1641
00:57:48,744 --> 00:57:50,985
So but, yeah, what kinda I'm I'm I'm

1642
00:57:50,985 --> 00:57:52,445
sitting here, you know, we're talking,

1643
00:57:52,985 --> 00:57:54,684
and it's like I'm watching Ella

1644
00:57:55,385 --> 00:57:56,905
just walk up and and lay down in

1645
00:57:56,905 --> 00:57:58,664
front of the door. Yes. She's And it

1646
00:57:58,664 --> 00:58:00,364
and it did not dawn on me.

1647
00:58:00,800 --> 00:58:02,800
Where she came from? Yeah. Yeah. And then

1648
00:58:02,800 --> 00:58:03,460
went like,

1649
00:58:03,760 --> 00:58:05,139
how'd she get in here?

1650
00:58:05,760 --> 00:58:07,679
I know. She's cuddly enough. I kinda wanna

1651
00:58:07,679 --> 00:58:08,800
scoop her up and put her in front

1652
00:58:08,800 --> 00:58:10,159
of the camera, but that would be the

1653
00:58:10,159 --> 00:58:11,840
time she decides to be her bitch self

1654
00:58:11,840 --> 00:58:13,599
and I would just get scars. And I

1655
00:58:13,599 --> 00:58:15,059
don't really want that, so

1656
00:58:15,625 --> 00:58:18,184
I'm gonna respect her bodily autonomy and not

1657
00:58:18,184 --> 00:58:19,565
pick her up without consent.

1658
00:58:21,065 --> 00:58:22,985
I don't have to, like, give her medication

1659
00:58:22,985 --> 00:58:24,425
or make her do something that is good

1660
00:58:24,425 --> 00:58:25,704
for her health, so I'll just leave her

1661
00:58:25,704 --> 00:58:26,525
the fuck alone.

1662
00:58:29,000 --> 00:58:30,679
So what else we got going off in

1663
00:58:30,679 --> 00:58:31,179
the

1664
00:58:31,800 --> 00:58:33,480
the bonus section? I saw the I said

1665
00:58:33,480 --> 00:58:34,840
this to the in the butt rub, but

1666
00:58:34,840 --> 00:58:36,920
I saw the 19 year old yesterday. Mhmm.

1667
00:58:36,920 --> 00:58:38,599
That was the most one of the most

1668
00:58:38,599 --> 00:58:39,099
interesting

1669
00:58:39,855 --> 00:58:41,695
air quote. It was not a visit visit.

1670
00:58:41,695 --> 00:58:44,255
It was a mom, I need food and

1671
00:58:44,255 --> 00:58:46,014
I need to go to Walmart. Can can

1672
00:58:46,014 --> 00:58:46,675
you come?

1673
00:58:48,014 --> 00:58:49,295
And I, you know, I was like, yeah.

1674
00:58:49,295 --> 00:58:50,974
Sure. And I had all the time in

1675
00:58:50,974 --> 00:58:51,554
the world.

1676
00:58:52,014 --> 00:58:53,614
Normally, if I go see him in the

1677
00:58:53,614 --> 00:58:55,340
middle of the week, I'm on a tight

1678
00:58:55,340 --> 00:58:57,140
ass fucking schedule. I gotta get back. And

1679
00:58:57,140 --> 00:58:58,300
I was like, no, I got time. I

1680
00:58:58,300 --> 00:58:59,199
took the day off.

1681
00:58:59,900 --> 00:59:01,340
I'm working, like, under my own power. I

1682
00:59:01,340 --> 00:59:02,640
don't have to wait on anybody.

1683
00:59:03,179 --> 00:59:04,699
He was on top of his game. He

1684
00:59:04,699 --> 00:59:06,940
was actually awake and showered by the time

1685
00:59:06,940 --> 00:59:08,380
I got there. There have been a few

1686
00:59:08,380 --> 00:59:08,880
times

1687
00:59:09,414 --> 00:59:10,214
neither were true.

1688
00:59:11,815 --> 00:59:13,494
And so I'm like, I'm prepared for this

1689
00:59:13,494 --> 00:59:15,255
to be three, four hour outing. He gets

1690
00:59:15,255 --> 00:59:16,714
in the car. I let him drive

1691
00:59:17,174 --> 00:59:19,654
because I just was like, he does not

1692
00:59:19,654 --> 00:59:21,255
scare me in his driving the way he

1693
00:59:21,255 --> 00:59:21,914
used to.

1694
00:59:22,320 --> 00:59:24,719
He's he's learned caution riding a motorcycle, and

1695
00:59:24,719 --> 00:59:25,860
I appreciate that.

1696
00:59:27,840 --> 00:59:29,680
But I'm like, I'm fully prepared. He

1697
00:59:30,079 --> 00:59:32,000
he's a college kid with no fucking money.

1698
00:59:32,000 --> 00:59:32,660
I'm like,

1699
00:59:33,119 --> 00:59:34,800
do you want to be fed? I let

1700
00:59:35,039 --> 00:59:36,344
we can go get lunch. He goes, no.

1701
00:59:36,344 --> 00:59:38,505
I'm not actually hungry. He goes, unless you're

1702
00:59:38,505 --> 00:59:41,005
hungry. And I'm like, I'm actually not hungry.

1703
00:59:42,824 --> 00:59:45,164
We went to Walmart where look.

1704
00:59:45,704 --> 00:59:48,284
Spring break in a college town on Tuesday

1705
00:59:48,800 --> 00:59:50,800
at noon. That's time to go to Walmart.

1706
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:53,699
That was the least stressful trip to Walmart

1707
00:59:53,840 --> 00:59:55,380
I've ever had. Hi, Lobla.

1708
00:59:56,639 --> 00:59:58,500
That was twenty minutes. We go to Aldi.

1709
00:59:58,639 --> 00:59:59,859
That was twenty minutes.

1710
01:00:00,400 --> 01:00:01,840
And then he talked to me for a

1711
01:00:01,840 --> 01:00:03,380
little bit. Like, he we've

1712
01:00:03,679 --> 01:00:05,755
ranted and raged at, you know, the current

1713
01:00:05,974 --> 01:00:06,474
state

1714
01:00:07,015 --> 01:00:07,515
of

1715
01:00:08,695 --> 01:00:09,414
our country.

1716
01:00:11,335 --> 01:00:12,535
And then he was like, okay. I wanna

1717
01:00:12,535 --> 01:00:14,315
play Destiny. You can go now.

1718
01:00:14,815 --> 01:00:15,315
I

1719
01:00:15,815 --> 01:00:16,394
was like,

1720
01:00:17,255 --> 01:00:19,130
I see you later. And what I thought

1721
01:00:19,130 --> 01:00:20,730
was gonna be a three or four hour

1722
01:00:20,730 --> 01:00:23,150
excursion was, like, two hours tops.

1723
01:00:23,769 --> 01:00:25,369
I was like, okay. And, actually, it was

1724
01:00:25,369 --> 01:00:27,130
an hour there and then the drive to

1725
01:00:27,130 --> 01:00:28,650
and from home. Like, it just it was

1726
01:00:28,650 --> 01:00:30,190
so short. And I was like, oh,

1727
01:00:30,650 --> 01:00:32,570
this is actually kinda peaceful. I have the

1728
01:00:32,570 --> 01:00:33,070
afternoon

1729
01:00:34,295 --> 01:00:36,775
kinda to just fuck around and do what

1730
01:00:36,775 --> 01:00:37,755
I wanna do.

1731
01:00:38,375 --> 01:00:39,494
Yep. I don't know what to do with

1732
01:00:39,494 --> 01:00:40,555
that kind of power.

1733
01:00:41,815 --> 01:00:43,095
We had a and we had a busy

1734
01:00:43,095 --> 01:00:44,555
beginning of the week.

1735
01:00:45,175 --> 01:00:46,535
Every day I've woken up this week, I've

1736
01:00:46,535 --> 01:00:48,612
been like, how is not Friday? It feels

1737
01:00:48,612 --> 01:00:51,398
like it should be Friday. Yeah. It's not

1738
01:00:51,398 --> 01:00:54,532
Friday. Yeah. We had a we we had

1739
01:00:54,532 --> 01:00:57,666
planned on this because, we had a tree

1740
01:00:57,666 --> 01:01:00,452
service. What? I'm just thinking about how that

1741
01:01:00,452 --> 01:01:01,844
all went down Monday.

1742
01:01:02,804 --> 01:01:04,824
Yeah. You know, it it was funny.

1743
01:01:05,684 --> 01:01:07,525
Had got some estimates to do some tree

1744
01:01:07,525 --> 01:01:09,304
work in the front front of the house.

1745
01:01:10,965 --> 01:01:12,085
Had three very, very

1746
01:01:13,045 --> 01:01:14,664
well, two very big trees,

1747
01:01:14,965 --> 01:01:17,224
one medium big tree

1748
01:01:18,230 --> 01:01:19,369
in the front yard,

1749
01:01:19,670 --> 01:01:22,170
and it's been reduced to one tree at

1750
01:01:22,230 --> 01:01:24,630
this point. Which now looks like a broccoli

1751
01:01:24,630 --> 01:01:26,630
stalk. It does. It's been, so You come

1752
01:01:26,630 --> 01:01:28,230
down the road, it looks like yeah. It's

1753
01:01:28,230 --> 01:01:30,389
just the very top cam canopy left right

1754
01:01:30,389 --> 01:01:31,609
now. Mhmm. Yeah.

1755
01:01:31,989 --> 01:01:32,389
But,

1756
01:01:33,174 --> 01:01:35,174
It looked like a mushroom before that canopy

1757
01:01:35,174 --> 01:01:38,154
was so full. Yeah. Anyway. Anyway,

1758
01:01:39,174 --> 01:01:40,554
yeah. It was kinda funny,

1759
01:01:41,974 --> 01:01:42,534
because the,

1760
01:01:43,894 --> 01:01:45,914
the fellow I talked to from the company,

1761
01:01:47,319 --> 01:01:49,000
you know, you told me they've been tied

1762
01:01:49,000 --> 01:01:51,239
up doing a big job somewhere else. And

1763
01:01:51,239 --> 01:01:52,920
once they're done, they're gonna, you know, set

1764
01:01:52,920 --> 01:01:54,920
their schedule and and, you know, let me

1765
01:01:54,920 --> 01:01:56,139
know when they'll be out.

1766
01:01:57,159 --> 01:01:57,480
So,

1767
01:01:58,280 --> 01:02:00,115
Monday morning, we get up, and we're just

1768
01:02:00,115 --> 01:02:02,035
doing our thing. And I'm I'm expecting I'm

1769
01:02:02,035 --> 01:02:03,635
gonna get a phone call, you know, tell

1770
01:02:03,635 --> 01:02:05,155
me or email me and let me know,

1771
01:02:05,155 --> 01:02:06,914
you know, when we're on the schedule. I'm

1772
01:02:06,914 --> 01:02:09,235
in the garage pouring resin, making you know,

1773
01:02:09,235 --> 01:02:11,335
finishing up paddles for folks. Yeah.

1774
01:02:11,715 --> 01:02:13,335
And here comes a line.

1775
01:02:13,860 --> 01:02:15,380
Three It was a convoy. It was a

1776
01:02:15,380 --> 01:02:17,460
convoy of massive trucks. And at first, I

1777
01:02:17,460 --> 01:02:18,519
was like, oh, I wonder

1778
01:02:18,980 --> 01:02:20,820
I wonder whose house they're working on. And

1779
01:02:20,820 --> 01:02:22,260
then I saw the name of the company.

1780
01:02:22,260 --> 01:02:23,400
It And I was like,

1781
01:02:23,780 --> 01:02:25,079
oh, shit. And the first

1782
01:02:25,380 --> 01:02:27,380
the first truck in the convoy only pulled

1783
01:02:27,380 --> 01:02:28,925
a little bit past our house. And I

1784
01:02:28,925 --> 01:02:30,224
was like, oh, shit.

1785
01:02:31,644 --> 01:02:33,565
And all these people and all these trucks

1786
01:02:33,565 --> 01:02:35,405
and the neighbors love to come out when

1787
01:02:35,405 --> 01:02:36,465
there's some activity.

1788
01:02:37,244 --> 01:02:39,484
And I'm like, I I'm literally stirring resin.

1789
01:02:39,484 --> 01:02:41,405
I cannot stop or I'm gonna waste this

1790
01:02:41,405 --> 01:02:42,304
batch of resin.

1791
01:02:42,819 --> 01:02:45,380
And I just, from the garage, call JB

1792
01:02:45,380 --> 01:02:47,859
who's out at the In the backyard in

1793
01:02:47,859 --> 01:02:49,799
the dining shop. And I go,

1794
01:02:50,739 --> 01:02:51,239
hi.

1795
01:02:51,539 --> 01:02:54,679
Tree service company seems to be here?

1796
01:02:54,994 --> 01:02:55,894
And all I hear

1797
01:02:56,195 --> 01:02:57,335
is, oh, fuck.

1798
01:02:59,554 --> 01:03:01,235
From a man who almost never says that

1799
01:03:01,235 --> 01:03:01,735
word.

1800
01:03:02,355 --> 01:03:05,235
He comes like, rush now. I mind my

1801
01:03:05,235 --> 01:03:07,795
damn business, y'all. I stand in the garage.

1802
01:03:07,795 --> 01:03:10,050
I watch them all, and I'm stirring resin.

1803
01:03:10,210 --> 01:03:12,050
And I don't say a fucking word because

1804
01:03:12,050 --> 01:03:14,130
I know my daddy's coming. They didn't say

1805
01:03:14,130 --> 01:03:15,730
nothing to me because we get to live

1806
01:03:15,730 --> 01:03:17,489
in this patriarchal society where I'm the little

1807
01:03:17,489 --> 01:03:19,030
woman. I wouldn't know anything anyway.

1808
01:03:19,489 --> 01:03:21,170
And I just and I don't wanna talk

1809
01:03:21,170 --> 01:03:22,610
to him. I don't stare. And here he

1810
01:03:22,610 --> 01:03:24,764
comes, like, JB came out like his ass

1811
01:03:24,764 --> 01:03:27,824
was on fire. Here's the backstory to this.

1812
01:03:27,885 --> 01:03:29,804
Because the backstory to me is a little

1813
01:03:29,964 --> 01:03:31,905
it's not nuts, but it's a little nuts.

1814
01:03:32,684 --> 01:03:33,744
We got quotes

1815
01:03:34,364 --> 01:03:36,304
weeks ago. Yeah. Okay?

1816
01:03:37,324 --> 01:03:38,730
They had done work on our house before.

1817
01:03:38,730 --> 01:03:40,010
They were our top choice. They ended up

1818
01:03:40,010 --> 01:03:40,829
being the best price.

1819
01:03:42,250 --> 01:03:43,929
But they had given we were only doing

1820
01:03:43,929 --> 01:03:46,010
part of the quote. So JB had to

1821
01:03:46,010 --> 01:03:47,289
call and go, okay. I don't want the

1822
01:03:47,289 --> 01:03:48,809
full quote you gave. I want the front

1823
01:03:48,809 --> 01:03:51,130
yard quote. Okay. We'll have to resend that.

1824
01:03:51,130 --> 01:03:52,454
You have to sign that. Well, that was

1825
01:03:52,454 --> 01:03:54,375
like two days before they resent it, and

1826
01:03:54,375 --> 01:03:56,535
JB electronically signed it, and it gets sent

1827
01:03:56,535 --> 01:03:57,355
in. Okay.

1828
01:03:57,655 --> 01:03:58,155
And

1829
01:03:58,855 --> 01:04:00,055
we had been told you had been told

1830
01:04:00,055 --> 01:04:01,575
at that time, okay. Once you get that

1831
01:04:01,575 --> 01:04:03,494
in, we'll have our girls call you and

1832
01:04:03,494 --> 01:04:05,175
put you on the schedule. Okay. Well, a

1833
01:04:05,175 --> 01:04:07,739
week goes by. Then another week goes by.

1834
01:04:07,900 --> 01:04:09,340
And I'm like, have you heard? He's like,

1835
01:04:09,340 --> 01:04:11,980
I haven't heard. Then he calls, doesn't get

1836
01:04:11,980 --> 01:04:13,900
an answer. Then he plays phone tag with

1837
01:04:13,900 --> 01:04:15,119
a guy for two days.

1838
01:04:15,500 --> 01:04:17,179
Then dude calls and is like, yeah, we're

1839
01:04:17,340 --> 01:04:19,260
the whole company's on this massive ass job

1840
01:04:19,260 --> 01:04:21,500
out of town. We're no we're near our

1841
01:04:21,500 --> 01:04:23,420
schedule. It's like, so you brought the girls

1842
01:04:23,420 --> 01:04:25,414
with you. Like, who's making the schedule? Yeah.

1843
01:04:26,035 --> 01:04:27,875
And then he says well, Jimmy said, I'll

1844
01:04:27,875 --> 01:04:29,335
call you. We'll get you on the schedule.

1845
01:04:29,474 --> 01:04:31,795
No. I mean, they probably clearly got us

1846
01:04:31,795 --> 01:04:34,195
on a schedule. They just forgot to tell

1847
01:04:34,195 --> 01:04:36,275
us. Yeah. That we were that we were

1848
01:04:36,275 --> 01:04:39,250
first on the schedule. Monday morning, bright fucking

1849
01:04:39,250 --> 01:04:39,750
early.

1850
01:04:40,130 --> 01:04:41,269
And thank God,

1851
01:04:42,369 --> 01:04:43,730
like, we are as we get to be

1852
01:04:43,730 --> 01:04:45,170
as flexible as we need to be. I

1853
01:04:45,170 --> 01:04:46,929
was more like, I well, I was I

1854
01:04:46,929 --> 01:04:47,909
would not be pouring

1855
01:04:48,289 --> 01:04:50,369
all of these paddles. Yes. That is a

1856
01:04:50,369 --> 01:04:52,289
paw you're looking at. Yep. Those are hearts.

1857
01:04:52,289 --> 01:04:53,795
Uh-huh. I'll just be stirring

1858
01:04:54,175 --> 01:04:55,155
my rest. Yeah.

1859
01:04:56,335 --> 01:04:58,914
And then that so everybody they were very,

1860
01:04:59,375 --> 01:05:01,214
efficient. They were very professional. They Yeah. They

1861
01:05:01,214 --> 01:05:03,454
were little worker bees, and I like that

1862
01:05:03,454 --> 01:05:05,375
shit. I think that's great. They had a

1863
01:05:05,375 --> 01:05:06,514
supervisor there

1864
01:05:06,974 --> 01:05:08,514
who's watching everything. Fine.

1865
01:05:08,949 --> 01:05:10,630
You did what I need you to do

1866
01:05:10,630 --> 01:05:12,230
in these situations and you just did all

1867
01:05:12,230 --> 01:05:13,670
the talking. Perfect. I had to stay in

1868
01:05:13,670 --> 01:05:16,309
the background. Y'all steady stirring fucking resin. I

1869
01:05:16,309 --> 01:05:17,690
had so much resin to do.

1870
01:05:18,230 --> 01:05:19,929
I'm I'm wearing my,

1871
01:05:20,949 --> 01:05:23,684
noise canceling headphones that that I got as

1872
01:05:23,684 --> 01:05:25,605
a business present so I can listen to

1873
01:05:25,605 --> 01:05:26,105
stuff

1874
01:05:26,405 --> 01:05:28,644
and, like, protect my fucking ears. And this

1875
01:05:28,644 --> 01:05:30,005
this is a time to need it if

1876
01:05:30,005 --> 01:05:33,045
ever there was one. So I'm I'm not

1877
01:05:33,045 --> 01:05:35,285
focused on anybody around me. I am stirring

1878
01:05:35,285 --> 01:05:37,285
resin and pouring red. This is what the

1879
01:05:37,285 --> 01:05:40,170
fuck I'm doing. And something makes me go,

1880
01:05:41,030 --> 01:05:43,510
what? And I turn, and old dude who

1881
01:05:43,510 --> 01:05:45,510
I don't know is in the middle of

1882
01:05:45,510 --> 01:05:47,690
our garage staring over my shoulder.

1883
01:05:49,349 --> 01:05:49,849
The

1884
01:05:50,244 --> 01:05:51,144
The the paddles,

1885
01:05:51,445 --> 01:05:53,605
doll, where I'm putting resin in them. And

1886
01:05:53,605 --> 01:05:54,344
I'm like,

1887
01:05:55,204 --> 01:05:57,764
so, you know, I'm smooth and suave and

1888
01:05:57,764 --> 01:05:59,684
got my shit together. All I do is

1889
01:05:59,684 --> 01:06:00,505
just turn

1890
01:06:01,204 --> 01:06:03,764
and just kinda go and look like, cock

1891
01:06:03,764 --> 01:06:05,204
my head to the side, tilted the side.

1892
01:06:05,204 --> 01:06:06,289
I was like, And,

1893
01:06:07,630 --> 01:06:09,390
yeah, never said a fucking word. I was

1894
01:06:09,390 --> 01:06:10,610
listening to my podcast

1895
01:06:10,910 --> 01:06:13,630
and went back to stirring my resin. I'm

1896
01:06:13,630 --> 01:06:16,349
pretty sure that guy thinks that's all I

1897
01:06:16,349 --> 01:06:17,804
do is just stir

1898
01:06:18,764 --> 01:06:20,764
resin. I had nothing to say. He was,

1899
01:06:20,764 --> 01:06:23,025
like, on my like, by my shoulder,

1900
01:06:23,565 --> 01:06:26,045
like, quiet. He did not announce himself. He

1901
01:06:26,045 --> 01:06:28,364
did not actually speak to me either. I'm

1902
01:06:28,364 --> 01:06:30,920
not mad about it. I'm not mad about

1903
01:06:30,920 --> 01:06:33,960
it, but it was still kinda weird. Like,

1904
01:06:33,960 --> 01:06:36,139
he was just in our in our garage,

1905
01:06:37,000 --> 01:06:38,619
in our in our garage.

1906
01:06:39,319 --> 01:06:41,239
The neighbors, they were in all at hissy.

1907
01:06:41,239 --> 01:06:43,905
The across the street neighbors were there in

1908
01:06:43,905 --> 01:06:46,144
a heartbeat making sure that we were not

1909
01:06:46,144 --> 01:06:48,144
cutting down the pretty tree. The big tree.

1910
01:06:48,144 --> 01:06:48,644
Yeah.

1911
01:06:49,025 --> 01:06:49,525
Yeah.

1912
01:06:50,385 --> 01:06:51,845
I was like, okay.

1913
01:06:52,305 --> 01:06:54,325
No. We we we decided,

1914
01:06:54,864 --> 01:06:55,825
with the front with,

1915
01:06:56,699 --> 01:06:59,319
with all these trees that we had there,

1916
01:06:59,980 --> 01:07:01,980
and these these storms that have been kicking

1917
01:07:01,980 --> 01:07:03,760
up, it it's time to reduce

1918
01:07:04,219 --> 01:07:06,800
the amount of trees around the house. Mhmm.

1919
01:07:07,019 --> 01:07:09,179
Mhmm. It our our front yard looks very

1920
01:07:09,179 --> 01:07:11,054
weird now. Yeah. It does. And to to,

1921
01:07:11,054 --> 01:07:13,375
like, keep the comedy of weird shit going,

1922
01:07:13,375 --> 01:07:15,295
it's not errors. Nothing went wrong. That was

1923
01:07:15,295 --> 01:07:16,675
just kinda all like, what?

1924
01:07:17,295 --> 01:07:19,054
We and I'm pretty sure this is why

1925
01:07:19,054 --> 01:07:20,494
the quote was, oh, as painful as it

1926
01:07:20,494 --> 01:07:20,994
was.

1927
01:07:21,855 --> 01:07:23,840
We are are gonna have we're supposed to

1928
01:07:23,840 --> 01:07:25,440
have that day down. The two trees that

1929
01:07:25,440 --> 01:07:26,260
came down,

1930
01:07:26,559 --> 01:07:28,640
the stumps grinded. Yeah. Stump grinding it, whatever

1931
01:07:28,640 --> 01:07:31,360
it's called. Yeah. Grinding. Okay. That machine stopped

1932
01:07:31,360 --> 01:07:33,760
working. Mhmm. They were gonna come back later

1933
01:07:33,760 --> 01:07:34,960
that day. They could not come back later

1934
01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:36,320
that day. They couldn't get it fixed. We're

1935
01:07:36,320 --> 01:07:38,000
now two days late. Have you heard from

1936
01:07:38,000 --> 01:07:39,815
them? Here's what I think is gonna happen.

1937
01:07:39,815 --> 01:07:42,155
On, like, a random Friday afternoon, they're just

1938
01:07:42,454 --> 01:07:44,614
gonna roll up and start grinding stumps, and

1939
01:07:44,614 --> 01:07:46,054
we'll be like So, yeah, there there is

1940
01:07:46,054 --> 01:07:47,994
there's one stump that's half ground.

1941
01:07:48,375 --> 01:07:48,875
Yeah.

1942
01:07:49,815 --> 01:07:52,269
It's all paid for. Fully fucking ass paid

1943
01:07:52,269 --> 01:07:53,869
for. So they need to get their asses

1944
01:07:53,869 --> 01:07:55,869
back here and grind my stumps. I'll I'll

1945
01:07:55,869 --> 01:07:57,889
give them till next week, and then I'll

1946
01:07:58,670 --> 01:08:01,230
remind them. I'm demanding that these people come

1947
01:08:01,230 --> 01:08:03,069
grind my stumps, and that just sounds like

1948
01:08:03,069 --> 01:08:04,429
an innuendo to me. I don't

1949
01:08:05,389 --> 01:08:06,954
do you need your stumps ground? Would you

1950
01:08:06,954 --> 01:08:08,974
like somebody to come grind your stumps too?

1951
01:08:10,315 --> 01:08:11,534
I could be interesting.

1952
01:08:11,914 --> 01:08:12,734
Could be interesting.

1953
01:08:14,394 --> 01:08:14,894
Yeah.

1954
01:08:20,234 --> 01:08:20,734
Anyhoo.

1955
01:08:21,510 --> 01:08:23,510
So yeah. It's Yeah. Got other stuff going

1956
01:08:23,510 --> 01:08:25,429
on too, but save some of it for

1957
01:08:25,429 --> 01:08:25,929
Friday

1958
01:08:26,309 --> 01:08:27,449
Yeah. For the hangout.

1959
01:08:28,069 --> 01:08:28,569
Yeah.

1960
01:08:30,710 --> 01:08:32,630
I I think I said everything that I

1961
01:08:32,630 --> 01:08:34,710
have Yeah. Well, and I I meant to

1962
01:08:34,710 --> 01:08:35,784
say this at the top of the bonus

1963
01:08:35,784 --> 01:08:37,224
section and then forgot because I didn't put

1964
01:08:37,224 --> 01:08:38,585
it in my notes, but I also by

1965
01:08:38,585 --> 01:08:40,344
the bonus section I'm never referring to my

1966
01:08:40,344 --> 01:08:41,784
notes anymore. I would have missed it. It

1967
01:08:41,784 --> 01:08:42,764
wouldn't have mattered.

1968
01:08:46,264 --> 01:08:47,670
For anybody who was

1969
01:08:48,229 --> 01:08:50,390
a Patreon member during our membership drive and

1970
01:08:50,390 --> 01:08:51,770
now no longer is for

1971
01:08:52,229 --> 01:08:54,390
all kinds of valid reasons, not just because

1972
01:08:54,390 --> 01:08:55,850
we're probably annoying as fuck.

1973
01:08:56,310 --> 01:08:59,909
All so proud of myself. All Patreon membership

1974
01:08:59,909 --> 01:09:01,770
drive perks have been dispersed

1975
01:09:04,104 --> 01:09:06,744
out. Things in mail, things in email inboxes.

1976
01:09:06,744 --> 01:09:08,104
I got it fucking I had to give

1977
01:09:08,104 --> 01:09:10,985
myself a pretend deadline that only I fucking

1978
01:09:10,985 --> 01:09:11,805
cared about

1979
01:09:12,185 --> 01:09:14,585
and then worked solid through the weekend to

1980
01:09:14,585 --> 01:09:15,885
get it done.

1981
01:09:17,909 --> 01:09:20,070
But it is done. Yeah. It is done.

1982
01:09:20,070 --> 01:09:21,289
And in a couple months,

1983
01:09:21,590 --> 01:09:23,270
that workbook that was a perk, it'll be

1984
01:09:23,270 --> 01:09:25,510
available, you know, for sale and stuff. But

1985
01:09:25,510 --> 01:09:27,110
I'm gonna I'm gonna let it, like, rest

1986
01:09:27,110 --> 01:09:27,770
and sit

1987
01:09:28,070 --> 01:09:29,369
for a hot ass minute.

1988
01:09:31,045 --> 01:09:33,444
But yeah. So I did that too. I

1989
01:09:33,444 --> 01:09:34,804
just wanted to say this, and I thought

1990
01:09:34,804 --> 01:09:36,724
this was pretty cool. And the reason it

1991
01:09:36,724 --> 01:09:38,644
stuck out to me was because years ago,

1992
01:09:38,644 --> 01:09:40,184
I ran a stump grinder.

1993
01:09:41,204 --> 01:09:41,704
Okay.

1994
01:09:42,164 --> 01:09:42,824
And and

1995
01:09:43,684 --> 01:09:44,744
those things are

1996
01:09:45,819 --> 01:09:47,600
a bear. Mhmm. K?

1997
01:09:47,979 --> 01:09:48,800
They'll they'll

1998
01:09:49,500 --> 01:09:51,420
they get you going. So we really do

1999
01:09:51,420 --> 01:09:53,659
want our stumps grinded, don't we? It's very

2000
01:09:53,659 --> 01:09:55,979
fun. Okay. I can do that. But, but

2001
01:09:55,979 --> 01:09:57,045
anyway, the,

2002
01:09:57,444 --> 01:09:59,145
apparently, the stump grinders

2003
01:09:59,925 --> 01:10:02,024
that they have Mhmm. It's remote controlled.

2004
01:10:02,804 --> 01:10:05,045
Everything's remote controlled. He did not have to

2005
01:10:05,045 --> 01:10:07,045
be on that machine, hold the machine, and

2006
01:10:07,045 --> 01:10:08,885
operate the machine. He did it all by

2007
01:10:08,885 --> 01:10:10,744
remote control. Can you can you just imagine

2008
01:10:10,885 --> 01:10:11,625
how many

2009
01:10:12,390 --> 01:10:14,550
injuries would have occurred from having to hold

2010
01:10:14,550 --> 01:10:16,310
that fucking thing over the years? Oh my

2011
01:10:16,310 --> 01:10:16,810
gosh.

2012
01:10:17,350 --> 01:10:17,850
Yep.

2013
01:10:18,310 --> 01:10:20,869
But, you know, as somebody who has many,

2014
01:10:21,430 --> 01:10:22,250
remote controlled

2015
01:10:23,189 --> 01:10:24,570
stump grinders oneself,

2016
01:10:25,525 --> 01:10:29,385
I do understand the appeal of remote control.

2017
01:10:30,244 --> 01:10:32,965
I do understand the appeal. Okay. I think

2018
01:10:32,965 --> 01:10:34,265
maybe we need to go.

2019
01:10:34,565 --> 01:10:37,619
And, I've got some more. Remote controlled stump

2020
01:10:37,619 --> 01:10:40,020
grinders that I did. Grinding to do. You

2021
01:10:40,020 --> 01:10:42,100
left you left them on the kitchen not

2022
01:10:42,100 --> 01:10:44,039
the kitchen. The bathroom sink together.

2023
01:10:44,420 --> 01:10:46,579
Y'all, I'm gone for three hours, and I

2024
01:10:46,579 --> 01:10:48,280
come back. And in our bathroom

2025
01:10:48,979 --> 01:10:49,635
is like

2026
01:10:50,194 --> 01:10:51,954
it's a different kind of Toy Story is

2027
01:10:51,954 --> 01:10:53,494
all I'm saying. Okay?

2028
01:10:55,074 --> 01:10:57,394
Some somebody's stump got round. That's

2029
01:10:58,594 --> 01:11:01,175
yep. With remotes. I solved them.

2030
01:11:05,119 --> 01:11:05,859
Uh-huh. Uh-huh.

2031
01:11:07,039 --> 01:11:08,960
Look, I'll be riding the high of making

2032
01:11:08,960 --> 01:11:11,359
that innuendo work for a long time. I'm

2033
01:11:11,359 --> 01:11:12,420
a very proud of myself.

2034
01:11:13,039 --> 01:11:15,380
So anyway Anyhoo. Yeah. Alright.

2035
01:11:15,760 --> 01:11:18,164
We will Let, let these folks get on

2036
01:11:18,164 --> 01:11:20,125
with their day. Go go back to whatever

2037
01:11:20,125 --> 01:11:21,564
your normal is because I know this ain't

2038
01:11:21,564 --> 01:11:22,385
it. Yeah.

2039
01:11:23,405 --> 01:11:23,905
It's

2040
01:11:24,425 --> 01:11:24,925
fine.

2041
01:11:25,445 --> 01:11:25,945
It's

2042
01:11:26,465 --> 01:11:26,965
fine.

2043
01:11:27,485 --> 01:11:27,985
Okay.

2044
01:11:28,925 --> 01:11:29,664
Right throat.

2045
01:11:30,539 --> 01:11:31,420
Thank y'all for,

2046
01:11:33,179 --> 01:11:34,479
being here. Yep.

2047
01:11:35,020 --> 01:11:37,179
Especially to the bitter end. Thanks for,

2048
01:11:38,699 --> 01:11:41,020
tolerating whatever ranty bullshit comes out of my

2049
01:11:41,020 --> 01:11:41,520
mouth.

2050
01:11:42,539 --> 01:11:44,639
And we will hopefully see y'all on Friday.

2051
01:11:44,859 --> 01:11:46,095
Bye bye. Bye.