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You're listening to the Loving BDSM podcast episode

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422.

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Kayla Lords here with the one, the only,

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the guy who looked like a grumpy polar

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bear when somebody pointed out that he was

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a grumpy polar bear, and there was an

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image of a grumpy polar bear that he

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looked like when he got called out for

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being a grumpy polar bear.

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John Brownstone.

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It was a very circular thing. That was

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that was quite the journey. Yes.

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Just admit you're a grumpy polar bear. Yeah.

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You don't have to, like, prove it by

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getting grumpy when somebody calls you a grumpy

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polar bear. Just own it. I thought it

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was funny. Oh, it was hilarious, except you

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did kinda give me that dom look where

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you're like, oh, you done fucked up now?

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And I was like, wait. This is a

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joke. I'm being hilarious and everybody around me,

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but you, thinks I'm being hilarious.

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Anyhoo. Anyway,

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weirdly, that's technically not what we're talking about,

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but we are we are gonna our relationship

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is gonna be, like, front and center.

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We're answering,

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vanilla relationship questions that were labeled

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provocative.

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Oh. So,

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yeah, that's what that's that's what we're doing

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this week. Welcome to the Loving BDSM podcast.

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If this is your first time listening, glad

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to have you. You're back for another week.

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Welcome back. Loving BDSM is produced every Monday

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Friday for your kinky pleasure and education.

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And technically threads at that handle I will

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forever fucking hate. Loving d s and the

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number 1. So it's at loving d s

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Technically on blue sky.

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Loving BDSM dot all the stuff blue sky

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Or on YouTube at youtube.com/loving

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BDSM, where you can watch us live stream

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the podcast every Wednesday. All links are in

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the show notes, and the show notes can

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be found at lovingbdsm.net.

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Okay. Before we get into the questions,

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announcements.

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The first one is the kinkery, thekinkery.com,

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is having a sale right now. Unfortunately, the

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sale does only apply to US orders. I

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am so sorry, international folk.

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now through December 15th at 11:59

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PM EST, if you spend $35 or more,

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you can get free shipping with a coupon

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code, free shipping 24.

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I don't expect you to remember that coupon

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code. It is literally posted on our site,

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and it'll be in all the places for

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the this episode.

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$35

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is not hard to get to because most

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of our paddles, I think all of our

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paddles, except this slapstick,

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start at $35.

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So one paddle and you got free shipping.

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If you wanted to buy, like, candles or

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something, you gotta buy a couple. But if

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you're looking for a paddle

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and here's the thing, that's savings.

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to base it on weight because some stuff

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is heavy. So the savings of free shipping

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is anywhere from 8 to $11

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off your the purchase price. So it actually

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really is a good deal.

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We only do this for this one week,

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each year at the holidays. Hopefully, helping folks

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out who maybe are buying kinky presents or

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or just wanna save some money. That's all

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restocks on things. We just did a restock

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today. Yep.

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I can't charge you any less for shipping

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if the strike is still going on or

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Canada the other day, and she said the

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strike is still ongoing.

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were like, it could get stuck in customs.

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label and bring it to the UPS store.

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even though I don't think it's the 3rd

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this week, because I don't know how numbers

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we are doing our Friday night livestream. It

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is bumped up a week early because of

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the holidays later this month.

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Hanukkah right now? Whatever the holidays are, everything's

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fucked this month. Okay?

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I Oh, jeez. For not having checked what

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the Hanukkah dates are. Wow. I'm losing it.

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everything. I thought yesterday was Friday. I know,

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the week to be over on a Tuesday.

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our break. Our brain is melting.

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repeated requests. We will do demos for

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dollars situation. So

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stream,

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or to watch me get hit with something.

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get hit with, you do the super chats.

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sure. We'll do a q and a while

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I'm being hit with shit. That's happened before.

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yeah. That's this Friday. Friday night livestream.

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in live chat. Hanukkah doesn't start until 25th.

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this year.

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its whole purpose of this episode Mhmm. Is

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to answer questions because we do not have

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the brainpower for anything

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super serious. I don't know if you could

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tell or not.

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I don't know if I made that wrong.

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I don't know if I can even answer

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these questions.

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I saw them earlier.

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July of this year. I went and checked,

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whatever, the archives or whatever.

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These are from Therapy Jeff, who I like.

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I have linked to the post

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I'm sure he's on TikTok. I am not

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Instagram reels,

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forever.

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answer these questions with a partner of your

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own, feel free. He called them provocative. And

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right word. They're they're, like, a little bit

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spicy. Okay?

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I don't know what you'll get out of

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this other than maybe some entertainment because clearly

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them. Yeah. I was kinda glad I was

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looking at these and listening to these early

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the answers might be. Because some of them

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it's about memory and I don't

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thing. I don't Yeah. I don't have good

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memory. Same. Same thing. Same. So,

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Okay. Here we go. First question.

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I I think we can fudge because it

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does ask in detail and it's okay. And

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if for anybody who needs a reminder, I'll

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I'll be reading it, but JB's gonna answer

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as if I asked him and then I'm

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gonna answer as if he asked me. Right.

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Right. Okay. There we go. Can you describe

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in detail the moment you knew you were

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attracted to me?

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Was it when you saw my boobs on

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the Internet?

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did you know? I assumed.

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I was like, oh, boobies.

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That was before I got brave on putting

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other parts there. So yeah. Yeah. No. But,

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I I think for me, it was after

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we moved to email

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for our chats. Okay. You know, we moved

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the blog commenting.

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first move with email? Did that was like

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like a little little pep in your step

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there?

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I'm moving my body because podcast listeners provocative.

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I'm so glad the podcast listeners can't see

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that. I am so sorry to use your

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plugs.

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So, okay, was was it because our conversations

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were maybe more in-depth than they had now?

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getting into, you know,

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actually getting to know one another. Gotcha.

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So I feel bad now for my answer.

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Uh-oh. The first time I knew I was

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attracted so here's the thing. I knew I

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was intrigued. I knew I felt comfortable with

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you, which was that was huge. I couldn't

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remember the last time I felt comfortable with

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somebody

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in email. But the time I realized, oh,

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oh, oh, I'm

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fucked, was when I heard your voice for

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the first time

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when we had that first phone call where

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I was terrified and crying or almost crying

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because I was so scared.

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Because you have a good voice. You have

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a good voice.

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You have a good voice. Okay. Thank you.

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It's subjective. That's fine. You don't have to

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agree with me out there in the world.

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Got a good voice. And you I I

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don't like listening to the sound of your

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voice. You don't. Most people don't. Because it's

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not the same in your head as it

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is to the right. So

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no. It was you were you have one

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of those voices

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that especially when you're trying to come across

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as kinda calm and, like, not frazzled. I

291
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think it's why I get frazzled when you

292
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get frazzled because that didn't feel right. It's

293
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a very, like, calm, soothing, comforting voice, but,

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also, I know you're a dom, and that's

295
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kind of how we were relating to another.

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So it was like, oh, it was like

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being wrapped up in a warm hug. I

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was like, oh, okay. Okay.

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Yes. We both were attracted to one other

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before we ever laid eyes on each

301
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other. That's never been a secret, I think.

302
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No. Okay.

303
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This one

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this one threw me, and I it's okay

305
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if it throws you. Is there a scent

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or fragrance you associate with our most intimate

307
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moments?

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I wouldn't say

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intimate. Okay. Intimate moments, but,

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it is

311
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a scent that I associate with you,

312
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from the first time meeting you. Okay.

313
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And it's the rosemary peppermint

314
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Shampoo. Shampoo and body wash I used to

315
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use. Yeah. That I use again now. Yep.

316
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But your smelling has gotten worse. I know.

317
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Ability to smell has gotten worse over the

318
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years. I I'd have you'd have to just

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be in the shower with me while I'm

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washing my hair to smell it. Then I

321
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would probably. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So Yeah. It's

322
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it's yeah. That's I like that. I like

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that.

324
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Well, here's what's funny because I couldn't use

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that shampoo for a very long time because

326
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my hair was being dyed. Not even the

327
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vivid colors, like, just dyed. And now, no,

328
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too broke for that. So I was like,

329
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let me see if I could go find

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the shampoo and conditioner again. I was very

331
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nostalgic. I was like, yeah. My daddy liked

332
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that, so I'll do it again. He can't

333
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smell it now, but it makes me happy.

334
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It's fine. I see the bottles of Michelle

335
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and I smile all day.

336
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So

337
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I have

338
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I have 2 smells that probably make sense

339
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and one that is so inappropriate, but it's

340
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us, so we're gonna go with it. So

341
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I never know what beard balm lotion cream

342
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you're using, but anytime

343
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I smell it or I just sniff your

344
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beard, oh,

345
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it's like being in a warm hug. Like,

346
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you're not even touching me. It does look

347
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a little weird, but sometimes I'm literally nuzzling

348
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his damn beard. Because it smells so good.

349
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Actually, your scent

350
00:12:18,309 --> 00:12:20,389
post shower, you're always like, yeah. That's what

351
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soup will do. I'm like, yeah. But you

352
00:12:21,669 --> 00:12:23,350
smell good. Okay? I'd like to hump your

353
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leg right now.

354
00:12:26,149 --> 00:12:26,649
Whatever.

355
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The other smell, it's rare because it's been

356
00:12:30,230 --> 00:12:31,209
so long,

357
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is leather.

358
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And that comes from a few different things.

359
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When we used to ride your bike together

360
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and you were wearing your leather jacket,

361
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almost every vlogger that I've known and liked

362
00:12:42,024 --> 00:12:44,184
had was kind of that Leather. Right. Right.

363
00:12:44,184 --> 00:12:47,070
Right. Some form of leather. Right. Your your

364
00:12:47,070 --> 00:12:49,230
big leather boots, like, just leather. It makes

365
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me think of kink. It makes me think

366
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of the motorcycle. It makes me think of,

367
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like, all that stuff. Your your play collar

368
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and cuffs? Yep. Yep. Yep. Oh, yeah. I

369
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if I think about leather, I can actually

370
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feel

371
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the the the texture of the bit gag

372
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in my mouth. And there's not actually I'm

373
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not actually sucking on the leather. It's actually

374
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a plastic thing, but still.

375
00:13:08,725 --> 00:13:09,785
The third inappropriate

376
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smell, It's a very personal one. It's not

377
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like I go anywhere and I'd, oh, it

378
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just I it hits me. No. No. No.

379
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This one can only occur

380
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in our bedroom,

381
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and it is

382
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post sex

383
00:13:25,214 --> 00:13:25,714
smell.

384
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I am sure anybody who walked in would

385
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be like, what the fuck is this? Somebody

386
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spray some Febreze.

387
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But I'm like, like, the next day oh,

388
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god. Especially if I hadn't changed sheets yet.

389
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I don't know if you've noticed.

390
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When I bend over this is I know

391
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this is too much for some people. It's

392
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fine. When I bend over at night when

393
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you're like, we're getting ready for bed Mhmm.

394
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Have you noticed?

395
00:13:49,550 --> 00:13:52,845
Like, I'm pushing my face into the sheets.

396
00:13:53,384 --> 00:13:54,204
Yeah. Yeah.

397
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Yeah.

398
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It's not that I find it a pleasant

399
00:13:58,664 --> 00:14:01,164
smell, but it is a smell that represents

400
00:14:01,865 --> 00:14:03,084
a good time.

401
00:14:03,544 --> 00:14:06,264
And so, 1, I should change our sheets

402
00:14:06,264 --> 00:14:06,750
more often.

403
00:14:08,429 --> 00:14:10,909
2, maybe that shows how little we've had

404
00:14:10,909 --> 00:14:12,509
sex over the past few years as our

405
00:14:12,509 --> 00:14:14,610
libidos have gone wonky because

406
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I don't have this impetus to immediately change

407
00:14:18,269 --> 00:14:19,090
those sheets.

408
00:14:20,774 --> 00:14:22,454
But, yeah. Yeah. That's why I've been doing

409
00:14:22,454 --> 00:14:25,254
that. Okay. Now everybody's like, we can't make

410
00:14:25,254 --> 00:14:27,995
eye contact with Kayla. We know too much.

411
00:14:28,694 --> 00:14:30,634
It's fine. It's fine. Okay.

412
00:14:31,815 --> 00:14:34,394
Describe a fantasy date,

413
00:14:34,840 --> 00:14:37,240
and let's define that however we would like

414
00:14:37,240 --> 00:14:39,799
to, that would make you want to rip

415
00:14:39,799 --> 00:14:42,919
my clothes off by the end. Now, you

416
00:14:42,919 --> 00:14:43,980
know, I'm I'm

417
00:14:45,879 --> 00:14:48,519
Oh, no. Yeah. Oh, no. Oh, no. It

418
00:14:48,519 --> 00:14:49,259
was right.

419
00:14:50,884 --> 00:14:52,745
You know, it it's been

420
00:14:53,285 --> 00:14:55,205
so long for so many things. I wouldn't

421
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even really call it a date.

422
00:14:57,365 --> 00:14:58,665
I would just be like

423
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a weekend away at a hotel. Well, the

424
00:15:01,845 --> 00:15:02,965
whole point would be for you to rip

425
00:15:02,965 --> 00:15:04,199
my clothes off. Yeah.

426
00:15:04,579 --> 00:15:05,940
Are you saying that if even if we

427
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went and did touristy things,

428
00:15:07,940 --> 00:15:09,459
by the time we got back to our

429
00:15:09,459 --> 00:15:10,899
hotel room, you'd want to rip my clothes

430
00:15:10,899 --> 00:15:12,899
off? Oh, yeah. Okay. You know, and and

431
00:15:12,899 --> 00:15:14,199
and trash a hotel

432
00:15:14,500 --> 00:15:16,179
for old time's sake. I don't are we

433
00:15:16,179 --> 00:15:17,144
getting too old for that?

434
00:15:18,585 --> 00:15:19,785
I mean, we're at a point now, if

435
00:15:19,785 --> 00:15:21,785
I start screaming in pleasure, somebody might think

436
00:15:21,785 --> 00:15:24,425
an old lady's dying. So they might they

437
00:15:24,425 --> 00:15:27,144
might call security or an ambulance. I don't

438
00:15:27,144 --> 00:15:27,884
know which.

439
00:15:28,504 --> 00:15:29,245
Just saying.

440
00:15:30,264 --> 00:15:32,665
I told you I was in rare form

441
00:15:32,665 --> 00:15:35,700
today. Oh, boy. So I don't have

442
00:15:37,279 --> 00:15:40,179
a a situation like date or like whatever.

443
00:15:40,320 --> 00:15:42,720
Mhmm. Here's what makes me want to rip

444
00:15:42,720 --> 00:15:44,820
your clothes off of you. Okay.

445
00:15:45,355 --> 00:15:47,434
Anytime you dress in a way that makes

446
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my brain scream,

447
00:15:49,434 --> 00:15:50,975
oh my god. He's so dominant.

448
00:15:51,595 --> 00:15:52,095
So

449
00:15:52,715 --> 00:15:55,674
and this might actually, this will come into

450
00:15:55,674 --> 00:15:56,174
another,

451
00:15:57,514 --> 00:15:59,889
question because I thought about it both times.

452
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So to give an example,

453
00:16:01,649 --> 00:16:02,929
the times we've gone out on, like, date

454
00:16:02,929 --> 00:16:04,370
dates where we dress up and you wear,

455
00:16:04,370 --> 00:16:06,209
like, your black slacks and either a black

456
00:16:06,209 --> 00:16:07,970
shirt button down shirt or the purple button

457
00:16:07,970 --> 00:16:10,690
down shirt. And then, holy shit, once you

458
00:16:10,690 --> 00:16:13,475
roll up your shirt sleeves and the forearms

459
00:16:13,615 --> 00:16:15,235
are out, I could probably make money

460
00:16:15,695 --> 00:16:17,774
off of your forearms. I'm just saying they're

461
00:16:17,774 --> 00:16:20,014
they're excellent. They're excellent. You have these great,

462
00:16:20,014 --> 00:16:22,174
like, hands that are clearly, like, hardworking hands

463
00:16:22,174 --> 00:16:23,875
and you get it's it's delightful.

464
00:16:24,815 --> 00:16:27,214
I will save the other outfit that is

465
00:16:27,214 --> 00:16:29,529
coming to my mind, but to answer an

466
00:16:29,529 --> 00:16:30,509
upcoming question.

467
00:16:30,970 --> 00:16:33,549
But, yeah, that's that's when whatever we're doing,

468
00:16:33,769 --> 00:16:35,629
by the time we're done, I'm like, it's

469
00:16:36,169 --> 00:16:37,610
it's time to take all that off. And

470
00:16:37,610 --> 00:16:39,149
I would rip that off, but

471
00:16:39,850 --> 00:16:41,049
I need you to wear it again in

472
00:16:41,049 --> 00:16:42,754
the future, so I won't do that.

473
00:16:44,254 --> 00:16:46,174
And why why are my cheeks so hot?

474
00:16:46,174 --> 00:16:46,674
Okay.

475
00:16:48,414 --> 00:16:51,134
This one is weird. Okay. Because this is

476
00:16:51,134 --> 00:16:53,715
not a way I would ever describe myself

477
00:16:54,174 --> 00:16:57,235
or ask a question ever. Thanks, therapy Jeff.

478
00:16:58,660 --> 00:16:59,960
When was the last time

479
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you yearned for my body? Last weekend. Yeah.

480
00:17:04,180 --> 00:17:05,080
That was good.

481
00:17:06,740 --> 00:17:07,240
Okay.

482
00:17:07,779 --> 00:17:09,000
I mean, same.

483
00:17:09,380 --> 00:17:09,880
Same.

484
00:17:11,035 --> 00:17:11,535
Same.

485
00:17:12,634 --> 00:17:13,134
Same.

486
00:17:13,515 --> 00:17:15,615
You picked up what I was putting down.

487
00:17:15,674 --> 00:17:17,615
Yep. Yep. And

488
00:17:18,154 --> 00:17:19,515
you know what though I ran with it.

489
00:17:19,515 --> 00:17:20,955
Yeah. You did. You know what though? That

490
00:17:20,955 --> 00:17:23,515
was that was less about, like, specifically your

491
00:17:23,515 --> 00:17:25,769
body that was more like the feeling, the

492
00:17:25,769 --> 00:17:26,590
connection, whatever.

493
00:17:27,529 --> 00:17:29,529
I'm gonna sound like a broken record but

494
00:17:29,529 --> 00:17:31,289
when do I yearn for the body? When

495
00:17:31,289 --> 00:17:32,269
I see either.

496
00:17:32,570 --> 00:17:34,809
Sometimes both at the same time. Mhmm. The

497
00:17:34,809 --> 00:17:35,309
forearms.

498
00:17:35,610 --> 00:17:37,850
Mhmm. The thighs. You got great thighs. I

499
00:17:37,850 --> 00:17:40,164
know you're not a soccer player but it's

500
00:17:40,164 --> 00:17:41,464
all those years on the motorcycle.

501
00:17:41,924 --> 00:17:44,644
They're good legs. They're good they're not long

502
00:17:44,644 --> 00:17:46,644
legs. He's a short king and we love

503
00:17:46,644 --> 00:17:48,505
him but they're good legs.

504
00:17:49,365 --> 00:17:50,505
Very good legs.

505
00:17:51,525 --> 00:17:51,765
Just

506
00:17:52,404 --> 00:17:54,779
yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You clench those thighs. I'm

507
00:17:54,779 --> 00:17:57,519
good. I'm good. I'm probably, like, drooling. So

508
00:17:58,140 --> 00:18:00,400
I'm also not much of a yearner. Like,

509
00:18:01,179 --> 00:18:02,539
I don't need to yearn. I just need

510
00:18:02,539 --> 00:18:03,980
to go, hey, daddy. I'm kinda turned on.

511
00:18:03,980 --> 00:18:05,339
Are you turned on? Let's go. Like, I

512
00:18:05,500 --> 00:18:07,019
no. I'm not saying it like that. Y'all

513
00:18:07,019 --> 00:18:08,714
know I'm not saying it like that. But

514
00:18:08,714 --> 00:18:10,474
I like, I don't have to yearn. Mhmm.

515
00:18:10,474 --> 00:18:12,394
I could just be like, hey. Hey. Hey.

516
00:18:12,394 --> 00:18:13,994
Pay attention to me. I'll probably do something

517
00:18:13,994 --> 00:18:15,755
sexy over here. Hey. That's kind of how

518
00:18:15,755 --> 00:18:16,815
last weekend went.

519
00:18:18,154 --> 00:18:19,835
I couldn't say it. Because you're because you're

520
00:18:19,835 --> 00:18:21,434
a baby girl, and you're always gonna be

521
00:18:21,434 --> 00:18:22,494
like, look at me.

522
00:18:23,309 --> 00:18:25,329
Only to you. Yeah. Only to

523
00:18:25,869 --> 00:18:26,529
you. Okay.

524
00:18:27,710 --> 00:18:29,710
Here, we're we're we're coming up to where

525
00:18:29,710 --> 00:18:31,089
there was the whatever.

526
00:18:32,190 --> 00:18:35,724
Which outfit of mine makes you find me

527
00:18:38,184 --> 00:18:39,224
irresistible? Your birthday suit. Glad somebody likes it.

528
00:18:39,224 --> 00:18:39,724
You

529
00:18:40,065 --> 00:18:40,565
like

530
00:18:40,904 --> 00:18:42,765
it better than I do. I'm

531
00:18:43,865 --> 00:18:46,205
just saying. So if I just walk around

532
00:18:47,464 --> 00:18:47,964
naked,

533
00:18:48,664 --> 00:18:50,525
you'd be like, there's not

534
00:18:51,200 --> 00:18:53,039
no time I'm wearing something and you're like,

535
00:18:53,039 --> 00:18:55,599
oh. No. No. Not particular. No. Well, I

536
00:18:55,599 --> 00:18:57,779
mean, I do dress like Adam Sandler on,

537
00:18:58,079 --> 00:19:00,000
who's coming down from a a bender or

538
00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:00,500
something.

539
00:19:02,160 --> 00:19:04,480
I'm in my Adam Sandler era. Okay. I

540
00:19:04,480 --> 00:19:06,420
don't love it, but here I am. Okay.

541
00:19:06,815 --> 00:19:08,894
So I already talked about the slacks and

542
00:19:08,894 --> 00:19:10,575
button down shirt and the roll. Okay. And

543
00:19:10,575 --> 00:19:11,474
that, yes.

544
00:19:12,015 --> 00:19:12,835
But also,

545
00:19:14,734 --> 00:19:16,414
you don't I know why you haven't worn

546
00:19:16,414 --> 00:19:17,694
it in a long time. I know you're

547
00:19:17,694 --> 00:19:20,059
working towards being able to wear it. It

548
00:19:20,059 --> 00:19:22,059
is oh my god. I'm drooling thinking about

549
00:19:22,059 --> 00:19:24,079
it. It's your black kilt

550
00:19:24,380 --> 00:19:26,220
with a black t shirt Mhmm. And your

551
00:19:26,220 --> 00:19:28,799
black boots and nothing under the kilt.

552
00:19:30,380 --> 00:19:31,839
What do they wear under their kilt?

553
00:19:32,404 --> 00:19:34,244
JB wears nothing most of the time. Unless

554
00:19:34,244 --> 00:19:35,605
they're going out in public, you will you

555
00:19:35,605 --> 00:19:36,664
will wear something in there.

556
00:19:37,605 --> 00:19:39,704
God, that is such a, like, a luscious,

557
00:19:39,924 --> 00:19:41,524
luscious, you know, guilt. To see where I'm

558
00:19:41,524 --> 00:19:43,924
at with that. And you should. And even

559
00:19:43,924 --> 00:19:45,204
if you gotta suck it in a little

560
00:19:45,204 --> 00:19:46,700
bit or just not snap it or what

561
00:19:46,779 --> 00:19:47,279
however

562
00:19:47,900 --> 00:19:50,240
it just oh my god. I'd yeah.

563
00:19:50,539 --> 00:19:52,299
Yeah. I'd lift your skirt up in a

564
00:19:52,299 --> 00:19:52,799
heartbeat.

565
00:19:55,900 --> 00:19:57,820
I should be embarrassed that I'm not, y'all.

566
00:19:57,820 --> 00:19:59,434
I'm not. Look. You can't put your tits

567
00:19:59,434 --> 00:20:01,275
on the Internet and then be embarrassed about

568
00:20:01,275 --> 00:20:03,275
anything else after that. Come on. True. True.

569
00:20:03,275 --> 00:20:05,355
True. But, yeah, you are so dead sexy

570
00:20:05,355 --> 00:20:08,955
in that. Holy shit. Holy shit. Whoo. Is

571
00:20:08,955 --> 00:20:10,234
it hot in here? I shouldn't have worn

572
00:20:10,234 --> 00:20:12,394
a long sleeve shirt. It is. Oh god.

573
00:20:12,394 --> 00:20:13,134
I'm afraid.

574
00:20:14,420 --> 00:20:16,679
What's the most attractive thing about my personality?

575
00:20:18,500 --> 00:20:19,799
Wow. You know,

576
00:20:20,579 --> 00:20:22,980
I I read that question when you sent

577
00:20:22,980 --> 00:20:24,039
me these earlier.

578
00:20:24,420 --> 00:20:24,920
Uh-huh.

579
00:20:27,095 --> 00:20:29,255
And you know what immediately came to my

580
00:20:29,255 --> 00:20:29,755
mind?

581
00:20:32,535 --> 00:20:33,515
Your sassiness.

582
00:20:34,615 --> 00:20:35,115
Yay.

583
00:20:35,974 --> 00:20:37,195
That's Southern robbery.

584
00:20:38,695 --> 00:20:39,195
Yay.

585
00:20:39,654 --> 00:20:40,154
Yeah.

586
00:20:40,579 --> 00:20:41,319
Well, if

587
00:20:41,619 --> 00:20:43,700
you if you did not laugh with me

588
00:20:43,700 --> 00:20:45,220
more often than you guys, like, a little

589
00:20:45,220 --> 00:20:46,819
annoyed with me, then, yeah, it would it

590
00:20:46,819 --> 00:20:48,500
would not be as fun. No. So I

591
00:20:48,500 --> 00:20:49,480
mean and I also

592
00:20:50,579 --> 00:20:52,740
I I don't think I could suppress it

593
00:20:52,740 --> 00:20:54,500
if you didn't like it. We wouldn't work

594
00:20:54,500 --> 00:20:56,019
if you didn't like it. Yeah. So it

595
00:20:56,019 --> 00:20:58,385
does help that you like it. Most most

596
00:20:58,385 --> 00:21:00,933
most of the time. Yeah. More times than

597
00:21:00,933 --> 00:21:03,480
not. 95% of the time. Yeah. Alright. Alright.

598
00:21:03,480 --> 00:21:06,664
Okay. So for me Mhmm. I don't wanna

599
00:21:06,664 --> 00:21:09,530
pick one because there's lots. So there's okay.

600
00:21:09,530 --> 00:21:12,240
There's your dom look and then there's you

601
00:21:12,240 --> 00:21:13,759
putting on your dom look, and they're 2

602
00:21:13,759 --> 00:21:15,859
different looks. When it comes to you naturally

603
00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:18,400
and you weren't thinking about it, oh oh

604
00:21:18,400 --> 00:21:19,220
my god.

605
00:21:19,920 --> 00:21:22,079
I am both terrified and ready to roll

606
00:21:22,079 --> 00:21:23,440
over and do whatever you need me to

607
00:21:23,440 --> 00:21:26,684
do in whatever take that however you'd like.

608
00:21:26,744 --> 00:21:28,664
You're like you're like Lola rolling over on

609
00:21:28,664 --> 00:21:31,325
the back Right. Waiting for belly rubs. Or

610
00:21:31,625 --> 00:21:33,805
sticking my ass in the air. Whatever. Whatever.

611
00:21:35,545 --> 00:21:37,224
But then there is the part of your

612
00:21:37,224 --> 00:21:38,765
personality that's that

613
00:21:39,465 --> 00:21:39,965
calm,

614
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:44,680
confident, quiet part, like, especially when you take

615
00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:46,279
charge, like, when I'm in freak out mode

616
00:21:46,279 --> 00:21:48,440
and you're like, baby girl. And you're like,

617
00:21:48,440 --> 00:21:50,039
no. It's been a hot minute because we've

618
00:21:50,039 --> 00:21:52,119
been in freak out mode together Right. Which

619
00:21:52,119 --> 00:21:54,359
is truly not my favorite place for us

620
00:21:54,359 --> 00:21:55,720
to be. Only one of us should be

621
00:21:55,720 --> 00:21:57,339
falling apart at a time. Okay?

622
00:22:00,095 --> 00:22:01,694
And it should be the baby girl, I

623
00:22:01,694 --> 00:22:03,234
think. I just think it should be.

624
00:22:05,134 --> 00:22:07,855
But, yeah, when you there's a thing going

625
00:22:07,855 --> 00:22:10,095
on or you are looking at me going,

626
00:22:10,095 --> 00:22:12,095
oh, she's more of a hot mess than

627
00:22:12,095 --> 00:22:13,720
usual. I need to take care of this.

628
00:22:14,019 --> 00:22:16,180
That there's a part of the a way

629
00:22:16,180 --> 00:22:17,859
you get it's the daddy side of you.

630
00:22:17,859 --> 00:22:19,859
It's not the bratty daddy or the sadist

631
00:22:19,859 --> 00:22:20,900
daddy. It's like the

632
00:22:21,299 --> 00:22:22,980
but then you're you're still the dumb because

633
00:22:22,980 --> 00:22:25,059
you're like sometimes you'd be like, listen. You

634
00:22:25,059 --> 00:22:25,799
know? Like,

635
00:22:26,980 --> 00:22:29,555
breaking through whatever the chaotic noise is in

636
00:22:29,555 --> 00:22:31,474
my head. And, yeah, I like I like

637
00:22:31,474 --> 00:22:32,914
that part. But I also like that you

638
00:22:32,914 --> 00:22:35,154
listen really well and that you like this

639
00:22:35,154 --> 00:22:37,394
should not the bar is in hell, okay,

640
00:22:37,394 --> 00:22:37,894
for

641
00:22:38,195 --> 00:22:39,575
hetero passing relationships.

642
00:22:40,035 --> 00:22:41,955
I like that you've never once said, if

643
00:22:41,955 --> 00:22:43,759
you'll make me a list, I'll I'll help

644
00:22:43,759 --> 00:22:45,279
you tell me how to help you around

645
00:22:45,279 --> 00:22:47,119
the house I also paid for. Right? Like,

646
00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:48,799
you just, like, see shit, and you just

647
00:22:48,799 --> 00:22:50,480
fucking get it done because you're a grown

648
00:22:50,480 --> 00:22:51,059
ass man

649
00:22:51,359 --> 00:22:53,440
who, right, like, has lived a life and,

650
00:22:53,440 --> 00:22:55,279
you know, doesn't need anybody to quote take

651
00:22:55,279 --> 00:22:56,960
care of him. I take care of you

652
00:22:56,960 --> 00:22:59,164
because I choose to, not because you need

653
00:22:59,164 --> 00:23:01,904
it because you're not my 3rd child.

654
00:23:02,205 --> 00:23:04,605
I married my 3rd child, apparently, is what

655
00:23:04,605 --> 00:23:05,825
I did the first time.

656
00:23:06,765 --> 00:23:08,365
And I do like that about you. I've

657
00:23:08,525 --> 00:23:10,045
we've never once had to sit down and

658
00:23:10,045 --> 00:23:10,470
go,

659
00:23:11,029 --> 00:23:12,630
I've had to ask you for more help,

660
00:23:12,630 --> 00:23:14,869
but because I'm bad at asking for help

661
00:23:15,190 --> 00:23:18,069
Mhmm. And or at times you weren't sure

662
00:23:18,069 --> 00:23:20,150
of your role in a situation because it

663
00:23:20,150 --> 00:23:22,390
was outside of our power exchange. Right. And

664
00:23:22,390 --> 00:23:24,150
that I was, like, having a nervous breakdown,

665
00:23:24,150 --> 00:23:25,974
and we just had to sort some stuff.

666
00:23:25,974 --> 00:23:27,035
But in general,

667
00:23:27,654 --> 00:23:28,315
you just,

668
00:23:29,414 --> 00:23:31,494
you know Yeah. I do see it. I

669
00:23:31,494 --> 00:23:33,255
like that about him. Okay. But it does

670
00:23:33,255 --> 00:23:34,615
prove the bar is in hell because that

671
00:23:34,615 --> 00:23:36,775
shouldn't be a thing that anybody has to

672
00:23:36,775 --> 00:23:38,535
be praised for. Thank you for participating in

673
00:23:38,535 --> 00:23:39,434
your own relationship.

674
00:23:39,974 --> 00:23:42,349
Like, that that should not be praiseworthy, but

675
00:23:42,349 --> 00:23:44,269
I do appreciate it. Because I'm one of

676
00:23:44,269 --> 00:23:45,950
those people who knows what it's like to

677
00:23:45,950 --> 00:23:46,849
not have it.

678
00:23:47,629 --> 00:23:48,129
So

679
00:23:49,789 --> 00:23:51,869
okay. Oh, I've already answered this, but we'll

680
00:23:51,869 --> 00:23:53,789
answer it again. Okay. Is there a look

681
00:23:53,789 --> 00:23:55,654
or gesture your eye make that really turned

682
00:23:55,654 --> 00:23:57,255
you on? And then you wiggle your butt.

683
00:23:57,255 --> 00:23:58,615
Yeah. That's what it was part of what

684
00:23:58,615 --> 00:23:59,515
I did. So

685
00:24:01,815 --> 00:24:03,894
now I'm learning since my favorite outfit is

686
00:24:03,894 --> 00:24:05,494
my birth that your favorite outfit of mine

687
00:24:05,494 --> 00:24:07,095
is my birthday suit. So when I do

688
00:24:07,095 --> 00:24:08,869
it when I'm in my birthday suit, is

689
00:24:08,869 --> 00:24:11,350
that, like, double the Double yeah. Double shot.

690
00:24:11,350 --> 00:24:12,250
Okay. Okay.

691
00:24:12,630 --> 00:24:14,230
I mean, I I do I wiggle my

692
00:24:14,230 --> 00:24:15,670
butt. I wiggle my butt for many reasons.

693
00:24:15,670 --> 00:24:17,350
But one of the butt things reasons I

694
00:24:17,350 --> 00:24:19,430
wiggle my butt is to make it a

695
00:24:19,430 --> 00:24:22,470
butt more obvious target than it already is.

696
00:24:22,470 --> 00:24:24,595
If I'm if I wiggle it, you're like

697
00:24:24,674 --> 00:24:26,835
it's like, hey. Pay attention to me if

698
00:24:26,835 --> 00:24:29,174
my butt could talk. Right. And that's backfired

699
00:24:29,234 --> 00:24:30,994
on you a few times, hasn't it? Goddamn.

700
00:24:30,994 --> 00:24:32,595
Yeah. I know. Yeah. Yeah. I know. Because

701
00:24:32,595 --> 00:24:33,894
that's the sadist daddy.

702
00:24:34,755 --> 00:24:36,914
Also, maybe the bratty daddy. The bratty sadist?

703
00:24:36,914 --> 00:24:37,410
I don't know.

704
00:24:38,210 --> 00:24:39,509
The look or gesture,

705
00:24:40,289 --> 00:24:42,289
you're actually kinda doing it a little bit.

706
00:24:42,289 --> 00:24:43,730
It's not your dom look. You look really

707
00:24:43,730 --> 00:24:46,130
relaxed but there's that leaning on your forearm

708
00:24:46,130 --> 00:24:48,690
like that. But when and then pair it

709
00:24:48,690 --> 00:24:50,450
with with the dom look that you're not

710
00:24:50,450 --> 00:24:52,095
trying. The one that just like you had

711
00:24:52,095 --> 00:24:53,554
that moment and it just

712
00:24:53,934 --> 00:24:55,775
was there. Because there there really is a

713
00:24:55,775 --> 00:24:56,595
difference. Usually,

714
00:24:56,974 --> 00:24:59,134
I've I've caught you unawares, and you you

715
00:24:59,134 --> 00:25:01,394
just naturally go into it.

716
00:25:01,934 --> 00:25:03,474
Sometimes And I'm like,

717
00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:05,419
baby girl, again?

718
00:25:05,720 --> 00:25:07,960
Sometimes it's his what the fuck Dom look.

719
00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:09,500
Okay? And sometimes

720
00:25:09,880 --> 00:25:12,700
it's that's my baby girl Dom look. Sometimes

721
00:25:13,079 --> 00:25:15,500
it's you are walking a thin line.

722
00:25:16,039 --> 00:25:17,799
I like them all. I like them all

723
00:25:17,799 --> 00:25:18,779
is what I'm saying.

724
00:25:20,414 --> 00:25:20,914
Okay.

725
00:25:22,414 --> 00:25:24,275
Now we're gonna get into a part where

726
00:25:24,654 --> 00:25:26,495
I'm I don't I'm not good with the

727
00:25:26,495 --> 00:25:29,875
talking Mhmm. When we're talking about, like, provocative

728
00:25:30,174 --> 00:25:30,995
stuff. But

729
00:25:31,695 --> 00:25:34,039
you are. He's a a talker, y'all. Get

730
00:25:34,039 --> 00:25:36,279
him naked, and he's got stuff to say.

731
00:25:36,279 --> 00:25:36,779
Anyway,

732
00:25:39,559 --> 00:25:42,920
what have I said or could I say

733
00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:44,619
that would really turn you on?

734
00:25:47,045 --> 00:25:48,805
It's the only time I'm not talking y'all

735
00:25:48,805 --> 00:25:51,045
is when I'm when it's, like, sexual, so

736
00:25:51,045 --> 00:25:52,644
I don't Yeah. I mean

737
00:25:53,525 --> 00:25:55,545
Like, if you want me to shut up,

738
00:25:55,684 --> 00:25:57,224
apparently turn me on.

739
00:25:58,309 --> 00:26:00,230
But so is there something I could say?

740
00:26:00,230 --> 00:26:02,069
Like, I don't maybe, but if I did,

741
00:26:02,069 --> 00:26:04,009
you'd be like, hot damn. Let's go.

742
00:26:08,950 --> 00:26:10,569
I think if you gave me that,

743
00:26:11,484 --> 00:26:12,065
you know,

744
00:26:12,765 --> 00:26:14,845
why you give me that little koi side

745
00:26:14,845 --> 00:26:15,345
eye.

746
00:26:17,085 --> 00:26:18,464
I do it all the time.

747
00:26:19,724 --> 00:26:22,204
I'm pretty much always giving you some form

748
00:26:22,204 --> 00:26:23,744
of side eye. Well, there's different

749
00:26:24,365 --> 00:26:26,924
flavors of side eye. There it's true. Just

750
00:26:26,924 --> 00:26:28,740
like there's different flavors of dame lai. I

751
00:26:28,740 --> 00:26:31,299
did preface that with koi side eye. And

752
00:26:31,299 --> 00:26:33,860
I I could never purposely repeat that. I

753
00:26:33,940 --> 00:26:35,620
it's got a I don't even know what

754
00:26:35,620 --> 00:26:37,460
that one looks like. Right. Yeah. Not a

755
00:26:37,460 --> 00:26:39,799
clue. It just kinda slips in there sometimes.

756
00:26:40,180 --> 00:26:40,680
So

757
00:26:41,345 --> 00:26:43,265
what the things you said there you say

758
00:26:43,265 --> 00:26:45,424
plenty that turn me on. Like, anytime you

759
00:26:45,424 --> 00:26:47,184
call me baby girl in your deep gravelly

760
00:26:47,184 --> 00:26:49,345
voice. Like, I'm I'm like, fuck. What what

761
00:26:49,424 --> 00:26:50,625
do I need to roll over? What do

762
00:26:50,625 --> 00:26:51,684
you need? What do you need?

763
00:26:54,210 --> 00:26:56,529
Anytime you you call me something, but it's

764
00:26:56,529 --> 00:26:59,509
my my whatever, I'm like, I've just melted.

765
00:26:59,569 --> 00:27:01,669
And if I wore panties, they'd be wet.

766
00:27:04,529 --> 00:27:05,835
But, yeah, that's that's

767
00:27:06,595 --> 00:27:08,474
yeah. It's more tone of voice than what

768
00:27:08,474 --> 00:27:10,234
you say, but when you say baby girl

769
00:27:10,234 --> 00:27:13,694
in that that voice, not the annoyed voice,

770
00:27:14,315 --> 00:27:16,954
not the at his wits end voice, not

771
00:27:16,954 --> 00:27:17,454
the

772
00:27:17,835 --> 00:27:19,934
you think I've gone too far in sassiness.

773
00:27:20,394 --> 00:27:21,700
No. No. No. No. No. No. Not the

774
00:27:22,100 --> 00:27:23,799
I said none of those.

775
00:27:25,220 --> 00:27:26,740
None of those. None of those. Don't like

776
00:27:26,740 --> 00:27:28,980
those. Nope. Don't like those. I'm am I

777
00:27:28,980 --> 00:27:32,200
gonna change my behavior to prevent them? No.

778
00:27:32,340 --> 00:27:33,315
But I don't like them.

779
00:27:34,514 --> 00:27:35,014
Okay.

780
00:27:36,754 --> 00:27:39,075
This one kinda goes with that. Okay. What

781
00:27:39,075 --> 00:27:41,634
words do you wish I'd whisper in your

782
00:27:41,634 --> 00:27:42,855
ear more often?

783
00:27:49,470 --> 00:27:50,369
Fuck me, daddy.

784
00:27:51,549 --> 00:27:52,849
Let's go get cheese.

785
00:27:55,069 --> 00:27:57,150
Goddamn it. I was gonna be all sexy

786
00:27:57,150 --> 00:27:59,265
and you're like, I would like cheese, please.

787
00:27:59,884 --> 00:28:01,244
Look. You don't have to threaten me with

788
00:28:01,244 --> 00:28:03,244
a good time. I'm down to go get

789
00:28:03,244 --> 00:28:04,065
more cheese

790
00:28:04,525 --> 00:28:06,144
any day. Any day.

791
00:28:06,605 --> 00:28:09,244
We literally buy more than £2 from Sam's

792
00:28:09,244 --> 00:28:11,484
Club every month. You know, either they're they're

793
00:28:11,484 --> 00:28:11,984
interchangeable.

794
00:28:12,730 --> 00:28:14,669
It's more cheese. Jesus.

795
00:28:16,009 --> 00:28:18,990
Not fuck me daddy? Not I'm yours daddy?

796
00:28:19,130 --> 00:28:20,269
Come on now.

797
00:28:20,809 --> 00:28:21,869
Goddamn it.

798
00:28:23,210 --> 00:28:24,555
You're very pleased with your

799
00:28:25,595 --> 00:28:27,695
self. This one's hard for me because

800
00:28:28,235 --> 00:28:30,075
you are a talker. It's the only time

801
00:28:30,075 --> 00:28:32,075
you're a talker. You're a talker. So I

802
00:28:32,154 --> 00:28:33,515
like, what am I gonna what do I

803
00:28:33,515 --> 00:28:35,275
wanna hear more often? You I don't know.

804
00:28:35,275 --> 00:28:36,815
You've you've got a whole, like,

805
00:28:37,359 --> 00:28:38,720
what's the word I want? Like, a a

806
00:28:38,799 --> 00:28:40,720
not a script, but, like, you've got, like,

807
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,720
a whole cast of things that you'll just

808
00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:44,179
pull out and they're all, like,

809
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:45,839
okay. But

810
00:28:46,319 --> 00:28:46,819
Repoitwon?

811
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:48,559
Yes. That's the word. I would never have

812
00:28:48,559 --> 00:28:49,859
said it like that. But yes.

813
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:51,525
It's right up there with how you you

814
00:28:51,684 --> 00:28:52,505
pronounce extravaganza.

815
00:28:53,205 --> 00:28:55,305
No. No. We're answering these questions.

816
00:28:56,085 --> 00:28:57,545
We scared off any newcomers,

817
00:28:58,404 --> 00:29:00,484
and we've annoyed the people who come for

818
00:29:00,484 --> 00:29:02,805
the the topics they enjoy and don't come

819
00:29:02,805 --> 00:29:03,445
for this. So

820
00:29:04,559 --> 00:29:05,519
fine. It's fine.

821
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:08,339
I it goes back to,

822
00:29:10,319 --> 00:29:12,179
I do like when you're, like, bend over,

823
00:29:12,240 --> 00:29:13,460
like, bend over the bed.

824
00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:16,559
Let me see that ass. I like that

825
00:29:16,559 --> 00:29:18,724
one. Because it's usually something's gonna happen to

826
00:29:18,724 --> 00:29:20,644
that ass. It's probably gonna get smacked. I'm

827
00:29:20,644 --> 00:29:21,944
fucking here for it.

828
00:29:26,164 --> 00:29:28,005
It's not a thing you whisper and it's

829
00:29:28,005 --> 00:29:29,764
not a thing you say often, but you

830
00:29:29,764 --> 00:29:31,304
have said it before. But basically,

831
00:29:33,049 --> 00:29:33,549
when

832
00:29:34,570 --> 00:29:37,070
I'm walking that fine line Mhmm.

833
00:29:37,849 --> 00:29:40,490
But it's not like a corner time situation.

834
00:29:40,490 --> 00:29:43,450
It's a I'm, I'm gonna learn how much

835
00:29:43,450 --> 00:29:45,785
spankings can suck kind of a lot. And

836
00:29:45,785 --> 00:29:47,945
you don't you say different things. It's usually

837
00:29:47,945 --> 00:29:49,484
baby girl and that tone.

838
00:29:50,744 --> 00:29:52,505
But it's the one where I kinda catch

839
00:29:52,505 --> 00:29:53,484
the vibe of,

840
00:29:53,865 --> 00:29:55,625
I'm not gonna like this, but also I

841
00:29:55,625 --> 00:29:56,960
am going to to like this.

842
00:29:58,220 --> 00:30:00,059
That one, I like that one too. Mhmm.

843
00:30:00,059 --> 00:30:02,319
I like that one too. Okay. Okay.

844
00:30:03,819 --> 00:30:06,059
It's okay if you can't answer this because

845
00:30:06,059 --> 00:30:08,619
that's a long time ago. Okay? How did

846
00:30:08,619 --> 00:30:10,319
you feel during our first kiss?

847
00:30:11,884 --> 00:30:13,244
That was that was a while ago. Yeah.

848
00:30:13,244 --> 00:30:13,904
Yeah. Yeah.

849
00:30:14,204 --> 00:30:15,404
Yeah. Because it was the first time we

850
00:30:15,404 --> 00:30:17,804
physically met in person. Mhmm. And, I think

851
00:30:17,804 --> 00:30:19,404
you spanked me before you kissed me. I

852
00:30:19,404 --> 00:30:21,484
did. Which is how our relationship goes. We

853
00:30:21,484 --> 00:30:22,924
don't we don't kiss a lot. I mean,

854
00:30:22,924 --> 00:30:24,125
I kiss your cheek. You kiss my cheek,

855
00:30:24,125 --> 00:30:25,804
but we're we're not making out. No. Because

856
00:30:25,804 --> 00:30:26,700
mostly, I I would like you to be

857
00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:28,539
focused on my ass more than anything. True

858
00:30:28,539 --> 00:30:30,140
true true. But I mean, in the beginning,

859
00:30:30,140 --> 00:30:32,079
we did kiss a lot. Yeah. We did.

860
00:30:32,779 --> 00:30:33,759
You know, I

861
00:30:36,059 --> 00:30:38,079
I think what I think what I

862
00:30:39,245 --> 00:30:39,745
felt

863
00:30:40,525 --> 00:30:42,705
during that first kiss was that,

864
00:30:44,605 --> 00:30:45,745
yeah, I like this.

865
00:30:47,965 --> 00:30:49,644
I mean, I is there any other response

866
00:30:49,644 --> 00:30:50,384
that's appropriate?

867
00:30:53,029 --> 00:30:53,529
So

868
00:30:55,429 --> 00:30:58,250
I have the same thoughts whenever I kiss.

869
00:30:58,549 --> 00:31:01,269
Mhmm. Like like like kiss, not a peck.

870
00:31:01,269 --> 00:31:03,450
Like, you know, we're slobbering over one another

871
00:31:03,669 --> 00:31:05,534
that I always have because I have issues

872
00:31:05,534 --> 00:31:06,974
and should go back to therapy and it's

873
00:31:07,054 --> 00:31:09,134
am I doing this right? Is this okay?

874
00:31:09,134 --> 00:31:10,674
Do I remember how to do this?

875
00:31:11,214 --> 00:31:12,654
Because by the time I was kissing you,

876
00:31:12,654 --> 00:31:15,375
I hadn't kissed anybody in a while and

877
00:31:15,375 --> 00:31:18,619
I've never been confident on my kissing abilities.

878
00:31:18,759 --> 00:31:21,559
Mhmm. My when I'm kissing though, is the

879
00:31:21,559 --> 00:31:23,340
one time I'm willing to, like,

880
00:31:24,119 --> 00:31:26,759
play with not power, but, like, control a

881
00:31:26,759 --> 00:31:27,420
little bit.

882
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:29,259
I don't I I

883
00:31:30,825 --> 00:31:32,424
I know where that comes from, though. It

884
00:31:32,424 --> 00:31:33,785
has nothing to do with you. I'll I

885
00:31:33,865 --> 00:31:35,484
maybe I'll explain in a minute. But

886
00:31:36,105 --> 00:31:37,785
it's that's mostly what I'm thinking. So that's

887
00:31:37,785 --> 00:31:39,085
not the sexy thought.

888
00:31:39,704 --> 00:31:41,644
I do kind of remember thinking

889
00:31:42,220 --> 00:31:43,420
as sort of what I was thinking when

890
00:31:43,420 --> 00:31:45,039
you spanked me the first time too,

891
00:31:45,340 --> 00:31:45,840
finally.

892
00:31:47,180 --> 00:31:47,680
Finally.

893
00:31:49,180 --> 00:31:49,680
Finally.

894
00:31:53,740 --> 00:31:55,759
No. Okay. So I've done this this

895
00:31:56,140 --> 00:31:57,615
dominance thing with kissing

896
00:31:58,335 --> 00:32:01,315
since I started kissing, which when was that?

897
00:32:02,255 --> 00:32:03,535
God. My first kiss was when I was

898
00:32:03,535 --> 00:32:04,035
13,

899
00:32:04,494 --> 00:32:06,255
I think. Oh, and he was an older

900
00:32:06,255 --> 00:32:08,015
boy and that was a good kiss. And

901
00:32:08,095 --> 00:32:10,255
no. My first kiss was before him and

902
00:32:10,255 --> 00:32:12,000
that dude, it was very wet And I

903
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:14,000
was like, is this kissing? I don't

904
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:16,019
but then the next dude,

905
00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:18,160
he's older and he was good. And yes,

906
00:32:18,160 --> 00:32:20,400
I was still 13 at the time. That's

907
00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:22,259
that's neither here nor there. Anyway,

908
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:25,039
I think I always do this, like, play

909
00:32:25,039 --> 00:32:26,259
for dominance thing

910
00:32:26,944 --> 00:32:27,924
with kissing.

911
00:32:28,545 --> 00:32:30,944
And I think what I've always been waiting

912
00:32:30,944 --> 00:32:33,184
for is the person who takes that control

913
00:32:33,184 --> 00:32:35,744
back. Like, I'm like, oh, I'll I'll do

914
00:32:35,744 --> 00:32:38,224
my tongue and my mouth, my lips the

915
00:32:38,224 --> 00:32:39,750
way I want. What are you doing

916
00:32:40,309 --> 00:32:43,190
about it? And quite frankly, nobody did nothing

917
00:32:43,190 --> 00:32:44,250
about it until

918
00:32:44,549 --> 00:32:47,109
I realized I was kinky and started dating

919
00:32:47,109 --> 00:32:47,930
Doms only.

920
00:32:48,390 --> 00:32:49,210
So, yeah,

921
00:32:49,829 --> 00:32:51,829
that is more than anybody's ever wanted to

922
00:32:51,829 --> 00:32:53,690
know about me, and it's okay. It's okay.

923
00:32:53,884 --> 00:32:55,265
I have very little shame.

924
00:32:56,205 --> 00:32:58,705
That went super super fast. Mhmm.

925
00:32:59,565 --> 00:33:01,164
I feel like we there's should we talk

926
00:33:01,244 --> 00:33:02,605
do you want me to find more questions?

927
00:33:02,605 --> 00:33:04,365
Do you want to talk about anything else?

928
00:33:04,365 --> 00:33:05,884
That was really fast. This does not feel

929
00:33:05,884 --> 00:33:07,725
like an episode. No. This is like half

930
00:33:07,725 --> 00:33:10,450
an episode. Yeah. I mean, I have things

931
00:33:10,450 --> 00:33:12,690
I've been thinking about Okay. But I haven't

932
00:33:12,690 --> 00:33:15,569
thought through my thoughts completely. Yes. That's a

933
00:33:15,569 --> 00:33:16,950
thing you have to do sometimes.

934
00:33:17,890 --> 00:33:19,029
Or at least I do.

935
00:33:20,289 --> 00:33:22,230
But do you have anything on

936
00:33:22,609 --> 00:33:23,509
your mind?

937
00:33:27,224 --> 00:33:28,825
I've got lots of things on my mind,

938
00:33:28,825 --> 00:33:31,625
but, you know kink oriented Yeah. Power exchange

939
00:33:31,625 --> 00:33:32,125
oriented.

940
00:33:34,424 --> 00:33:36,664
I don't know. I I just feel like

941
00:33:36,664 --> 00:33:38,284
in in in recent

942
00:33:39,224 --> 00:33:41,559
times that we've kind of been taking our

943
00:33:41,559 --> 00:33:44,700
dynamic back a little bit more? Oh, absolutely.

944
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:45,740
Absolutely.

945
00:33:46,759 --> 00:33:49,240
So this what I've been thinking goes along

946
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:50,679
with that a little bit because I have

947
00:33:50,679 --> 00:33:51,419
felt myself

948
00:33:52,519 --> 00:33:53,980
being a little bit more

949
00:33:54,785 --> 00:33:57,204
my baby girl self Mhmm. Which

950
00:33:57,825 --> 00:33:59,825
it's she's got to be able to relax.

951
00:33:59,825 --> 00:34:01,984
Okay? Or Mhmm. To know it's safe to

952
00:34:01,984 --> 00:34:03,105
whine. I don't know.

953
00:34:04,384 --> 00:34:04,884
So

954
00:34:05,505 --> 00:34:07,105
I know I'm a person who has said

955
00:34:07,105 --> 00:34:09,505
for many years, and I still believe this,

956
00:34:09,505 --> 00:34:11,619
that books should not fiction books should not

957
00:34:11,619 --> 00:34:13,699
be treated as how to manuals. And you

958
00:34:13,699 --> 00:34:15,380
shouldn't like, you could be inspired, but you

959
00:34:15,380 --> 00:34:17,699
shouldn't, like, emulate shit you're reading to the

960
00:34:17,699 --> 00:34:19,619
letter because it's fantasy and fiction and whatever

961
00:34:19,619 --> 00:34:20,119
whatever.

962
00:34:21,380 --> 00:34:23,860
But I've been reading a series that has

963
00:34:23,860 --> 00:34:25,695
had me in a fucking choke

964
00:34:26,655 --> 00:34:28,355
hold. And literally every time I'm like,

965
00:34:28,655 --> 00:34:30,175
oh, I can't I mean, I know what's

966
00:34:30,175 --> 00:34:31,535
gonna happen in all these because they're you

967
00:34:31,535 --> 00:34:32,735
know, there's a formula to them, and that's

968
00:34:32,735 --> 00:34:34,894
fine. Oh, maybe I should go read something

969
00:34:34,894 --> 00:34:36,735
else to get, like, a palate cleanser. I'll

970
00:34:36,735 --> 00:34:38,494
come back in a few weeks and finish.

971
00:34:38,494 --> 00:34:40,950
Nope. Nope. I keep going. I keep going

972
00:34:41,010 --> 00:34:42,630
because the characters are well written.

973
00:34:43,489 --> 00:34:45,349
But it's kind of inspired me.

974
00:34:45,890 --> 00:34:48,530
So the book series I'm reading is called

975
00:34:48,530 --> 00:34:50,550
MC Daddies by Leila Roberts.

976
00:34:50,849 --> 00:34:52,585
She apparently has written a shit ton of

977
00:34:52,585 --> 00:34:55,085
other books. Will I be reading those? Probably.

978
00:34:57,224 --> 00:34:59,785
In MC Daddies, that's a motorcycle club and

979
00:34:59,785 --> 00:35:01,005
the people who are kind of,

980
00:35:01,785 --> 00:35:04,400
related to that motorcycle club in different ways

981
00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:05,920
or to the peep you know, kind of

982
00:35:05,920 --> 00:35:07,059
connected to the people.

983
00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:09,700
And they are all daddy dom so far,

984
00:35:09,840 --> 00:35:11,920
and then their partners that they find are

985
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:12,420
littles.

986
00:35:12,720 --> 00:35:15,380
And sometimes they know they're littles, and sometimes

987
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:16,099
they don't.

988
00:35:17,994 --> 00:35:20,335
And it there's a there's a little formulaic.

989
00:35:20,554 --> 00:35:22,155
It's got some age play, so that's not

990
00:35:22,155 --> 00:35:23,214
really my jam.

991
00:35:23,514 --> 00:35:25,195
But it was kind I was nervous about

992
00:35:25,195 --> 00:35:26,155
it. I was like, oh my god. I

993
00:35:26,155 --> 00:35:28,014
don't I don't wanna read something. And then

994
00:35:28,155 --> 00:35:30,014
because that's so not my thing,

995
00:35:30,554 --> 00:35:32,690
get out of the head space, like, you

996
00:35:32,690 --> 00:35:34,450
know, of enjoying the book. Like, I don't

997
00:35:34,450 --> 00:35:34,950
know.

998
00:35:35,650 --> 00:35:37,990
Even though it's it's definitely not my thing,

999
00:35:38,130 --> 00:35:39,970
the way it's written, it makes so much

1000
00:35:39,970 --> 00:35:41,650
sense with the characters and the story that

1001
00:35:41,650 --> 00:35:42,309
it's like,

1002
00:35:42,690 --> 00:35:44,289
I don't have to I I'm not a

1003
00:35:44,289 --> 00:35:45,829
person who thinks I have to find

1004
00:35:46,204 --> 00:35:48,445
people I'm reading about in books relatable. They

1005
00:35:48,445 --> 00:35:50,284
don't I don't have they just have to

1006
00:35:50,284 --> 00:35:51,565
be well written enough that I'm like, oh,

1007
00:35:51,565 --> 00:35:52,925
I am I actually give a fuck what

1008
00:35:52,925 --> 00:35:54,065
happens to you.

1009
00:35:54,925 --> 00:35:56,284
I don't have to relate to them. I

1010
00:35:56,284 --> 00:35:57,425
just gotta care.

1011
00:35:58,284 --> 00:36:00,280
And so the series is good. I'm on

1012
00:36:00,280 --> 00:36:02,519
book 9, which is where we finally get

1013
00:36:02,519 --> 00:36:04,699
to a non straight, nonmonogamous

1014
00:36:05,319 --> 00:36:05,819
situation.

1015
00:36:06,359 --> 00:36:07,980
It's been delightful so far.

1016
00:36:10,049 --> 00:36:10,549
But

1017
00:36:11,235 --> 00:36:13,655
even though most of the the littles

1018
00:36:14,515 --> 00:36:16,934
in this series that I've read

1019
00:36:18,115 --> 00:36:21,315
go, you know, behave in ways I would

1020
00:36:21,315 --> 00:36:23,175
never. It's just not who I am.

1021
00:36:24,460 --> 00:36:27,260
Being in their head and reading their stories,

1022
00:36:27,260 --> 00:36:30,380
which are fiction, I can't imagine a motorcycle

1023
00:36:30,380 --> 00:36:32,460
club would have this many fucking daddy doms

1024
00:36:32,460 --> 00:36:33,599
unless they advertised.

1025
00:36:33,980 --> 00:36:35,980
They were only looking for daddy doms. Like

1026
00:36:36,940 --> 00:36:37,440
but

1027
00:36:37,944 --> 00:36:38,764
it's made

1028
00:36:39,545 --> 00:36:41,304
me feel a little bit more in touch

1029
00:36:41,304 --> 00:36:42,905
with and want to be more in touch

1030
00:36:42,905 --> 00:36:44,204
with my baby girl side.

1031
00:36:45,224 --> 00:36:46,744
And I'm sorry for you that that so

1032
00:36:46,744 --> 00:36:48,045
far has looked like whining

1033
00:36:48,585 --> 00:36:50,184
in the middle of the night.

1034
00:36:52,025 --> 00:36:54,170
It has not looked like, you know,

1035
00:36:55,109 --> 00:36:57,670
being sweet and, you know, whatever. Playful and

1036
00:36:57,670 --> 00:37:00,329
what a no. No. No. It's been whining.

1037
00:37:00,389 --> 00:37:02,389
It's been whining. But you know what? What

1038
00:37:02,389 --> 00:37:04,570
I've what I have figured out about myself

1039
00:37:04,949 --> 00:37:06,789
as a baby girl, which to me is

1040
00:37:06,789 --> 00:37:08,914
on the spectrum of littles. I don't have

1041
00:37:08,914 --> 00:37:10,434
an age in my head. I don't do

1042
00:37:10,434 --> 00:37:12,195
age play. I don't like, I don't I

1043
00:37:12,195 --> 00:37:13,715
don't do any of that. That's that that

1044
00:37:13,715 --> 00:37:14,775
part's not me.

1045
00:37:15,155 --> 00:37:16,295
But it is my

1046
00:37:18,195 --> 00:37:20,594
almost younger seeming side. It's certainly the the

1047
00:37:20,594 --> 00:37:22,215
one who wants fewer responsibilities.

1048
00:37:23,079 --> 00:37:25,079
We have Onyx up here. Hope she doesn't,

1049
00:37:25,079 --> 00:37:26,859
like, rub on the mics too

1050
00:37:27,159 --> 00:37:29,559
much, or show her butthole to the camera

1051
00:37:29,559 --> 00:37:30,219
too late.

1052
00:37:31,159 --> 00:37:31,659
But,

1053
00:37:32,679 --> 00:37:34,839
it you know, I I don't I don't

1054
00:37:34,839 --> 00:37:36,619
want what they have,

1055
00:37:37,105 --> 00:37:39,585
but I want the feeling I get when

1056
00:37:39,585 --> 00:37:41,045
I'm reading them.

1057
00:37:42,465 --> 00:37:44,485
And sex scenes and not sex scenes,

1058
00:37:45,905 --> 00:37:46,724
like, these

1059
00:37:47,505 --> 00:37:48,005
these,

1060
00:37:48,864 --> 00:37:49,844
daddy dom,

1061
00:37:50,340 --> 00:37:51,720
so far they've all been men,

1062
00:37:52,900 --> 00:37:55,559
are written in from my imagination,

1063
00:37:56,340 --> 00:37:59,380
like, the exact kind of, I'm gonna protect

1064
00:37:59,380 --> 00:38:00,920
you whether you like it or not.

1065
00:38:01,380 --> 00:38:03,460
You are a danger to yourself. And so

1066
00:38:03,460 --> 00:38:05,355
clearly, you you need me.

1067
00:38:05,835 --> 00:38:07,914
And I I'm just like, yes. I am

1068
00:38:07,914 --> 00:38:09,434
a danger to myself, not in the way

1069
00:38:09,434 --> 00:38:11,594
these chicks have been because I'm not trying

1070
00:38:11,594 --> 00:38:13,434
to get, like nobody's trying to kill me

1071
00:38:13,434 --> 00:38:15,835
or kidnap me, but I don't always make

1072
00:38:15,835 --> 00:38:18,014
responsible decisions for myself.

1073
00:38:19,570 --> 00:38:21,570
And, yeah, I probably do need help with

1074
00:38:21,570 --> 00:38:24,130
that. Mhmm. And so to your point, Leila

1075
00:38:24,130 --> 00:38:26,289
Roberts, for anybody who's like, what series? Leila

1076
00:38:26,289 --> 00:38:28,530
Roberts. It's called MC Daddies. It's one of

1077
00:38:28,530 --> 00:38:30,050
many series she has. I have a feeling

1078
00:38:30,050 --> 00:38:31,964
I'll be reading all of them. She writes

1079
00:38:32,025 --> 00:38:32,764
good characters.

1080
00:38:34,984 --> 00:38:36,605
Re like, really good h.

1081
00:38:37,144 --> 00:38:39,085
Some of the daddy domes have some similarities,

1082
00:38:39,144 --> 00:38:41,704
but there's clear personality differences. And then The

1083
00:38:41,704 --> 00:38:42,204
Littles,

1084
00:38:42,664 --> 00:38:44,925
again, there's some formula there that I'm like,

1085
00:38:45,625 --> 00:38:46,125
but

1086
00:38:47,210 --> 00:38:49,469
the the personality of the woman,

1087
00:38:50,650 --> 00:38:52,010
not when they're in their little space or

1088
00:38:52,010 --> 00:38:54,730
whatever whatever. Mhmm. The woman, completely different. And

1089
00:38:54,730 --> 00:38:56,510
I've, like I've really enjoyed that.

1090
00:38:57,049 --> 00:38:59,150
The 9th book right now is my favorite.

1091
00:38:59,655 --> 00:39:01,894
It could be because the assassin who's, like,

1092
00:39:01,894 --> 00:39:03,835
got everybody fucked up and confused

1093
00:39:04,215 --> 00:39:06,054
has figured out he's a daddy dumb, and

1094
00:39:06,054 --> 00:39:07,815
so we're learning that actually he's not just

1095
00:39:07,815 --> 00:39:10,074
a cold hearted psychopath or sociopath.

1096
00:39:10,775 --> 00:39:12,315
He wants to be a good daddy,

1097
00:39:12,695 --> 00:39:14,875
and he's got 2 partners.

1098
00:39:15,530 --> 00:39:17,210
And that oh, that's been delightful to read.

1099
00:39:17,210 --> 00:39:18,589
Anyway anyway anyway.

1100
00:39:19,449 --> 00:39:20,429
But yeah. So,

1101
00:39:21,050 --> 00:39:24,170
yes, our power exchange has absolutely taken a

1102
00:39:24,170 --> 00:39:26,429
backseat to fucking everything lately.

1103
00:39:26,969 --> 00:39:27,469
But

1104
00:39:27,849 --> 00:39:28,349
being

1105
00:39:28,650 --> 00:39:30,164
a little bit more in touch with my

1106
00:39:30,164 --> 00:39:32,664
baby girl side makes me want to

1107
00:39:33,204 --> 00:39:34,824
you know, maybe it's not the

1108
00:39:35,285 --> 00:39:37,704
the control and the tasks and the rituals,

1109
00:39:38,005 --> 00:39:39,925
but the connection of when you use your

1110
00:39:39,925 --> 00:39:42,565
daddy voice and I'm all baby girl and

1111
00:39:42,565 --> 00:39:44,425
when we connect like that.

1112
00:39:44,724 --> 00:39:45,224
Mhmm.

1113
00:39:45,710 --> 00:39:47,809
Yes. That's that's why I've been webbed.

1114
00:39:48,190 --> 00:39:48,690
And

1115
00:39:49,150 --> 00:39:50,769
I apologize now.

1116
00:39:54,269 --> 00:39:56,109
So I'm probably setting myself up when I

1117
00:39:56,109 --> 00:39:58,210
ask this. Could you tell a difference?

1118
00:39:59,285 --> 00:40:01,844
Oh, yeah. Okay. Yeah. What do you think

1119
00:40:01,844 --> 00:40:04,005
of the difference? I I like it. I

1120
00:40:04,005 --> 00:40:06,105
mean, you haven't heard me complain, have you?

1121
00:40:06,164 --> 00:40:08,805
Well, no. But you're usually so distracted. Unless

1122
00:40:08,805 --> 00:40:11,125
I, like, really fuck up, you really haven't

1123
00:40:11,125 --> 00:40:12,360
been complaining much.

1124
00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:15,320
That's what happens when the the power exchange

1125
00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:17,880
gets pushed back a little bit. Yeah. 1,

1126
00:40:17,880 --> 00:40:20,519
you let slip shit slide that I'm not

1127
00:40:20,519 --> 00:40:23,000
purposely trying to to do anything. Mhmm. But

1128
00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:25,180
there's times in retrospect, I'm like,

1129
00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:27,355
why don't he say something? Like, what the

1130
00:40:27,355 --> 00:40:29,195
hell? Even I know. I that was that

1131
00:40:29,195 --> 00:40:30,575
was out of pocket. I

1132
00:40:35,355 --> 00:40:37,135
but, also, what I've

1133
00:40:38,075 --> 00:40:38,555
noticed

1134
00:40:40,589 --> 00:40:41,489
Okay. So

1135
00:40:42,589 --> 00:40:44,989
in our power exchange, in our relationship, in

1136
00:40:44,989 --> 00:40:46,609
our sex life, you are the initiator.

1137
00:40:47,869 --> 00:40:48,769
I am the

1138
00:40:49,710 --> 00:40:52,029
please initiate with me. I don't know what

1139
00:40:52,029 --> 00:40:53,170
the word is I want.

1140
00:40:54,054 --> 00:40:54,635
Co instigator.

1141
00:40:55,335 --> 00:40:55,835
No.

1142
00:40:56,934 --> 00:40:58,394
I usually am waiting

1143
00:40:58,775 --> 00:40:59,434
for you

1144
00:40:59,815 --> 00:41:01,655
to initiate. And then a week or so

1145
00:41:01,655 --> 00:41:03,015
ago, a couple of weeks ago, whenever that

1146
00:41:03,015 --> 00:41:05,815
was, I, in my own way, initiated sex.

1147
00:41:05,815 --> 00:41:07,594
Yes. That was some good sex.

1148
00:41:09,789 --> 00:41:11,789
I feel like the past several days when

1149
00:41:11,789 --> 00:41:13,809
I've been more in my baby girl headspace,

1150
00:41:14,190 --> 00:41:15,089
I've initiated

1151
00:41:15,549 --> 00:41:16,049
that.

1152
00:41:17,150 --> 00:41:19,789
And I think what I'm kind of and

1153
00:41:19,789 --> 00:41:21,969
you've responded and you always respond.

1154
00:41:22,349 --> 00:41:24,795
What's different, and I can tell everything's kind

1155
00:41:24,795 --> 00:41:25,534
of wonky,

1156
00:41:25,914 --> 00:41:27,454
is that you are not initiating,

1157
00:41:28,635 --> 00:41:30,714
either in a power exchange baby girl daddy

1158
00:41:30,714 --> 00:41:33,275
drum kinda way or sex way. You're picking

1159
00:41:33,275 --> 00:41:34,255
up on my signals.

1160
00:41:34,875 --> 00:41:36,974
Thank god I'm very clear communicator.

1161
00:41:38,889 --> 00:41:40,829
Subtly is not my forte.

1162
00:41:42,570 --> 00:41:44,889
But, yeah, you have not every once in

1163
00:41:44,889 --> 00:41:46,730
a while, like, every once in a while,

1164
00:41:46,730 --> 00:41:49,050
I think, like, 2 butt rubs out of

1165
00:41:49,050 --> 00:41:51,425
10. I was like, there he is. There.

1166
00:41:51,425 --> 00:41:53,905
But that's a 20% success rate. I we

1167
00:41:53,905 --> 00:41:55,984
should at least be at a 50% success

1168
00:41:55,984 --> 00:41:56,484
rate.

1169
00:41:57,184 --> 00:41:58,945
I mean, look. I'm grateful anytime you touch

1170
00:41:58,945 --> 00:42:00,945
my ass. My my butt is this I'm

1171
00:42:00,945 --> 00:42:02,625
glad he's a butt guy. I'm glad I'm

1172
00:42:02,625 --> 00:42:04,164
a a butt no.

1173
00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:06,400
I'm glad I don't mind having my butt.

1174
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:07,380
That's the no.

1175
00:42:08,079 --> 00:42:09,219
That's getting worse.

1176
00:42:10,079 --> 00:42:11,780
Anyway, I'm glad he's a butt guy.

1177
00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:15,460
But

1178
00:42:17,119 --> 00:42:18,655
let's not make that a drinking game. How

1179
00:42:18,655 --> 00:42:19,954
many times did I say but?

1180
00:42:23,454 --> 00:42:25,534
There is there's a vibe. And there have

1181
00:42:25,534 --> 00:42:26,815
been a couple of nights where it was

1182
00:42:26,815 --> 00:42:27,315
like,

1183
00:42:28,574 --> 00:42:30,255
this is good. This feels like the old

1184
00:42:30,255 --> 00:42:31,980
times. And then and I I know you're

1185
00:42:31,980 --> 00:42:34,219
tired and there's stress and there's stuff going

1186
00:42:34,219 --> 00:42:35,500
on. Wait till the bonus section when we

1187
00:42:35,500 --> 00:42:37,119
tell you about Lola. Oh my god.

1188
00:42:38,699 --> 00:42:39,199
But

1189
00:42:40,059 --> 00:42:40,559
however,

1190
00:42:42,219 --> 00:42:43,440
I don't I don't know.

1191
00:42:43,739 --> 00:42:45,579
You know, there was a time if my

1192
00:42:45,579 --> 00:42:47,199
baby girl voice came out,

1193
00:42:48,035 --> 00:42:49,715
get out of the trash can, you little

1194
00:42:49,715 --> 00:42:51,954
shit. That was Onyx Mhmm. Wanting to lick

1195
00:42:51,954 --> 00:42:52,454
plastic.

1196
00:42:53,875 --> 00:42:55,635
There was a time if my baby girl

1197
00:42:55,635 --> 00:42:58,835
voice even cropped up, oh, full on daddy

1198
00:42:58,835 --> 00:43:01,530
dom. Full on. Like, the energy was just

1199
00:43:01,530 --> 00:43:02,030
shift.

1200
00:43:02,329 --> 00:43:04,650
It was delight well, it was usually delightful

1201
00:43:04,650 --> 00:43:05,150
unless

1202
00:43:05,929 --> 00:43:07,769
I was walking that. Wasn't. Right? Unless I

1203
00:43:07,769 --> 00:43:09,469
was walking that fine line. Mhmm.

1204
00:43:10,170 --> 00:43:11,230
But I have not

1205
00:43:11,849 --> 00:43:12,349
noticed

1206
00:43:12,650 --> 00:43:13,150
that.

1207
00:43:13,474 --> 00:43:14,594
And I know you're all up in your

1208
00:43:14,594 --> 00:43:16,434
head. I I can tell before you can

1209
00:43:16,434 --> 00:43:17,474
tell when you're all up in your head.

1210
00:43:17,554 --> 00:43:18,054
Can.

1211
00:43:18,835 --> 00:43:20,434
So I'm it's not like a, oh, let

1212
00:43:20,434 --> 00:43:22,515
me put in a complaint to the complaints

1213
00:43:22,515 --> 00:43:25,255
department. It's more like a it is strange

1214
00:43:25,394 --> 00:43:25,894
to

1215
00:43:26,690 --> 00:43:29,170
be in the space and to see you

1216
00:43:29,170 --> 00:43:29,670
not

1217
00:43:30,210 --> 00:43:32,150
pick it up like you used to.

1218
00:43:32,450 --> 00:43:34,130
We're not feeding off of one another the

1219
00:43:34,130 --> 00:43:36,050
way we used to. I I I have

1220
00:43:36,050 --> 00:43:37,030
fallen into

1221
00:43:38,050 --> 00:43:38,550
this

1222
00:43:39,970 --> 00:43:40,470
headspace

1223
00:43:41,304 --> 00:43:42,364
recently of,

1224
00:43:43,945 --> 00:43:45,545
you know, to say, keep my nose to

1225
00:43:45,545 --> 00:43:47,465
the grindstone and just trying to get through

1226
00:43:47,465 --> 00:43:49,945
the holiday season. I know. I know. And

1227
00:43:50,025 --> 00:43:52,744
but here's the thing though. Mhmm. And this

1228
00:43:52,744 --> 00:43:54,105
has always been true, and it's not like

1229
00:43:54,105 --> 00:43:55,565
I'm, like, oh, having a revelation.

1230
00:43:56,030 --> 00:43:57,789
There will always be something we gotta get

1231
00:43:57,789 --> 00:43:59,089
through. True. Like,

1232
00:43:59,389 --> 00:44:01,070
I mean, it sucks. I am really tired

1233
00:44:01,070 --> 00:44:03,010
of always having something we gotta get through.

1234
00:44:04,589 --> 00:44:05,730
Yeah. So,

1235
00:44:06,190 --> 00:44:07,949
you know, I can't believe that I'm the

1236
00:44:07,949 --> 00:44:10,429
fucking one saying this because this is so

1237
00:44:10,429 --> 00:44:12,184
against type. Somebody should, like, take me to

1238
00:44:12,184 --> 00:44:14,284
a doctor and have me check. But

1239
00:44:15,465 --> 00:44:17,164
wouldn't it's better it's it's

1240
00:44:18,105 --> 00:44:19,804
getting it in small doses,

1241
00:44:20,744 --> 00:44:23,224
it's not as good as, you know, full

1242
00:44:23,224 --> 00:44:25,065
octane all the the way we used to

1243
00:44:25,065 --> 00:44:26,760
be. Sure. Sure. Sure. But it's

1244
00:44:27,559 --> 00:44:28,539
better than nothing.

1245
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:31,320
And since we will always have shit to

1246
00:44:31,320 --> 00:44:33,239
go through Yeah. You know, I think we

1247
00:44:33,239 --> 00:44:35,179
lived a charmed life prior to 2021.

1248
00:44:35,800 --> 00:44:36,460
I don't

1249
00:44:36,760 --> 00:44:39,019
I don't know. Yeah. I don't know how

1250
00:44:39,079 --> 00:44:40,965
or what. I don't know. But, yeah, clearly,

1251
00:44:40,965 --> 00:44:43,204
we were living a charmed eye. And the

1252
00:44:43,204 --> 00:44:44,184
universe went,

1253
00:44:44,644 --> 00:44:46,005
yeah. You're I'm getting my beer. You're getting

1254
00:44:46,005 --> 00:44:47,465
too big for your britches over there.

1255
00:44:47,925 --> 00:44:50,345
And now I think here's what I think.

1256
00:44:50,485 --> 00:44:51,925
I know we did, and I think you're

1257
00:44:51,925 --> 00:44:52,585
still doing.

1258
00:44:53,730 --> 00:44:55,890
Sometimes I am too. We're waiting for things

1259
00:44:55,890 --> 00:44:57,409
to go back to the way they used

1260
00:44:57,409 --> 00:44:58,070
to be.

1261
00:44:58,929 --> 00:45:00,769
I don't think that's not gonna happen. Happen.

1262
00:45:00,769 --> 00:45:03,010
That's not gonna happen. No. And I don't

1263
00:45:03,010 --> 00:45:05,235
mean, like, for anybody out there. It's not

1264
00:45:05,315 --> 00:45:06,515
about our dynamic the way we used to

1265
00:45:06,515 --> 00:45:07,715
be. I think we could get back there

1266
00:45:07,715 --> 00:45:09,095
if that's what fits

1267
00:45:09,555 --> 00:45:10,695
us. But this whole

1268
00:45:11,155 --> 00:45:13,235
waiting for it to be better, waiting to

1269
00:45:13,235 --> 00:45:15,974
have time, waiting to not be so tired.

1270
00:45:17,235 --> 00:45:18,055
You know? And

1271
00:45:18,515 --> 00:45:20,195
I know that I can say that today

1272
00:45:20,195 --> 00:45:22,489
while I'm feeling I'm feeling weird today, but,

1273
00:45:22,489 --> 00:45:24,250
like, I'm feeling good in this conversation. And

1274
00:45:24,250 --> 00:45:26,089
it's easy to say right now. And believe

1275
00:45:26,089 --> 00:45:28,429
me, I am an impatient baby girl. In

1276
00:45:28,889 --> 00:45:30,969
5 minutes or 5 months, I'll be the

1277
00:45:30,969 --> 00:45:32,730
one going, it's not enough. It's not fair.

1278
00:45:32,730 --> 00:45:33,224
I want

1279
00:45:33,704 --> 00:45:35,085
more and or thinking

1280
00:45:35,625 --> 00:45:36,664
I don't have time for this. I don't

1281
00:45:36,664 --> 00:45:38,664
have time for this. I don't like, it

1282
00:45:39,385 --> 00:45:40,825
so I'll be the voice of reason today

1283
00:45:40,825 --> 00:45:42,265
so he can be the voice of reason

1284
00:45:42,265 --> 00:45:42,765
tomorrow.

1285
00:45:43,224 --> 00:45:44,985
You know, we kinda have to make time

1286
00:45:44,985 --> 00:45:46,525
for it, and we have to, like,

1287
00:45:47,740 --> 00:45:50,160
get okay with getting little bits

1288
00:45:50,619 --> 00:45:52,460
because that's what we have the energy and

1289
00:45:52,460 --> 00:45:54,700
time and whatever for. Mhmm. Because that is

1290
00:45:54,700 --> 00:45:56,700
what that is what will keep us connected

1291
00:45:56,700 --> 00:45:59,500
until we get to some mythical time in

1292
00:45:59,500 --> 00:46:02,824
the future when, air quote, things calm down.

1293
00:46:02,885 --> 00:46:03,625
Right. Yeah.

1294
00:46:04,085 --> 00:46:05,605
I mean, how many years do you have

1295
00:46:05,605 --> 00:46:07,284
to go where things aren't calm to finally

1296
00:46:07,284 --> 00:46:09,445
just go, no. They're never calming down. Mhmm.

1297
00:46:09,445 --> 00:46:11,525
This is the timeline we live in. I

1298
00:46:11,525 --> 00:46:12,965
I look at the news from time to

1299
00:46:12,965 --> 00:46:15,400
time. I know things are never calming down.

1300
00:46:16,420 --> 00:46:16,920
So,

1301
00:46:17,779 --> 00:46:20,019
you know, that's kind of where let me

1302
00:46:20,019 --> 00:46:20,679
tell you.

1303
00:46:21,139 --> 00:46:23,539
Look. I think I might now be Alela

1304
00:46:23,539 --> 00:46:25,079
Roberts stan because

1305
00:46:26,105 --> 00:46:28,505
she's making me feel shit when I'm reading

1306
00:46:28,505 --> 00:46:30,525
a kink I'm not even fucking into.

1307
00:46:31,385 --> 00:46:33,545
I don't want any of that, but it

1308
00:46:33,545 --> 00:46:35,065
makes sense for their characters. It makes sense

1309
00:46:35,065 --> 00:46:36,344
for the moment. I'm glad I just go

1310
00:46:36,344 --> 00:46:37,085
with it.

1311
00:46:37,944 --> 00:46:39,784
But a few of them, so far, I'm

1312
00:46:39,784 --> 00:46:41,670
only in book 9. There are 12, y'all.

1313
00:46:42,130 --> 00:46:43,809
Full length. And I think there's novellas. I

1314
00:46:43,809 --> 00:46:45,190
don't think I'll read those. But,

1315
00:46:47,809 --> 00:46:48,869
a few times,

1316
00:46:49,890 --> 00:46:50,789
she's had,

1317
00:46:51,329 --> 00:46:53,730
in the story, the littles gotten spanked purposely

1318
00:46:53,730 --> 00:46:55,235
until they cry. Like, the whole point was

1319
00:46:55,235 --> 00:46:57,715
to get that fucking emotion out. And I

1320
00:46:57,715 --> 00:46:59,414
cannot tell you in the past

1321
00:46:59,875 --> 00:47:00,855
48 hours

1322
00:47:01,155 --> 00:47:03,235
how many times I've almost come to you

1323
00:47:03,235 --> 00:47:03,894
and gone,

1324
00:47:04,675 --> 00:47:06,195
I need some of that. And here's the

1325
00:47:06,195 --> 00:47:08,295
thing, I do need that.

1326
00:47:08,859 --> 00:47:11,820
I'm terrified because it I don't, I don't

1327
00:47:11,820 --> 00:47:14,480
cry easily. It kind of in general.

1328
00:47:15,579 --> 00:47:16,859
It's my own issue. I should go to

1329
00:47:16,859 --> 00:47:17,359
therapy.

1330
00:47:17,900 --> 00:47:19,659
It's an it's not an issue to not

1331
00:47:19,659 --> 00:47:21,579
cry. It's the tight lock I have on

1332
00:47:21,579 --> 00:47:22,239
my emotions.

1333
00:47:23,195 --> 00:47:25,675
And also I'm a little afraid of what

1334
00:47:25,675 --> 00:47:27,675
my sadist daddy might have to do, how,

1335
00:47:27,675 --> 00:47:29,275
how much it might have to hurt. I'm

1336
00:47:29,275 --> 00:47:31,114
afraid it gets to the point where I

1337
00:47:31,114 --> 00:47:33,135
have a chance of crying and

1338
00:47:33,514 --> 00:47:34,175
I am

1339
00:47:34,474 --> 00:47:37,215
a little baby who can't handle this.

1340
00:47:40,869 --> 00:47:43,210
But, yeah, I was like, oh god. Yeah.

1341
00:47:43,750 --> 00:47:45,130
Wow. To just, like,

1342
00:47:45,829 --> 00:47:47,610
let it like, to get the catharsis.

1343
00:47:48,150 --> 00:47:50,969
You know? Mhmm. We have finally so thankfully,

1344
00:47:51,030 --> 00:47:52,614
the youngest is at the and he has

1345
00:47:52,614 --> 00:47:54,215
been for a while. We just didn't take

1346
00:47:54,215 --> 00:47:55,914
advantage of it. He is at that teenager

1347
00:47:56,614 --> 00:47:59,275
point in life where headphones or earbuds are

1348
00:47:59,494 --> 00:48:03,035
always on. Yeah. There's about 3 or 4

1349
00:48:03,414 --> 00:48:05,595
things coming at him from a screen,

1350
00:48:06,535 --> 00:48:09,089
whether it's his Xbox, it's his his

1351
00:48:09,550 --> 00:48:11,550
Chromebook, or it's his phone, at any given

1352
00:48:11,550 --> 00:48:13,230
moment, there's a certain point of the night.

1353
00:48:13,230 --> 00:48:14,909
We close the door. He does not know

1354
00:48:14,909 --> 00:48:17,230
we exist. He's not not only can he

1355
00:48:17,230 --> 00:48:19,469
not hear us because across the house, blah

1356
00:48:19,469 --> 00:48:20,429
blah blah. He

1357
00:48:20,909 --> 00:48:23,315
we we ceased to exist. He doesn't even

1358
00:48:23,315 --> 00:48:24,214
know we're there.

1359
00:48:24,755 --> 00:48:26,514
We could do more things as long as

1360
00:48:26,514 --> 00:48:28,534
I'm not screaming the house down.

1361
00:48:29,635 --> 00:48:31,654
And it's only been in the last

1362
00:48:32,914 --> 00:48:33,734
few weeks

1363
00:48:34,434 --> 00:48:36,594
that you've even gotten comfortable with it. So

1364
00:48:36,594 --> 00:48:36,716
I know part of that is a comfort

1365
00:48:36,716 --> 00:48:36,775
thing of Yeah. How much can be heard.

1366
00:48:36,775 --> 00:48:36,822
And, you know, if I come to you

1367
00:48:36,822 --> 00:48:38,871
and go, look. I'm and Yeah. How much

1368
00:48:38,871 --> 00:48:40,400
can be heard. And, you

1369
00:48:40,859 --> 00:48:41,500
know, if I come to you and go,

1370
00:48:41,500 --> 00:48:41,697
look, I'm gonna need June to spank me

1371
00:48:41,697 --> 00:48:42,219
until until something. I don't know. I don't

1372
00:48:42,539 --> 00:48:44,320
I I know that you can't

1373
00:48:50,904 --> 00:48:52,585
like, I can never guarantee that he'll spank

1374
00:48:52,585 --> 00:48:54,284
me away and I'm definitely gonna cry.

1375
00:48:55,144 --> 00:48:56,824
I used to be able to, and then

1376
00:48:56,824 --> 00:48:59,545
that stopped being a thing. Yeah. And so

1377
00:48:59,545 --> 00:49:01,065
I I don't know anymore. But it's like,

1378
00:49:01,065 --> 00:49:02,505
I'm I don't I don't know. Until I

1379
00:49:02,505 --> 00:49:04,670
say for it, until your arm gets tired?

1380
00:49:04,809 --> 00:49:05,710
I don't know.

1381
00:49:06,170 --> 00:49:08,730
If I cry, that's that's the signal. Stop

1382
00:49:08,730 --> 00:49:10,409
right there. But, like, I can't I don't

1383
00:49:10,409 --> 00:49:12,489
even know what I'm asking for, but I

1384
00:49:12,489 --> 00:49:13,230
feel like

1385
00:49:13,609 --> 00:49:15,869
we are at a point now and probably

1386
00:49:15,929 --> 00:49:18,190
have been at that point for several months

1387
00:49:18,885 --> 00:49:20,405
where we can do more than we have

1388
00:49:20,405 --> 00:49:21,224
done. Mhmm.

1389
00:49:22,724 --> 00:49:24,905
So Yep. Mhmm. Mhmm.

1390
00:49:25,284 --> 00:49:27,125
And it's been nice. It has been nice.

1391
00:49:27,125 --> 00:49:29,765
I just think that that whole our power

1392
00:49:29,765 --> 00:49:31,844
changes have been pushed back and both and

1393
00:49:31,844 --> 00:49:32,505
we're not

1394
00:49:33,204 --> 00:49:35,609
we're not we're waiting for that mythical time

1395
00:49:35,609 --> 00:49:37,210
when there's not a lot going on. Mhmm.

1396
00:49:37,210 --> 00:49:38,809
The I say all of that to just

1397
00:49:38,809 --> 00:49:40,989
go, okay. But that now it's an excuse.

1398
00:49:41,130 --> 00:49:43,289
We Yeah. We can do more. And, sure,

1399
00:49:43,289 --> 00:49:46,089
energy and where your head space is at,

1400
00:49:46,089 --> 00:49:48,007
all of that is important and has to

1401
00:49:48,007 --> 00:49:51,045
factor into it. But I also wonder how

1402
00:49:51,045 --> 00:49:52,965
much better might our head space be if

1403
00:49:52,965 --> 00:49:54,965
we pushed through some of that, not all

1404
00:49:54,965 --> 00:49:56,965
of it. Like, you gotta watch yourself push

1405
00:49:56,965 --> 00:49:58,804
through some of that. Maybe I'm not I

1406
00:49:58,804 --> 00:49:59,785
don't have the energy

1407
00:50:00,324 --> 00:50:01,844
to get to a place we know we

1408
00:50:01,844 --> 00:50:02,824
like to be at.

1409
00:50:04,559 --> 00:50:06,260
Maybe we need to explore that.

1410
00:50:06,559 --> 00:50:08,340
Just saying. I'm just saying.

1411
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:11,220
Because I think even though we're not actively

1412
00:50:11,599 --> 00:50:12,980
doing anything new or

1413
00:50:13,760 --> 00:50:14,260
whatever

1414
00:50:14,720 --> 00:50:15,460
with the

1415
00:50:16,535 --> 00:50:18,855
dynamic part of things, I think that's not

1416
00:50:18,855 --> 00:50:20,635
where we need to focus our attention

1417
00:50:21,015 --> 00:50:24,295
because my my tasks are down. Yeah. You

1418
00:50:24,295 --> 00:50:25,035
know, we

1419
00:50:25,494 --> 00:50:27,735
the the bend over the bed, get your

1420
00:50:27,735 --> 00:50:30,375
nighttime spanking slash butt rub, that's been really

1421
00:50:30,375 --> 00:50:31,530
good. Mhmm.

1422
00:50:32,070 --> 00:50:34,150
If I got a little touchier feelier, and

1423
00:50:34,150 --> 00:50:36,150
I'm very grateful for that. It's like I'm

1424
00:50:36,150 --> 00:50:38,390
wiggling the fate, my fave your favorite part

1425
00:50:38,390 --> 00:50:40,329
of my body. Like, come on, man.

1426
00:50:41,030 --> 00:50:42,710
But so, like, all of that kind of

1427
00:50:42,710 --> 00:50:44,329
stuff, I think we're

1428
00:50:45,164 --> 00:50:47,164
as solid as we can get right now

1429
00:50:47,164 --> 00:50:49,744
with the life we have right now. Yeah.

1430
00:50:50,364 --> 00:50:52,925
Now it's the other it's the daddy and

1431
00:50:52,925 --> 00:50:55,425
baby girl. It's the play part

1432
00:50:55,885 --> 00:50:57,644
within our comfort level knowing we've got, you

1433
00:50:57,644 --> 00:50:59,164
know, somebody in the house all the time.

1434
00:50:59,164 --> 00:51:01,079
Like like that part. Part. You know?

1435
00:51:02,260 --> 00:51:04,280
I think if we could find ways to

1436
00:51:04,339 --> 00:51:06,659
reconnect there, I think you'd feel a little

1437
00:51:06,659 --> 00:51:08,739
bit better. I know someone would. I know

1438
00:51:08,739 --> 00:51:09,400
I would.

1439
00:51:10,420 --> 00:51:11,800
Just saying. Very possible.

1440
00:51:12,819 --> 00:51:14,659
He hates saying you might be right or

1441
00:51:14,659 --> 00:51:15,559
you are right.

1442
00:51:15,859 --> 00:51:18,255
Good lord. What was it last night? I

1443
00:51:19,355 --> 00:51:20,715
I I can't remember what we're talking about

1444
00:51:20,715 --> 00:51:22,554
anymore. I was like, you know I'm right.

1445
00:51:22,554 --> 00:51:24,394
And then he, like, waited a beat so

1446
00:51:24,394 --> 00:51:25,775
that he could prove me wrong

1447
00:51:26,235 --> 00:51:26,735
because

1448
00:51:27,594 --> 00:51:29,295
you just didn't want me to be right.

1449
00:51:31,119 --> 00:51:32,639
I think he was, like, searching up in

1450
00:51:32,639 --> 00:51:33,139
the,

1451
00:51:33,599 --> 00:51:35,679
like, depths of his memory to be able

1452
00:51:35,679 --> 00:51:36,880
to prove. Because I said, oh, you've already

1453
00:51:36,880 --> 00:51:38,800
forgotten. You don't even know what you said,

1454
00:51:38,800 --> 00:51:40,239
so you can't repeat it to me. But

1455
00:51:40,480 --> 00:51:42,079
and then, I mean, it was a pause.

1456
00:51:42,079 --> 00:51:44,239
It was like a 30 second pause. I

1457
00:51:44,239 --> 00:51:45,644
think he was going

1458
00:51:46,105 --> 00:51:48,345
through the filing cabinet. It is his brain

1459
00:51:48,345 --> 00:51:50,265
to find the thing that I accused him

1460
00:51:50,265 --> 00:51:51,164
of not remembering

1461
00:51:52,345 --> 00:51:54,125
just to prove me wrong. Because

1462
00:51:54,664 --> 00:51:56,184
it's not that hard to say, baby girl,

1463
00:51:56,184 --> 00:51:57,565
you're usually right. And

1464
00:51:58,860 --> 00:52:00,400
you also could be correct.

1465
00:52:04,460 --> 00:52:06,300
Yeah. I I did I take the line

1466
00:52:06,300 --> 00:52:08,539
and do, like, jump rope? Am I playing

1467
00:52:08,539 --> 00:52:11,684
double touch on the line between sass and

1468
00:52:12,385 --> 00:52:13,684
a step beyond sass?

1469
00:52:16,545 --> 00:52:19,045
See what happens when we answer provocative

1470
00:52:19,344 --> 00:52:19,844
questions?

1471
00:52:23,460 --> 00:52:25,699
Oh my god. The leaves just flew sideways

1472
00:52:25,699 --> 00:52:27,859
outside the window. I guess It's like the

1473
00:52:27,859 --> 00:52:30,179
weather's vicious wind out there right now. Picking

1474
00:52:30,179 --> 00:52:32,739
up. Mhmm. So anyway, if anybody would like

1475
00:52:32,739 --> 00:52:35,079
some actual good daddy dom little

1476
00:52:35,539 --> 00:52:39,195
fiction, highly recommend the MC Daddies, Leila Roberts.

1477
00:52:39,255 --> 00:52:40,934
I know Rah Rah really, really likes I

1478
00:52:40,934 --> 00:52:42,215
could see it. Rah Rah on the live

1479
00:52:42,215 --> 00:52:44,534
chat. Actually, I think what I can't remember

1480
00:52:44,534 --> 00:52:45,355
where I saw

1481
00:52:46,454 --> 00:52:47,914
the first book I read.

1482
00:52:49,175 --> 00:52:50,695
I think it might it might have just

1483
00:52:50,695 --> 00:52:52,054
kinda come up in a search I was

1484
00:52:52,054 --> 00:52:54,650
doing in Kindle Unlimited, and I scrolled. And

1485
00:52:54,650 --> 00:52:56,089
I I like to read reviews every once

1486
00:52:56,089 --> 00:52:57,929
in a while if it's a especially if

1487
00:52:57,929 --> 00:52:59,630
it's kink stuff because I need somebody

1488
00:53:00,089 --> 00:53:01,469
to to sometimes,

1489
00:53:02,170 --> 00:53:03,929
it doesn't always happen, but sometimes there'll be

1490
00:53:03,929 --> 00:53:06,010
somebody who's like, that's not how any of

1491
00:53:06,010 --> 00:53:07,949
this works. That's what I need to see.

1492
00:53:08,375 --> 00:53:09,574
And I scrolled, and I think it was

1493
00:53:09,574 --> 00:53:10,474
under reviews.

1494
00:53:10,855 --> 00:53:12,454
And Raw Rush's name came up, and I

1495
00:53:12,454 --> 00:53:14,795
went, oh, well, I fucking trust her. Okay.

1496
00:53:16,534 --> 00:53:18,214
It had the Raw Rush seal of approval.

1497
00:53:18,214 --> 00:53:20,135
It's like, I'll try the first one. Then

1498
00:53:20,135 --> 00:53:21,974
it would, you know, be personal preference if

1499
00:53:21,974 --> 00:53:24,289
I finished it or kept going. But

1500
00:53:25,309 --> 00:53:26,849
MC Daddy's, Layla Roberts.

1501
00:53:28,110 --> 00:53:30,030
Layla like Kayla but with an h on

1502
00:53:30,030 --> 00:53:31,829
the end? L a y l a h.

1503
00:53:31,829 --> 00:53:34,110
I think I'm spelling that right. Very good.

1504
00:53:34,110 --> 00:53:35,235
Very prolific writer.

1505
00:53:35,635 --> 00:53:37,235
A lot of it seems to be daddy

1506
00:53:37,235 --> 00:53:38,454
Tom's and, you know,

1507
00:53:39,394 --> 00:53:41,255
I'm here for that. You know.

1508
00:53:41,635 --> 00:53:44,295
And I'm reading Married to a Alien Cowboy.

1509
00:53:44,434 --> 00:53:46,595
Which is a book I got because I

1510
00:53:46,595 --> 00:53:48,900
was on my my future. I'm gonna read

1511
00:53:48,900 --> 00:53:49,880
this at some point,

1512
00:53:50,980 --> 00:53:52,500
and and thankfully, you're reading it and can

1513
00:53:52,500 --> 00:53:53,780
vouch that, no. No. You picked a good

1514
00:53:53,780 --> 00:53:55,460
one. This is a good book. I mean,

1515
00:53:55,460 --> 00:53:56,739
it it it has a little bit of

1516
00:53:56,739 --> 00:53:58,739
trope to it, but I think it makes

1517
00:53:58,739 --> 00:54:00,599
up for it with the, humor.

1518
00:54:00,994 --> 00:54:02,755
You know what? I don't mind tropes. They're

1519
00:54:03,554 --> 00:54:04,855
when they're done well

1520
00:54:06,275 --> 00:54:06,775
and

1521
00:54:07,394 --> 00:54:09,635
most tropes. Mhmm. The one that will have

1522
00:54:09,635 --> 00:54:11,795
me frothing at the mouth and wanting to

1523
00:54:11,795 --> 00:54:14,579
throw the book slash my phone across the

1524
00:54:14,579 --> 00:54:15,719
room is the miscommunication

1525
00:54:16,739 --> 00:54:19,619
trope. I think maybe 2 times I've read

1526
00:54:19,619 --> 00:54:20,839
it done well where

1527
00:54:21,139 --> 00:54:23,059
from the outside looking in, you would go,

1528
00:54:23,219 --> 00:54:24,980
of course, they wouldn't talk about that like

1529
00:54:24,980 --> 00:54:27,045
they should because they there's a trust there,

1530
00:54:27,045 --> 00:54:28,664
and that's a vulnerable conversation.

1531
00:54:29,525 --> 00:54:30,744
But when it's the

1532
00:54:31,045 --> 00:54:32,964
literally this could be cleared up with one

1533
00:54:32,964 --> 00:54:33,464
conversation

1534
00:54:33,924 --> 00:54:36,804
and y'all were dating and slash fucking for

1535
00:54:36,804 --> 00:54:38,984
6 months and you can't have this conversation.

1536
00:54:39,300 --> 00:54:41,460
No. I'm ready to throw something across the

1537
00:54:41,460 --> 00:54:43,539
room. But other than that, most tropes I

1538
00:54:43,539 --> 00:54:45,780
don't mind as long as they're executed fairly

1539
00:54:45,780 --> 00:54:48,340
well. You know, the tropes make things, for

1540
00:54:48,340 --> 00:54:49,880
me, kinda predictable.

1541
00:54:50,180 --> 00:54:50,553
When I when I recognize when I'm reading,

1542
00:54:50,553 --> 00:54:50,624
I'm like, I know how this goes. Every

1543
00:54:50,624 --> 00:54:51,755
once in a while, a really recognize when

1544
00:54:51,755 --> 00:54:52,570
I'm reading, I'm like, I know how this

1545
00:54:52,570 --> 00:54:54,298
goes. Every once in a while, a really

1546
00:54:54,298 --> 00:54:56,027
good writer will, like, turn it on its

1547
00:54:56,027 --> 00:54:57,795
head and I'm like, oh, that was surprising.

1548
00:54:57,795 --> 00:54:57,954
So

1549
00:55:06,670 --> 00:55:07,730
but Yeah.

1550
00:55:08,269 --> 00:55:10,690
So, yeah, that we went from questions to

1551
00:55:10,829 --> 00:55:12,750
the state of our power exchange. Right. I

1552
00:55:12,750 --> 00:55:14,430
thought that was gonna be next week's topic.

1553
00:55:14,430 --> 00:55:16,130
I I don't know what it'll be now.

1554
00:55:17,710 --> 00:55:19,710
It'd be a big bonus section. It might

1555
00:55:19,710 --> 00:55:21,864
be. Look. We did the questions.

1556
00:55:22,244 --> 00:55:23,784
We've done the Reddit stuff.

1557
00:55:24,085 --> 00:55:24,565
We've,

1558
00:55:25,844 --> 00:55:28,505
next week, whatever. We we are not functioning

1559
00:55:28,565 --> 00:55:29,304
at full

1560
00:55:29,925 --> 00:55:31,704
mental capacity, so

1561
00:55:32,405 --> 00:55:34,660
I'm I'm here for a good time, not

1562
00:55:34,660 --> 00:55:37,480
a long time. I don't know. I just

1563
00:55:38,180 --> 00:55:40,019
like, sometimes it's more important that you just

1564
00:55:40,019 --> 00:55:41,619
show up because that's what you do than

1565
00:55:41,619 --> 00:55:43,480
to, like, have something, you know,

1566
00:55:43,780 --> 00:55:44,280
profound

1567
00:55:44,579 --> 00:55:45,800
to say. Yeah.

1568
00:55:46,739 --> 00:55:48,119
These end of year

1569
00:55:49,664 --> 00:55:50,164
episodes

1570
00:55:50,465 --> 00:55:52,325
kinda tend to be for, like,

1571
00:55:53,025 --> 00:55:54,945
the folks who are gonna stay till the

1572
00:55:54,945 --> 00:55:57,344
end of a bonus section. Yeah. Because y'all

1573
00:55:57,344 --> 00:55:58,785
know at this point in the year, we

1574
00:55:58,785 --> 00:55:59,285
are

1575
00:55:59,585 --> 00:56:01,285
running on fumes and,

1576
00:56:01,585 --> 00:56:02,244
you know,

1577
00:56:03,050 --> 00:56:05,130
maybe some laughing gas, who the fuck knows,

1578
00:56:05,130 --> 00:56:06,989
because we get weird. We get weird.

1579
00:56:07,530 --> 00:56:08,269
So yeah.

1580
00:56:10,489 --> 00:56:11,929
So I think that's gonna be the end

1581
00:56:11,929 --> 00:56:12,750
of the episode.

1582
00:56:13,449 --> 00:56:15,609
I couldn't just have, like, a 25 minute

1583
00:56:15,609 --> 00:56:17,824
episode. That's the Monday episodes.

1584
00:56:20,764 --> 00:56:21,885
And we got to talk about a thing

1585
00:56:21,885 --> 00:56:23,804
that's been on my mind. So Oh, good.

1586
00:56:23,804 --> 00:56:26,204
And maybe we recommended an author to somebody.

1587
00:56:26,204 --> 00:56:27,105
I don't know.

1588
00:56:27,804 --> 00:56:29,324
We can do a bonus section because I

1589
00:56:29,324 --> 00:56:31,199
know you need to talk about Lola. Oh,

1590
00:56:31,199 --> 00:56:33,836
yeah. Oh, yeah. You you went through it

1591
00:56:33,836 --> 00:56:36,473
yesterday. She she went through it more than

1592
00:56:36,473 --> 00:56:39,110
anybody, but JB was, like, right on her

1593
00:56:39,110 --> 00:56:42,077
heels going through it. So Are we good?

1594
00:56:42,077 --> 00:56:45,025
That's not really for me to say. Keep

1595
00:56:45,025 --> 00:56:46,704
it kinky, y'all. And we'll see you next

1596
00:56:46,704 --> 00:56:47,204
week.

1597
00:56:55,985 --> 00:56:56,485
Dottie.

1598
00:56:57,279 --> 00:56:59,279
Yes, baby girl. Can we talk to the

1599
00:56:59,279 --> 00:57:01,359
crickets? We can. As if we haven't already

1600
00:57:01,359 --> 00:57:02,179
been doing that.

1601
00:57:02,960 --> 00:57:04,639
Tell them about Lola. Okay. First of all,

1602
00:57:04,639 --> 00:57:05,759
let me preface this.

1603
00:57:06,079 --> 00:57:08,159
There's gonna be a few moments of kind

1604
00:57:08,159 --> 00:57:09,299
of gross,

1605
00:57:10,799 --> 00:57:14,315
conversation about eyes. If that if clearly no

1606
00:57:14,315 --> 00:57:16,635
pictures. No. But if you or Squiggy out

1607
00:57:16,635 --> 00:57:18,315
about the like, fast forward or put us

1608
00:57:18,315 --> 00:57:20,234
on mute or whatever for, like, probably 2

1609
00:57:20,234 --> 00:57:20,734
minutes.

1610
00:57:21,195 --> 00:57:22,474
Start there so people have

1611
00:57:23,989 --> 00:57:25,769
She had an eye issue. Yeah.

1612
00:57:26,150 --> 00:57:28,069
So yeah. I had gotten out of the

1613
00:57:28,069 --> 00:57:28,569
shower,

1614
00:57:29,589 --> 00:57:30,489
and and

1615
00:57:31,510 --> 00:57:33,349
baby girl comes in the bedroom, and she's

1616
00:57:33,349 --> 00:57:35,349
like, you need to see your dog. Because

1617
00:57:35,349 --> 00:57:36,949
I almost couldn't look at her after what

1618
00:57:36,949 --> 00:57:38,724
I was seeing. I'm like, what? And she's

1619
00:57:38,724 --> 00:57:40,324
like, you you just need to see your

1620
00:57:40,324 --> 00:57:42,324
dog. Her eyeball was not facing the right

1621
00:57:42,324 --> 00:57:43,445
way, y'all. No. Her,

1622
00:57:44,164 --> 00:57:45,704
when I when I came out

1623
00:57:46,565 --> 00:57:48,905
to look at her, her eyeball had rolled.

1624
00:57:49,539 --> 00:57:51,299
It was actually coming back around because when

1625
00:57:51,299 --> 00:57:52,440
she showed it to me,

1626
00:57:52,819 --> 00:57:54,739
I literally only saw white and then, like

1627
00:57:54,980 --> 00:57:57,239
Mhmm. Red blood cell you know, like Yeah.

1628
00:57:57,460 --> 00:57:58,980
At by the time you looked shot. Yeah.

1629
00:57:58,980 --> 00:58:01,480
But it was white. Back around appropriately.

1630
00:58:02,019 --> 00:58:03,960
Mhmm. But that when he when he confirmed

1631
00:58:04,019 --> 00:58:04,920
I was not crazy,

1632
00:58:05,394 --> 00:58:06,914
I was like, I'm gonna call the vet.

1633
00:58:06,914 --> 00:58:08,515
And he goes, please do. Please do. And

1634
00:58:08,515 --> 00:58:10,595
I'm usually the look. I'm gonna tell my

1635
00:58:10,595 --> 00:58:12,355
kids to rub some dirt on it and

1636
00:58:12,355 --> 00:58:13,494
walk it out. Okay?

1637
00:58:14,595 --> 00:58:16,595
So I'm not the first one to call

1638
00:58:16,595 --> 00:58:18,055
a doctor. Let's get an appointment.

1639
00:58:18,355 --> 00:58:19,795
Especially when it's your pet, you know it's

1640
00:58:19,795 --> 00:58:22,150
a $500 visit. But eyeballs

1641
00:58:22,450 --> 00:58:25,650
are not supposed to do that. And No.

1642
00:58:26,130 --> 00:58:27,730
And it was one of those things we

1643
00:58:27,730 --> 00:58:28,710
do not know

1644
00:58:29,250 --> 00:58:30,530
when it happened. And what I mean by

1645
00:58:30,530 --> 00:58:31,890
that is she was perfectly fine. We've been

1646
00:58:31,890 --> 00:58:33,750
looking at her multiple times in the day.

1647
00:58:33,890 --> 00:58:36,050
Nothing wrong with her eye. She was laying

1648
00:58:36,050 --> 00:58:38,554
peacefully on her bed. I'm sitting at my

1649
00:58:38,554 --> 00:58:39,054
desk.

1650
00:58:39,755 --> 00:58:41,835
She walks up to me, which is not

1651
00:58:41,835 --> 00:58:42,335
unusual

1652
00:58:43,034 --> 00:58:45,034
because she'll lay, like, in between our chairs

1653
00:58:45,034 --> 00:58:46,875
or whatever over here at the the at

1654
00:58:46,875 --> 00:58:48,809
our desks. Yeah. But as she walks up

1655
00:58:48,809 --> 00:58:50,809
to me, she starts rubbing, like, trying to

1656
00:58:50,809 --> 00:58:51,930
get her paw up on her face, like,

1657
00:58:51,930 --> 00:58:54,090
when they're now, you know, is itchy or

1658
00:58:54,090 --> 00:58:55,469
something. She's rubbing

1659
00:58:57,050 --> 00:58:58,489
her side of her head with the the

1660
00:58:58,489 --> 00:59:00,650
left eye that was the issue, like, on

1661
00:59:00,650 --> 00:59:02,250
the carpet. And I'm like, oh, there's something

1662
00:59:02,250 --> 00:59:04,594
itching. And then she looked up at me,

1663
00:59:06,014 --> 00:59:08,094
and it I every time I think about

1664
00:59:08,094 --> 00:59:10,275
it, I can see it and mm-mm. Um-mm.

1665
00:59:10,974 --> 00:59:13,135
So I I was like, no. No. That

1666
00:59:13,215 --> 00:59:14,655
that's an issue we have to we have

1667
00:59:14,655 --> 00:59:16,574
to sort out. We do. Mhmm. She has

1668
00:59:16,574 --> 00:59:19,079
had known eye issues. So Right. I would

1669
00:59:19,079 --> 00:59:21,079
have taken her regardless of the cost. Eyeballs

1670
00:59:21,079 --> 00:59:22,139
aren't supposed to do that.

1671
00:59:22,599 --> 00:59:24,119
But what was we thought was gonna be

1672
00:59:24,119 --> 00:59:26,119
a 2 or $300 visit was only 70

1673
00:59:26,119 --> 00:59:28,039
because the vet's like, yeah. This is her

1674
00:59:28,039 --> 00:59:29,960
eye seems to be mostly okay, but here's

1675
00:59:29,960 --> 00:59:31,719
these drops and blah blah blah. Mhmm. And

1676
00:59:31,719 --> 00:59:33,635
her eye is going to have issues

1677
00:59:34,015 --> 00:59:35,715
until we have a surgery

1678
00:59:36,574 --> 00:59:39,054
procedure. We schedule that for her to fix

1679
00:59:39,054 --> 00:59:40,835
her eye eyelids, eyelashes.

1680
00:59:41,375 --> 00:59:42,914
Her she she has

1681
00:59:43,454 --> 00:59:45,869
what they what the vet called entropia.

1682
00:59:46,969 --> 00:59:49,210
Entropian? Entropia? I don't know how they pronounce

1683
00:59:49,210 --> 00:59:49,869
it. Yeah.

1684
00:59:50,170 --> 00:59:52,349
Can't remember. And, basically, what has happened

1685
00:59:52,650 --> 00:59:54,570
and it's happened to both her eyes, but

1686
00:59:54,570 --> 00:59:56,329
one The left eye is the worst. Left

1687
00:59:56,329 --> 00:59:58,670
eye is worse than the other. Her eyelids

1688
00:59:58,914 --> 01:00:01,954
have curled inwards. And so her eyelashes are

1689
01:00:01,954 --> 01:00:03,255
constantly Are constantly

1690
01:00:03,554 --> 01:00:04,855
irritating her eyes.

1691
01:00:05,554 --> 01:00:06,054
Yeah.

1692
01:00:06,514 --> 01:00:07,014
Yeah.

1693
01:00:07,474 --> 01:00:09,654
Apparently, this is something that's common

1694
01:00:11,074 --> 01:00:13,315
in in some of these some of the

1695
01:00:13,394 --> 01:00:14,454
this this breed,

1696
01:00:14,789 --> 01:00:15,530
her breed.

1697
01:00:17,030 --> 01:00:18,489
But, yeah, they they can

1698
01:00:19,110 --> 01:00:21,829
do a surgery to correct it. Otherwise, this

1699
01:00:21,829 --> 01:00:24,390
is just gonna apparently keep going on. Right.

1700
01:00:24,390 --> 01:00:24,890
And,

1701
01:00:25,349 --> 01:00:26,010
you know,

1702
01:00:26,724 --> 01:00:28,484
money wise, it's not it's not about that.

1703
01:00:28,484 --> 01:00:31,125
It's more her comfort is caught. And it

1704
01:00:31,125 --> 01:00:32,885
was and it was out. And anybody who's

1705
01:00:32,885 --> 01:00:33,944
ever had to take

1706
01:00:34,484 --> 01:00:34,984
anybody,

1707
01:00:35,525 --> 01:00:37,925
young or vulnerable, child or pet, to a

1708
01:00:37,925 --> 01:00:38,905
doctor knows

1709
01:00:39,739 --> 01:00:41,659
Something fucked up was going on. We called.

1710
01:00:41,659 --> 01:00:43,099
We get the appointment. They were like, can

1711
01:00:43,099 --> 01:00:44,780
you get here in 15 minutes? We're like,

1712
01:00:44,780 --> 01:00:46,539
actually, yes. We can. We'll be there. They're

1713
01:00:46,539 --> 01:00:47,659
like, we'll fit you in with the lap

1714
01:00:47,739 --> 01:00:49,179
you know, in between the last appointments of

1715
01:00:49,179 --> 01:00:51,519
the day. Fine. Thank you. We appreciate that.

1716
01:00:51,739 --> 01:00:53,819
Before we even walked out the door, her

1717
01:00:53,819 --> 01:00:55,844
eye was looking normal again, and I went,

1718
01:00:55,844 --> 01:00:58,085
I don't care. Right. That did a thing

1719
01:00:58,085 --> 01:00:59,844
it wasn't supposed to do. Mhmm. We're gonna

1720
01:00:59,844 --> 01:01:01,385
go get it looked at. And Yeah.

1721
01:01:01,844 --> 01:01:03,844
So it it was swollen, and she does

1722
01:01:03,844 --> 01:01:05,764
have the doctor called it an ulcer, but,

1723
01:01:05,764 --> 01:01:07,299
like, she has a sore that she did

1724
01:01:07,299 --> 01:01:09,480
not have before literally in her eyeball.

1725
01:01:09,859 --> 01:01:10,359
Yeah.

1726
01:01:10,900 --> 01:01:11,960
So she's on antibiotics.

1727
01:01:12,339 --> 01:01:14,500
She is very confused as to why Onyx

1728
01:01:14,500 --> 01:01:15,159
is sitting

1729
01:01:15,539 --> 01:01:18,279
6 inches away from her. Oh, wow. Yeah.

1730
01:01:18,659 --> 01:01:19,934
I wish I could show y'all this.

1731
01:01:20,894 --> 01:01:23,295
She is staring very intently at Onyx, who

1732
01:01:23,295 --> 01:01:25,055
is just cleaning herself like she has 0

1733
01:01:25,055 --> 01:01:26,035
fucks to give.

1734
01:01:26,894 --> 01:01:27,394
Anyway,

1735
01:01:28,815 --> 01:01:29,315
so,

1736
01:01:31,855 --> 01:01:33,375
we take her to the vet. She hates

1737
01:01:33,375 --> 01:01:34,275
going to the vet.

1738
01:01:34,880 --> 01:01:37,280
She they we have she wears a harness,

1739
01:01:37,280 --> 01:01:39,039
and it has one of those handle things

1740
01:01:39,039 --> 01:01:40,800
on top so she can be moved if

1741
01:01:40,800 --> 01:01:41,860
she needs to be.

1742
01:01:42,800 --> 01:01:45,460
And JB was basically picking up her 77

1743
01:01:45,840 --> 01:01:48,660
pound fucking ass and Mhmm. Kind of

1744
01:01:49,375 --> 01:01:51,155
scooting slash carrying her

1745
01:01:51,614 --> 01:01:53,295
in. Took 5 tries to get her on

1746
01:01:53,295 --> 01:01:55,215
the scale. And I'm like, you know, same

1747
01:01:55,215 --> 01:01:56,894
girl. I don't like being weighed either. You

1748
01:01:56,894 --> 01:01:57,394
know?

1749
01:01:59,295 --> 01:02:01,579
Onyx does not know that her life is

1750
01:02:01,579 --> 01:02:04,380
in potential danger. Well, actually, they were staring

1751
01:02:04,380 --> 01:02:06,059
at each other just a few seconds ago.

1752
01:02:06,059 --> 01:02:07,440
Oh oh, Lola's

1753
01:02:07,739 --> 01:02:10,000
Lola's making noise. Lola doesn't like it.

1754
01:02:11,579 --> 01:02:13,519
And then she made a whiny noise, y'all.

1755
01:02:14,219 --> 01:02:15,519
Onyx took the hint.

1756
01:02:16,485 --> 01:02:19,144
Onyx got so deep in cleaning herself

1757
01:02:19,684 --> 01:02:21,765
that she was not paying attention to Lola,

1758
01:02:21,765 --> 01:02:23,605
who was starting to do a little lip

1759
01:02:23,605 --> 01:02:24,105
curl.

1760
01:02:24,565 --> 01:02:26,724
Like, I don't like this. You're you're in

1761
01:02:26,724 --> 01:02:28,425
my bed and you're way too close.

1762
01:02:29,125 --> 01:02:29,865
And now,

1763
01:02:30,244 --> 01:02:32,690
maybe as a stress response, Onyx is licking

1764
01:02:32,690 --> 01:02:33,750
plastic. So

1765
01:02:35,329 --> 01:02:36,690
so now we get her to the vet,

1766
01:02:36,690 --> 01:02:38,210
and they had said it'll probably be awake

1767
01:02:38,210 --> 01:02:39,489
because we are fitting in. And we're like,

1768
01:02:39,489 --> 01:02:41,269
that's fine. We're just glad to be here.

1769
01:02:42,210 --> 01:02:42,710
So,

1770
01:02:43,809 --> 01:02:44,309
normally,

1771
01:02:44,609 --> 01:02:46,644
when Lola goes to the vet, she doesn't

1772
01:02:46,644 --> 01:02:48,164
like it. She paces for a while, and

1773
01:02:48,164 --> 01:02:50,184
then she plops down on the the floor,

1774
01:02:50,565 --> 01:02:52,324
and she just becomes a lump. She plops

1775
01:02:52,324 --> 01:02:54,105
a baked potato. It's fine.

1776
01:02:55,284 --> 01:02:57,284
She paced. She would come up to me,

1777
01:02:57,284 --> 01:02:59,844
look at me, knows me, walk back to

1778
01:02:59,844 --> 01:03:02,109
the door, look at me. She then she'd

1779
01:03:02,190 --> 01:03:04,510
from there, she'd walk up to JB, knows

1780
01:03:04,510 --> 01:03:06,349
him, walk back to the door, back and

1781
01:03:06,349 --> 01:03:08,030
forth and back and forth. And at one

1782
01:03:08,030 --> 01:03:08,530
point

1783
01:03:09,389 --> 01:03:11,650
so it's a bench and there's the door

1784
01:03:11,710 --> 01:03:13,905
to our left. JB is sitting closest

1785
01:03:15,905 --> 01:03:16,065
to the door. I'm in the corner. Mhmm.

1786
01:03:16,065 --> 01:03:18,304
Lola has come up to me, butted me

1787
01:03:18,304 --> 01:03:19,125
with her nose.

1788
01:03:19,664 --> 01:03:21,744
It's she acts it's like she wants pets,

1789
01:03:21,744 --> 01:03:23,184
but no. She's, like, trying to tell you

1790
01:03:23,184 --> 01:03:24,885
it's time to go, and here's the door.

1791
01:03:25,985 --> 01:03:27,744
So she's done that to me. She walks

1792
01:03:27,744 --> 01:03:28,804
back to the door,

1793
01:03:29,159 --> 01:03:31,239
and instead of coming around, because she had

1794
01:03:31,239 --> 01:03:33,400
been going around this bench thing we're sitting

1795
01:03:33,400 --> 01:03:36,280
on, she sit stands at the side of

1796
01:03:36,280 --> 01:03:38,699
the bench on the other side of JB

1797
01:03:39,799 --> 01:03:41,179
and doesn't look at him.

1798
01:03:41,639 --> 01:03:42,139
Lola.

1799
01:03:43,319 --> 01:03:44,699
What are we doing, ma'am?

1800
01:03:47,065 --> 01:03:49,545
Oh my god. She was standing up and

1801
01:03:49,545 --> 01:03:50,045
snarly

1802
01:03:50,505 --> 01:03:51,164
at onyx.

1803
01:03:51,625 --> 01:03:53,164
She really don't feel good, y'all.

1804
01:03:54,184 --> 01:03:55,385
Do you need to go in the other

1805
01:03:55,385 --> 01:03:57,960
room? She might. She's not usually like this.

1806
01:03:57,960 --> 01:03:59,019
No. Anyway,

1807
01:03:59,400 --> 01:04:01,960
she turns her head from standing at the

1808
01:04:01,960 --> 01:04:02,460
door,

1809
01:04:03,239 --> 01:04:05,239
pops her head up, like, extends her neck.

1810
01:04:05,239 --> 01:04:07,900
Her ears go up and the only expression

1811
01:04:07,960 --> 01:04:09,179
I can describe

1812
01:04:09,480 --> 01:04:10,699
on her face is,

1813
01:04:11,434 --> 01:04:13,434
do you not see me at this door,

1814
01:04:13,434 --> 01:04:15,054
bitch? I said, let's go.

1815
01:04:15,434 --> 01:04:16,255
I just went,

1816
01:04:16,554 --> 01:04:18,715
I can't take you seriously, Lola, when you're

1817
01:04:18,715 --> 01:04:20,394
you're literally looking at me like, what the

1818
01:04:20,394 --> 01:04:20,894
fuck?

1819
01:04:22,155 --> 01:04:23,675
Is it that Onyx is too close to

1820
01:04:23,675 --> 01:04:25,820
her bed? I think so. I need Onyx

1821
01:04:25,820 --> 01:04:27,840
to stop licking that plastic. I know.

1822
01:04:28,219 --> 01:04:31,019
They've lost their minds in here today is

1823
01:04:31,019 --> 01:04:34,300
what's happening. Mhmm. Mhmm. So JB is on

1824
01:04:34,300 --> 01:04:37,340
eye drop and warm compress duty. Yeah. Every

1825
01:04:37,340 --> 01:04:38,079
2 hours,

1826
01:04:39,045 --> 01:04:40,105
drop in the eye,

1827
01:04:40,724 --> 01:04:42,565
and then a warm compress for a few

1828
01:04:42,565 --> 01:04:46,085
minutes. Mhmm. Mhmm. And it it is less

1829
01:04:46,085 --> 01:04:47,144
swollen today.

1830
01:04:47,445 --> 01:04:50,244
She was miserable last night. Poor thing. She

1831
01:04:50,244 --> 01:04:52,440
just she didn't wanna really be touched. She

1832
01:04:52,440 --> 01:04:54,119
did not wanna get off the couch. No.

1833
01:04:54,119 --> 01:04:56,139
Barely wanted a treat. She just

1834
01:04:56,920 --> 01:04:59,079
Well, I She's miserable. I I did something

1835
01:04:59,079 --> 01:05:01,800
with her that I normally have not done.

1836
01:05:01,800 --> 01:05:03,554
I don't think I've ever done it, really.

1837
01:05:04,594 --> 01:05:06,355
She was laying on the sofa. She was

1838
01:05:06,355 --> 01:05:07,414
she was miserable

1839
01:05:07,875 --> 01:05:08,694
after the,

1840
01:05:09,155 --> 01:05:11,175
you know and rightfully so.

1841
01:05:11,795 --> 01:05:12,295
And,

1842
01:05:13,155 --> 01:05:14,135
you know, normally,

1843
01:05:14,835 --> 01:05:16,755
in the evening, we have a routine. She

1844
01:05:16,755 --> 01:05:18,079
gets her one

1845
01:05:18,460 --> 01:05:18,960
biscuit

1846
01:05:20,300 --> 01:05:20,960
at night

1847
01:05:22,460 --> 01:05:24,300
and she knows when it's when it's getting

1848
01:05:24,300 --> 01:05:27,519
ready because I'll come leave the office, I'll

1849
01:05:27,579 --> 01:05:29,820
go into the kitchen, I'll make myself a

1850
01:05:29,820 --> 01:05:31,734
drink, go sit down and, you know, she'll

1851
01:05:31,734 --> 01:05:33,494
hear me rattling around in the kitchen, and

1852
01:05:33,494 --> 01:05:35,574
she'll know. And she comes in. She did

1853
01:05:35,574 --> 01:05:36,074
not

1854
01:05:36,775 --> 01:05:39,335
come in last night, so I took the

1855
01:05:39,335 --> 01:05:41,894
biscuit to her. She had she had treats

1856
01:05:41,894 --> 01:05:43,734
in bed. Yeah. I mean, I think I

1857
01:05:43,734 --> 01:05:45,449
think if you're I've all those funky things,

1858
01:05:45,449 --> 01:05:47,369
you get you get a pass. You just

1859
01:05:47,449 --> 01:05:49,289
you do. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You get to

1860
01:05:49,289 --> 01:05:51,769
be babied. Mhmm. You know? And you yeah.

1861
01:05:51,769 --> 01:05:53,769
You know, she's I didn't even try to

1862
01:05:53,769 --> 01:05:55,530
get her to go into her crate last

1863
01:05:55,530 --> 01:05:57,690
night. She just Well, that was a little

1864
01:05:57,690 --> 01:05:59,449
that was a little heartbreaking. So she had

1865
01:06:00,594 --> 01:06:02,434
She is now at a stage, maybe it's

1866
01:06:02,434 --> 01:06:03,574
age, maybe it's

1867
01:06:03,954 --> 01:06:05,255
pain, we don't know,

1868
01:06:05,635 --> 01:06:06,994
where she does not get up on the

1869
01:06:06,994 --> 01:06:09,715
couch that easily most of the time. Now

1870
01:06:09,715 --> 01:06:11,474
sometimes she can. She's got her full energy,

1871
01:06:11,474 --> 01:06:12,695
and she's bound to it.

1872
01:06:13,235 --> 01:06:15,039
So when we got home and she went

1873
01:06:15,039 --> 01:06:16,960
for a walk and we got after she

1874
01:06:16,960 --> 01:06:18,559
ate, she basically lived on the couch, and

1875
01:06:18,559 --> 01:06:20,880
she needed help getting up there, which made

1876
01:06:20,880 --> 01:06:22,659
sense. Her she looked miserable.

1877
01:06:23,279 --> 01:06:24,880
So she laid up there most of the

1878
01:06:24,880 --> 01:06:25,940
night, and then

1879
01:06:26,239 --> 01:06:29,139
we started kinda doing our shutdown routine.

1880
01:06:29,760 --> 01:06:30,805
And and he didn't make her go in

1881
01:06:30,805 --> 01:06:32,005
the crate, so we figured she'd stay in

1882
01:06:32,005 --> 01:06:34,085
the bed. Well, she heard rattling around in

1883
01:06:34,085 --> 01:06:36,085
the kitchen Yep. And she got curious. So

1884
01:06:36,085 --> 01:06:37,545
she got off the couch,

1885
01:06:38,565 --> 01:06:40,085
but then just decided not to come to

1886
01:06:40,085 --> 01:06:41,525
the kitchen, but I could hear her moving.

1887
01:06:41,525 --> 01:06:43,224
I'm like, she's not on the couch anymore.

1888
01:06:44,005 --> 01:06:45,785
And then I didn't hear her moving,

1889
01:06:46,610 --> 01:06:48,530
and I said, is she trying to get

1890
01:06:48,530 --> 01:06:50,469
back up on the couch and got stuck?

1891
01:06:50,849 --> 01:06:52,769
Yep. She needed a boost. I I I

1892
01:06:52,769 --> 01:06:54,469
went I looked around, and

1893
01:06:55,090 --> 01:06:57,110
she had her front paws on the couch,

1894
01:06:57,170 --> 01:06:57,824
her head

1895
01:06:58,304 --> 01:07:00,464
looking up, and that was all she did.

1896
01:07:00,464 --> 01:07:02,324
And when I walked around,

1897
01:07:03,744 --> 01:07:04,484
then she

1898
01:07:05,425 --> 01:07:07,105
raised up and started to get up, and

1899
01:07:07,105 --> 01:07:08,704
I put my hand out. She stepped on

1900
01:07:08,704 --> 01:07:10,085
my hand as a Oh.

1901
01:07:10,864 --> 01:07:12,780
See, I'm the more of the butt pusher.

1902
01:07:12,780 --> 01:07:14,780
I get my hand under her her booty

1903
01:07:14,860 --> 01:07:16,219
Yeah. And I just kinda go up, and

1904
01:07:16,219 --> 01:07:18,300
she just keeps going. Yeah. But yeah. But,

1905
01:07:18,619 --> 01:07:20,780
I I think it's gonna be time soon

1906
01:07:20,780 --> 01:07:22,320
for me to build her a little

1907
01:07:22,619 --> 01:07:25,088
step. Mhmm. Make it easier for her to

1908
01:07:25,088 --> 01:07:26,625
get up there. Could we train her not

1909
01:07:26,625 --> 01:07:27,744
to get on the couch? Yeah. But we're

1910
01:07:27,744 --> 01:07:29,025
not gonna do that. No. The couch is

1911
01:07:29,025 --> 01:07:31,744
definitely hers now because Oh, yeah. It looks

1912
01:07:31,744 --> 01:07:34,164
like it's been through some shit. Right. Yeah.

1913
01:07:34,625 --> 01:07:35,125
Yeah.

1914
01:07:35,585 --> 01:07:36,644
That's her couch.

1915
01:07:37,105 --> 01:07:37,985
You know, I'm

1916
01:07:38,945 --> 01:07:39,445
yeah.

1917
01:07:39,825 --> 01:07:41,380
I mean, I don't mind the sofa. You

1918
01:07:41,380 --> 01:07:43,860
know? I mean, for me, the big thing

1919
01:07:43,860 --> 01:07:45,960
is the the fur babies, none of them

1920
01:07:46,420 --> 01:07:48,260
sleep with us. No. I'm not. And I'm

1921
01:07:48,260 --> 01:07:49,559
not built for that. No.

1922
01:07:50,019 --> 01:07:52,659
I would have let Saki do it because

1923
01:07:52,659 --> 01:07:55,065
he was so little. Mhmm. And he very

1924
01:07:55,065 --> 01:07:57,784
rarely smelled like dog. Like, he maybe it's

1925
01:07:57,784 --> 01:07:59,304
because he was so little. I don't know.

1926
01:07:59,304 --> 01:07:59,965
I don't know.

1927
01:08:00,344 --> 01:08:01,784
He did. I mean, it wasn't that he

1928
01:08:01,784 --> 01:08:03,405
didn't, but he didn't go outside

1929
01:08:03,704 --> 01:08:05,704
the way Lola does. He didn't roll around.

1930
01:08:05,704 --> 01:08:07,864
Like, he just Yeah. Didn't have that dog

1931
01:08:07,864 --> 01:08:08,364
smell

1932
01:08:08,909 --> 01:08:11,469
quite as potently as our Lola girl. Yeah.

1933
01:08:12,109 --> 01:08:13,789
But he had no interest. He was like,

1934
01:08:13,789 --> 01:08:15,150
no. No. No. No. I'm an old man

1935
01:08:15,150 --> 01:08:17,390
with creaky bones. I like my bed over

1936
01:08:17,390 --> 01:08:19,729
there in the corner. Please and thank you.

1937
01:08:20,829 --> 01:08:21,329
Lola,

1938
01:08:22,029 --> 01:08:23,630
if we're we let her come into our

1939
01:08:23,630 --> 01:08:25,994
bedroom if we're awake and up, like, not

1940
01:08:25,994 --> 01:08:28,395
at night. She she has her space, and

1941
01:08:28,395 --> 01:08:29,454
we close the door.

1942
01:08:29,914 --> 01:08:31,675
But when we're it's a normal day, if

1943
01:08:31,675 --> 01:08:33,835
we're sitting in our bedroom or whatever doing

1944
01:08:33,835 --> 01:08:35,695
stuff, she'll walk in and we don't mind.

1945
01:08:35,755 --> 01:08:37,755
No. But if we happen to just be

1946
01:08:37,755 --> 01:08:39,055
stretched out in the bed,

1947
01:08:39,360 --> 01:08:40,960
she'll come up to either side and just

1948
01:08:41,039 --> 01:08:42,979
and our bed's kinda high, like,

1949
01:08:43,760 --> 01:08:46,159
not feet dangling high, but higher than I

1950
01:08:46,159 --> 01:08:47,380
think typical beds.

1951
01:08:47,680 --> 01:08:49,920
And she'll come to either side and just

1952
01:08:49,920 --> 01:08:52,215
look up at you like, I too would

1953
01:08:52,215 --> 01:08:53,914
like to be up there. And I'm like,

1954
01:08:54,375 --> 01:08:54,875
Boral,

1955
01:08:56,454 --> 01:08:57,755
I can't pick you up.

1956
01:08:58,694 --> 01:08:59,014
So

1957
01:08:59,654 --> 01:09:00,154
Yeah.

1958
01:09:01,175 --> 01:09:02,875
So that was kind of our

1959
01:09:04,054 --> 01:09:05,034
our day yesterday.

1960
01:09:06,135 --> 01:09:07,994
The day ended with a bang. Yep.

1961
01:09:08,630 --> 01:09:09,130
Yeah.

1962
01:09:09,590 --> 01:09:11,989
Yep. But she I mean, I think she's

1963
01:09:11,989 --> 01:09:13,750
feeling a little bit better if she can

1964
01:09:13,750 --> 01:09:15,829
be annoyed at Onyx. Right. And Onyx is

1965
01:09:15,829 --> 01:09:17,429
the last one to be annoyed at. Oh.

1966
01:09:17,429 --> 01:09:19,609
It's Ella who's kinda pushy. Right.

1967
01:09:19,989 --> 01:09:21,279
But I mean, Ella will steal her bed

1968
01:09:21,279 --> 01:09:21,359
in a heartbeat. Ella will steal her bed.

1969
01:09:21,359 --> 01:09:21,510
Mhmm. And and Lola has never felt like,

1970
01:09:21,510 --> 01:09:24,074
yeah. Ella will steal her bed. Mhmm. And

1971
01:09:24,074 --> 01:09:25,994
and Lola has never felt like, yeah. Yeah.

1972
01:09:25,994 --> 01:09:28,015
I can get up here too. She could.

1973
01:09:28,074 --> 01:09:30,255
Ella probably wouldn't even mind, but she won't.

1974
01:09:31,274 --> 01:09:34,015
Ella will clean her ears for her. Mhmm.

1975
01:09:34,475 --> 01:09:36,779
Will clean in between her toes.

1976
01:09:38,279 --> 01:09:41,399
I have questions for Ella. Right. Yeah. Your

1977
01:09:41,399 --> 01:09:42,920
king's not my king. Your king's not my

1978
01:09:42,920 --> 01:09:45,179
king. Ella ain't right. Ella ain't right.

1979
01:09:46,600 --> 01:09:47,100
No.

1980
01:09:47,640 --> 01:09:48,140
No.

1981
01:09:49,960 --> 01:09:52,954
Thank god she's pretty. Yeah. But Yeah. Yeah.

1982
01:09:52,954 --> 01:09:53,935
Onyx is

1983
01:09:55,114 --> 01:09:56,875
and Onyx is going to town on that

1984
01:09:56,875 --> 01:09:59,054
plastic. Yeah. She is. Looking looking looking.

1985
01:10:02,875 --> 01:10:04,255
So, yeah, that's adventures

1986
01:10:04,795 --> 01:10:05,774
and fur babies

1987
01:10:06,770 --> 01:10:09,729
past 24 hours. Look at her. She is

1988
01:10:09,729 --> 01:10:11,010
going. I've I've

1989
01:10:12,130 --> 01:10:12,630
I

1990
01:10:13,409 --> 01:10:15,010
even if I had my phone, I could

1991
01:10:15,010 --> 01:10:17,109
not get a good picture of that.

1992
01:10:17,969 --> 01:10:20,445
So imagine a cat licking plastic. Sure. Sure.

1993
01:10:20,445 --> 01:10:23,564
But she's licking it so vigorously that the

1994
01:10:23,564 --> 01:10:25,885
whole flat of her tongue is coming out,

1995
01:10:25,885 --> 01:10:28,125
and you can see nothing but tongue. Mhmm.

1996
01:10:28,125 --> 01:10:30,685
And she's moving her whole head back and

1997
01:10:30,685 --> 01:10:31,185
forward

1998
01:10:31,980 --> 01:10:34,860
to make sure she gets maximum leakage apparently.

1999
01:10:34,860 --> 01:10:36,500
She's not biting it or tearing at it.

2000
01:10:36,500 --> 01:10:39,440
I think she's just it's licking. Yeah. Yep.

2001
01:10:40,460 --> 01:10:42,140
Britney asked what does Ella look like? She

2002
01:10:42,140 --> 01:10:44,220
is a, I guess, tuxedo cat. She's a

2003
01:10:44,220 --> 01:10:45,360
black and white cat.

2004
01:10:46,284 --> 01:10:47,885
I know that it's orange cats who don't

2005
01:10:47,885 --> 01:10:49,965
have a brain cell, but, she probably has

2006
01:10:49,965 --> 01:10:52,364
some orange cat in her genetics. So Right.

2007
01:10:52,524 --> 01:10:54,364
She's got an ancestor who was an orange

2008
01:10:54,364 --> 01:10:56,925
cat and Yeah. Did not pass down the

2009
01:10:56,925 --> 01:10:58,925
brain cell. We we often say it's a

2010
01:10:58,925 --> 01:11:01,780
good thing Ella's cute. Yeah. And she is

2011
01:11:01,780 --> 01:11:03,899
a beautiful cat. Oh, yeah. She's got the

2012
01:11:03,899 --> 01:11:06,779
pink nose and the perfectly pink little toe

2013
01:11:06,779 --> 01:11:07,279
beans.

2014
01:11:09,979 --> 01:11:10,960
Onyx is

2015
01:11:11,260 --> 01:11:13,100
amazing and and gorgeous too, just in a

2016
01:11:13,100 --> 01:11:15,524
different way. Onyx is full black. She's got,

2017
01:11:15,585 --> 01:11:17,984
like, 3 little hairs on her chest that

2018
01:11:17,984 --> 01:11:19,984
are white, but her toe beans are black.

2019
01:11:19,984 --> 01:11:21,925
Her nose is black. Mhmm.

2020
01:11:22,304 --> 01:11:24,564
I guess she got done licking the plastic.

2021
01:11:24,784 --> 01:11:25,284
Yeah.

2022
01:11:25,664 --> 01:11:27,904
It's funny. She's been she's been sleeping on

2023
01:11:27,904 --> 01:11:28,645
my pillow.

2024
01:11:29,319 --> 01:11:30,920
Mhmm. During the day. Both girls are sitting

2025
01:11:30,920 --> 01:11:33,260
on our pillows during the day. And, even

2026
01:11:34,359 --> 01:11:36,679
even in the evening. And it's funny, I'll

2027
01:11:36,679 --> 01:11:38,600
walk in there in the evening, you know,

2028
01:11:38,600 --> 01:11:39,659
and the light's off,

2029
01:11:40,359 --> 01:11:40,859
and

2030
01:11:41,175 --> 01:11:42,795
I can't really see her,

2031
01:11:43,414 --> 01:11:45,095
but then she opens her eyes, and you

2032
01:11:45,095 --> 01:11:46,854
see it out of the darkness, these two

2033
01:11:46,854 --> 01:11:48,715
little golden eyes. Blah blah.

2034
01:11:50,135 --> 01:11:52,454
Onyx does not want your attention. And I

2035
01:11:52,454 --> 01:11:54,390
don't even I don't think it's negative. She's

2036
01:11:54,390 --> 01:11:56,010
not growling or anything.

2037
01:11:56,630 --> 01:11:58,010
But she is £77,

2038
01:11:58,630 --> 01:12:02,010
and Onyx is £8. Yeah. Right. So Yep.

2039
01:12:02,229 --> 01:12:04,310
Yep. I'm pretty sure Onyx could take her.

2040
01:12:04,310 --> 01:12:06,550
Probably would probably kick Lola's ass, quite frankly.

2041
01:12:06,550 --> 01:12:08,234
Onyx is a bitch. She I love her.

2042
01:12:08,234 --> 01:12:10,635
She's a bitch. Mhmm. She's a Scorpio bitch

2043
01:12:10,635 --> 01:12:12,975
though. So we have that in common. Mhmm.

2044
01:12:13,114 --> 01:12:15,435
I know, baby. I'm so glad your eyeball

2045
01:12:15,435 --> 01:12:17,375
looks like eyeballs are supposed to look.

2046
01:12:18,154 --> 01:12:20,554
That was that was rough yesterday. Yeah. It

2047
01:12:20,554 --> 01:12:21,054
was.

2048
01:12:21,354 --> 01:12:23,159
I know. You're a sweet quarrel.

2049
01:12:23,539 --> 01:12:24,899
It's good to see her up and moving

2050
01:12:24,899 --> 01:12:27,639
around. Even if she's antagonizing Onyx. Yeah.

2051
01:12:29,139 --> 01:12:30,865
So, yeah. That's that's that's

2052
01:12:31,539 --> 01:12:32,039
Yeah.

2053
01:12:32,500 --> 01:12:33,800
That's it. Honestly.

2054
01:12:34,579 --> 01:12:36,594
You know, last last weekend we,

2055
01:12:38,094 --> 01:12:39,554
this past weekend we,

2056
01:12:40,335 --> 01:12:41,475
managed to escape

2057
01:12:41,935 --> 01:12:43,534
for a little bit, and and we went

2058
01:12:43,534 --> 01:12:44,274
out thrifting.

2059
01:12:44,654 --> 01:12:46,175
To the thrift stores that were open, because

2060
01:12:46,175 --> 01:12:48,015
we went on a Sunday like donuts. Mhmm.

2061
01:12:48,015 --> 01:12:48,515
Mhmm.

2062
01:12:49,054 --> 01:12:51,530
We actually went antiquing. And it ended up

2063
01:12:51,530 --> 01:12:53,449
being antiquing. Yeah. Ending antiquing. Because it was

2064
01:12:53,449 --> 01:12:55,289
the antique stores that were open, the thrift

2065
01:12:55,289 --> 01:12:56,109
stores weren't.

2066
01:12:56,729 --> 01:12:58,649
But, it was fun. We had a good

2067
01:12:58,649 --> 01:12:59,149
time.

2068
01:13:00,010 --> 01:13:02,250
Mhmm. Mhmm. And, we all we both came

2069
01:13:02,250 --> 01:13:04,090
away with some stuff. I got a new

2070
01:13:04,090 --> 01:13:07,444
coffee ornament. Mhmm. And you got 2 used

2071
01:13:07,444 --> 01:13:08,505
albums. Yeah.

2072
01:13:09,284 --> 01:13:09,784
Yep.

2073
01:13:11,444 --> 01:13:13,284
Oh, yes, ma'am. Is your head tired? You

2074
01:13:13,284 --> 01:13:15,145
need to rest it on me? Okay.

2075
01:13:17,125 --> 01:13:19,304
So, yeah. I am

2076
01:13:21,500 --> 01:13:23,579
Oh, big stretch. Mhmm. She's

2077
01:13:24,779 --> 01:13:26,340
okay. That was more of a butthole than

2078
01:13:26,340 --> 01:13:27,279
I wanted to see.

2079
01:13:28,460 --> 01:13:28,960
So

2080
01:13:29,819 --> 01:13:31,260
I think that's a good note to end

2081
01:13:31,260 --> 01:13:32,079
on. Yeah.

2082
01:13:32,460 --> 01:13:35,585
Lola's butt. No. Mm-mm. That's still wrong.

2083
01:13:36,364 --> 01:13:38,284
So, yeah, thank y'all for,

2084
01:13:38,925 --> 01:13:40,685
being here with us and letting us ramble

2085
01:13:40,685 --> 01:13:41,185
about

2086
01:13:42,204 --> 01:13:42,704
provocative

2087
01:13:43,324 --> 01:13:43,824
things.

2088
01:13:48,765 --> 01:13:49,265
Definitely

2089
01:13:51,579 --> 01:13:52,079
TMI.

2090
01:13:54,060 --> 01:13:57,039
Don't forget we have the livestream Friday 13th.

2091
01:13:57,260 --> 01:13:59,180
That is a week earlier than it would

2092
01:13:59,180 --> 01:14:00,159
normally be.

2093
01:14:02,454 --> 01:14:03,194
Are we

2094
01:14:03,574 --> 01:14:05,414
staying till our normal time, or are we

2095
01:14:05,414 --> 01:14:06,635
implementing the new

2096
01:14:07,175 --> 01:14:09,335
We'll we'll stay to the normal time. We

2097
01:14:09,335 --> 01:14:11,494
won't change that till after. Yeah. And in

2098
01:14:11,494 --> 01:14:11,994
2025,

2099
01:14:12,694 --> 01:14:15,175
the time when we end that Friday night

2100
01:14:15,175 --> 01:14:16,789
livestream will be changing. We'll talk about that

2101
01:14:16,789 --> 01:14:17,449
on Friday.

2102
01:14:18,149 --> 01:14:19,590
And then, yeah, the kinkery is having a

2103
01:14:19,590 --> 01:14:22,229
sale. Free shipping on US orders of $35

2104
01:14:22,229 --> 01:14:22,970
more. Thekinkery.com.

2105
01:14:23,989 --> 01:14:24,489
And

2106
01:14:26,710 --> 01:14:29,270
so, yeah, we're gonna go beat crazy cat

2107
01:14:29,270 --> 01:14:30,489
and dog parents now.

2108
01:14:31,104 --> 01:14:33,524
Yep. Mhmm. And I'm probably gonna go,

2109
01:14:33,904 --> 01:14:35,824
after we record the next thing, dive back

2110
01:14:35,824 --> 01:14:38,324
into this book because it's so fucking gone.

2111
01:14:39,344 --> 01:14:39,844
Anyway,

2112
01:14:41,664 --> 01:14:42,404
we will.

2113
01:14:42,944 --> 01:14:45,585
Talk to you next time. Okay. Alright. Bye.

2114
01:14:45,585 --> 01:14:46,324
Bye, y'all.