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the post from Reddit, I don't know if
I'm gonna rant.
Not. I don't remember reading anything that made
steam come out of my ears, but I
have a bad memory, so don't don't count
on me for that.
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Just by existing, isn't it a day for
us always. I don't know. I'd tell myself
that because it makes me feel better.
Third announcement
is
a little
impromptu too.
We're taking next week off.
We... There will be a Monday episode because
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You will see social media posts if you
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And pay patrons will get to hear a
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Not because anything major happened, we're where as
good as we have been, and we are
not
at 20 21 20 22 levels of stress.
Comparatively. It real... It's just not the same.
But we can both feel burnout out creeping
in? Yeah. And we're about to go into
a time of year where we do not
feel like we have the luxury of, like,
long breaks.
So and we need all the energy we
can must for that.
So
we are basically moving heaven and earth with
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and the work we had planned for this
we and next week,
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Yep. Those things 1 do not ever ever.
Not even on our busiest day never. Does
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Orders are my favorite things.
And also, I can deal with orders in,
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I don't know how Jb feels about this,
but basically, I had the thought of. I
wanna wake up
for a few days in a row and
have 0
obligations and not be stressed at the thought
of my to do list. My list that
is not overly long either. It's just
how It was burnout. So I was like,
Clock. Yeah.
I would like to walk for our mental
health, but it doesn't have to be a
05:30 morning. No,
just just a week just a week off.
Now,
patrons who look at a calendar and no
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We have a a Patreon event with our
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That's that's our separator from the time game
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cards we're off off.
And...
I think we both knew it was the
right decision because we were immediately a little
bit more relaxed. Yeah.
So that's what we're doing. Mh.
We... Yeah. That... That's what we're doing.
And, thankfully, y'all are all super supportive and
always just tell us to take care of
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Little self care for a week. Right. What
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you, Robert. Thank, Ra. Okay. So enough of
the announcements. Mh. Let us get in do
the reddit post. I did not pull any
of the questions from
the Bd,
am I the asshole subreddit that is a
it run by
pink king podcast Princess Ara.
There are more people posting in there. I'm
begging y'all. To go in and post there
if you have a weight was I a
kinky asshole.
I looked through some of them, and the
more recent ones and I went, I don't
I don't think I'm the right 1 to
answer those. So there were more more about
sex. Mh.
So
anytime you're like, wait, was I the asshole
in this kin situation, I love it if
you would go post over there because I
definitely wanna use those posts in these kinds
of episodes.
Please let let us decide if we think
you're an asshole, please, please.
Okay. So all of today's post came from
the Bd
advice subreddit.
Okay. First 1. Okay.
Sometimes I under if it's worth it in
the same right.
This is where I have to get really
close to the screen because
the glass suck. Okay. Here we go.
60 female married to 58 male been together
9 years. I am primarily vanilla and he's
into Bd.
I never dabble until I met my now
hub. He loves to be the dismissive. I
am honestly not the dominating type, but I
try for his sake. We went through a
sexual dry spell as he doesn't wanna make
me do things I'm not comfortable with. I
on the other hand am willing to try
because I love him and wanna fulfill his
needs.
It seems that the last couple of times
we played. Things didn't quite go as planned
and he got angry and made me feel
like it was my fault.
For instance, our bed frame came apart during
our last session.
I, of course thought it was something funny
to laugh at, and he made it seem
like it was the end of the world.
It hurt my feeling so much I cried.
Honestly, I put a lot of thought and
energy into our session as isn't easy for
me. You would think he could at least
say he was sorry for over reacting
Why does it have to be so freaking
serious all the time. In order for me
to feel comfortable and confident I'd like to
have some fun too. And for me, that's
laughing at the stupid stuff that happens or
that I do. How do I get him
to lighten up a tad? It makes me
want to not try and do this anymore.
I'm sad for both of them? I know.
It's an compatibility that they're trying to find.
They're they're they're trying to... Yeah
that that center spot.
And and you know what? She... She's absolutely
right. You need to have...
You know, you you need to have that
sense of humor.
Yes. But So what if he's got himself
all stressed out about. This is his only
way to submit. I know how I am.
And something goes wrong.
And I've gotten better because I'm I am
confident in you. Mh. When I get to
submit to you, it is not gonna be
the only time I get to do it
for weeks and week a weeks. Right? It's
our life.
What if he's like, this is my only
chance, and he does that thing that a
lot of people do. You put press on
the situation to be air quote. Perfect. Mh.
And so when something goes wrong, it's a
small thing that should be able to be
laughed off, but it feels catastrophic because it
ruined the picture in your mind of the
perfect Yeah.
Situation. Now, I don't... I think... Yes. I
kinda does need to lighten up. But I
think I can see where he might be
coming from it. But, you know... And and
again, though, you you you're saying that And
and, yeah, III
see your point. But, you know, there again,
too,
that comes in with the
managing
expectations. Absolutely. I agree completely. Because let's face
it. Nothing in this, you know, nothing is
ever perfect. M. K?
Nothing ever goes as planned.
You know,
the bed breaks
You know, you you you fall out of
bed.
Something cramp up. You know, fall asleep. Right.
You know, it... It's all gonna happen an
and, you know, those stupid things you gotta...
You gotta be able to laugh them off.
I know. But I think before you can
get to that place that you can laugh
them off, you need to feel
there's some some something
is lacking in confidence and whether it's will
we be able to do this often enough,
or am I... You know,
and I am reading a lot into it.
We do not have his perspective, but. You
know, she says that, yeah, they went through
a dry spell because he doesn't wanna make
me do things Not comfortable with. So is
there guilt involved of. I'm already asking her
to do and be something thing she's not.
And so
you, it's just... It's... It sounds like pressure
on his side of things. I I agree
though. I agree about setting managing... Setting and
managing expectations. I agree about... You gotta laugh
off that stuff because it's gonna happen
all... Now we've got somebody who's crying because
they're still upset, and the other person so
pissed off, and no scenes are happening now.
Right. So it... As always. This is such
the boring answer. I know. Yeah. It goes
back to communication. Right? Like, true. It's... Let's
sit down and talk about this. Let's talk
about how
you know, his anger made her feel, how
her laughter made him feel.
The hardest part, but I think the most
important part is to try and do it
in a
without being j, there's... It's real easy in
an argument to go, will you made me
feel this way and you did this m,
to the best of your ability to do
I statements.
I feel this way,
you know, when this happens. I feel, you
know, pair you're feeling with the action
again, none of us are perfect, and this
is a a skill that has to be
learned and I still suck at it sometimes.
Instead of it, you know, going on the
with the other person because what's gonna happen
is everybody's gonna shut down. And now we're
not talking about how wait,
you are having these expectations of this
supposedly perfect scene. And when it's not perfect.
You're freaking out, and now it's ruined for
me too. Like, that's the ultimately the thing
I think that has to happen there's got
to be a conversation about it. Yeah. You
know, there there definitely has to be a
com
conversation. You're you're not... And, you know, I
I think too,
makes me kinda wonder,
you know, it
she's, you know, he's
he's stopping at the bit. Oh, he's sure.
And he's ready to go. Mh. Alright. And
she's a little hesitant. She's not, you know,
quite sure.
You know, how much is he expecting of
her? True. Right out of the gate? True.
I I would be interested to know the
scope of the scenes
that
he's asking for slash she's willing to able
to in trying to execute. And not only
if there's a mismatch
but it might not even be that deep
It might just be
it's
outside of some comfort level slash experience levels.
Mh. And so that's that's a lot of
pressure for everybody. Yeah. And I can...
I don't think lashing out of a partner
is the best way to go about anything
I'm not saying that's right, but I can't
understand the... This is the only way I'm
gonna get it and it's few and far
between, and I'm relying on a partner that
I already feel bad if, you know, I'm
guilty that maybe I'm, you know,
asking them do something they don't even wanna
do,
you know, that... I would be so curious
to hear
his side of, like... Because, you know, I've
I have been that submissive and God. I
have met enough submissive who are like, you
know, I have these
this,
picture of my head of what it's gonna
be like to submit when it's gonna be
like to be dominated, who that person's gonna
be, what they're gonna do. And do we
all eventually come crashing down to reality of
course, we.
But that usually comes from getting to have
the day to day experience of it or
a consistent experience of it or a the
give and take,
and this is
I mean, I'm... I admire her. She's, like,
this is not my thing, but I want
him to be happy. So I'll try.
Yeah. You know?
Yeah. III would be very curious about the
expectations he has set for himself. Right. For
her and for the scene. Because I think
that's probably where the anger. I'm sorry. Yep.
And or I'm a look because I'm nosy
I'm little curious about what made the bed
break because I... Here's what I know. If
our bed broke,
I would have to laugh because my alternative
would be to cry. Right.
Because of some deep seated issues of my
own. But if I thought
my actions were the reason the bed broke?
I would be inc console. That would not...
It I would not be able to be
laughed
at or have somebody laughing with me
until I like got my head on straight.
So
I I think it's, you know, both simpler
and than it seems but also more complex.
There's all... There's lots of feelings going on,
and some people lash out. It's not right.
It's not healthy Like, come on, Call call
me tits there. But it is what people
do.
And so to be able to have the
conversation to work through it, you know, he's
gotta be able to to try to articulate
what that is for him. And she can
maybe ask questions to pull that out of
them, but she also can't make them talk.
Right? And if he's not gonna communicate, well,
and we don't know. It doesn't say here.
Mh. Then, you know... Yeah. But it is
on hold for a while. I wouldn't wanna
go outside of my own comfort zone for
my partner. I'm gonna get yelled at that
Right. Something goes Right. I mean, that... Yeah.
That's that's gonna,
unfortunately,
yeah. You know, if he's getting angry and
and yelling adam,
that's gonna push people away. Mh. Absolutely. Exactly.
Okay. Next 1.
Okay. K.
Here we go. The a consensual non consent
scene went badly, and I can't reconnect to
my sub self. We have heard this kind
of thing before.
My dominant I have a free use,
Cnc rule when I'm around them, we live
hour and a half away from I live
an hour and a half away from him.
When we do it, he always kisses me
or pulls my nipples or just something to
get me wet. We wanted to try minimizing
that and trying to be a little rough.
I was studying and he told me to
bend over.
I've never done Cnc apart from the gentle
free use I didn't really know what to
expect, but I was sore, and I can
only describe it as
me air quote taking it.
Kinda thought that was normal and what people
really liked about it. I was waiting for
him to come. When it was over, he
had to go back to work and I
had to take my train home and I
didn't think much of it. Until I got
home and I got hit with a huge
sub drop. I never sub drop normally, so
this was bad. I couldn't figure out why
I was feeling badly, It wasn't until I
spoke to him that we realized I didn't
get the after care I needed, and I
should have safe worded. He felt awful, but
neither of us thought about about it. It
didn't help that our schedule did not align
for a few days, but we spent 2
hours on the phone chatting to try a
makeup up for the missing after care about
That happened a week ago, and I'm set
to see him Wednesday for a week. The
thing is I'm into denial. I haven't had
an orgasm in 70 days, and normally, I
would be full on horny and begging to
edge and b all sub. But I've had
0 desire to touch myself and I have
not been horny. I still call Daddy and
complete my normal day to day tasks but
I feel like I can't reconnect to my
submissive part of me. I also have a
porn blog and I have avoided it. I
don't really know what to do to go
back to normal. I asked him to don
me gently when I see him because the
idea of getting to his flat and dressing
at the door is overwhelming me. But I'm
a sub, so I don't know what to
do. I would love to hear, some advice,
if anyone has had a scene go wrong,
and it disconnected them to kin.
I think the last thing they should do
upon seeing 1 another maybe eventually. Yeah. They
should not they should not seen or do
anything I remotely power exchange jeep from... At
the first moment, they see 1 another. Right.
I I think they need to have
a
serious
conversation.
From from the sounds of it,
you know, it it's not like
either 1 of them was
intentionally being
right. You know? It it it's
it more seems like something that happened, it
was just the perfect storm that... And it
was kind of things of. We talk about
this thing,
doing this thing, and then I experienced this
thing and whether it was that moment or
always I don't like that. So. Yeah. Yeah.
Which is gonna happen. Yeah. Always know until
you try...
Exactly.
And, you know, I just like we had
with that 1 time when you had that
panic attack. Mh. K?
You know, yeah. We had to
step back you and I, we had to
sit down and talk,
you know, and and really work through that
before we could mh, find our ground again.
Mh. And I I think that needs to,
you know, be what happens here.
It does not sound like either 1 of
them.
You know, yeah. It it it's Cnc, you
know,
it... It's...
But, you know what, they should have still
talked about it a little bit prior.
Yes. I I think especially for a first
time Yeah. Of doing that kind of scene.
It is I, you know, I get where
people
because people say this all whole time and
I, and I I get it. You know,
like well, I like the head space and
I don't wanna, like,
you know, ruin the the mood or whatever.
I wanna set the tone. Well, that's that's
lovely. And if you can
find a rhythm with a partner that you've
had... Got enough experience with, you... I'm sure
you can get there. Sure people get there
all the time,
with Cnc specifically, I mean, but when you're
gonna go from a of a gentle free
use thing, which sounds a lot like what
you and I do. Yeah. To something purposefully
rough.
I think it yeah. You know,
learn from the moment, I guess and in
the future. Yeah. How how have a conversation
about it.
Even if it's... Maybe it's not like 2
seconds before. It happens with even if it's,
like 15 20 minutes before, like, hey.
Hey, let's try this tonight. What Right What
are you thinking? You know, the other thing
and again, you know, this person
to learn a very probably common lesson the
hard way, and hopefully they remember it for
the future.
So
everybody who plays with Cnc and free use
and all the different versions of it that
there can be. Has their own reasons for
it, their own motivations, what they get out
of it, what they're looking for out of
it.
Whatever
that other person, these other people get from
it does not have to be the same
thing, you get from it. So if this
person was having that experience and was like,
you know, I I didn't... I was just
taking it, and I didn't like it and,
you know, that's what I thought other piece
people light, and I was just kind of
waiting for it to be over waiting for
him to come.
You know, the thing to
decide for yourself and to, I thing to,
like, internalize for yourself is,
if there's nothing about this moment I'm enjoying,
whether it's the excitement, the fear
the powerless, the... I mean, pick a thing.
Right? Yeah. If there's nothing about this that
I'm enjoying, and I am just desperate for
it to be over. And that even desperate
just this isn't even for me any more.
And it's painful,
and and anne
safe for the fuck out of it. Right.
The safe safe words we often talk about
Safe is a bad thing has happened and
it's about to be imminent danger. Sometimes the
safe word is
I don't want
this. Right. I thought I did and I
especially say for it. Especially that they were
trying something
renew for the first time. Mh. Over, you
know,
a big step over and above what they
had been doing. Yes.
Okay? Mh. And and at the same time,
does... It doesn't say in there how long
they've been together. Doesn't...
No. I don't know. I know. M. But,
I mean, you know,
if if it if it's someone that has
played together,
for any amount of time,
you know, on on his side,
he needs to be more aware of visual
cues
Yes. And when in doubt, check. Yeah. Which
I... You know, III
can already hear folks with a very, like,
1 or 2 dimensional view of Cnc.
Then, you don't check in, that's the Cnc.
Once you know you're good to go. Yeah
You know, But maybe not. You wait for
the queues, you... Whatever whatever. Mh. And that
to me, I'm still iffy on. That because
we... Maybe it's because you and I don't
play hard. We're not trying to create some
very taboo scenes with words I would not
even say right. Now. That's... Right? Like, we're
not trying to do.
And quite frankly, if you're not trying to
do that, why wouldn't you check in? Because
there are sexy ways to check it. Sure.
Really there are ways to sound kind of,
like, brood and kind of rough and kind
of right off.
But when it's a first time,
fucking check in. Okay. Because
you know, even even you, we've been together
as long as we have you read my
body language well, 99.9
percent of the time. But there... Yeah. There's
always at 0.1 percent where you might not.
And if we're doing something new,
you were asking me. You were right. You
were doing that check to just sort of
take the temperature of is this working?
Absolutely.
But, you know,
some some people disagree and people think what
they wanna think. No. Safe for it's belong
in Cnc. That's what the fucking Safe. Yeah.
The safe word or the gesture or the
whatever you establish should not be the end
all be all, but that's why you use
a Safe word. So you can say things
like, no. Stop. Don't. Right. Because the safe
word safe word... Supposed to be the deli.
To right.
And
I lost my thought.
Hate it when that happens. Yeah.
I'll say this. To get back to this
person's original question. Mh. Is always set at
the top. I think you come together as
human beings who just genuinely like 1 enough,
there. Yeah. And you don't worry so much
about the power exchange. It doesn't mean that
the power exchange is not there. But, like,
I think in the comments there were saying
that they have sort of a ritual of
when they arrive. Like, they get naked and
they do this then.
Not this time, not until you're both on
firmer or ground until
the submissive is kind of in a head
space. It might not be the exact heads
space you're used to. Right. You might not
be often in the mouth out of horn,
but
there's gonna come point where you feel
a desire or a certain comfort level or
a often I want I want to be
doing the thing we normally do. That's when
you... And you know what? If it only
takes a couple hours to get there great.
If it takes a couple days, That's okay
too. It it... There should not be a
time limit it. You went through something where
it didn't go as planned. You realized later
that you should have safe worded, but in
the moment,
weren't... That wasn't where your head was at.
You didn't get the after care that you
needed,
drop
especially like, if you do something you usually
go through or drop when it comes after
an emotional low instead of that emotional time,
that's a tough 1. Because when we have
the emotional high, it sucks to drop, but
you at least have the memory of all
that was amazing.
But if the member is less than positive.
Like, why would you wanna put yourself in
that again? Like I can see it. So
no, I... You know, now. Yeah. Don't worry
about your routines. Don't worry about
until... You you all need to step back.
Yeah. Yep. And and and
group. And then consider this a hard?
Lesson. Earned lesson. Yeah. Yep. You know, what
will you do better in the future. And
that should... If it hasn't already been, that's
the conversation to have. It. You know? Do
we wanna try this again And if we
do what will we do differently and better
next time. Right? Mh.
Okay. Next 1, This 1 is gone a
long 1 too.
Okay. Dd d g dynamics with age slash
body securities.
Hello all. I'm female in a daddy down
little girl marriage. We are both mid forties.
We've been together 14 years in the lifestyle
for less than 5 years in its current
form. I was dominant prior. The dynamic is
fluid mostly in the bedroom with showing up
occasionally in our marriage, but we do not
have a 24 7 Dd g arrangement.
I am an overweight female, 5 4 and
a hundred and 70 pounds. This is relevant
to the situation.
Recently during play playtime, my feelings were hurt
when my daddy doll was playing with my
very large breasts and talking about how much
he loved my flat chest.
Even though this type of talk has been
occurring for years. In this instant, I felt
sad that my boobs were not loved as
they are. It was fleeting, but re reoccurring
days later.
I talked us out with my daddy Dom,
he was amazing and immediately offered to stop
saying anything that contradicted the reality of my
body. I am thankful. And at the moment
the entire dynamic is on hold while we
talk this out.
After much discussion, he told me that part
of him does wish she could have sex
with someone younger and thinner than me. He
said he also wishes sometimes that I was
smaller and that in particular,
I look big when I'm in doggy style
position. I asked him how much of him
wants that reality, and he said 25
percent.
He said 75 percent of him is happy
in our marriage and with me, but that
other part of him wants everything.
All the sex and freedom basically a porn
star life with porn star level hot girls.
He admits this is immature is that he
would and he never ever would do anything
to be with anyone else and will never
leave me. He has made it clear that
he chooses me and will stay with me
because he loves me.
I suppose I'm now having great difficulty letting
this go, and I'm wondering how I'll ever
feel brave enough to be naked around him
again, let alone be little in my advanced
age. I'm gonna stop here and give side
eye to advanced age. I know. Right?
I feel vulnerable and so very ugly. He
is being. Kind and reassuring me that I'm
not ugly that I am beautiful to him,
but I definitely feel not good enough. I
thankful that he shared with me what he
feels in Desires, but oh, wow. I really
wanted it to just be me.
He will we will definitely be speaking to
our therapist about this. But in the time
I need solid advice from people in the
lifestyle? So here's my question. Can Dd d
dynamics exist as you, quote, age out in
a healthy way. Does anyone older than us
have a success story to give me hope.
Is it time to maybe transition into a
more standard Ds dynamic?
Or are these red flags are signaling trouble
ahead thanks in advance.
I want to hug her. Yeah. First to
think that mid forties is advanced stage. We
we all need to calm down as a
mid forties girl who's struggling with it.
We we technically dependent on how health genetics
lifestyle, but we got 40 more years ahead
of us. That's a long damn time
if we're lucky, knock on, with all the
stuff. Yeah.
Well, heart hurts for her. Yeah.
So here's my first thought. Alright. I think
we had this... We did this episode a
few weeks ago. That not every thought you
think
needs to be communicated. Right. It... Yeah. It
doesn't... Yeah. It doesn't... Like, I I definitely
understand because we've we've had that conversation too
about. I think a thought... I say a
thought because I wanna be able to share
all the different parts of me with you.
Yeah.
But if the parts of me
that I wanna share the thoughts that I
have
could only be hurtful to you, and there's
nothing that can be done about.
She can't be younger. She shouldn't have to
be smaller.
She's got big boobs celebrate the big Tata.
I say, like, the... She can do nothing
to change that. Nor should she have to
Nor should she try if she doesn't want
to? Correct. And yet, he felt compelled That
was the thing she needed to know. I
know. She didn't meet... Those got notion stayed
inside thought some thought Going to be inside.
Yeah. And that's 1 of them. You know,
the the thing that kinda jumped up with
me,
you know, during during the scene where he
was,
you know, kind of
humiliating her. I know. Made me wonder if
they have that as partnered dynamics am. Right.
And and, you know,
we do
our own form of humiliation between you and
I,
but
you're you're you're not and confused Are you?
No. Here's the thing.
She can't un hear any of that.
Unfortunately, no.
No.
You know,
you know, at the same time, there were
certain things that... In the beginning
certain phrases and words that I said,
you know, that were like, oh, no.
Oh no. Don't ever. Please don't say that.
That will not work. Right. You know, And
and and and that type of thing was,
you know, off the table. Right. You know,
and
pretty much know what I can and can't
say it this point. And if I discover
something, I go, by the way. Mh. That.
Mh.
You know, So there there is that
too. Mh.
But, you know, what when he was talking
about... Yeah. You're absolutely right. You know, some
things should never be be set out loud.
And
you know, in in most cases,
fantasy should remain a fantasy. And that's the
thing. He was describing a fan a scene.
Yeah. But he set it out loud, put
it in her
mind, so it gets to live in her
memory hold now. And it you know, I...
I'm not saying that it can't be overcome.
I, you know, maybe with the right therapy,
maybe with enough time between them,
you know, she might get to a point
where she feels more secure because what I
would love for anybody and everybody is for
you to feel secure
in yourself regardless of what the people around
you think. Mean, that's the ideal. I haven't
achieved it yet either. It's just an ideal.
But she's does not have that. The the
person she's been with for what, 14 years.
Yeah. That she has this vulnerable
relationship with Power exchange is vulnerable.
Who... He's supposed... The base
from what it sounds like the way they
do their sex life and their power change
in the bedroom,
like, it's not... It sounds like it's sort
of supposed to be a, yeah. Common your
body, but I'm I'm
giving it all this attention and affection and
pleasure and whatever they do. And she gets
to kind of feel little and go into
space, and I don't wanna speak for this
person, and I can't speak for everybody, but
let me tell you
personally how hard I struggled with the idea
of even though I don't consider myself a
a quote, true little,
baby girls to me are on that spectrum
of what it means to be a little.
Mh. And the thing I struggled with that
first was, but I am not physically
little? I'm also... Was not physically young, and
so can I be, quote, a little
and if this person has any remnant of
that in their mind in their insecurities
to then be told by the person
who was supposed to
be the person they could trust above all?
The person who, by all accounts should desire
them above all that does not mean can't
be fantasies and, like, of course. Like, that's
not what I'm saying.
To be then told that you're kinda big
in this position, like, look, here's the thing.
They're in a big girl out there who's
not kind of aware of what they
big person. We let's Gender. Who's not a
little bit aware of what they probably look
like, I personally don't like to fuck around
in front of Mirrors because I don't want
the vision. Right? I don't have that much
security at within myself to do that. Other
people do doing, and that's great.
And I just... Like, I think that's why
I feel this 1 so deeply because if
you were to say, I looked on big
in Dogg. First of all, I know. Okay.
I have seen this ass bit over
Unaware.
But then that... I get it. That's that's
all I would be thinking were thinking. I
don't know. Even though there's a better than
good chance that you would
you would, you know, you would not think
that every time. You would think positive things
about me.
I'm
the the fantasy thing that he would have.
I believe that, yes, we should be able
to share our fantasies with our partners. Even
if you're fully mono and there's never gonna
be in.
We... You know, there's
I think that it should be okay if
both partners consent to hearing fantasies just to
to share fantasies. But it's not the either
to detriment of the... Dirt not not to
be derogatory to the partner. Yeah. Yeah. Absolutely.
So
The thing is,
you know, first of all, I'm gonna say
the the fact that 1 of the her
first questions was can d did d Lg
dynamics exist as you age out in a
healthy way. That speaks to another insecurity that
maybe is not really being brought up here
because
Little is a state of mind. It's not
about your age
body size. It's just about how you feel
an interact. And that with a
2.
Alright. They they are doing, you know,
in it... They were... They were in a
Dd g dynamic.
And maybe it's not right for them. Right.
Just like we were in a, you know,
a a ser
here's the thing. It sounds like it's right
for her. It is what she wants? Yeah.
But can she see her
husband as her daddy dom anymore
Look,
I'm gonna... This might sound harsh to somebody
somebody's not gonna like it. I don't I
don't think I give a fuck.
So all dominance have a sense... Have... Have...
Should have responsibility to their submissive partners? Yes.
Yes. It does.
To me,
I think the caregiver
dominant.
There needs to be some care given not
that other dominance shouldn't, but there's this inherent,
like, un there's... We... There's a... It's understood
that there's supposed to be some kind of
nurturing. Yeah. Some kind of, like...
It's
I don't like to use the word softer
because you're a sadistic bastard and a Daddy
dom, but there's just this...
It's not a... It it's supposed to be
about
on some level, taking care of your little.
Like, whatever that means and whatever that looks
like the...
That was not taking care of her. Not
at mean wet Not at all. Is he
a daddy Dah? Is that what worked for
now is she? Right.
You know, it it's different like, I'm sure
it's harder. If they're married, and they wanna
stay married in their mono,
then if he's not a daddy dump, but
she's a little...
Yeah. How do you thread that needle? I
don't know. I don't know.
But I mean, before anybody's fucking around, I
would have to get right with my insecurity.
Said. Now 1 thing, I, you know, at
the end, you're talking about,
they are gonna talk about this with their
with their... Which are love.
Which I think is fantastic. Mh. My 1
hope is at their therapist or therapist where
they meet together or separately,
which are can wear. Yes. Oh my god.
God. Because
what has happened
is is so wound up
in their dynamic.
That needs to be addressed. Right.
Right. Because now there's a... There's not just
her own insecurities that she's I'm just stare
at.
That we're probably there, but, you know what?
It... When you think that your partner find
you attractive
adore you whatever or whatever,
is easy over time, especially to not think
about your insecurities. I... I mean,
truly, most of the time I could tell
you will the Straight face look and the
eye go. I'm not that insecure and until
something happens ago. Oh my god, I'm so
insecure.
Because you get into the state of being
in this back and forth and, you know,
you know how each other is.
The words are not coming properly, But you
know what I mean. Like, yeah. The comfort
of being with a partner who's pretty like,
stable and and
consistent.
You can forget there in insecurities something reminds
you of them. So I can't help but
wonder if that was it. She was... Was
comfortable and Was like, okay, We're in this
together and now
she can't get... It all burns out of
her head. Yeah.
And and it kills him because 1 of
her questions is am I am I too
old to be a little now you not
No That. If that is authentic to you
and how you want to experience mission and
that's that's the head space you get into,
and that's who you are slash want to
be. Then that is Valid. Don't cute your.
You could be 80 and still have a
little side if you want. I... If I
don't have a playful,
na sassy baby girl side to me in
my nineties. I'm a be pissed.
Okay? I'm gonna need to speak... I'm gonna
go karen. I'm gonna need to speak to
a manager what the fuck happened.
Yeah. I hopefully intend to be the little
old lady who has truly 0 Fucks and
just says whatever, like, whatever.
Yeah, I mean, that's the part that that
breaks
my heart, you know, you don't have to
quote transition. What a standard Ds... I mean,
I get what they what somebody many means
and they say standard ds. Mh. But none
of it is supposed to be standard. Supposed
to be whatever works for the 2 people
involved. Right. This dude has so I'm like,
serious.
I hate to say it, and somebody's he's
gonna be mad me. I don't give a
fuck. You better grove.
You better be true. You better spend all
your time begging her up.
And, you know...
And and we prepare for her not to
believe fucking word you said? They would say,
at 1 I've got some serious back pedal...
Oh. Okay. The the the not kind part
of myself. Mh.
When I was hearing what he was describing
what he wish she could have. Yeah. And
here's the thing. It's okay to wish you
could have Those things it's okay to there's
this fantasies. It's okay to go god. That
would be amazing.
I'm not. I'm not,
like, fault him for having the thoughts. Place
should have been inside thoughts about. All I
could think was,
is he 1 of those men
that wants that that pardon me, this is
a very ugly thing to think about another
human being, could never have fucking had in
the first place.
How many of those people have we come
across are like, oh, I want the Porn
star sex life. Now. First of all, port
us acting. Y'all that's right. That's how staged
and step up. The sex is real, but
like, come on,
you're not gonna have that kind of sex.
You could not handle it, you'd be exhausted,
and you'd probably very sticky by the time
of was I.
But like, the
this is the un kind part of me
that's a bitch, and I know I'm a
bitch.
The people who tend to be the most
vocal about. This is what I wish I
had, are the people who could never get
that in a hundred years. Not just for
lux.
Personality is usually most of it, but
I mean, part we would like to see
a a picture of him and does he
look big and Doggy style position?
Does he still look like he did in
his twenties?
Fuck? It's... I know.
That's a stereotype of say, would like to
hear that from are the people who couldn't
have gotten in any way. Yeah. Which is
why it's a fantasy and let it live
in your fucking head and let it be
with you jack off to and, like, how
much a time and god dave. I have
those fantasy.
I know what this body looks like though,
and I know what this person is, and
that's why I could not could not have
that. But come on.
And now
in the name of being honest?
Yeah. She's
traumatized.
And is quest thing like, if she's even
allowed to be a little, like
I know.
And, you know, whether they're red red flags
that signal trouble ahead. I honestly don't know.
Like, yeah. The the part of me that
wants to give the benefit of the doubt
is this person thought that
clear open
communication met Word Vomit.
I mean, meant to give no critical thinking
to what you were gonna tell a person.
Yeah. That's the part that I want to
believe because
when she finally brought up, hey, please. Don't
talk about my big old boobs like they're
not there. Mh. He was like, I will
not talk about your body in a way
is not actually pure... That's pretty mature. Like
that's... I I would not expect that from,
you know, a lot of people to be
able to go oak. Okay. Yeah. We're not
commenting on your body in that way. Cool
Cool.
But then why couldn't you been,
like, something enough, pick a word to go,
you know? Why would I tell a person
about this when there's nothing and then to
quantify it.
Well, 75
percent of me. What does that even mean?
What does that even mean? And how does
somebody get that out of their head? Therapy
thank God, they have therapist because I would
not have the right words to to tell
somebody how to get over that? No. I
would be crushed. I would be crushed.
Yeah. That 1 hurt my heart.
That wanna hurt my heart. Oh, god. Hot.
Robert I pointed out. I didn't think I
was gonna rant. Not now I'm hot and
sweaty off. Mh. Hot and sweaty.
Okay. Last 1. Alright.
Advice needed.
Excuse me. Just needing some advice as I
think I'm just overthinking this.
So I've been with my Dom a few
months now, known each other for, like, 3
years. 1 of our rules, quote, real life
comes first.
And obviously, it does. We have separate spouses
and children, yes, the spouses no. But now
I'm overthinking does he think our dynamic is
not real does he think it's all just
fantasy. Am I just reading into it a
bit too much as he has been busy,
and I miss him. We're exclusive to each
other not talking slash playing with any other
sub dom. We've both voiced we have feelings,
huge respect for each other and care about
each other a lot, but am I just
wasting my time.
Even before we start our dynamic, I knew
it would happen eventually. It was a case
of write dom wrong time, and it eventually
was the right time and I am over
the moon.
Obviously, I will discuss this with him. Good
because that's the first thing. Please go on
a conversation. But this idea that if real
life has to intervene that somehow dynamic isn't
real. If that's an insecurity. That's an insecurity
on their part of True true. Wait. Does
this mean, I'm not as in... You know,
my
making something bigger and more important in my
head than it is... Like, that's the thing
they got gotta talk about their partner. But
this idea that because real life will absolutely
fucking intervene real life That means that Ds
is not real.
And I think it maybe it's pore phrasing,
vanilla life,
well, I mean, I don't know. We we
all know and and most everybody out there
in
you know, our our audience. They they understand,
you know,
life happens. Right. And and and sometimes,
you know, yes, you need to to step
back And does it make it any less
real absolutely not not my mind. You know,
it it's still there,
you know, even though we have... We may
have to step back sometimes in various reasons
whether you know,
illness or or or no family, something going
on.
I'll come back to the same place? Right.
Are the feeling still there? Do you still
want the role is does it still feel
like who you are and whenever you define
that.
If this thing was not interrupting your plans,
would you be doing the thing you've been
doing? As long as all of that holds
true. Mh. It's it's real. It is absolutely
an insecurity
their part. Yes. And I I do get
it. You know, It's hard to be a
little bit long distance,
not a primary partner I don't know if
they use that language, but the time you
and I kind of look at it. You
know, that that can lead to insecurities and,
you know,
right. Is is this 1 side that,
you know? And, you know, that that's something,
you know, as 1 side in in in
that way.
There's only 1 way she's gonna find out.
Right. She she's gonna have to ask them.
You know, And they're
they're...
Ever since the the the internet has, you
know, come
upon us,
you know, there there are people
who are of 2 camps.
You know?
Nothing we do,
not no interaction we have on the Internet
is real.
Yep.
Okay?
And, you know, then there's the others that
say, you know, no, you know,
even though it may not be physical, we're
emotionally you know, putting ourselves out there. So
this to me is real.
Right. It's it's a perspective right section thing.
Well, that's the other thing. I and I
think it might have been in the comments
on this 1 it was something else, and
I saw somebody,
try to get into the semantics. Mh. That
in their view, that all power exchanges just
role play. Sophisticated a role play, but role
play. And I can see that argument because
you and I have absolutely had to go
at and put a halt on the power
exchange in order to deal with things in
life. The thing is though,
when it's not the most extreme
situation. Mh. And when things are mostly clicking
along,
1,
we live our life as Dom sub. This
is not... We do not... It's not a
hat we put on and take off. Is
only on the most extreme situations where... And
for us, it just means you don't get
to be the... Cider. That doesn't mean you
stopped being a Daddy dump, and it doesn't
mean I stop being submissive. Right. For us,
submission and dominance is part of who are.
It is baked into who we are. So
I tend to get really insulted when somebody
likes to refer to it as role play
in in all forms. Like, for some people
it is role play. Some people will feel
like we do and still call... That's fine.
But for me, like, it pisses me off
because I'm like, look,
he could tell me tomorrow
that he's not gonna tell me what to
do and follow with my tasks, but guess
what. I'm gonna come to him
every fucking chance I get and go, what
do you think? I'm gonna do shit for
you.
Mean, hopefully with your consent. Mh. Because that's
part of who I am. I'm going to
defer to you when I can't. You could
take the words away. You can call something
else for all. I'd give a fuck. I'm
still gonna do those things because that is
a part of who I am. The problem
I have before was I was doing it
for the wrong with the motherfuckers.
And now I do it for the bright
motherfucker. I mean, you are literally motherfucker in
the saying because I'm a mom. Anyway.
If we wanna play fucking Semantics. Anyway. Yeah.
So
when people start telling me about real life
interfering Yeah. Yes. You and I firmly believe
that? Oh yeah, most of this podcast is
based on that. But also,
if
you identify with
some point your role in power exchange as
a core part of who you are, like
it's part of your identity, that doesn't just
stop because the actions
stop. Right. Right? Like, yes, real air quote
real life. We'll absolutely fuck up all of
our plans for a scene, all of our
plants really. Like, deeper power exchange,
what, we lived a 3 or 4 year,
stressful life, and it was only because we
would sometimes go you're at Daddy dumb, and
I'm your baby girl. Right? Right? We're still
in this. Right? Like, we never really got
to feel it as much as we wanted
to. Didn't mean it wasn't fucking there. It
didn't mean we didn't want it. It didn't
mean it wasn't real.
And that it it was may have been
tempered a little bit. But, yeah, It was
still there. Do we get to live it
to an ex an extreme is a bad
word with Yeah. The only when come it's
fullest. To its fullest, the way we'd like
not right now. No
right now. Nope. But that doesn't mean we
haven't before and we won't again in the
future. And what fullest air quote that means
will change depending on what's going on in
life. Yeah. For the fullest for us when
the boys were younger,
was not the fullest it will mean when
these o's are living somewhere else and
paying their damn ramp. Right? Like that, us
different points of life that's different experiences. Mh.
And while I'm not ready for my youngest
to fully grow up yet.
I'm looking forward to that time in the
future feedback. Right? Sure. Because that... Then we
redefine what power change looks like for us.
We... At that point, we totally redefine our
lives to whatever. God. I can't even imagine.
Right?
I'm not ready for that crazy today.
Not ready for it. So,
yes. Ultimately, I think this person's issue is
an insecurity
something's been going on, maybe... Mh. Maybe there's
been a lack of communication somewhere, maybe the
expectations time of been managed when there is
maybe some radio silence because real life interfered.
Sure. But I think that worrying about is
this, you know, when you have to pause
for a life, does that mean that what
we have this somehow not real
is a little bit of a stereotype from
people who
dismiss all power changes only and always role
play.
Yeah, for some people it is Mh. In
some context,
semantic, I can make... I can see the
argument.
But when somebody is telling you that this
is their life they're living.
You the, you know, anonymous you from the
outside, don't get to come in and go.
Just fucking role play. Anyway. Fuck you. I'm
motherfucker. Like, just
and.
Yeah.
Yeah what even his real. It's all a
goddamn simulation. Okay?
Timeline started getting a little bit better in
the past few days, but still I could
use a different
dimension and timeline.
And come on.
And what even is real? Just
I don't know.
Anyway.
I'm glad that they ended on line. Obviously,
it will discuss this. Yes. Yep. But yeah.
Because it definitely needs to be. And, yes,
let us all be realistic that whatever... However,
we're gonna define real life as in
the life that is separate and apart from
our power exchange, and our power exchange cannot
function within that thing happening. Like, for us,
it's things with the kids. If there's some
emergency with a child, who
I'm not
deferring to Jb on hardly anything. Like, I
would... Like, my natural tendency is, but as
their
mother who is only human being that can
legally sign anything and has full rights to,
like, whatever whatever...
That's limited now that the oldest is the
oldest, you know, An adult, but whatever. Like,
No. There's no there's no different deferring. There's
there's working together. There's there's a word for
the again Know what it is.
But we're gonna work together. Right. On an
equal footing now. Does that mean there's an
emergency of the kid. We are on equal
footing. Right? That's the real life.
We walk out of that emergency for a
5 minute breather. He now not my daddy,
and I'm not leaning on him and go
oh my god. Oh my god. Right.
Hell, yeah.
Yeah.
So I... It's all very Nuanced and it's
not. Just this... I think for some of
us, many of us? I don't know. We
don't just shut it off like a valve.
Like, it's not just a spin and a
water of turned off. It's say, okay. It's
only a little trickle right now. The only
reason that I... Would call myself power just
because I know who Am. I know who
you are. I know who we are together.
But in this specific moment,
you're not in charge. I'm not in charge.
We'd we doing this again.
So anyway.
I don't...
I'm sure that's being read as a rant.
I don't
feel rant,
but my blood pressure did go up and
I'm hot and sweaty now. So
so I guess it counts.
No. It counts.
Okay. So... Excuse me. You have the hang
over there.
That was the last 1.
From Reddit so we can can do
a Bonus section.
Okay.
So
are we good? I don't know. That's not
for me to say.
Cute kinky all. And we'll see you y'all
in a couple of weeks.
Yes. Baby girl. Can we talk to the
crooked? Yes.
Did I free say y'all at the end
of my own fucking tagline. Yes, I did.
Yes. I did. Yes. I did. What wasn't
is there something else? I don't think it
was what we recording earlier I forgot... Oh,
no.
Podcast listeners who are listening this sometime Fridays.
Saturday already wanna re listen, you will have
heard.
I was doing the podcast intro day, and
not to the part of the handle I
fuck fucking hate and almost gloss right the
fuck over it. When was I reminded that
that's the handle life fucking hate, the moment
I had to try and say the damn
handle.
So and just happening. It's just happening. It's
all off the rails. Yeah.
Yeah.
Even though we're
working sort of double time to be able
to take next week off in genuinely take
it off, which that was the mistake we
made in June. Deal.
Genuinely taking that 1. No. We didn't.
I'm not like, overly
stressed. I'm not
you know, I'm just like,
yeah. It's extra work, but I'm kinda looking
forward to it. You know, I'm looking forward
to... The weekend we're better at this than
Monday through Friday, I'm looking forward to whatever
day where I feel like I would normally
work waking up and going, I technically don't
have to do a goddamn damn thing
hey. I'm just gonna go rot on the
couch. You know,
I'm gonna
read some books. So let's maybe watch some
out outlandish let's... I don't know. I don't
know. Drink coffee all day long. Mh. And
then stare at the ceiling
wired at been. It'll be fine. Right. Right.
So
I just...
Now I could... I I can... I'm better
detecting when Burnout was trying to creep in,
and I am much more protective of my
own mental health that there are things life.
I not only just don't wanna burn out.
I we can't afford it. I know. I
know we can't. I know. That's what happens
when you make your passion, your livelihood
and
most of your livelihood
around a couple of things that you have
to do or they don't exist
the downside side. So we're constantly trying to
strike the balance. And, yeah, if we had
really taken that full week off, like we
were supposed to.
I think we'd would be fine. I think
Yeah. We we wouldn't... It wouldn't have been
a big deal, but
we did not. Nope.
And here we are. Yep.
But know. You. Like, we've... We're talking the
other day, and I said,
said, I looked at Jb went. I know
that a shout out. You are we are
disconnected right now. In a way, I hate.
Mh. I said, and I know in a
lot of ways and for a lot of
reasons, I said, but I also know that
neither of us has the bandwidth right now
to figure out what the fuck is going
on between us. And, really, I don't think
it's anything between us. I think it's the
creeping burnout where we're just
You know, there's nothing new going on. There's
nothing drastic. It's just...
But we also talked about that this feels
like this and I am
got a
awful memory. So
this could be inaccurate, but it feels like
we go through something
funky every summer.
Is it the heat? I don't know.
I don't know. I don't know.
But
Ta, That's a that's a pretty cool idea.
Did you said just a thought, Podcast has
3 weeks a month, and post a previous
classic on the fourth week rubric break.
Maybe I I have been meaning to figure
out how I could post old
Mh.
Episodes.
In a in a seamless easy to do
way, not in a way that I've gotta
go, like, we'll do something difficult.
I don't know.
We can think about it. We have.
We
we've got... We've been
floating a lot of fun. We've we've got
a few things We've been n
right now and and, you know,
these are things looking forward going into next
year, but still Yeah. Because once we get
through
July, which is almost over. Yeah. And then
really to about mid August, we sort of
start our speed to the end of the
year, and we... For as busy as we
get, we are joyous. I think
yeah.
We're exhausted, but we're, like, pumped at the
end of the year.
So we just... We gotta get through this.
I don't know. Isn't
the weather. Like, I know I'm burning up
hot
here tonight. Even even tonight after was sun's
down. Yeah. I know.
So I know. But...
So updates,
Lola went to the vet this... Week. Yes.
Scott... We had this... We... She was so
far behind. That visits we've split up all
of her care.
Mostly to to not overwhelm us
financially, but not to overwhelm her either.
So
this was sort of a follow up, get
a couple of
shots she needed, and then to check and
see all she'd been doing from the previous
visit,
she lost a whole pan. Yep.
She hated being at that fucking Vets.
Oh, my god. We asked them to clip
her nails for us while we were there
instead of, like, go into the... The groom
down the street from us of her 5
bucks, but man, we got wrangler her into
the car Yeah she hates going in because
she smells the water and but she remembers
the the bad mean place where they put
soap on and we're like.
The vet so let's just have it done
here and be down with it. I I
think she was too wasn't up. She she's
pissed. As as it was, and, yeah, she
just wasn't having it. Too was pissed. I
mean, she showed her to... She did not
g. She not bark she not lunch, but
she More of a
more of a grim that Yeah. But it's
her teeth. There's she kinda doesn't... The the
tech was trying to clip her nails. Yeah.
We got 75 percent of the nails clipped.
Right.
She did this thing. She
she too is a girl who believes in
clear communication. We're sitting in the little
exam room. Right? Waiting. And we have her
on the leash where we do not take
her off the leash because
who knows what happened.
She walks primarily from Jb, but sometimes for
me, but she would go from Jb
to the door that we came in from
the door She knows is exit. But her
nose to the door, stand there. Look at
us. Go back. Look at us. Go back.
Go walk back to Jimmy. Look at him?
With big eyes. Yeah. Go... I mean, as
she paced. Back of forth. Like, do you
see... When I'm trying to explain to you
people. Right? That's the door and we need
to go
it was an hour.
To yeah. It it was a long visit,
but... She got... So normally, what we do
for...
Yes. We're trying to help her lose weight
and also, yes, we give her treats. What
of it?
I believe in bribery. That's how we get
shit done around here.
Normally, it's like we go through Dunkin and
we get her some, like, little munch or
we go through with ben minute, it will
go to Starbucks and get a pop cup.
And I went, let's do something different this
not, like a gigantic cup full of whipped
cream. It's like, let's get her hamburger patties.
She forgave us everything. Oh after those amber
repair.
We owe. Yep. Yeah.
She
she might be more inclined than cor.
Keep giving her amber.
Oh, god.
But, you know, you were pretty convinced she
was gonna ignore you after that, and she
really didn't. No. She didn't. And,
I I really expected that after
you know, all the stress of the day,
yesterday between being at the bet the way
she was so wound up, You know, she
did get
a shot. Yeah.
It didn't seem to affect her of the.
No. It didn't. And, you know, they did
tell tell us that, you know, she may
be a little
you know, low keyed, low energy
after the shot,
and I was kinda thinking, oh, well, I,
you know, it might give me a break
from having to walker her tonight. Oh, no.
She wanted her walk last night. You keep
trying to get breaks from walking, whether that's
with me or with your dog, and neither
of us happening. No. Now. We're not letting
you get away with that. Not none all
were
mh. Cutting me some stuff Look, Blow says
her evening walks are good for her mental
health. And I'm over here, like, the morning
walks are good for mine. Let's not fuck
this up.
Oh,
she loves bananas. Yeah. Dan funny. Bananas are
great for Mh treat.
You know, she can be
somewhere in house. She will hear a banana
being peeled a mile away and come running.
What I really need to do
is get some watermelon
because yeah I'll do some sketchy shift. Over.
Yes. You will. And the thing... So here's
the thing. I am clearly
old,
and
have bought too many, like,
locally grown watermelon in my lifetime. Every time
I at the price of watermelon even now
in season. I'm like, that's more than I
used to pay. I'm not and the price
for watermelon.
I'm gonna have to get the fuck over
and if I want watermelon again, but I
just I haven't been able to make myself
Hang. Know.
But, no. We've we've
but I really should because she really.
We've... We... We've gotten really
strict with her food
and her treats. I mean, yes, she got
2 burger patties yesterday, but her
dinner was
different to compensate. The adjusted to compensate
for that,
you know, her treats right now
are
carrots, apples.
Bananas.
Yeah. The only thing she gets us considered
treat like.
She's taking a bunch of pills right now.
So those go in pill? Mh.
Because we could not afford the amount of
bread slash cheese. We have to divide be
able to give her damn pill.
But that... Like, her antibiotic that she had
an infection we didn't know about. They did
her blood work last Month. They're like, oh,
she has an infection here this
his this antibiotic that's a hundred dollars. I
was like fuck. Yeah. I've been very spoiled
antibiotics. I usually have to take for, like
6. I don't. You.
But it was 28 days and it was
3 and a half pills at a time.
Think holy me shit. So it was like
so once we get to stop doing that,
then we're back to, like, a lot fewer
on the pill potty. Yeah think. Yeah. But,
yeah. She's... She
has forgiven us the vet appointment. She's got
a lot of her
energy back just in general. Oh, yeah.
There are definitely pre,
recording and streaming Zoom is going on around
here again. Yeah. She's
She's she's playing, you know, if she's back
to doing the whole tug war thing again.
Mh. Mh.
So
the cats are still as, yeah. Have always
been. Oh, yeah.
We've got a an outdoor not technically a
stray, but definitely an outdoor cat who
can decide if they like us or not.
It's 1 we've seen around
for a while,
when we left this morning to take our
walk.
And we have this little we have this
little table, like a card table kind thing,
set up outside our front door
because of the amount of packages I leave
out for our
male carrier pick up from us, which is
a wonderful problem to have, but I was
like, I... They were constantly haven't would've have
been down. I was like, let's just do
this whole table here. Well, when there's no
boxes there herbs, you know, shipments be picked
up. There's this cat that's just sitting there.
Yep. Now this morning, they were sitting there,
I think because the difference Sprinkler systems are
going. Wrong. I'm trying stay dry.
And for once, this cat wanted was okay
with me betting it. And really didn't have
any use for Jb. 1 like to do
with me.
Okay. This is what it it feels like
to be special to a cat. Okay.
Okay.
So Yeah. But, yeah, I mean, yeah.
No. These...
They're
you know, K asked another another chat. No.
No.
These these cats are actually... They belong
to the people next door, they're well taken
care of, but they're outdoor cab. But they're
they're they're... I think they're actually indoor outdoor.
But no collar? No Not. No. Which I
know, like, our neighbor to the other side
of us.
She tried to keep collars on her
outdoor counts.
And they could couldn't keep it off. File.
What fuck it. Yeah.
But, no. They're... They they aren't... They belong
next door, and they are taken care of.
Part of, I think they come over and
hang out with us because we have so
much shade in our front yard and true.
True. And and we have the little bird
bath in the front. But these are also
at least 1 of the cats from next
door, we have caught up on the roof
of the neighbor's house. Yeah. Just sitting like
j the turtle,
Overlooking
their domain. The neighbor on the other side
of us has an orange cat named koi
who I want him to love us. He
0 fucks together well just weird. He... We
nope. He's not a people. He's is not
people person. He are not his people... We
will never be his people.
He gets on her house.
I'm like, well, do we have cats on
our house? Right?
Right.
Waiting.
So... Yeah. But I mean, other than that,
oops yeah. I mean, we've just been keeping
on keeping on. Mh.
Mh. Know.
Yeah.
So it's been relatively quiet, which I will
take down any damn day. Mh. The week.
It's just been busy. It's been hot. It's
been... Elizabeth.
But yeah. Just the nature Of I think
it's raining right now, actually.
I won't be mad about that And things
down.
So
I guess that's it. Yeah. For us,
there will be... If you are on our
email list, you'll get an a newsletter on
Friday
there'll be the Monday podcast next Monday, but
then that would be kinda quiet. If you
see... Quote See us online is because I
scheduled it. Y'all.
We are going to do our absolute damned
to just sit on our couch. Yeah. And
nothing else. That's that's the plan. We shall
see when the universe
door.
Yep.
So I guess we'll go. Mh. And we
will talk to you y'all soon ish. U.
Okay. Okay. Bye. Bye.