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- You are listening to
the loving BDSM podcast,

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episode 3 92.

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Okay. The Lord's here are the
one, the only, the so tired

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and so not caffeinated
enough. John Brownstone.

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- Yeah. There's, there's not
enough coffee today to, uh,

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- No.

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This will not be a day where I go, oh, no,

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it's too late in the day for me

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to have caffeine, <laugh>, <laugh>.

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It's also not a day where
I'll go, why am I so jittery?

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Could it be the caffeine? I'll be like,

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give me the freaking jitters.

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I, I need to move somehow. Right?

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Even if it's uncontrollably.
Now, that's probably not good.

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I shouldn't joke.
Anyway, we're, we're not.

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We will, we, in this episode
probably complain about

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how tired we are and talk about why.

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Yes, yes. <laugh>.

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So I can't say that's
not what we're here for,

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because this week we picked
this before we were this tired.

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But it's just a bonus section episode.

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It's just a chitty chat kind of thing.

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I do need to talk slash
rant about a book I read

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that has like, got me in
a damn choke hold <laugh>.

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Um, it's, it's a, it's kinky.
It's meant to be kinky.

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And I have so many fucking thoughts.

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Um, I, I need, I need to share <laugh>.

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Um, but for anybody who's
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for topics, I'm here to learn something.

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I'm here to like, to think
about a specific kink thing.

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Uh, if bonus sections aren't your

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jam, you could skip this one.

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Our feelings are not hurt.

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Um, consent is the most important thing,

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and we should be back

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to a normal topic kind of thing next week.

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Do, do we know what it is yet? No. No, no.

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We don't. But we're

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- Too damn tired right
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But this week of all weeks,
today of all days, focusing

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on a topic with the intent to inform

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and educate was just not possible.

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No. So we weren't even
gonna fucking try. Mm-Hmm.

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Uh, all that being said, welcome

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to the loving BDSF
podcast, <laugh> <laugh>.

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If this is your first time
listening, glad to have you.

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And yes and no.

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It's both always like this
and not always like this.

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You're back for another
week. Welcome back.

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Loving BDSM is produced every Monday

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and Friday for your kinky
pleasure in education.

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And show notes are found@lovingbdsm.net.

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I will forever fucking hate

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I'll links during the show notes.

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A big thanks as always to our
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Yes. Uh, if you'd like to
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That's patreon.com/kayla lords.

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Or use the link in the show notes. And

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- Is that the big one or the little one?

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- The little
- One. Oh, he's finally, uh,

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- Yeah, he's his.

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Yeah. His sleep is so ha
Okay. Hold wonky. Sorry.

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Podcast listeners who can't
see what the hell's happening.

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- You're better off.
It's a hot mess today.

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It is such a hot mess today.

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- Everything. I am a literal
and figurative hot mess.

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- Yeah. Okay. And I'm just
a hot mess by circumstance.

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- Yeah. Okay. So let's, I did have a tech,

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technically a couple of announcements.

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Okay. Trying to pretend that we know

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what we're doing around here, <laugh>.

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But because I don't trust this
very tired brain of mine. Mm.

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I'm gonna look at 'em.
It's, they're real simple.

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You'd think I'd remember. Don't
believe that for a second.

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Okay. So the dom sub
dynamics virtual summit was,

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I can't tell time, but I
think that was last week.

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It was April 8th through 11th.
I believe that was last week.

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- Yes,
- It's over. Yes, it's done.

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But if you missed it

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and have a budget for it,

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you can purchase replays of the sessions.

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You don't get access to any of
the bonuses as far as I know.

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But you can pay to actually
watch all the sessions.

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Um, and then I don't think you're not on

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that 24 hour time limit

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that you would've been last week either.

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So if you have any interest, feel free.

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The link is in the places.
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I understand. If not, hopefully
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and we can do this all again.

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Um, and then the other
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if I counted correctly, 'cause
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'cause why would I do that is April 19th,

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and that is our Friday night live stream.

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We do it on the third Friday of the month.

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As often as like every
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We try for it to be on the
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'cause we just, like,
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Eastern often.

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Most of the time we last until midnight.

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time, but you never know.

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<laugh>. Um, you're feeling
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over here today, so I don't
wanna make any promises.

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Um, but I'm sure we will,
we hang out and chitchat.

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we also start a q and A.

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So you can a and you know, you can queue

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and we will a, I mean, you
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But hopefully when YouTube is
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to subscribe to our YouTube channel.

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And Daddy says, turn on the notifications.

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But I know the notifications
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but you just do what Daddy says.

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That's just my philosophy in life.

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I mean, until I have questions

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and then I will do what Daddy says.

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But first <laugh>, I have some questions.

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I mean, a fully informed,

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enthusiastic consent is what we'd like.

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So Sure. I have questions.
Not about that though. Mm-Hmm.

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a bonus section episode I do have.

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And you have, we have kink
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<affirmative> one, they do
not follow under a full topic.

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Two, they could not take
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of us consider a full episode.

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I know there's somebody out
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they made it to just
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That's real short for them. Hallelujah.

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But, uh, some of y'all are
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that you are creatures
of habit and routine.

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why is this not an hour

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and 15 minutes, an hour and 20 minutes?

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What has happened? Um, so

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- Hash browns.

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- Oh God, I'm hungry. We
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We got stuff. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

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Um, I don't know how long we'll go.

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Uh, we have not made any plans
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Like, no, normally there would be editing

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and there would be maybe doing
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- Won't be happening today.

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Yeah. We might be laying down after this.

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- If I, if after this I
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of the covers of my bed

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with one ceiling fan full
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and my fan off to the side of
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and maybe stop being so
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- You'd be happy, wouldn't
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- Uh, I'm my, I'm starting,
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cool off a little bit.

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Like, not a lot, but a little bit.

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- <laugh>,
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- And, and I, I just have to say,

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and I, I like the song Jennifer Juniper.

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- What, what, what that was,

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I mean, I see it in the live chat.

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- What's Donovan? Oh

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Okay. Am I too young? Yeah. No.

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I know the name Donovan,
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- Um, sunshine Superman.

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- Why do you think, is
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- No. Maybe a melody.
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But, and the name
Donovan. Sounds familiar.

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What era of music are we talking about

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and what genre? Sixties

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- Oh God, no. Yeah. I would've
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<laugh>, but no, no.

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Sixties folk music was not, no.

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I listened like all, you know,
trapped children in a car

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with their parents before me.

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I listened to my parents' music

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and my mother listened to like
top 40 pop kind of situation.

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My dad listened to the
music of his teenage years,

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twenties, fifties, and
sixties was his preference.

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'cause he was born in 41.

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So we were not listening to
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Um, and that was all like,
it was the classic station.

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It was the oldie station.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

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So it was like top 40 pop stuff too.

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Um, and every once in a while
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there, but it was only the one that like,

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somehow made it onto the
radio <laugh> Mm-Hmm.

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<affirmative> in that, the
time it came out. So, no, no.

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I was in college when

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a transfer student who woo,

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she'd been hopping from
college to college for a while.

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So she was in her mid twenties

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and she was a junior, which was fine.

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People get through it, the
way they get through it.

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She ended up transferring

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and being in the dorm room, I shared

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with people I ended up

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being roommates with for a couple years.

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Um, and she's the one that
introduced me to James Taylor.

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Ah. That is also when I learned.

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I, I, that's, that type of
music is not my preference.

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<laugh>. But yeah, I saw him
in concert. Of course you did.

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Of course you did. Of course you did.

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So yeah.

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Where did, oh, it's 'cause you saw that.

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I was like, how did we get
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You know what, you know what?

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On the Friday night Live streams

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and these, I went back,
I went back through our,

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our previous episodes.

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And we don't do these very often,

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but every few months we'll

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do one of these random kind of things.

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I feel less bad about being chaotic

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because the point is
to be chaotic <laugh>.

242
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And since I try to warn y'all
what you're getting into

243
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before the episode starts,
I feel like anybody

244
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who is still here has agreed to be here.

245
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And except the chaos that ensues.

246
00:10:42,365 --> 00:10:46,905
Um, so where do I wanna start?

247
00:10:46,915 --> 00:10:48,785
Let's start with why With the
fuck we're so goddamn tired.

248
00:10:48,785 --> 00:10:52,865
Yeah. Other than life being
life, um, stress being stress.

249
00:10:52,885 --> 00:10:54,305
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
There's never enough

250
00:10:54,305 --> 00:10:57,305
of the things you need <laugh>
to maybe be less stressed.

251
00:10:57,885 --> 00:11:02,385
Um, the 18-year-old had his final concert

252
00:11:02,605 --> 00:11:06,785
of his freshman year of
college, uh, last night.

253
00:11:06,815 --> 00:11:09,425
That would be Tuesday, April 16th.

254
00:11:10,445 --> 00:11:12,785
And, um, normally they're on Thursdays.

255
00:11:12,785 --> 00:11:14,225
So it's, it's weird

256
00:11:14,225 --> 00:11:16,065
that we did this on a Tuesday,
but whatever, whatever.

257
00:11:16,565 --> 00:11:19,345
And he was like, are you
coming? I'm like, yeah.

258
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And then we found out.

259
00:11:21,845 --> 00:11:23,945
So the very first concert we did not know,

260
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'cause we didn't know
how the concerts run.

261
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The very first concert of
the school year, back in

262
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September, it was a dual concert

263
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of both the symphonic
band, that's what he's in.

264
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And the Wind symphony, which
is like the top upper tier

265
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of these students, whatever.

266
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And it was a combined concert
and it was two hours long.

267
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And we did not know that
because that was our first time.

268
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Well, this last concert was

269
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a high school band conducted by a UF

270
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graduate from the music
education department.

271
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They did a concert first,

272
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and then the college students went up.

273
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So it was not as long.

274
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'cause high school student
concerts are not as long

275
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as the college student concerts.

276
00:12:06,085 --> 00:12:07,685
No. I mean, it's like
half the amount time.

277
00:12:08,225 --> 00:12:10,045
Um, but it made for a longer concert.

278
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And we were not prepared for that.

279
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We knew we weren't gonna get

280
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to see the 18-year-old
for more than a minute.

281
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He told me that. He was
like, I want you to come.

282
00:12:17,245 --> 00:12:19,085
I can't go do anything
afterwards. I was like, good.

283
00:12:19,205 --> 00:12:20,525
'cause I ain't got the budget
for us to go do anything

284
00:12:20,525 --> 00:12:21,805
afterwards, but I'll,

285
00:12:21,805 --> 00:12:23,005
you know, I'll come see you and say hi.

286
00:12:23,045 --> 00:12:24,605
I was like, you damn well,
better. What the fuck?

287
00:12:25,305 --> 00:12:26,605
I'm, I'm not a chill mom.

288
00:12:26,605 --> 00:12:28,365
And you will come say hello to your mommy.

289
00:12:28,665 --> 00:12:31,405
I'm so sorry, <laugh>. I'll
leave you alone after that.

290
00:12:31,465 --> 00:12:33,285
But I will be acknowledged. Anyway.

291
00:12:34,025 --> 00:12:36,565
Um, so we were there
longer than we intended.

292
00:12:37,105 --> 00:12:38,845
He came right out. He's
gotten better about that.

293
00:12:38,925 --> 00:12:40,245
I think he's now has a life

294
00:12:40,245 --> 00:12:41,805
where he's got shit he's gotta go do.

295
00:12:41,865 --> 00:12:43,725
So he don't lolly gag
as much. Right. Right.

296
00:12:44,145 --> 00:12:46,925
Um, he comes up. He was,
he was a little snarky.

297
00:12:46,925 --> 00:12:49,245
He was real blunt. That's, I know.

298
00:12:49,405 --> 00:12:51,765
I know him when he's
tired, stressed. Yeah.

299
00:12:51,865 --> 00:12:53,405
Or is ready to go do the thing

300
00:12:53,405 --> 00:12:55,685
that has is like got his real attention.

301
00:12:55,955 --> 00:12:59,925
He's, he gets like that and
he, it's fine. He was not rude.

302
00:12:59,985 --> 00:13:03,685
He was just very blunt, <laugh>.
To the point, to the point.

303
00:13:03,825 --> 00:13:08,205
So we knew we were not gonna
do like our Culver's run like

304
00:13:08,205 --> 00:13:09,445
we usually do, blah, blah, blah.

305
00:13:10,265 --> 00:13:12,845
Um, which was fine. We didn't
need to be doing that anyway.

306
00:13:13,225 --> 00:13:15,565
Um, but we were thirsty
and hungry. <laugh>.

307
00:13:15,865 --> 00:13:18,525
So before we left town, after we said hi

308
00:13:18,525 --> 00:13:20,845
and bye to 'em, whatever, we went to Wawa

309
00:13:20,845 --> 00:13:22,045
because I don't know.

310
00:13:22,285 --> 00:13:25,205
I mean, we are Wawa people at this point,

311
00:13:25,345 --> 00:13:26,525
and I don't know why.

312
00:13:26,965 --> 00:13:28,925
I don't know how, but
here we are, <laugh>.

313
00:13:29,465 --> 00:13:32,485
Um, and it ended up being both great.

314
00:13:32,625 --> 00:13:34,565
And apparently this morning not so great.

315
00:13:34,805 --> 00:13:38,245
<laugh>, we did not know
Wawa was doing free fountain

316
00:13:38,245 --> 00:13:39,925
drinks when we walked in.

317
00:13:39,955 --> 00:13:41,805
Yeah. So we got one drink to share

318
00:13:42,425 --> 00:13:45,245
and then we were trying to find like,

319
00:13:45,245 --> 00:13:46,245
on their little pastries

320
00:13:46,245 --> 00:13:48,045
or cheap little pastries,
they'll often do like two

321
00:13:48,045 --> 00:13:49,125
for three or two for four.

322
00:13:49,125 --> 00:13:50,285
And we were looking for those deals

323
00:13:50,385 --> 00:13:52,725
and nothing, there were no signs up.

324
00:13:52,725 --> 00:13:53,565
So we're like, oh, well

325
00:13:53,565 --> 00:13:54,765
we'll get this little thing, whatever.

326
00:13:55,265 --> 00:13:57,765
We get to the register, we find out

327
00:13:57,795 --> 00:13:59,165
that the drinks are free.

328
00:14:00,225 --> 00:14:02,845
So the person behind
the register looks at JB

329
00:14:02,845 --> 00:14:06,125
and goes, do you want to
go get yourself a drink?

330
00:14:06,195 --> 00:14:08,405
It's free. You know, it's,
you can get what you want.

331
00:14:08,425 --> 00:14:09,645
It was clear we were sharing. Yeah.

332
00:14:09,945 --> 00:14:11,365
And, uh, he was like, I can't.

333
00:14:11,365 --> 00:14:13,045
And then I went, do we have
to come back to the register?

334
00:14:13,045 --> 00:14:15,245
She's like, no, I see you and
I'll know what you're doing.

335
00:14:15,325 --> 00:14:17,445
I was like, cool. And
then our little pastries

336
00:14:17,895 --> 00:14:18,925
we're two for $3.

337
00:14:19,025 --> 00:14:22,325
So we walked in <laugh>
thinking, okay, you know,

338
00:14:22,375 --> 00:14:24,525
we'll we're gonna,
we're trying to be cheap

339
00:14:24,585 --> 00:14:26,565
and we're just, it's late,
so we don't need a lot.

340
00:14:26,565 --> 00:14:29,445
Anyway, we spent three
fucking dollars. Right.

341
00:14:29,445 --> 00:14:30,805
I got drinks as big as our heads.

342
00:14:31,105 --> 00:14:35,645
And then <laugh>, we got honey
buns. I'm, I'm a honey bun.

343
00:14:35,645 --> 00:14:37,005
Girly. I should have gotten donut sticks.

344
00:14:37,005 --> 00:14:40,605
Those are my favorite. Anyway,
it was, it was dessert time.

345
00:14:40,685 --> 00:14:44,045
I needed a pastry. J b's
like, I dunno what I want.

346
00:14:44,055 --> 00:14:46,365
We're looking at him and
we come across a Boston

347
00:14:46,655 --> 00:14:48,165
Cream honey bun.

348
00:14:48,165 --> 00:14:51,125
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> Boston
Cream is his jam. Yeah.

349
00:14:51,405 --> 00:14:54,525
- I love Boston. Cream.
Donuts. Right. They rock.

350
00:14:55,475 --> 00:14:58,605
- However, somebody is
regretting his decision Yep.

351
00:14:58,905 --> 00:15:02,605
To eat a cream filled anything
from a gas station, even if

352
00:15:02,605 --> 00:15:03,885
that is the Wawa <laugh>.

353
00:15:04,075 --> 00:15:05,485
Yeah. I feel like we should have

354
00:15:05,485 --> 00:15:06,565
stopped and thought about that.

355
00:15:06,565 --> 00:15:08,125
Like, do you want something

356
00:15:08,185 --> 00:15:12,205
that's a milk based product from the gas

357
00:15:12,235 --> 00:15:14,125
station that's not fresh? Right.

358
00:15:14,125 --> 00:15:15,405
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> like, yeah. I

359
00:15:15,405 --> 00:15:16,765
- Don't, I don't think we thought. Yeah.

360
00:15:17,305 --> 00:15:22,165
- No. It, uh, it, it did not,
it it tasted okay eating it.

361
00:15:22,165 --> 00:15:25,525
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Um,
it was later, uh, when I went

362
00:15:25,525 --> 00:15:30,245
to bed and it just sat <laugh> my stomach.

363
00:15:30,945 --> 00:15:33,525
- And I think it's
- Still

364
00:15:33,795 --> 00:15:34,795
- Sitting there.

365
00:15:35,075 --> 00:15:36,685
- Yeah. Making
- You miserable.

366
00:15:37,145 --> 00:15:39,765
- Not, not, not a good experience.

367
00:15:39,855 --> 00:15:42,965
Won't, won't, we'll not do
that again. No. Try it once.

368
00:15:43,015 --> 00:15:44,805
We'll not do it again. <laugh>.

369
00:15:45,315 --> 00:15:48,285
- Live and learn. Live and learn. Yep.

370
00:15:49,065 --> 00:15:52,205
- Yep. - I know. And my honey
bun was, I mean, not great

371
00:15:52,405 --> 00:15:53,605
'cause they're not really that good.

372
00:15:54,185 --> 00:15:57,445
Uh, but now I'm wishing I'd
gotten donut sticks. Yeah.

373
00:15:57,475 --> 00:15:59,045
Love donut sticks anyway.

374
00:15:59,185 --> 00:16:00,165
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

375
00:16:00,165 --> 00:16:00,805
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Anyway.

376
00:16:00,875 --> 00:16:04,605
- Yeah. Um, so then we
came home. And so, okay.

377
00:16:05,025 --> 00:16:08,405
Uh, I've said many times
in bonus sections, uh,

378
00:16:08,625 --> 00:16:12,325
in past episodes about how I
am, uh, obsessively reading.

379
00:16:12,645 --> 00:16:14,525
I know it is tied to my
mental health. <laugh>.

380
00:16:14,585 --> 00:16:15,805
I'm, I have no doubt about that.

381
00:16:16,665 --> 00:16:20,965
Um, I started a book, Oh
God, y'all started a book.

382
00:16:21,025 --> 00:16:23,005
We were sitting in the concert hall

383
00:16:23,315 --> 00:16:24,765
waiting for the concert to start.

384
00:16:24,765 --> 00:16:27,205
There was like 10, 15
minutes once we got there.

385
00:16:27,585 --> 00:16:29,205
And I was like, I am bored.

386
00:16:29,605 --> 00:16:30,965
<laugh>, but we don't
have get a reception here,

387
00:16:30,965 --> 00:16:32,685
so I'm not gonna try and do
anything on the internet.

388
00:16:33,545 --> 00:16:36,725
So I pulled up a book
and started reading it.

389
00:16:37,785 --> 00:16:39,245
Of course, of course. I stopped

390
00:16:39,245 --> 00:16:40,485
when the kids started playing music.

391
00:16:41,425 --> 00:16:43,445
No problem. I did I pull it back up

392
00:16:43,445 --> 00:16:45,045
during intermission when they swapped.

393
00:16:45,065 --> 00:16:47,885
Yes, I did. And then we
get in the car to go home

394
00:16:48,025 --> 00:16:49,605
and I, I was chatty with you for a while.

395
00:16:49,605 --> 00:16:50,845
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
And then I needed to like

396
00:16:50,985 --> 00:16:52,045
not look at the road anymore.

397
00:16:52,145 --> 00:16:53,165
And so I start reading my book,

398
00:16:53,185 --> 00:16:54,365
or I'm reading and I'm in it.

399
00:16:54,425 --> 00:16:56,485
I'm sniffling. It's, it was
a tear jerker. I'm crying.

400
00:16:56,665 --> 00:16:57,965
I'm like, oh my God.

401
00:16:59,225 --> 00:17:00,605
And we're getting closer to home

402
00:17:00,685 --> 00:17:03,165
and Jamie goes, okay, I know
it's late and we're tired

403
00:17:03,165 --> 00:17:04,445
and I know what time
we normally go to bed,

404
00:17:04,445 --> 00:17:07,205
but I need to like, just sit and just veg.

405
00:17:07,225 --> 00:17:09,485
And I went, same. Mm-Hmm.
<affirmative>. My book is good.

406
00:17:11,065 --> 00:17:13,445
So we sit on the couch, we get
home, we see the 14-year-old

407
00:17:13,445 --> 00:17:14,525
who didn't go with us, which was fine.

408
00:17:14,525 --> 00:17:15,685
He was enjoying some solitude.

409
00:17:15,965 --> 00:17:18,525
I have not had that in
literal years at this point.

410
00:17:19,985 --> 00:17:23,045
And, um, maybe a year.

411
00:17:23,045 --> 00:17:25,285
Anyway, I haven't done
solitude in a while. It's fine.

412
00:17:25,745 --> 00:17:29,365
Um, we come home, we say hi to him.

413
00:17:29,425 --> 00:17:30,445
We say hi to Lola

414
00:17:30,445 --> 00:17:31,845
because she's like,

415
00:17:31,955 --> 00:17:33,765
I've clearly been abandoned
because you left the house.

416
00:17:34,305 --> 00:17:37,045
We sit on the couch, two
quote, like, decompress.

417
00:17:37,425 --> 00:17:39,565
Two hours later it's midnight. Yeah.

418
00:17:40,605 --> 00:17:43,725
I am almost done with my
book at this point. <laugh>.

419
00:17:44,325 --> 00:17:45,765
Debbie's like, we really
need to go to bed.

420
00:17:45,825 --> 00:17:47,325
I'm like, no, I have an hour

421
00:17:47,465 --> 00:17:49,325
and some odd minutes left in my book.

422
00:17:49,865 --> 00:17:52,085
He goes, you can read
in bed. I'm like, okay.

423
00:17:52,825 --> 00:17:53,965
And then it got real, real good.

424
00:17:53,965 --> 00:17:57,085
So I was like, just going
through this book so fast.

425
00:17:58,325 --> 00:18:00,445
I got to where I had 20
minutes left of the book

426
00:18:00,625 --> 00:18:01,725
and we finally went to sleep.

427
00:18:02,065 --> 00:18:05,285
We woke up six hours later.
I don't get out of the bed.

428
00:18:05,475 --> 00:18:07,405
Like I have to like warm my engine up

429
00:18:07,405 --> 00:18:08,845
for the day before I get outta the bed.

430
00:18:09,205 --> 00:18:10,805
I don't know if it's a mental
thing or a physical thing,

431
00:18:10,805 --> 00:18:13,045
but like, I need to, like,
I need to mindlessly scroll.

432
00:18:13,365 --> 00:18:15,965
- I need to, I I could, I
could hear her in her head

433
00:18:16,815 --> 00:18:18,365
going, I think I can.

434
00:18:18,565 --> 00:18:20,645
I think I can. I think I can <laugh>.

435
00:18:21,945 --> 00:18:26,365
- So wake up. I don't wanna be
awake. I'm tired. I'm tired.

436
00:18:26,865 --> 00:18:27,925
I'm not built for going

437
00:18:27,925 --> 00:18:29,365
to sleep at one o'clock in the morning.

438
00:18:29,865 --> 00:18:32,085
And even though we like
set our alarms for late,

439
00:18:32,185 --> 00:18:34,685
it was still seven o'clock
in the morning to wake up.

440
00:18:35,665 --> 00:18:37,245
But I was like, oh shit. I have this book.

441
00:18:38,125 --> 00:18:39,805
I did not get outta the bed
till I finished the book.

442
00:18:40,205 --> 00:18:41,725
I did finish the book this
morning. It was really good.

443
00:18:41,865 --> 00:18:45,805
It was not kinky at all.
It was not overly spicy.

444
00:18:46,545 --> 00:18:49,085
Uh, we did get a moment
where the character, the,

445
00:18:49,145 --> 00:18:53,205
the male characters, like,
not it's internal monologue.

446
00:18:53,205 --> 00:18:55,005
It wasn't like a statement he made

447
00:18:55,005 --> 00:18:57,805
to the female character about
being kind of dominant in bed.

448
00:18:57,985 --> 00:18:59,805
But he was like trying to
not show that too much.

449
00:18:59,965 --> 00:19:01,645
'cause she had a lot of fucking trauma,

450
00:19:01,645 --> 00:19:03,485
which is why I was crying
through most of this book.

451
00:19:04,105 --> 00:19:08,445
And, um, he expressed that
lightly expressed that,

452
00:19:08,785 --> 00:19:10,325
you know, little d dominance.

453
00:19:10,345 --> 00:19:11,805
And I was like, oh, that,
that's kind of sexy.

454
00:19:11,825 --> 00:19:14,085
And she was into it, but
like, it wasn't a focal point.

455
00:19:14,105 --> 00:19:17,445
It, we never got another
line of that again.

456
00:19:17,585 --> 00:19:19,005
And it didn't matter. 'cause it was not

457
00:19:19,005 --> 00:19:20,085
meant to be a smut book.

458
00:19:20,085 --> 00:19:21,405
It was, it was romance.

459
00:19:22,305 --> 00:19:26,365
Um, but also it was, uh,
watching this poor woman overcome

460
00:19:27,215 --> 00:19:29,565
awful trauma and triumph in the end.

461
00:19:29,785 --> 00:19:33,485
Mm-Hmm. <laugh>. Um, so yeah.

462
00:19:33,905 --> 00:19:36,765
Uh, I don't, I don't say, I talk about

463
00:19:36,765 --> 00:19:38,605
how quickly I'm reading books to brag.

464
00:19:38,765 --> 00:19:41,365
'cause it's not, we all
read at our own speeds.

465
00:19:41,545 --> 00:19:44,365
And I honestly, when I was a kid Oh yeah.

466
00:19:44,645 --> 00:19:47,325
I, that was where my ego
was, my intellectual ability.

467
00:19:47,445 --> 00:19:49,445
I was like, oh, look what I can do. Now.

468
00:19:49,505 --> 00:19:52,005
I'm more like, oh my God,
how bad is my mental health

469
00:19:52,525 --> 00:19:55,485
<laugh> that I am zipping
through these fucking books?

470
00:19:56,355 --> 00:19:58,565
What is, what is going
on? Oh, that's right.

471
00:19:59,125 --> 00:20:01,725
I don't have the time or the
money to go find out <laugh>.

472
00:20:02,745 --> 00:20:05,925
But you look, I'm not running
through the streets naked,

473
00:20:06,285 --> 00:20:07,885
threatening total strangers.

474
00:20:08,755 --> 00:20:09,805
- Okay. No,
- No, you're not.

475
00:20:09,885 --> 00:20:13,005
I have not had to be, you
know, taken to a hospital

476
00:20:13,005 --> 00:20:14,605
and given the, the fuzzy socks.

477
00:20:14,635 --> 00:20:17,605
Like, I, I mean, I'm
just gonna say I'm coping

478
00:20:17,945 --> 00:20:20,605
and books seem to be my coping mechanism.

479
00:20:21,285 --> 00:20:25,405
<laugh>. Um, also, I think
it might be my current,

480
00:20:25,925 --> 00:20:29,125
I won't say hyper fo
what I'm trying to learn.

481
00:20:29,345 --> 00:20:31,085
I'm trying to learn myself.
I'm trying to learn terms.

482
00:20:31,145 --> 00:20:33,245
And I understand the
difference between hyper focus

483
00:20:33,865 --> 00:20:36,005
and, uh, oh God, what's the term,

484
00:20:37,105 --> 00:20:39,965
um, interest?

485
00:20:40,065 --> 00:20:41,685
The one autistic people.

486
00:20:41,795 --> 00:20:42,845
It's not a hyperfocus,

487
00:20:42,875 --> 00:20:44,525
it's a, y'all know what I'm talking about.

488
00:20:44,525 --> 00:20:45,645
Some of y'all know what
I'm talking about that

489
00:20:45,875 --> 00:20:47,485
because I've always been a reader.

490
00:20:47,485 --> 00:20:48,645
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Then I had children

491
00:20:48,705 --> 00:20:51,405
and I literally did not pick
up a book for like six years

492
00:20:51,405 --> 00:20:53,645
because I had no brain power for it.

493
00:20:54,345 --> 00:20:57,485
And I go through cycles
of not reading a lot, um,

494
00:20:58,475 --> 00:21:00,165
reading a shit ton.

495
00:21:00,585 --> 00:21:02,165
Um, and I'm back into that cycle.

496
00:21:02,185 --> 00:21:03,645
So it's like, is it a hyper focus

497
00:21:03,665 --> 00:21:07,085
or did I like just go around the bin back

498
00:21:07,085 --> 00:21:09,005
to my special interest.

499
00:21:09,005 --> 00:21:10,765
Thank you. Mm-Hmm.
<affirmative>. Thank you. Um,

500
00:21:11,765 --> 00:21:14,285
somebody in the live chat, poor
podcast listeners were like,

501
00:21:14,445 --> 00:21:15,445
I mean, you couldn't hear me

502
00:21:15,445 --> 00:21:17,445
as I was screaming
special interest <laugh>

503
00:21:17,705 --> 00:21:18,725
at you, but, okay.

504
00:21:20,065 --> 00:21:22,445
So, I don't know. I don't know.

505
00:21:23,795 --> 00:21:25,125
It's, it is a hyper focus.

506
00:21:25,365 --> 00:21:27,675
'cause I'm hyperfocused,

507
00:21:27,675 --> 00:21:28,715
but I've loved reading my whole life.

508
00:21:28,715 --> 00:21:30,435
Yeah. So then it's not be, I don't know.

509
00:21:30,515 --> 00:21:33,435
I think it's complicated. I wanna let you

510
00:21:33,435 --> 00:21:34,555
get an word in edgewise.

511
00:21:34,895 --> 00:21:36,795
I'm so sorry. <laugh>. Um,

512
00:21:36,795 --> 00:21:39,435
because I do want to talk
about a kink book I did,

513
00:21:39,535 --> 00:21:41,115
or kinky book I did read.

514
00:21:41,295 --> 00:21:43,435
But I will suck up all
the oxygen with that.

515
00:21:43,575 --> 00:21:47,385
So what is on your mind, <laugh>?

516
00:21:47,975 --> 00:21:51,945
Because I'm just rambling
in my spicy way right now.

517
00:21:53,925 --> 00:21:55,305
- What's on my mind? Mm-Hmm.

518
00:21:55,565 --> 00:21:57,865
The fact that the bags
under my eyes have bags.

519
00:21:58,045 --> 00:21:59,065
- Oh yeah. They're, they're ready

520
00:21:59,085 --> 00:22:00,865
for a, a trip around the world.

521
00:22:01,575 --> 00:22:02,945
They're so packed. Yeah.

522
00:22:03,325 --> 00:22:05,225
No, you got to go on a kinky adventure.

523
00:22:05,465 --> 00:22:08,425
- I did last weekend. I, I got,
I got to go on an adventure,

524
00:22:08,925 --> 00:22:09,985
um, over the weekend.

525
00:22:10,645 --> 00:22:14,585
Um, I, I can't go into
too much detail about it

526
00:22:14,585 --> 00:22:16,625
because I don't really
have consent from all

527
00:22:16,625 --> 00:22:18,185
of the above Sure.

528
00:22:18,285 --> 00:22:22,345
To talk about it. But, um, I went to

529
00:22:23,185 --> 00:22:27,265
a demonstration on fire play

530
00:22:29,045 --> 00:22:32,225
and it was absolutely amazing.

531
00:22:33,485 --> 00:22:36,345
Uh, the folks putting on, on the

532
00:22:37,305 --> 00:22:39,865
demonstration were fantastic.

533
00:22:41,245 --> 00:22:45,185
Uh, really good at did a good
job of, of talking about it,

534
00:22:45,185 --> 00:22:49,065
explaining it, and then
showing it. Mm-Hmm.

535
00:22:49,105 --> 00:22:49,865
- <affirmative> also, let me

536
00:22:49,865 --> 00:22:50,785
interject before you get too deep.

537
00:22:50,785 --> 00:22:52,625
There were two John Brownstone sidings.

538
00:22:52,685 --> 00:22:56,065
So if you know who you
are, hi. We're so happy.

539
00:22:56,245 --> 00:22:58,225
- Hi. Thank you. <laugh>. You, uh, you you

540
00:22:58,435 --> 00:22:59,905
- Found him. Okay, go
ahead. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>

541
00:23:00,145 --> 00:23:01,145
- <laugh>.

542
00:23:01,145 --> 00:23:05,305
And, uh, basically what,
what it, um, it encompassed

543
00:23:05,925 --> 00:23:09,865
was fire cupping, uh, fire streaking.

544
00:23:10,295 --> 00:23:11,425
- That one makes me so nervous.

545
00:23:11,745 --> 00:23:13,345
I mean, clearly it can
be done without Mm-Hmm.

546
00:23:13,385 --> 00:23:14,985
<affirmative>. But that
one makes me so nervous.

547
00:23:15,565 --> 00:23:16,905
- And fire bubbles.

548
00:23:17,815 --> 00:23:20,105
- That one my, I can't wrap my
mind around what that Mm-Hmm.

549
00:23:20,145 --> 00:23:21,545
<affirmative> what that is. Like I've

550
00:23:21,545 --> 00:23:22,705
seen, I've seen cupping.

551
00:23:22,705 --> 00:23:25,905
Yeah. So, and I think I've
seen years ago a demo fire

552
00:23:25,905 --> 00:23:27,945
cupping, and I am interested in cupping.

553
00:23:27,945 --> 00:23:29,065
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>, uh,

554
00:23:29,215 --> 00:23:31,265
I've seen fire streaking once Yeah.

555
00:23:31,265 --> 00:23:33,225
Years ago. That one
makes me super nervous.

556
00:23:33,375 --> 00:23:36,105
What are, what are fire bubbles? Oh.

557
00:23:36,105 --> 00:23:37,185
And Lola's now dreaming.

558
00:23:37,285 --> 00:23:41,585
- Lola's having a dream.
<laugh> a very active dream. You

559
00:23:41,725 --> 00:23:44,745
- Get that squirrel cat
or bird in your dream man.

560
00:23:44,795 --> 00:23:45,795
Right.

561
00:23:46,175 --> 00:23:51,125
- Don't let it, um,

562
00:23:51,545 --> 00:23:55,765
so the, the fire bubbles,
uh, basically what,

563
00:23:58,265 --> 00:24:00,245
and, and I will try to
explain it as best I can.

564
00:24:00,305 --> 00:24:02,805
And, and please don't use
this as a guide to run out

565
00:24:02,805 --> 00:24:03,885
and do it <laugh> No,

566
00:24:03,985 --> 00:24:04,985
- No.

567
00:24:04,985 --> 00:24:08,445
- Um, it, it's using, uh, propane,

568
00:24:11,785 --> 00:24:16,125
uh, water and dawn dish soap.

569
00:24:16,665 --> 00:24:17,965
- Man, dawn dish soap can be used

570
00:24:17,965 --> 00:24:19,165
for literally fucking anything.

571
00:24:19,515 --> 00:24:20,725
- Dawn. Dawn is great stuff.

572
00:24:21,325 --> 00:24:22,405
Ly I, I used

573
00:24:22,405 --> 00:24:25,165
to use it years ago when
I did lawn maintenance.

574
00:24:25,225 --> 00:24:27,525
And, you know, I, I've
had to spray things. It

575
00:24:27,575 --> 00:24:28,605
- Saves the environment

576
00:24:28,875 --> 00:24:32,005
- With, with, with the way it
rains here in Florida, you,

577
00:24:32,065 --> 00:24:34,605
you use it to keep the, uh, you know,

578
00:24:34,925 --> 00:24:38,285
whatever you're spraying
on the plants without

579
00:24:38,285 --> 00:24:39,405
washing off in the rain.

580
00:24:39,665 --> 00:24:40,845
Wow. So. Wow.

581
00:24:41,185 --> 00:24:45,805
But, um, anyway, um, all
that, all that being said,

582
00:24:46,305 --> 00:24:48,245
uh, basically you're trapping

583
00:24:50,745 --> 00:24:55,325
the propane in the bubbles and
then you scoop up the bubbles

584
00:24:57,235 --> 00:25:00,455
and you put them on your person.

585
00:25:00,555 --> 00:25:03,535
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. And
then you ignite the bubbles and

586
00:25:04,395 --> 00:25:05,395
- Wow.

587
00:25:05,405 --> 00:25:08,415
Okay. So a couple people asked
about fire streaking. Mm-Hmm.

588
00:25:08,455 --> 00:25:10,495
<affirmative>. I've seen it. I
could not describe it though.

589
00:25:10,495 --> 00:25:14,175
- Okay. Um, fire streaking
- <laugh>.

590
00:25:16,685 --> 00:25:20,855
- Yeah. Hank he'll just, yes,
he did cure of happiness.

591
00:25:21,195 --> 00:25:23,095
Yes, he did. Yes he did.

592
00:25:23,205 --> 00:25:25,135
- Hank hill's like yes.
- Mm-Hmm.

593
00:25:25,175 --> 00:25:26,495
- <affirmative>, I'm in propane business.

594
00:25:26,545 --> 00:25:30,855
- Right. Um, now fire streaking is where

595
00:25:32,355 --> 00:25:36,295
you take isopropyl alcohol

596
00:25:36,475 --> 00:25:39,815
and not just any, it has
to be a certain percentage.

597
00:25:39,915 --> 00:25:43,135
Mm. And dip cotton ball.

598
00:25:43,315 --> 00:25:44,695
And then you take the cotton ball

599
00:25:44,795 --> 00:25:46,615
and you swab it along the skin.

600
00:25:46,715 --> 00:25:48,375
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. And then you light,

601
00:25:48,755 --> 00:25:50,575
- And then the fire runs down that Yep.

602
00:25:50,575 --> 00:25:52,695
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
Now, I, I'm assuming you

603
00:25:53,435 --> 00:25:55,615
rub the alcohol on, don't let it dry.

604
00:25:55,685 --> 00:25:57,855
Correct. Like it's a,
it's an instantaneous,

605
00:25:57,965 --> 00:25:59,615
like you finish you light.

606
00:26:00,175 --> 00:26:02,495
'cause Yeah. If you, if it
dries, there's no streaking,

607
00:26:02,495 --> 00:26:04,455
there's just burning <laugh>
at that point. Right.

608
00:26:04,605 --> 00:26:05,615
- Well, not, and,

609
00:26:05,715 --> 00:26:07,735
and this is what, this is something that,

610
00:26:07,765 --> 00:26:09,775
that was explained in all this and,

611
00:26:09,795 --> 00:26:11,535
and I kind of knew this Mm-Hmm.

612
00:26:11,575 --> 00:26:16,255
<affirmative>, um, liquid
is not flammable. Mm.

613
00:26:16,685 --> 00:26:19,895
Okay. You take gas in a liquid
form. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

614
00:26:20,315 --> 00:26:22,135
And it is not flammable is

615
00:26:22,155 --> 00:26:23,535
- The liquid
- Gas is not flammable.

616
00:26:23,535 --> 00:26:24,975
It's the gases that

617
00:26:25,195 --> 00:26:27,015
- The liquid is not flammable.
It's the gas coming off

618
00:26:27,015 --> 00:26:29,535
- Of it, coming off of fumes
we might say, or fumes.

619
00:26:29,835 --> 00:26:31,935
So when you take and,

620
00:26:32,315 --> 00:26:36,255
and you run that swab of
alcohol on the skin Mm-Hmm.

621
00:26:36,295 --> 00:26:37,415
<affirmative>, you're not, you're not,

622
00:26:37,885 --> 00:26:40,975
what is on the skin is
not, is not ign igniting.

623
00:26:41,085 --> 00:26:43,925
It's, it is the, the
fumes coming off. Coming

624
00:26:43,945 --> 00:26:44,945
- Off.

625
00:26:44,945 --> 00:26:46,805
So if the alcohol dried, would
the fumes still be there?

626
00:26:48,085 --> 00:26:52,365
- Possibly. - Hmm. Don't anybody
ever try fire any fucking

627
00:26:52,365 --> 00:26:54,845
thing without a lot of
fucking training from people

628
00:26:54,845 --> 00:26:56,245
who know what the hell
they're doing. Yeah.

629
00:26:56,245 --> 00:26:57,605
- Okay. Just
- Don't.

630
00:26:58,025 --> 00:27:02,605
- And, and, you know, um, let
me say this, one of the things

631
00:27:02,605 --> 00:27:06,085
that was, that was stressed,
uh, right up at the beginning,

632
00:27:07,185 --> 00:27:10,645
um, if you do this, you do
not want to have any oils,

633
00:27:10,985 --> 00:27:12,885
any lotion that leaves any oils

634
00:27:13,075 --> 00:27:14,075
- Okay.

635
00:27:14,075 --> 00:27:16,445
- On your body. Um, yeah.

636
00:27:16,445 --> 00:27:18,485
You, you, you don't want
to have any kind, lotions,

637
00:27:18,725 --> 00:27:20,245
perfumes, things are

638
00:27:20,245 --> 00:27:21,765
- Flammable,
- Anything like that.

639
00:27:22,385 --> 00:27:26,765
Um, if, if you intend to wear, um,

640
00:27:28,385 --> 00:27:32,725
any, any clothes, they have

641
00:27:32,725 --> 00:27:34,405
to be natural fiber. Mm.

642
00:27:35,395 --> 00:27:36,965
- Okay.
- Okay. Okay.

643
00:27:37,105 --> 00:27:39,725
Um, you know, anything polyester, rayon,

644
00:27:39,795 --> 00:27:41,045
spandex, anything like that?

645
00:27:41,505 --> 00:27:42,845
No, absolutely not.

646
00:27:43,065 --> 00:27:44,005
- It makes, that makes sense.

647
00:27:44,005 --> 00:27:44,925
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> That makes sense.

648
00:27:45,785 --> 00:27:47,685
- And, uh, the biggest thing that,

649
00:27:47,715 --> 00:27:49,605
that was pointed out
right at the beginning,

650
00:27:50,265 --> 00:27:52,245
um, fire extinguisher. Oh

651
00:27:52,245 --> 00:27:53,245
- Yeah.

652
00:27:53,245 --> 00:27:54,245
That would make total sense. Okay. That

653
00:27:54,245 --> 00:27:56,725
- Would make total fire
extinguisher, you know, like, like

654
00:27:57,285 --> 00:28:01,365
anything else, um, risk involved
in any, any type of play.

655
00:28:02,225 --> 00:28:06,725
And, um, you know, you,

656
00:28:06,985 --> 00:28:08,725
you need to mitigate the risks. Sure.

657
00:28:09,225 --> 00:28:14,155
- Oh,
- Sure. You know, um, hair tied long,

658
00:28:14,255 --> 00:28:17,875
you know, long hair tied and,
and, and off to the side. Um,

659
00:28:18,475 --> 00:28:20,075
- I imagine there, there's a lot of prep

660
00:28:20,175 --> 00:28:21,715
for play like that. Yeah.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

661
00:28:21,735 --> 00:28:25,715
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Yeah.
So, um, it was, it was fun.

662
00:28:26,295 --> 00:28:27,755
Um, the fire cupping.

663
00:28:28,435 --> 00:28:32,275
I, I really think you
would probably like that.

664
00:28:32,575 --> 00:28:34,395
- So remind me, just

665
00:28:34,395 --> 00:28:36,355
because again, cupping
and fire cupping Mm-Hmm.

666
00:28:36,395 --> 00:28:38,195
<affirmative> I've seen
demos of, but that's not,

667
00:28:38,455 --> 00:28:40,715
was never close enough to like, or, and

668
00:28:40,715 --> 00:28:42,435
nor do I remember now the procedure.

669
00:28:42,435 --> 00:28:43,795
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. So how does cupping

670
00:28:43,885 --> 00:28:45,275
slash fire cupping?

671
00:28:45,945 --> 00:28:46,995
- Okay. Like, um,

672
00:28:47,755 --> 00:28:49,995
- 'cause cupping is a medical
thing, a therapeutic thing

673
00:28:50,025 --> 00:28:51,715
that we just perverted is all we did.

674
00:28:51,715 --> 00:28:52,715
Right. Because you can Mm-Hmm.

675
00:28:52,955 --> 00:28:55,115
<affirmative> go to, like,
you can get cupping things

676
00:28:55,115 --> 00:28:57,395
that's used in like sports therapy

677
00:28:57,615 --> 00:29:00,515
and like for people who use cupping

678
00:29:00,515 --> 00:29:02,235
for medical purposes will
be able to explain better.

679
00:29:02,235 --> 00:29:03,955
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. But, so yeah.

680
00:29:04,665 --> 00:29:07,395
- Kind of, and, and just
lemme backtrack. Sure.

681
00:29:07,835 --> 00:29:09,995
Rah mentioned about fire blankets. Yes.

682
00:29:10,025 --> 00:29:11,595
That, that is another option.

683
00:29:12,175 --> 00:29:14,475
Um, and that is something
that he had there

684
00:29:14,475 --> 00:29:16,275
that he, he showed Gotcha.

685
00:29:16,425 --> 00:29:18,715
That, that is available
as a safety for that,

686
00:29:18,855 --> 00:29:20,315
uh, fire blanket.

687
00:29:20,535 --> 00:29:25,435
So they had both fire blanket
and, uh, extinguisher Gotcha.

688
00:29:25,485 --> 00:29:26,595
There for safety. And

689
00:29:26,595 --> 00:29:30,195
- This might be the one
time that every, at least

690
00:29:30,795 --> 00:29:32,755
eighties kid learned
probably nineties kid too.

691
00:29:32,875 --> 00:29:34,435
'cause I remember being reminded we will,

692
00:29:34,535 --> 00:29:36,395
you could finally maybe have a reason

693
00:29:36,455 --> 00:29:37,675
to use stop, drop and roll

694
00:29:38,635 --> 00:29:39,115
- <laugh>. Look,

695
00:29:39,335 --> 00:29:42,005
- The eighties made me
think I was going Yeah.

696
00:29:42,005 --> 00:29:43,605
And it makes sense 'cause
everything was flammable then.

697
00:29:43,605 --> 00:29:45,685
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> that
I was going to spontaneously

698
00:29:46,005 --> 00:29:48,605
ignite and be caught on
fire at any point and

699
00:29:48,865 --> 00:29:50,965
or die by quicksand.

700
00:29:51,075 --> 00:29:55,205
Like I, that, that's just
what my childhood taught me.

701
00:29:55,405 --> 00:29:57,285
<laugh>. Yeah. Now the fire
thing makes most more sense

702
00:29:57,285 --> 00:30:00,525
because everything was fucking
flammable in the eighties.

703
00:30:00,705 --> 00:30:02,805
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Yeah.

704
00:30:03,265 --> 00:30:07,645
Um, cupping actually is something

705
00:30:07,645 --> 00:30:10,005
that has been perverted.

706
00:30:10,115 --> 00:30:14,805
Yeah. Um, it is an
actual, um, massage. It's

707
00:30:14,805 --> 00:30:15,805
- Massage.

708
00:30:15,805 --> 00:30:17,445
Okay. I knew, but I know
it's used medicinally for it.

709
00:30:17,445 --> 00:30:19,285
- It,
- It's like Olympians use it

710
00:30:19,285 --> 00:30:20,485
and sports people use it.

711
00:30:20,675 --> 00:30:22,605
- Yeah. Um, I, I'm trying
to say tell muscles

712
00:30:22,625 --> 00:30:25,405
or cooper, it's like an oriental type.

713
00:30:26,025 --> 00:30:28,445
- An Asian
- Asian. Yeah. Okay. Uhhuh <affirmative>.

714
00:30:29,345 --> 00:30:34,325
Um, that is supposed to be beneficial.

715
00:30:34,355 --> 00:30:37,565
It's supposed to, you know,
relax muscles, help circulation.

716
00:30:37,565 --> 00:30:38,605
Right. Different things like that.

717
00:30:38,905 --> 00:30:41,365
And we just perverted it and, and it, and,

718
00:30:41,365 --> 00:30:42,885
and it has been perverted.

719
00:30:43,265 --> 00:30:46,685
Uh, basically what it is, it,
it's like a little, a jar.

720
00:30:47,405 --> 00:30:49,645
A little jar, and you take,

721
00:30:49,645 --> 00:30:54,185
and you, with a cotton swab, you

722
00:30:55,545 --> 00:30:57,235
swab alcohol Okay.

723
00:30:57,265 --> 00:30:59,835
Into the jar. You light it, it ignites,

724
00:30:59,975 --> 00:31:01,875
you put it down on the skin immediately

725
00:31:02,295 --> 00:31:06,955
and it, the fire at that
point, lack of oxygen goes out.

726
00:31:06,965 --> 00:31:09,075
Right. But it creates a
suction. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

727
00:31:09,345 --> 00:31:13,755
Okay. And it, it pulls
the skin up into the cup.

728
00:31:14,225 --> 00:31:15,675
- Yeah. And that's kind

729
00:31:15,675 --> 00:31:16,955
of my understanding of cupping in general.

730
00:31:17,375 --> 00:31:20,435
How is cupping done then to
get that effect without fire?

731
00:31:20,655 --> 00:31:22,755
Is it just put it over and it just kind of

732
00:31:22,755 --> 00:31:23,755
- Happens?

733
00:31:23,755 --> 00:31:25,835
No, there, the, the other
way of doing it, if you,

734
00:31:25,835 --> 00:31:28,115
you don't want to do
without fire, there are, uh,

735
00:31:28,385 --> 00:31:31,155
cupping sets that have like a vacuum. Ah,

736
00:31:31,155 --> 00:31:32,155
- Okay.

737
00:31:32,155 --> 00:31:32,435
That makes sense. That

738
00:31:32,435 --> 00:31:33,435
- Makes sense.

739
00:31:33,435 --> 00:31:35,155
Okay. The, they have like a one-way valve

740
00:31:35,535 --> 00:31:37,675
and you hook up a little pump and you,

741
00:31:37,975 --> 00:31:40,155
- So it's like a penis
pump, but for your back.

742
00:31:40,825 --> 00:31:42,235
Yeah. I mean that a penis pump

743
00:31:42,235 --> 00:31:43,275
that is, how many of them work?

744
00:31:43,275 --> 00:31:44,435
They either have a hand pump or

745
00:31:44,435 --> 00:31:45,555
they have like a valve, but Mm-Hmm.

746
00:31:45,595 --> 00:31:46,755
<affirmative> just, that's from,

747
00:31:46,755 --> 00:31:49,035
that's from a sex toy writing
day. So <laugh>. Yeah.

748
00:31:49,775 --> 00:31:51,195
- So yeah. That, that's,

749
00:31:51,395 --> 00:31:53,315
that's the two Gotcha. Two basic ways

750
00:31:53,835 --> 00:31:57,115
- I my limited understanding
of cupping in general.

751
00:31:57,115 --> 00:31:59,635
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> is on
the vast majority of people,

752
00:31:59,815 --> 00:32:01,395
I'm sure there's an outlier somewhere,

753
00:32:01,395 --> 00:32:03,435
but on the vast majority
of people is gonna make

754
00:32:03,545 --> 00:32:04,795
serious marks too.

755
00:32:05,215 --> 00:32:06,715
How long does it Sure.

756
00:32:06,955 --> 00:32:09,155
Somebody knows how long
those marks on average last.

757
00:32:09,435 --> 00:32:10,435
I mean, we're talking like,

758
00:32:10,815 --> 00:32:12,875
you can't show bare skin for like a

759
00:32:12,875 --> 00:32:14,515
- Week or a day or, yeah, no.

760
00:32:14,515 --> 00:32:16,115
The, the marks. The marks do last.

761
00:32:17,295 --> 00:32:22,115
Um, and

762
00:32:22,145 --> 00:32:25,955
depending on the size cup use,

763
00:32:25,955 --> 00:32:27,515
because there's varying sizes Sure.

764
00:32:27,585 --> 00:32:30,435
From large, medium, small, depends on

765
00:32:30,435 --> 00:32:31,675
how big the <laugh> Mm-Hmm.

766
00:32:31,715 --> 00:32:33,795
<affirmative>, the, the mark is, I'm

767
00:32:33,795 --> 00:32:34,795
- Trying to think.

768
00:32:34,835 --> 00:32:38,595
I feel like the first
time I heard of cupping,

769
00:32:38,615 --> 00:32:40,845
and it was probably around
the time we saw that demo

770
00:32:41,155 --> 00:32:42,165
however long ago.

771
00:32:42,165 --> 00:32:43,085
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. We did not live

772
00:32:43,085 --> 00:32:44,165
in this part of Florida at the time.

773
00:32:44,165 --> 00:32:45,245
Mm-Hmm. This is how long ago it was.

774
00:32:46,265 --> 00:32:48,125
I'm trying to think of
how the sensation was

775
00:32:48,395 --> 00:32:49,685
described to me.

776
00:32:50,155 --> 00:32:53,005
It's not the same sensation
as impact, but I think,

777
00:32:53,025 --> 00:32:54,325
and somebody who's experienced it

778
00:32:54,325 --> 00:32:56,765
and would not classify this,
why, please, please share.

779
00:32:57,685 --> 00:32:59,845
I wanna say the person relayed that

780
00:33:01,075 --> 00:33:04,805
it's not thud in the sense
like impact has thud Mm-Hmm.

781
00:33:04,845 --> 00:33:06,405
<affirmative>. But
like, it is deep because

782
00:33:06,435 --> 00:33:07,645
it's a massage thing.

783
00:33:07,755 --> 00:33:12,725
Yeah. Um, and the, the way I remember it,

784
00:33:12,745 --> 00:33:16,645
and I have mind like a
sieve, was that there,

785
00:33:16,785 --> 00:33:19,965
the way it was explained is
if you like thud sensation,

786
00:33:20,595 --> 00:33:22,485
then you might enjoy cupping

787
00:33:22,515 --> 00:33:25,965
because of the, the deepness of it.

788
00:33:25,965 --> 00:33:28,245
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> like
sting tends to be surface level.

789
00:33:28,275 --> 00:33:29,525
Yeah. Like that's, that's why

790
00:33:29,525 --> 00:33:30,645
it's, you know, that's how that works.

791
00:33:31,345 --> 00:33:33,765
And I don't, I don't know if
that's, if I'm re remembering

792
00:33:33,765 --> 00:33:35,805
that correctly or not,

793
00:33:35,985 --> 00:33:37,725
but I think that's why I was drawn

794
00:33:37,725 --> 00:33:39,805
to it other than the
marks I'm, I'm a sucker

795
00:33:39,805 --> 00:33:41,805
for fucking marks, but Okay.

796
00:33:41,805 --> 00:33:45,645
- Yeah. So J Jay just
said still has the marks

797
00:33:46,595 --> 00:33:49,085
that, and that's and that
was Saturday night. Yeah.

798
00:33:49,115 --> 00:33:50,125
- Four days ago. Yeah.

799
00:33:50,125 --> 00:33:51,765
That was the time we're recording.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Cool.

800
00:33:51,765 --> 00:33:55,445
- Cool. Yep. But like
Rah said, um, you know,

801
00:33:55,445 --> 00:33:58,525
because cupping is something that is a

802
00:34:00,225 --> 00:34:01,325
actual Sure.

803
00:34:01,785 --> 00:34:04,925
Spa treatment type of thing,
you can kind of get away with.

804
00:34:05,645 --> 00:34:09,085
- I remember learning that
cupping was a thing in kink

805
00:34:09,745 --> 00:34:13,285
and then seeing, was it,

806
00:34:13,425 --> 00:34:15,765
was it Michael Phelps
right before he retired?

807
00:34:15,965 --> 00:34:16,965
I don't remember when he retired,

808
00:34:17,505 --> 00:34:19,045
but seeing, I think it was Michael Phelps,

809
00:34:19,145 --> 00:34:20,365
or maybe it was just another swimmer.

810
00:34:20,685 --> 00:34:22,165
I don't know how I was
even watching swimming.

811
00:34:22,165 --> 00:34:24,565
That's not a sport I gravitate
to watching, but whatever.

812
00:34:24,565 --> 00:34:26,205
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> and
had the cupping marks.

813
00:34:26,205 --> 00:34:28,325
And I remember in privately getting

814
00:34:28,445 --> 00:34:29,525
a little giggle about that.

815
00:34:29,755 --> 00:34:32,805
Yeah. Because I was like, oh,
I know you did it for like,

816
00:34:33,025 --> 00:34:35,165
its intended purposes, but Yeah.

817
00:34:35,555 --> 00:34:39,485
- Okay. <laugh>. Now, I, I
also will add with the cupping,

818
00:34:40,025 --> 00:34:42,965
um, they, they made a
point numerous times.

819
00:34:43,865 --> 00:34:46,645
Um, the cups

820
00:34:47,265 --> 00:34:49,885
should stay on no longer than 10 minutes.

821
00:34:50,625 --> 00:34:52,365
- Mm. That makes sense.
You'd be cutting off,

822
00:34:52,425 --> 00:34:53,645
uh, blood circulation.

823
00:34:53,645 --> 00:34:54,685
Yeah. Blood flow. Yeah.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

824
00:34:54,685 --> 00:34:56,085
That makes sense. Mm-Hmm.
<affirmative>. Okay. Thank you.

825
00:34:56,285 --> 00:34:58,245
Rah. Rock rah says, yes,
it was Michael Phelps.

826
00:34:58,545 --> 00:35:00,445
And see, I felt like it had to be

827
00:35:00,445 --> 00:35:03,645
because, uh, other than Greg Ganis, ganni,

828
00:35:03,645 --> 00:35:06,245
however, from like,
when I was a kid Mm-Hmm.

829
00:35:06,285 --> 00:35:08,405
<affirmative>, Michael Phelps
is the only male swimmer

830
00:35:08,515 --> 00:35:09,805
that I could even fucking name.

831
00:35:09,955 --> 00:35:13,245
Yeah. Um, Katie Ledecky,
I think is her last name.

832
00:35:13,485 --> 00:35:15,205
I remember her 'cause she
breaks all these fucking records

833
00:35:16,025 --> 00:35:17,205
as a female swimmer.

834
00:35:17,265 --> 00:35:20,205
But Yeah. Um, Michael Phelps
was Michael Fucking Phelps.

835
00:35:20,205 --> 00:35:21,965
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> and I,
yeah. I remember seeing the,

836
00:35:21,965 --> 00:35:25,885
the cupping and I think the
announcer, whatever was like,

837
00:35:25,945 --> 00:35:27,085
oh, do you see those marks?

838
00:35:27,085 --> 00:35:28,085
This is cupping. And I'm like,

839
00:35:29,605 --> 00:35:30,605
- <laugh>.

840
00:35:30,605 --> 00:35:33,005
Yeah. So, so basically what, um,

841
00:35:34,195 --> 00:35:36,805
what it is when you put the first cup on

842
00:35:37,345 --> 00:35:38,685
the timer starts Mm.

843
00:35:39,545 --> 00:35:42,365
- Gotcha. - And then, you
know, once you get close to

844
00:35:42,365 --> 00:35:43,925
that mark, depending, you need to start,

845
00:35:44,015 --> 00:35:45,445
- Start
- Taking 'em off. Taking 'em off.

846
00:35:45,905 --> 00:35:48,085
- So the act of from, I mean,

847
00:35:48,085 --> 00:35:50,925
clearly this'll vary
based on experience level,

848
00:35:50,945 --> 00:35:52,325
but since you watch the demo of somebody

849
00:35:52,325 --> 00:35:53,445
who knows what the fuck
they're doing Yeah.

850
00:35:54,065 --> 00:35:57,885
The, from grabbing the
cup thing, doing the swab,

851
00:35:58,085 --> 00:35:59,365
lighting on fire, popping it down.

852
00:35:59,425 --> 00:36:01,805
Is it a pretty, once
you have a flow to it,

853
00:36:01,805 --> 00:36:03,525
is it a pretty quick thing or is it like a

854
00:36:03,925 --> 00:36:05,325
- A Oh, oh, you have to finagle.

855
00:36:05,395 --> 00:36:08,125
It's, it's, it's a pretty
quick thing. Okay. Okay.

856
00:36:08,745 --> 00:36:10,845
Um, I did get to try it. That's

857
00:36:10,845 --> 00:36:11,845
- Right.

858
00:36:11,845 --> 00:36:12,005
You told me that. You
told me that. Yeah. Yeah.

859
00:36:12,105 --> 00:36:15,485
- Did, did get to try it. Um, yeah.

860
00:36:15,675 --> 00:36:19,125
It's, it's, um, it was cool.
I, I enjoyed it. Mm-Hmm.

861
00:36:19,165 --> 00:36:20,165
<affirmative>,

862
00:36:20,285 --> 00:36:22,405
- I could not start with
fire cupping <laugh>.

863
00:36:22,405 --> 00:36:24,405
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. I am, I am not

864
00:36:24,405 --> 00:36:26,005
that fucking relaxed at all.

865
00:36:26,005 --> 00:36:27,045
Yeah. In any part of my life.

866
00:36:27,305 --> 00:36:29,325
But I, yeah, I would
definitely try cupping. Mm-Hmm.

867
00:36:29,365 --> 00:36:31,325
<affirmative>. And you know
what I think other than any

868
00:36:31,325 --> 00:36:35,005
noises I might make for
people who, um, are looking

869
00:36:35,185 --> 00:36:37,485
for things you can do quietly Mm-Hmm.

870
00:36:37,525 --> 00:36:38,685
<affirmative> because
you've got too many damn

871
00:36:38,685 --> 00:36:39,765
people in your fucking house.

872
00:36:39,765 --> 00:36:43,565
Right. Uh, children or adults,
but you just, I, you know.

873
00:36:43,635 --> 00:36:45,485
Yeah. As long as the, the bottom,

874
00:36:45,705 --> 00:36:48,325
the submissive is not screaming from

875
00:36:48,765 --> 00:36:50,045
<laugh> a sensation <laugh>.

876
00:36:50,405 --> 00:36:52,605
I would imagine that
would be a very quiet one.

877
00:36:53,355 --> 00:36:54,525
That is, is that

878
00:36:54,595 --> 00:36:55,595
- Yeah, it is.

879
00:36:55,595 --> 00:36:56,845
It is. It is very quiet.

880
00:36:57,505 --> 00:37:00,605
Um, there, there really is no, um,

881
00:37:03,035 --> 00:37:07,725
with, with the cupping itself,
from what I have heard,

882
00:37:08,305 --> 00:37:12,765
all the people who tried
it, uh, bottom wise, um,

883
00:37:12,945 --> 00:37:14,005
it feels warm,

884
00:37:15,225 --> 00:37:19,525
but there's no, you know, like overly hot.

885
00:37:19,525 --> 00:37:20,725
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Mm-Hmm.
<affirmative>, you know,

886
00:37:20,795 --> 00:37:24,845
heat burning sensation, um, the

887
00:37:25,395 --> 00:37:28,805
streaking a little bit more.

888
00:37:29,195 --> 00:37:30,325
- Sure. That makes sense. Mm-Hmm.

889
00:37:30,365 --> 00:37:31,885
<affirmative> it's much
closer contact with your

890
00:37:31,885 --> 00:37:32,885
- Skin.

891
00:37:32,885 --> 00:37:35,045
Yeah. And, um, and and the same with, or

892
00:37:35,045 --> 00:37:36,365
- Is it,
- I dunno, the bubbles,

893
00:37:36,915 --> 00:37:38,885
- That makes more sense
to me because Mm-Hmm.

894
00:37:38,925 --> 00:37:41,125
<affirmative> the way
a lack of oxygen will

895
00:37:41,795 --> 00:37:43,765
suck out a fire Yeah.

896
00:37:43,765 --> 00:37:46,405
Versus a fire burn even
quickly burning itself out.

897
00:37:46,565 --> 00:37:48,725
That, that makes sense to me now. Rah.

898
00:37:48,805 --> 00:37:50,485
Rahs being super helpful or not

899
00:37:50,485 --> 00:37:52,685
so helpful depending on your
perspective in the live chat.

900
00:37:52,985 --> 00:37:55,125
And I will relay because I too am super

901
00:37:55,125 --> 00:37:56,605
helpful slash not very.

902
00:37:56,635 --> 00:37:59,725
Yeah. Uh, rah rah says you
can make cupping sadistic

903
00:37:59,745 --> 00:38:01,845
by moving the cups and or twisting them.

904
00:38:01,845 --> 00:38:03,405
Twisting. Yep. I don't even know

905
00:38:03,405 --> 00:38:04,925
what the sensation actually is,

906
00:38:05,265 --> 00:38:08,005
but did my, everything
clinch at the thought of that

907
00:38:08,005 --> 00:38:11,885
because I, I have a sadistic daddy

908
00:38:12,025 --> 00:38:13,245
who is also a bratty daddy,

909
00:38:13,425 --> 00:38:15,685
and I could see a bratty,
sadistic daddy going Ha.

910
00:38:16,175 --> 00:38:21,125
Right. Like, they're like
dials. Oh my God. Oh my God.

911
00:38:22,075 --> 00:38:25,605
- Yeah. Yeah. And, and Jay
brought up a good point too.

912
00:38:25,865 --> 00:38:28,485
Um, one of the things,
when you have the jar

913
00:38:28,485 --> 00:38:29,725
and you swab it Mm-Hmm.

914
00:38:29,765 --> 00:38:30,765
<affirmative>, before you light it,

915
00:38:30,825 --> 00:38:32,165
you want to give it a couple shakes.

916
00:38:32,185 --> 00:38:35,405
- Gotcha. Okay.
- 'cause you don't want any liquid to

917
00:38:35,405 --> 00:38:36,605
- Still be in there,
- To still be in there

918
00:38:36,605 --> 00:38:39,005
because when you turn it
over, then it ooh, you,

919
00:38:39,005 --> 00:38:41,005
you don't want the
liquid to run down. Who,

920
00:38:41,265 --> 00:38:43,925
- Let me just say again, if
any of this is intriguing

921
00:38:43,945 --> 00:38:45,325
to you, don't do a fucking thing

922
00:38:45,325 --> 00:38:46,485
based on what we're talking about.

923
00:38:46,825 --> 00:38:49,165
Go fucking learn from people
who know what they've like,

924
00:38:49,165 --> 00:38:50,205
who have the experience.

925
00:38:50,225 --> 00:38:52,885
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Okay. Oh,

926
00:38:55,705 --> 00:38:58,125
so, oh my God.

927
00:38:59,065 --> 00:39:02,805
- So yeah, it, um, it was fun. Mm-Hmm.

928
00:39:02,845 --> 00:39:06,765
- <affirmative>.
- It was, um, it was interesting.

929
00:39:07,505 --> 00:39:10,805
Um, yeah. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Yeah.

930
00:39:10,885 --> 00:39:12,765
A lot of fun, you know?

931
00:39:12,945 --> 00:39:17,245
And, um, you know, don't
just run out and try it.

932
00:39:17,745 --> 00:39:21,925
Um, you know, a lot of things
to consider with this be,

933
00:39:21,925 --> 00:39:24,965
you know, to be be you
want to be safe, um,

934
00:39:27,305 --> 00:39:31,605
you know, and, um, yeah. Mm-Hmm?

935
00:39:31,645 --> 00:39:32,645
- <affirmative>. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

936
00:39:32,645 --> 00:39:36,085
- Yeah. Yeah. No. You
know, um, one of the, one

937
00:39:36,085 --> 00:39:37,245
of the things, um,

938
00:39:40,155 --> 00:39:41,965
they talked about was drips.

939
00:39:42,305 --> 00:39:44,725
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
- Um, especially

940
00:39:44,725 --> 00:39:47,765
with anything like when you're
doing the, the streaking, um,

941
00:39:48,065 --> 00:39:50,885
it is up to the bottom
if they feel anything

942
00:39:51,685 --> 00:39:53,005
dripping running Yeah.

943
00:39:53,025 --> 00:39:54,325
Or dripping down. Mm-Hmm.

944
00:39:54,365 --> 00:39:55,965
<affirmative> need to say
something immediately.

945
00:39:55,965 --> 00:39:57,525
- Gotcha. So then that would tell me

946
00:39:57,525 --> 00:40:00,325
that if you are a person
who, for any medically or

947
00:40:00,325 --> 00:40:03,725
otherwise, does not always
feel sensations easily on your

948
00:40:03,795 --> 00:40:08,325
skin, you're gonna wanna
find a workaround or rethink.

949
00:40:08,325 --> 00:40:09,245
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Because that Yeah,

950
00:40:09,245 --> 00:40:10,365
that sounds very important.

951
00:40:10,365 --> 00:40:11,765
That's how the fire
would just spread, right?

952
00:40:11,845 --> 00:40:13,605
'cause as long as the
liquid's there, then the fumes

953
00:40:13,905 --> 00:40:15,405
of the liquid are still still

954
00:40:15,405 --> 00:40:16,445
coming off of it, right? Yeah.

955
00:40:16,445 --> 00:40:18,845
- Yeah, yeah. Yeah. So
yeah, you want to, you want

956
00:40:18,845 --> 00:40:20,125
to be very careful with that.

957
00:40:20,665 --> 00:40:23,405
Um, you can do

958
00:40:25,035 --> 00:40:26,925
both either side of the body.

959
00:40:27,545 --> 00:40:30,925
Oh. Um, you want best case scenario,

960
00:40:31,105 --> 00:40:32,685
you want the person laying flat.

961
00:40:32,905 --> 00:40:34,085
Gotcha. Okay.

962
00:40:34,705 --> 00:40:37,165
Um, if they're standing up, you know,

963
00:40:37,165 --> 00:40:38,165
and you do a swab,

964
00:40:38,405 --> 00:40:40,325
everything's gonna tend to wanna run down.

965
00:40:40,385 --> 00:40:42,605
You want to keep everything as flat.

966
00:40:43,675 --> 00:40:44,675
- What
- If

967
00:40:44,675 --> 00:40:47,525
- As possible, you, yourself,
your body is not <laugh> flat.

968
00:40:47,635 --> 00:40:50,125
Well, I'm thinking, I'm thinking, okay.

969
00:40:50,385 --> 00:40:51,925
It could never be on my ass

970
00:40:51,925 --> 00:40:53,525
because there's nothing flat about that.

971
00:40:53,525 --> 00:40:56,085
Thankfully, thankfully, knock on one, uh,

972
00:40:56,175 --> 00:40:57,445
could not be on my front

973
00:40:57,445 --> 00:41:00,285
because nothing there
is flat either <laugh>.

974
00:41:01,505 --> 00:41:04,445
So, okay. I would be a
shoulders and back girly.

975
00:41:04,475 --> 00:41:07,445
Good to know. Good to know.
<laugh>, good to know.

976
00:41:08,485 --> 00:41:09,725
I know the valleys

977
00:41:09,945 --> 00:41:12,045
- Of this body well. Yes. Yes. There'd

978
00:41:12,045 --> 00:41:12,925
- Be, there'd be runoff.

979
00:41:12,925 --> 00:41:13,685
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. There'd just,

980
00:41:14,035 --> 00:41:15,035
- Yeah.

981
00:41:15,035 --> 00:41:17,165
And, and for that reason,
you know, there, there're

982
00:41:18,155 --> 00:41:19,325
someone laying on the back.

983
00:41:19,325 --> 00:41:22,245
You wanna stay away from the,
the butt crack, you know?

984
00:41:22,785 --> 00:41:25,605
Ooh, ooh. You don't, you
don't, you don't want get,

985
00:41:25,665 --> 00:41:27,605
you know, even if they're
laying down, you, you,

986
00:41:27,625 --> 00:41:28,725
you don't want to get anywhere.

987
00:41:28,725 --> 00:41:30,925
It's gonna be near that.
It could run into the arm

988
00:41:31,105 --> 00:41:32,105
- Pit.

989
00:41:32,105 --> 00:41:32,325
Yeah. Cracks and crevices. Yeah. You

990
00:41:32,325 --> 00:41:33,885
wanna, anything like that.
That makes sense. That

991
00:41:33,885 --> 00:41:34,885
- Makes sense.

992
00:41:34,885 --> 00:41:37,445
So, you know, those, those are all caveats

993
00:41:37,445 --> 00:41:40,605
and those are things you
need to know and understand

994
00:41:40,985 --> 00:41:42,565
before embarking upon this.

995
00:41:43,105 --> 00:41:45,525
- But also just go to some
demos and workshops and Yes.

996
00:41:45,695 --> 00:41:47,605
Learn from experienced folk.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Yeah.

997
00:41:47,605 --> 00:41:49,805
Yeah. Yeah. Just whew.

998
00:41:50,585 --> 00:41:52,085
- But it was, it was good. Mm-Hmm.

999
00:41:52,125 --> 00:41:53,725
- <affirmative>, you were gone,
you went on your adventure.

1000
00:41:53,725 --> 00:41:55,565
You were gone for 24 hours. Yep.

1001
00:41:55,925 --> 00:41:57,965
I handled that better than
I thought I would. Okay.

1002
00:41:58,025 --> 00:42:00,765
But you know what I learned?
Okay, so we had this,

1003
00:42:01,145 --> 00:42:02,365
it wasn't a full conversation.

1004
00:42:02,565 --> 00:42:05,885
I was just throwing out rando
shit for my brain yesterday.

1005
00:42:06,625 --> 00:42:07,885
And I think, oh, it was

1006
00:42:07,885 --> 00:42:11,565
because in our discord server, um,

1007
00:42:11,745 --> 00:42:14,365
we have an episode discussion thread.

1008
00:42:14,825 --> 00:42:16,885
Um, and folks have started using it

1009
00:42:16,885 --> 00:42:18,685
and go in there, talk about
whether it's the short

1010
00:42:18,685 --> 00:42:20,005
episodes or the long episodes.

1011
00:42:20,005 --> 00:42:21,285
If they have thoughts,
they'll go talk about it.

1012
00:42:21,285 --> 00:42:23,565
And we, the group got into
a conversation about mm-Hmm.

1013
00:42:23,605 --> 00:42:25,605
<affirmative>, um, being non-monogamous

1014
00:42:25,785 --> 00:42:27,525
and, um, some different views on it.

1015
00:42:28,225 --> 00:42:30,085
And so it got us talking about that.

1016
00:42:31,265 --> 00:42:35,085
And, um, I said, I said
that ev first of all,

1017
00:42:35,155 --> 00:42:37,045
I've said it many years, I'm non monogamy

1018
00:42:37,045 --> 00:42:38,085
in theory, not in practice.

1019
00:42:39,105 --> 00:42:41,365
Um, <laugh>, look,

1020
00:42:41,805 --> 00:42:43,645
I am never gonna seek
out another human being.

1021
00:42:43,945 --> 00:42:47,365
Me sending an email to JB, um,

1022
00:42:48,545 --> 00:42:50,645
was a once in a lifetime thing. Okay.

1023
00:42:50,945 --> 00:42:53,245
- The, the planets were
aligned at that moment.

1024
00:42:53,435 --> 00:42:54,765
Just Yeah, yeah,

1025
00:42:55,675 --> 00:42:56,675
- Yeah.

1026
00:42:56,675 --> 00:42:58,925
Mercury was in the microwave.
It, it just all worked out.

1027
00:42:59,195 --> 00:43:02,645
Mercury, <laugh>, I can, I mean,

1028
00:43:03,005 --> 00:43:04,445
I couldn't have in Sure, sure.

1029
00:43:04,465 --> 00:43:05,525
But man, those stars will

1030
00:43:05,525 --> 00:43:06,685
really have to fucking align again.

1031
00:43:06,685 --> 00:43:07,965
Yeah. So, um,

1032
00:43:09,425 --> 00:43:11,885
but every time

1033
00:43:13,595 --> 00:43:17,925
something in our life centers
around your non-monogamy,

1034
00:43:18,725 --> 00:43:20,245
I have to confront something about myself.

1035
00:43:20,245 --> 00:43:22,525
Like, I just, I go through it. Okay.

1036
00:43:23,145 --> 00:43:27,485
And I always realize once
I hurt my own feelings, um,

1037
00:43:27,925 --> 00:43:30,565
<laugh>, once I stop hurting
my own feelings, I should say

1038
00:43:30,715 --> 00:43:32,565
that it is always a thing within me.

1039
00:43:32,715 --> 00:43:36,165
It's like stuff from my
childhood, it's stuff from other,

1040
00:43:36,315 --> 00:43:38,805
like, it's all that it's
not about, you know,

1041
00:43:40,665 --> 00:43:42,605
not wanting to do this

1042
00:43:42,825 --> 00:43:44,005
or not being comfortable

1043
00:43:44,005 --> 00:43:46,005
with it is always stuff,
internal stuff to me.

1044
00:43:46,005 --> 00:43:48,765
But I figured out a thing
that, how did it get us

1045
00:43:48,765 --> 00:43:50,525
to 10 years before I figured this out?

1046
00:43:51,485 --> 00:43:52,845
I was fine

1047
00:43:53,315 --> 00:43:57,285
because as you did major
transitions, not, oh, we're going

1048
00:43:57,285 --> 00:43:58,645
to a meal now and then
we're going to this.

1049
00:43:58,825 --> 00:44:02,805
But like, um, I'm on the road headed

1050
00:44:02,905 --> 00:44:04,045
to blah blah place.

1051
00:44:04,285 --> 00:44:05,845
I have arrived at blah blah place,

1052
00:44:06,025 --> 00:44:07,085
I'm leaving, blah, blah place.

1053
00:44:07,085 --> 00:44:08,725
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>, you
would just send me a real quick

1054
00:44:08,725 --> 00:44:12,765
text and go, Hey, leaving
location arrived at location.

1055
00:44:12,785 --> 00:44:14,605
Yep. And so, in my mind, I
kind of knew where you were.

1056
00:44:14,805 --> 00:44:16,165
I didn't have to know what was going on.

1057
00:44:16,205 --> 00:44:17,325
I understood we had a conversation,

1058
00:44:17,625 --> 00:44:19,285
but like, I didn't like my brain.

1059
00:44:19,385 --> 00:44:21,365
I'm, I was not filling in blanks.

1060
00:44:21,525 --> 00:44:24,725
I just, I just had a sense of
where you were in the journey.

1061
00:44:24,785 --> 00:44:25,885
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. <laugh>.

1062
00:44:25,985 --> 00:44:29,645
And so I was just so much fucking calmer

1063
00:44:29,665 --> 00:44:32,445
and I don't know, I mean,
could I psychoanalyze it?

1064
00:44:32,445 --> 00:44:34,005
Yeah. Gimme a, a few minutes,

1065
00:44:34,145 --> 00:44:35,285
but I don't really feel like it Mm-Hmm.

1066
00:44:35,325 --> 00:44:37,285
<affirmative>. And so I
don't exactly know what

1067
00:44:37,285 --> 00:44:40,605
that is about, but it just
made for a much easier time.

1068
00:44:41,755 --> 00:44:45,565
Yeah. I mean, did you fuck my

1069
00:44:45,565 --> 00:44:46,845
brains out before you left?

1070
00:44:46,845 --> 00:44:49,125
That helped <laugh>.
That also helped <laugh>.

1071
00:44:49,755 --> 00:44:53,165
That also helped. Um, so yeah.

1072
00:44:53,405 --> 00:44:55,685
I mean, it was, I was, I was happy for you

1073
00:44:55,835 --> 00:44:57,845
because, you know, you
wanted to go do the thing.

1074
00:44:57,845 --> 00:44:58,845
You got to go do the thing.

1075
00:44:59,425 --> 00:45:00,845
Um, I was proud of me

1076
00:45:01,065 --> 00:45:02,965
for not hurting my own goddamn feelings.

1077
00:45:02,965 --> 00:45:07,285
That's, that is the problem.
Every time. Time, every time.

1078
00:45:07,605 --> 00:45:09,645
<laugh>. And I think part of it is, is

1079
00:45:09,645 --> 00:45:13,005
because you, you have not had,
since we've been together,

1080
00:45:13,385 --> 00:45:16,685
the opportunity to go have your adventures

1081
00:45:17,405 --> 00:45:19,085
consistently correct.

1082
00:45:19,315 --> 00:45:20,885
Like, you might have had a partner

1083
00:45:20,985 --> 00:45:23,325
and you might see them once
every six months, once a year.

1084
00:45:23,385 --> 00:45:24,565
It was mostly online. It was

1085
00:45:24,565 --> 00:45:25,725
mostly by phone, stuff like that.

1086
00:45:26,665 --> 00:45:31,525
And so me navigating it from
my little side, which is

1087
00:45:32,305 --> 00:45:35,005
all my internal stuff, just
isn't consistent enough.

1088
00:45:35,005 --> 00:45:37,685
Right. And I'm so 10 years
into our relationship,

1089
00:45:37,885 --> 00:45:40,685
I am still learning shit
about myself every time.

1090
00:45:40,685 --> 00:45:43,725
Like I, I'm still getting
to new comfort levels,

1091
00:45:43,815 --> 00:45:45,525
which is fascinating to me.

1092
00:45:45,545 --> 00:45:49,045
And I'm annoyed 'cause I'm
like, I, I am fine with this.

1093
00:45:49,145 --> 00:45:50,805
I'm legitimately okay with this.

1094
00:45:51,725 --> 00:45:54,245
I would like to be mentally healthier.

1095
00:45:54,525 --> 00:45:56,045
<laugh> though that wouldn't we all

1096
00:45:56,045 --> 00:45:57,725
that wouldn't we all know?

1097
00:45:58,265 --> 00:46:01,565
Um, yeah. So yeah. So yeah.
But that's the thing I learned.

1098
00:46:01,915 --> 00:46:04,165
Okay. I learned like just, I don't need

1099
00:46:04,165 --> 00:46:05,925
to know all the details, what you

1100
00:46:06,625 --> 00:46:08,565
are comfortable telling
me when you get back.

1101
00:46:08,565 --> 00:46:10,485
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> based
on my comfort level as well.

1102
00:46:10,485 --> 00:46:12,525
Right. I actually don't
wanna know a lot of details.

1103
00:46:12,525 --> 00:46:14,125
That feels too much like voyeurism to me.

1104
00:46:14,145 --> 00:46:17,325
And I'm just like, Nope,
nope. No, thank you.

1105
00:46:17,985 --> 00:46:21,965
Um, but like the stuff that I
think what it is, is the stuff

1106
00:46:22,045 --> 00:46:24,965
that is about your health.

1107
00:46:25,025 --> 00:46:26,765
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> like your wellbeing

1108
00:46:27,355 --> 00:46:28,485
that I want to fucking know.

1109
00:46:28,755 --> 00:46:31,325
Well, sorry. Sorry.

1110
00:46:31,905 --> 00:46:33,685
Um, a bitch will lose her fucking mind

1111
00:46:33,865 --> 00:46:35,045
if something happens to jb.

1112
00:46:35,155 --> 00:46:37,485
Okay. <laugh>. Oh, he didn't know.

1113
00:46:37,705 --> 00:46:41,245
He has to be immortal now,
but here we are. Okay.

1114
00:46:42,105 --> 00:46:44,605
Um, but yeah, so that Yeah. Yeah.

1115
00:46:44,745 --> 00:46:47,045
The thing I learned, okay.
On your kinky adventure

1116
00:46:47,945 --> 00:46:51,765
- And, uh, folks are
wondering about the, uh,

1117
00:46:51,905 --> 00:46:53,285
- My finger caught
- The, the finger.

1118
00:46:53,945 --> 00:46:54,965
Um, you know, yeah.

1119
00:46:55,105 --> 00:46:58,485
You, you, you, you,
you totally ruined, uh,

1120
00:46:58,505 --> 00:47:00,285
the company's safety record here.

1121
00:47:00,355 --> 00:47:03,845
- Yeah. OSHA's gonna
hate us. Yeah. <laugh>.

1122
00:47:04,105 --> 00:47:06,605
So podcast listeners, you cannot see. No.

1123
00:47:06,945 --> 00:47:11,765
And you might have seen
if you, it's very niche.

1124
00:47:11,985 --> 00:47:14,285
You have to follow the kry on Instagram

1125
00:47:15,025 --> 00:47:16,725
and look at our stories

1126
00:47:18,205 --> 00:47:20,485
consistently enough not
to ever miss a story.

1127
00:47:20,625 --> 00:47:23,405
So that was like, what, four
of you. That's fine. <laugh>.

1128
00:47:25,115 --> 00:47:28,125
Okay. Um, I hurt my thumb.

1129
00:47:28,685 --> 00:47:30,645
I actually hurt my pointer finger.

1130
00:47:30,745 --> 00:47:32,645
Or actually the very bottom like joint

1131
00:47:32,835 --> 00:47:34,085
just below my pointer finger.

1132
00:47:35,065 --> 00:47:38,405
Two separate accidents,
10 minutes apart <laugh>,

1133
00:47:38,515 --> 00:47:42,285
because I'm, sometimes I'm slow

1134
00:47:42,585 --> 00:47:43,725
to learn from a mistake.

1135
00:47:43,955 --> 00:47:48,005
Okay. So, um, I'm not gonna show

1136
00:47:48,365 --> 00:47:49,485
'cause I don't wanna gross anybody out

1137
00:47:49,585 --> 00:47:51,365
and I'm gonna try not to describe it too

1138
00:47:51,365 --> 00:47:52,605
much 'cause I don't
wanna gross anybody out.

1139
00:47:52,605 --> 00:47:53,885
So I'm gonna gloss over some

1140
00:47:53,885 --> 00:47:54,885
- Of that.

1141
00:47:54,885 --> 00:47:55,405
Basically she's got a boo booo,

1142
00:47:56,025 --> 00:47:57,765
- Hey, this is a little bit more than a,

1143
00:47:57,765 --> 00:47:58,925
it did not require stitches,

1144
00:47:59,025 --> 00:48:01,565
but it is a little bit
more than a random boo boo

1145
00:48:01,565 --> 00:48:03,445
because this is gonna
suck for a few weeks.

1146
00:48:03,625 --> 00:48:07,805
Anyway, I was out in the garage,

1147
00:48:08,235 --> 00:48:10,165
that shop while JB was out in the

1148
00:48:10,165 --> 00:48:11,245
tiny shop behind the house.

1149
00:48:11,325 --> 00:48:13,285
I was in the garage and
I was working on our

1150
00:48:13,485 --> 00:48:14,565
resin inlay paddles.

1151
00:48:15,305 --> 00:48:18,805
And the process that we have
come to for pouring resin

1152
00:48:19,145 --> 00:48:20,965
and getting it to do
right and blah, blah blah.

1153
00:48:21,265 --> 00:48:25,005
It involves, um, there
being a point in time

1154
00:48:25,135 --> 00:48:27,445
where something, things
that are stuck to the wood

1155
00:48:27,445 --> 00:48:28,645
that are not supposed to be there.

1156
00:48:29,075 --> 00:48:32,005
Some of it comes off with
me using a putty knife.

1157
00:48:32,425 --> 00:48:36,965
Now have I had close calls
since we started this method?

1158
00:48:37,345 --> 00:48:39,325
And have I questioned, should I be allowed

1159
00:48:39,325 --> 00:48:40,325
to use the putty knife?

1160
00:48:40,895 --> 00:48:42,365
Knife implies blade.

1161
00:48:42,465 --> 00:48:45,365
The rule is Kayla don't
have to be around blades

1162
00:48:45,925 --> 00:48:46,965
'cause it ain't safe for anybody.

1163
00:48:47,505 --> 00:48:50,085
But I've mostly been fine, had
close calls. I've been fine.

1164
00:48:50,985 --> 00:48:53,885
Two Tuesday morning I
go out into the garage

1165
00:48:53,905 --> 00:48:55,325
and I'm starting to try

1166
00:48:55,325 --> 00:48:58,005
and get this thing off
the paddle to prep it

1167
00:48:58,005 --> 00:49:00,525
for sanding tomorrow with the putty knife.

1168
00:49:00,865 --> 00:49:04,125
And I'm not paying enough
attention to placement of

1169
00:49:04,755 --> 00:49:07,605
hand holding the wood and placement

1170
00:49:07,605 --> 00:49:09,685
and angle of putty knife in my right hand.

1171
00:49:09,745 --> 00:49:11,285
And I go and I just swoop

1172
00:49:11,545 --> 00:49:14,005
and the corner of this dirty ass fucking

1173
00:49:14,135 --> 00:49:15,485
putty knife Oh my god.

1174
00:49:16,115 --> 00:49:20,685
Goes right into the bottom joint under,

1175
00:49:20,895 --> 00:49:22,045
below my pointer finger.

1176
00:49:22,305 --> 00:49:23,645
And it's just like a cut, quick cut.

1177
00:49:23,685 --> 00:49:25,685
I mean, I watched it just slide right

1178
00:49:25,685 --> 00:49:26,685
- In.

1179
00:49:26,685 --> 00:49:27,725
Yeah. Now under understand something

1180
00:49:27,795 --> 00:49:31,125
because of what this,

1181
00:49:31,235 --> 00:49:33,485
this particular putty knife is used

1182
00:49:33,665 --> 00:49:35,325
for several different
things. <laugh>. It's

1183
00:49:35,585 --> 00:49:36,585
- So dirty.

1184
00:49:36,585 --> 00:49:39,685
- Okay. Yes it is. It is. It's dirty.

1185
00:49:40,905 --> 00:49:43,885
Um, but, um,

1186
00:49:44,325 --> 00:49:48,285
I have a old wheel from
a grind grind wheel.

1187
00:49:48,285 --> 00:49:50,245
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
And I actually take,

1188
00:49:50,345 --> 00:49:54,085
and I run the edges that
sense to keep it sharp

1189
00:49:54,395 --> 00:49:56,285
because of what I do it.

1190
00:49:56,545 --> 00:49:58,645
- So that's why it just
glided into my hand.

1191
00:49:58,645 --> 00:50:00,405
Like cutting through butter.
Yeah. Okay. Good to know.

1192
00:50:00,435 --> 00:50:02,285
- It's, it's like a, it's sharpened like a

1193
00:50:02,285 --> 00:50:03,285
- Knife.

1194
00:50:03,285 --> 00:50:04,285
It's always effective. Okay. <laugh>.

1195
00:50:04,385 --> 00:50:07,365
So I go, I'm like pissed at
myself. 'cause that was stupid.

1196
00:50:07,485 --> 00:50:09,325
I just wasn't paying attention.
I go into the bathroom,

1197
00:50:09,445 --> 00:50:13,205
I clean it off, put a
waterproof, um, bandaid on it.

1198
00:50:13,325 --> 00:50:14,325
'cause I'm gonna be wearing gloves

1199
00:50:14,345 --> 00:50:15,605
and my hands get sweat, blah.

1200
00:50:15,865 --> 00:50:16,925
I'm like, okay, okay.

1201
00:50:16,945 --> 00:50:19,245
And I walk out of the
bathroom going, you know what?

1202
00:50:19,245 --> 00:50:21,205
Today might not be the
day to be doing anything

1203
00:50:21,205 --> 00:50:22,885
with a fucking putty knife, <laugh>.

1204
00:50:23,785 --> 00:50:26,725
And I, I have that thought.

1205
00:50:27,745 --> 00:50:29,285
And then apparently when I got back

1206
00:50:29,285 --> 00:50:30,565
to the garage, I forgot that thought.

1207
00:50:30,585 --> 00:50:34,285
And I went, no, no. As
long as I'm careful, I,

1208
00:50:34,445 --> 00:50:35,645
I know what I did wrong here.

1209
00:50:35,995 --> 00:50:39,085
I'll just be careful. It'll be fine.

1210
00:50:41,285 --> 00:50:44,445
I had, but I, I had been,

1211
00:50:44,805 --> 00:50:47,525
I had barely used the putty
knife this second time

1212
00:50:47,525 --> 00:50:49,645
after I'd had the thought
of maybe I should not.

1213
00:50:49,665 --> 00:50:52,165
And oh, we fine. I had
barely done anything.

1214
00:50:52,345 --> 00:50:55,285
And not only, and I really did
think I had placed everything

1215
00:50:55,645 --> 00:50:57,685
properly, but I just,
I lost control of it.

1216
00:50:58,025 --> 00:50:59,805
That's why I'm not allowed
to run blades, y'all.

1217
00:51:00,345 --> 00:51:04,005
And it went into the tip of my thumb

1218
00:51:04,305 --> 00:51:06,725
and threw into my fingernail.

1219
00:51:07,865 --> 00:51:10,525
So it, the cut starts
at the tip of my thumb

1220
00:51:10,545 --> 00:51:14,365
and goes right into my
fingernail, almost to the side

1221
00:51:14,365 --> 00:51:15,605
of my thumb.

1222
00:51:16,155 --> 00:51:17,645
Like, not quite, but almost

1223
00:51:17,785 --> 00:51:21,885
- Now, I will say, um,
- Silent.

1224
00:51:22,065 --> 00:51:23,765
We are not up to date our tetanus

1225
00:51:23,765 --> 00:51:24,765
- Shots.

1226
00:51:24,765 --> 00:51:27,245
That's the problem.
<laugh>. She's not. No.

1227
00:51:27,645 --> 00:51:30,125
- I think my last one
was when I was like 18

1228
00:51:30,365 --> 00:51:31,365
- <laugh>.

1229
00:51:31,365 --> 00:51:33,525
Oh yeah. We, we need,
we need to, uh, yeah.

1230
00:51:33,525 --> 00:51:35,725
We, we need to, uh, yeah. I

1231
00:51:35,885 --> 00:51:36,885
- Probably need a
- Tetanus shot.

1232
00:51:36,885 --> 00:51:38,245
Yeah. Next time we go to the need

1233
00:51:38,245 --> 00:51:39,565
to mention something about that.

1234
00:51:39,715 --> 00:51:41,405
Yeah. Yeah. So,

1235
00:51:42,225 --> 00:51:46,805
but, um, anyway, um, you know, some

1236
00:51:46,805 --> 00:51:51,285
of y'all may kind of like
cringe a little bit about this,

1237
00:51:51,705 --> 00:51:55,405
but, um, it was probably a good thing

1238
00:51:55,915 --> 00:51:58,565
that the putty knife was sharp.

1239
00:51:58,865 --> 00:52:00,685
Mm. Because it is a clean

1240
00:52:01,035 --> 00:52:02,035
- True.

1241
00:52:02,035 --> 00:52:02,765
True, true, true. And I
have heard that before.

1242
00:52:02,935 --> 00:52:03,965
- Clean, clean cut.

1243
00:52:04,185 --> 00:52:07,365
- And it, and the pain from
it actually came once my brain

1244
00:52:07,365 --> 00:52:08,885
processed what the fuck I had just done.

1245
00:52:08,885 --> 00:52:12,565
Yeah. So now I am pissed at myself

1246
00:52:12,675 --> 00:52:16,725
because I <laugh> I just,
are you fucking kidding me?

1247
00:52:16,725 --> 00:52:17,765
10 minutes ago. Yeah.

1248
00:52:18,185 --> 00:52:20,565
But I'm also scared 'cause
this is a way bigger cut.

1249
00:52:20,595 --> 00:52:22,685
Like I didn't pull back in time. Yeah.

1250
00:52:23,305 --> 00:52:26,805
And I know fingernail stuff,
man, that shit fucking hurts.

1251
00:52:26,805 --> 00:52:29,325
And it hurts for a long time
because it's gotta grow out.

1252
00:52:29,325 --> 00:52:31,365
And I'm like, fuck. So, and I,

1253
00:52:31,385 --> 00:52:33,365
and it's too big of a cut for me to like,

1254
00:52:33,365 --> 00:52:34,925
it wasn't like putting a
bandaid on this other one.

1255
00:52:35,145 --> 00:52:36,805
So I go into the bathroom

1256
00:52:37,325 --> 00:52:38,645
'cause I want to immediately
get it under water.

1257
00:52:38,765 --> 00:52:39,965
I don't know if that's
what I'm supposed to do,

1258
00:52:39,985 --> 00:52:41,605
but there was just
enough blood that I went,

1259
00:52:41,635 --> 00:52:45,205
this should not be allowed to
just freely whatever, blow.

1260
00:52:45,945 --> 00:52:47,765
Not not through the house
anyway, <laugh>. Yeah.

1261
00:52:48,585 --> 00:52:50,405
And I actually picked up my phone

1262
00:52:50,745 --> 00:52:53,685
and I called JB from the bathroom and

1263
00:52:53,685 --> 00:52:55,605
- Went, yeah, I
- Need your help.

1264
00:52:55,885 --> 00:52:59,845
I the putting, and I can't
do this by myself. <laugh>.

1265
00:52:59,845 --> 00:53:03,565
- So yeah. She, she was working,
doing this in the garage.

1266
00:53:04,195 --> 00:53:08,445
Yeah. And I was working
in, in the backyard,

1267
00:53:08,465 --> 00:53:10,445
in the tiny shop and,

1268
00:53:10,585 --> 00:53:14,485
and I was, um, sharpening a
basket of knives. <laugh>,

1269
00:53:14,495 --> 00:53:15,605
- Ironically. Yeah.

1270
00:53:15,925 --> 00:53:20,485
- <laugh> <laugh>. And, and my phone rings

1271
00:53:21,345 --> 00:53:22,365
and, and when I'm working,

1272
00:53:22,965 --> 00:53:25,165
I pretty much ignore my phone. I know.

1273
00:53:25,485 --> 00:53:27,525
- I would've was gonna have to
keep calling and keep calling

1274
00:53:27,715 --> 00:53:28,715
- Yeah.

1275
00:53:28,715 --> 00:53:32,525
- If you didn't answer.
- And, um, luckily, I,

1276
00:53:32,725 --> 00:53:35,565
I have her on a special, um, ringtone

1277
00:53:36,265 --> 00:53:38,605
so I know it's you. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

1278
00:53:38,625 --> 00:53:39,845
- Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
- And,

1279
00:53:39,985 --> 00:53:42,565
and I heard, heard the ringtone

1280
00:53:42,625 --> 00:53:44,245
and I immediately shut everything down

1281
00:53:45,345 --> 00:53:47,085
and answered and yeah.

1282
00:53:47,095 --> 00:53:49,845
She's like, I need you
to come in and help me.

1283
00:53:49,865 --> 00:53:51,205
And I'm trying, I start, I'm injured.

1284
00:53:51,645 --> 00:53:53,005
- I start trying to tell the story

1285
00:53:53,065 --> 00:53:54,605
and he just goes, I'll be right there.

1286
00:53:55,085 --> 00:53:57,885
<laugh>. <laugh>. I was like,
yeah, I, I guess I don't have

1287
00:53:57,885 --> 00:53:59,365
to, it's not like I'm waiting for him

1288
00:53:59,365 --> 00:54:00,805
to get home 20 minutes from now.

1289
00:54:00,955 --> 00:54:04,005
- Yeah. Yeah.
- So he, uh, it didn't,

1290
00:54:04,005 --> 00:54:05,085
it wasn't hurting that bad.

1291
00:54:05,105 --> 00:54:07,485
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Um,
I was, the pain part was,

1292
00:54:07,585 --> 00:54:09,165
was really not, it was just more

1293
00:54:09,165 --> 00:54:10,365
of a, oh God, I can't believe I did that.

1294
00:54:10,445 --> 00:54:12,125
I was, I was crying, but I was crying.

1295
00:54:12,225 --> 00:54:14,005
Not because it was in pain or scared, but

1296
00:54:14,005 --> 00:54:15,565
because I was so pissed off at myself.

1297
00:54:15,715 --> 00:54:19,605
Yeah. And we have had,
we do not have the luxury

1298
00:54:20,225 --> 00:54:22,165
of an injury, first of all,

1299
00:54:22,485 --> 00:54:23,485
- <laugh>
- Or for me

1300
00:54:23,485 --> 00:54:25,125
to be outta commission
and not be able to work.

1301
00:54:25,155 --> 00:54:27,485
That is, yeah. Like it's just

1302
00:54:27,545 --> 00:54:29,045
not a fucking option right now.

1303
00:54:29,045 --> 00:54:33,845
Mm-Hmm. Um, so I was stress
crying and he comes in

1304
00:54:33,865 --> 00:54:36,605
and he, um, I told him, I was like,

1305
00:54:36,745 --> 00:54:38,365
the one thing you will
not do is put fucking

1306
00:54:38,365 --> 00:54:39,725
liquid bandage on this one.

1307
00:54:39,865 --> 00:54:42,325
You're not coming at me with that fire

1308
00:54:42,455 --> 00:54:43,455
- Shake.

1309
00:54:43,455 --> 00:54:46,525
When, when I, when I hurt
my finger with the, uh,

1310
00:54:46,925 --> 00:54:50,605
pressure washer and I put
the liquid bandage on it, um,

1311
00:54:52,465 --> 00:54:55,165
not much ever really makes me react.

1312
00:54:55,345 --> 00:54:57,125
- You tend to be pretty stoic about, you

1313
00:54:57,125 --> 00:54:58,685
- Know, that kind of stuff. Yeah. Um,

1314
00:54:59,185 --> 00:55:01,045
- He screamed
- Young. I, I yelled. Yeah.

1315
00:55:01,745 --> 00:55:04,045
- And I was like, oh, I'll
never use liquid bandage.

1316
00:55:04,355 --> 00:55:06,965
Ever, ever, ever.

1317
00:55:08,225 --> 00:55:10,365
Now at that point, he did have
a literal hole in his palm,

1318
00:55:10,365 --> 00:55:11,485
even though he wants to call it a cut.

1319
00:55:11,485 --> 00:55:12,565
It was gouge. Whatever, whatever.

1320
00:55:12,565 --> 00:55:14,885
We, we talked about that last
week, I think. Anyway, it

1321
00:55:14,885 --> 00:55:15,885
- Was a scratch.

1322
00:55:16,875 --> 00:55:17,965
- Yeah. <laugh>.

1323
00:55:18,785 --> 00:55:21,885
Anyway, so he gets a bandaid

1324
00:55:22,065 --> 00:55:23,245
and it's, of course the top

1325
00:55:23,245 --> 00:55:25,005
of your fucking finger is the
worst place to get something.

1326
00:55:25,245 --> 00:55:27,965
'cause you can't easily like
just wrap it up without like,

1327
00:55:28,495 --> 00:55:30,005
saran wrapping up actually <laugh>.

1328
00:55:30,065 --> 00:55:32,125
So he gets a bandaid on, it's
still, it's still bleeding.

1329
00:55:33,065 --> 00:55:36,245
He puts this, um, thumb, I guess finger.

1330
00:55:36,525 --> 00:55:37,645
I don't know if it's made specifically

1331
00:55:37,645 --> 00:55:38,685
for thumbs or it's for any

1332
00:55:38,685 --> 00:55:39,685
- Finger.

1333
00:55:39,685 --> 00:55:39,885
It's fanny finger. Yeah.

1334
00:55:40,025 --> 00:55:42,885
- Um, puts this gauze
finger thing over it.

1335
00:55:43,185 --> 00:55:45,165
So it's like a sock instead of a condom.

1336
00:55:45,385 --> 00:55:48,245
And then he takes this
plastic little thing

1337
00:55:48,245 --> 00:55:50,525
that is literally rolled up
like a fucking condom y'all.

1338
00:55:50,865 --> 00:55:53,085
And rolls it over and it protects it.

1339
00:55:53,365 --> 00:55:54,805
'cause I was gonna go
back out and work. Mm-Hmm.

1340
00:55:54,845 --> 00:55:58,245
<affirmative>. I was not
that injured. And so I walked

1341
00:55:58,245 --> 00:56:01,285
around and it, man, it, it
was tight around this finger.

1342
00:56:01,285 --> 00:56:02,645
Yeah. And I wore it like that all day.

1343
00:56:02,765 --> 00:56:04,645
'cause I was just constantly
going and doing and whatever.

1344
00:56:05,345 --> 00:56:06,965
And last night we just kind

1345
00:56:06,965 --> 00:56:09,085
of put a bandaid over 'cause
it wasn't bleeding anymore.

1346
00:56:09,465 --> 00:56:12,085
But this morning I
needed to take that off.

1347
00:56:12,205 --> 00:56:13,925
I needed to wash the
finger. I needed to. Yeah.

1348
00:56:14,105 --> 00:56:18,605
But then something got close
to the fingernail <laugh>.

1349
00:56:18,605 --> 00:56:21,005
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
And I went, oh, oh no.

1350
00:56:21,435 --> 00:56:24,765
This can't be left out
for my clumsy ass to

1351
00:56:24,835 --> 00:56:25,835
- Hang in <laugh>.

1352
00:56:25,835 --> 00:56:28,125
That's, that, that's gonna be
very, very, it's gonna suck.

1353
00:56:28,155 --> 00:56:30,165
Yeah. It's gonna be
tender for a while. This

1354
00:56:30,165 --> 00:56:31,165
- Is gonna suck.

1355
00:56:31,165 --> 00:56:33,765
Because what I was noticing
that I didn't see yesterday,

1356
00:56:33,765 --> 00:56:35,125
it couldn't 'cause it was bleeding.

1357
00:56:35,505 --> 00:56:38,085
Um, the nail is already
where that slice is,

1358
00:56:38,085 --> 00:56:40,365
is already widening.

1359
00:56:40,435 --> 00:56:42,405
It's not lifting off the nail bed yet.

1360
00:56:42,525 --> 00:56:45,085
I don't know if it will,
but it's widening where

1361
00:56:45,085 --> 00:56:46,845
between the, the two sides.

1362
00:56:47,945 --> 00:56:49,845
And I know if I try to clip that nail

1363
00:56:49,865 --> 00:56:52,445
or whatever as it goes
up until it like heals

1364
00:56:52,445 --> 00:56:54,845
underneath the cut itself, I guess heals,

1365
00:56:54,915 --> 00:56:56,045
it's gonna fucking hurt.

1366
00:56:56,745 --> 00:56:58,965
And so we have today, we,

1367
00:56:58,965 --> 00:57:02,405
we wanna protect the finger
condoms, like hold onto them

1368
00:57:02,405 --> 00:57:04,245
because those are for when
you're working out in the shop

1369
00:57:04,245 --> 00:57:06,205
or you know you're gonna
get your hands wet or dirty.

1370
00:57:06,225 --> 00:57:07,525
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. And I'll have

1371
00:57:07,525 --> 00:57:09,285
to wear one tomorrow if I
go work out in the shop.

1372
00:57:09,465 --> 00:57:12,525
So today it's a piece of
gauze with medical tape.

1373
00:57:12,805 --> 00:57:14,085
- <laugh>. Yeah. <laugh>.

1374
00:57:14,465 --> 00:57:16,525
And it's my whole, and,

1375
00:57:16,525 --> 00:57:18,605
and you know, silent made a good point.

1376
00:57:18,845 --> 00:57:21,045
I have plenty of super glue in the shop.

1377
00:57:21,185 --> 00:57:25,045
- You're not coming at me with
none of that bullshit. Okay.

1378
00:57:25,245 --> 00:57:27,605
I understand. Super glue is
used to heal up once. Yeah.

1379
00:57:27,605 --> 00:57:29,685
That's lovely. Stay away from me. Okay.

1380
00:57:29,925 --> 00:57:33,005
<laugh>, stay away from
me. Stay away from me.

1381
00:57:33,685 --> 00:57:35,805
- I mean, I've done it before.
I mean, you, you, you go

1382
00:57:35,805 --> 00:57:38,165
to a, you go to an er with,
and that's what they do.

1383
00:57:38,265 --> 00:57:40,165
And they put, they put super glue on it.

1384
00:57:40,185 --> 00:57:41,725
So, you know. I know, I know. But

1385
00:57:41,725 --> 00:57:42,725
- No, no, thank you.

1386
00:57:42,945 --> 00:57:44,365
Now what? I don't know
'cause I don't wanna

1387
00:57:44,365 --> 00:57:45,525
make assumptions 'cause God knows.

1388
00:57:45,525 --> 00:57:46,645
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. I
love y'all, but every one

1389
00:57:46,645 --> 00:57:47,645
of y'all will fucking correct me.

1390
00:57:47,925 --> 00:57:52,605
<laugh>. Comparing the
sensation of liquid bandage.

1391
00:57:53,515 --> 00:57:57,045
What does super glue feel
like when you put it in?

1392
00:57:57,045 --> 00:58:00,365
A wound doesn't burn.
Mm-Hmm. Not even, not even a

1393
00:58:00,705 --> 00:58:01,705
- No.

1394
00:58:01,705 --> 00:58:03,125
- Do you feel it?
- A little bit?

1395
00:58:04,795 --> 00:58:06,725
- What do you feel? Describe that

1396
00:58:06,745 --> 00:58:07,645
- Please. Little tingle.

1397
00:58:07,915 --> 00:58:10,125
- Nope. Nope. I don't even
want to tingle <laugh>. Nope,

1398
00:58:10,755 --> 00:58:14,205
- Nope,
- Nope,

1399
00:58:16,275 --> 00:58:18,485
nope, nope,

1400
00:58:19,075 --> 00:58:20,085
- Nope, nope, nope.

1401
00:58:20,375 --> 00:58:21,965
- Thank you. Silent. She called it.

1402
00:58:22,105 --> 00:58:24,885
She said for anybody who can't
see live chat, she goes, liar

1403
00:58:25,465 --> 00:58:26,465
- Things.

1404
00:58:28,145 --> 00:58:30,005
- No. Like, look. Yes.

1405
00:58:30,065 --> 00:58:31,725
The er and hospitals use it,

1406
00:58:31,725 --> 00:58:34,325
but they, you know what,
they also use numbing agents,

1407
00:58:34,505 --> 00:58:35,845
so you don't have to feel shit.

1408
00:58:38,935 --> 00:58:41,955
Do you have a numbing agent?
So I don't have to feel shit.

1409
00:58:41,955 --> 00:58:42,995
Look, get me drunk

1410
00:58:43,535 --> 00:58:45,115
and I'll let you do
whatever the fuck you want

1411
00:58:45,335 --> 00:58:48,435
to my thumb except liquid
bandage. That will always be a

1412
00:58:48,435 --> 00:58:49,435
- Red.

1413
00:58:49,435 --> 00:58:51,755
The numbing agent is when
I, when I step on your toe

1414
00:58:52,615 --> 00:58:54,435
and then your toe hurts, you forget about

1415
00:58:54,435 --> 00:58:56,075
what I'm super gluing <laugh>.

1416
00:59:04,735 --> 00:59:07,155
- No, no, no.

1417
00:59:08,655 --> 00:59:09,835
So yeah. That's why my

1418
00:59:09,995 --> 00:59:10,995
- Thumbs rush.

1419
00:59:10,995 --> 00:59:13,795
And, and Felix said it's
the same stuff. Yeah.

1420
00:59:13,975 --> 00:59:17,995
And, and I believe the liquid
bandage, it's just kind of,

1421
00:59:18,415 --> 00:59:21,605
um, thinned down. It's not as,

1422
00:59:21,905 --> 00:59:22,905
- As astringent maybe.

1423
00:59:22,905 --> 00:59:24,405
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Yeah. Gotcha. Yep.

1424
00:59:24,865 --> 00:59:26,405
So we're after one o'clock

1425
00:59:26,425 --> 00:59:27,485
and under normal circumstances

1426
00:59:27,485 --> 00:59:28,605
we go, we go into the bonus section.

1427
00:59:28,805 --> 00:59:30,045
I actually have not told one

1428
00:59:30,045 --> 00:59:31,125
of the things that's on my mind.

1429
00:59:31,225 --> 00:59:33,605
And I, this is just a
long rambly thing. Okay.

1430
00:59:33,785 --> 00:59:36,525
And I would like to get off
the top of my thumb if I can.

1431
00:59:36,755 --> 00:59:40,485
Okay. Before I go into what you
know is a rant slash ramble,

1432
00:59:40,645 --> 00:59:42,725
'cause I made you go through
the first iteration of it.

1433
00:59:43,225 --> 00:59:45,765
Uh, is there anything else
on your mind? <laugh>,

1434
00:59:48,665 --> 00:59:50,925
- Excuse me. No, go for

1435
00:59:50,925 --> 00:59:51,925
- It.

1436
00:59:51,925 --> 00:59:54,405
Okay. First though, uh, love
not hate says that's hilarious.

1437
00:59:54,405 --> 00:59:56,885
Hearing from acus. What
if j JB put it on you?

1438
00:59:56,885 --> 00:59:59,205
First of all, there's good
pain and there's bad pain.

1439
00:59:59,605 --> 01:00:02,645
<laugh> the liquid bandage, super glue.

1440
01:00:03,395 --> 01:00:06,365
Just putting the fucking bandaid
on is all bad pain. Okay.

1441
01:00:06,645 --> 01:00:10,525
<laugh>, do not consent to
it. <laugh>. Um, okay. Okay.

1442
01:00:10,795 --> 01:00:15,105
Okay. Okay. This week, right

1443
01:00:15,105 --> 01:00:16,465
before I finished my tear druker

1444
01:00:16,465 --> 01:00:19,385
that I was rambling about
earlier I read, I read a book

1445
01:00:19,385 --> 01:00:23,705
that I'd actually been
not nervous to read,

1446
01:00:23,705 --> 01:00:26,625
but I worried it would not
live up to my expectations.

1447
01:00:26,975 --> 01:00:31,145
Okay. The book is called
To Collar A Queen by Zara

1448
01:00:31,145 --> 01:00:34,545
or Zara, Blake or Black.

1449
01:00:35,345 --> 01:00:36,665
Hmm. I don't remember anymore.

1450
01:00:37,405 --> 01:00:39,865
Um, but the title is to
call her a Queen. Okay.

1451
01:00:40,005 --> 01:00:44,705
And it is kinky. It's definitely
kinky. It is well written.

1452
01:00:44,805 --> 01:00:46,745
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. It
was like, this was not one

1453
01:00:46,745 --> 01:00:48,145
of those where I was like, good Lord, dad.

1454
01:00:48,205 --> 01:00:49,425
Why did you describe it like that?

1455
01:00:49,425 --> 01:00:51,905
There you could have said
the same thing, like with

1456
01:00:52,565 --> 01:00:53,665
80 less words.

1457
01:00:53,665 --> 01:00:55,265
Like, like none of that. None of that.

1458
01:00:55,405 --> 01:00:58,585
It was well written, well crafted. Okay.

1459
01:00:59,325 --> 01:01:01,945
And the premise was interesting.

1460
01:01:02,045 --> 01:01:03,505
And there's Jamie's phone ringing.

1461
01:01:04,205 --> 01:01:05,665
The premise was really interesting.

1462
01:01:05,805 --> 01:01:10,545
So this is a world where
there are different kingdoms.

1463
01:01:10,925 --> 01:01:14,505
And the humans, um, several hundred years

1464
01:01:14,525 --> 01:01:19,345
before had fought off,
um, the Fay, right, um,

1465
01:01:20,235 --> 01:01:23,905
fairy kind of thing, but not
fairy like Tinkerbell the Fay.

1466
01:01:24,485 --> 01:01:25,625
But prior to fighting them off,

1467
01:01:25,625 --> 01:01:26,705
they'd been enslaved by them.

1468
01:01:27,625 --> 01:01:29,195
They fought like a war

1469
01:01:29,195 --> 01:01:32,235
or whatever, pushed them
back to like their side

1470
01:01:32,235 --> 01:01:33,275
of like the veil.

1471
01:01:33,275 --> 01:01:34,595
They didn't use the term the veil,

1472
01:01:34,595 --> 01:01:37,435
but if you read like fairy stuff, you,

1473
01:01:37,535 --> 01:01:38,755
you would think of it that way.

1474
01:01:39,455 --> 01:01:44,115
Um, and they had been fee free
in their world on their side

1475
01:01:44,115 --> 01:01:45,315
of this barrier thing.

1476
01:01:45,835 --> 01:01:48,275
Actually, it's like a portal,
um, for a few hundred years.

1477
01:01:48,495 --> 01:01:49,955
But what had started happening

1478
01:01:49,965 --> 01:01:51,755
after they pushed the Faye out,

1479
01:01:51,775 --> 01:01:56,355
and it was just humans
again, is periodically women,

1480
01:01:56,565 --> 01:02:00,435
adult women only adult women,
not children, not men, would

1481
01:02:01,225 --> 01:02:02,755
kind of air quote become Fay.

1482
01:02:02,755 --> 01:02:04,515
They called them
changelings. Like one day.

1483
01:02:04,515 --> 01:02:05,875
They're, they're normal humans. South.

1484
01:02:05,875 --> 01:02:10,155
The next day they have these
bright burning blue eyes.

1485
01:02:10,265 --> 01:02:11,915
They have enhanced abilities.

1486
01:02:12,615 --> 01:02:16,355
Um, they have, um, like
stronger senses, better sense

1487
01:02:16,355 --> 01:02:19,365
of smell, whatever they can
shoot fire from their hands.

1488
01:02:19,585 --> 01:02:21,805
Um, when they change,
when these women change,

1489
01:02:21,875 --> 01:02:23,325
it's usually uncontrollable.

1490
01:02:23,325 --> 01:02:25,005
They don't even know
what's happening to them.

1491
01:02:25,345 --> 01:02:26,685
But, so they accidentally kill

1492
01:02:26,685 --> 01:02:28,325
people when they first change.

1493
01:02:29,425 --> 01:02:32,645
Um, and over these hundreds of years,

1494
01:02:33,625 --> 01:02:37,805
what's developed is that
once you are a changeling,

1495
01:02:38,105 --> 01:02:40,165
you are no longer hu considered human.

1496
01:02:40,825 --> 01:02:42,205
And you are treated

1497
01:02:42,265 --> 01:02:45,045
as if you were almost
like a dangerous animal.

1498
01:02:46,905 --> 01:02:47,965
Um, because there's

1499
01:02:47,965 --> 01:02:51,965
so much hatred in this world for the Faye.

1500
01:02:52,025 --> 01:02:55,365
So anybody who becomes Faye
is immediately a threat,

1501
01:02:55,635 --> 01:02:59,765
immediately, like not seen
as human, um, othered.

1502
01:02:59,825 --> 01:03:03,125
And then because as they're
freak figuring out something's

1503
01:03:03,125 --> 01:03:05,725
different with them, they, this
power busts out their hands.

1504
01:03:05,785 --> 01:03:07,685
And pe innocent people often die.

1505
01:03:07,875 --> 01:03:09,405
They're considered completely dangerous.

1506
01:03:09,545 --> 01:03:13,925
So originally in the lore of
this world, they were enslaved.

1507
01:03:13,995 --> 01:03:15,205
They were imprisoned.

1508
01:03:15,865 --> 01:03:20,085
But the thinking goes is that
Faye, if you don't find a way

1509
01:03:20,085 --> 01:03:22,045
to like deal with 'em, they become feral

1510
01:03:22,045 --> 01:03:23,885
because they're closer
to animal than human

1511
01:03:23,915 --> 01:03:26,685
because of the prejudices
of the Faye world.

1512
01:03:27,145 --> 01:03:29,405
So you get that as
backstory pretty quickly.

1513
01:03:29,515 --> 01:03:30,565
None of that's a spoiler.

1514
01:03:31,395 --> 01:03:34,245
Very early in the book, this
queen who's only been a queen

1515
01:03:34,245 --> 01:03:37,805
for six months, who wants
to change how the Faye,

1516
01:03:37,825 --> 01:03:40,605
the Changelings, are treated
in her, at least her kingdom,

1517
01:03:41,305 --> 01:03:43,605
but hasn't been able to get
through the power structures

1518
01:03:43,605 --> 01:03:48,125
of it on her 20th birthday party changes.

1519
01:03:49,065 --> 01:03:51,085
And she is then immediately subjected to

1520
01:03:51,585 --> 01:03:54,565
how changelings are
treated in this world now.

1521
01:03:55,425 --> 01:03:58,045
So they found out that
imprisoning them, enslaving them

1522
01:03:58,045 --> 01:04:00,365
to do manual labor, even
letting them go back home

1523
01:04:00,365 --> 01:04:02,645
to their families ended
up being dangerous.

1524
01:04:02,645 --> 01:04:05,285
People tended to die, um, either

1525
01:04:05,465 --> 01:04:08,645
as they claimed the
changelings went feral.

1526
01:04:09,345 --> 01:04:11,485
Um, they were just dangerous.

1527
01:04:11,745 --> 01:04:15,365
So the main character,
the male main character,

1528
01:04:15,875 --> 01:04:16,965
made his fortune.

1529
01:04:17,705 --> 01:04:20,725
So he's got incentive here by figuring out

1530
01:04:20,725 --> 01:04:24,205
that if you could turn these
changeling women into pleasure

1531
01:04:24,385 --> 01:04:26,965
slaves, they became a lot more docile.

1532
01:04:27,665 --> 01:04:30,605
You could, they were
less dangerous <laugh>,

1533
01:04:30,605 --> 01:04:34,045
but they were still seen as
subhuman, non-human animalistic.

1534
01:04:34,625 --> 01:04:37,965
So you get this sort of bit of backstory

1535
01:04:38,985 --> 01:04:40,285
as the queen changes.

1536
01:04:40,545 --> 01:04:43,005
And I am immediately, this is
like chapter one, chapter two,

1537
01:04:43,025 --> 01:04:44,885
I'm like, this is so fucking unfair.

1538
01:04:45,355 --> 01:04:48,285
What the hell? And the trigger warnings

1539
01:04:48,285 --> 01:04:51,005
for this book are
non-consent, dubious consent,

1540
01:04:51,025 --> 01:04:52,885
and then other like sexual kinky things.

1541
01:04:53,505 --> 01:04:55,445
The non-consent and the dubious consent

1542
01:04:55,505 --> 01:04:56,645
are very fucking real.

1543
01:04:57,705 --> 01:05:00,125
So she has the same, and,

1544
01:05:00,125 --> 01:05:02,205
and the way changelings are described

1545
01:05:02,345 --> 01:05:04,685
before the queen changes is that they

1546
01:05:05,335 --> 01:05:06,765
can't even think like humans,

1547
01:05:06,835 --> 01:05:08,965
they lose their sense of
selves, blah, blah, blah.

1548
01:05:09,705 --> 01:05:12,685
We watch the Queen change and
she's got all her faculties.

1549
01:05:12,775 --> 01:05:14,765
She's got extra ability.
She doesn't how to control.

1550
01:05:15,425 --> 01:05:18,445
Um, apparently changeling women are sort

1551
01:05:18,445 --> 01:05:19,565
of much more sexual.

1552
01:05:19,875 --> 01:05:24,405
They, they respond to sexual
stuff, uh, more strongly.

1553
01:05:25,985 --> 01:05:27,845
But her thoughts are still her own,

1554
01:05:27,865 --> 01:05:29,805
her personality is
essentially still the same.

1555
01:05:30,545 --> 01:05:31,965
She is captured

1556
01:05:32,465 --> 01:05:35,085
and goes off to trained
to be a pleasure slave.

1557
01:05:35,185 --> 01:05:36,965
Now, plot twist that you find out very

1558
01:05:36,965 --> 01:05:38,085
early, it's not a spoiler.

1559
01:05:38,385 --> 01:05:40,245
The guy who trains pleasure slaves

1560
01:05:40,245 --> 01:05:42,565
and figured out this method
for making them more docile,

1561
01:05:43,075 --> 01:05:45,445
when she found out what
he did to make his money,

1562
01:05:45,845 --> 01:05:46,845
'cause she was supposed to marry him,

1563
01:05:46,865 --> 01:05:48,005
she broke off the engagement

1564
01:05:48,005 --> 01:05:50,565
and went, oh fuck no, I,
I'm not okay with this.

1565
01:05:51,125 --> 01:05:53,485
Hmm. Now we never get a sense
of she's not okay with it

1566
01:05:53,645 --> 01:05:56,605
because it's completely
non-consensual or if it's

1567
01:05:56,765 --> 01:05:59,445
'cause it's like all sex
was like too much for her.

1568
01:05:59,565 --> 01:06:02,445
I never, never did figure that out. Okay.

1569
01:06:02,445 --> 01:06:03,845
So that's, that's all the backstory.

1570
01:06:03,845 --> 01:06:05,365
That's like, that's the setup

1571
01:06:05,665 --> 01:06:07,205
for why this very well-written,

1572
01:06:07,205 --> 01:06:10,565
well-crafted book has given
me some thoughts and feelings.

1573
01:06:11,825 --> 01:06:13,965
The system they live in is built on

1574
01:06:13,965 --> 01:06:15,445
prejudice and oppression.

1575
01:06:15,445 --> 01:06:18,645
Right? Which gee have, where
have we heard of that before?

1576
01:06:19,545 --> 01:06:22,565
So it's a romance and it's
considered a dark romance.

1577
01:06:22,945 --> 01:06:24,605
And the two main characters,

1578
01:06:24,755 --> 01:06:28,405
they f they do find their
version of a happily ever after.

1579
01:06:29,345 --> 01:06:33,925
But because there was no consent up

1580
01:06:33,925 --> 01:06:37,325
until a certain point, I
couldn't even enjoy these fairly

1581
01:06:37,325 --> 01:06:38,485
well written kink scenes.

1582
01:06:38,485 --> 01:06:40,045
Like, I was like, oh, look, I don't see,

1583
01:06:40,045 --> 01:06:41,445
you seen some paddles and some canes

1584
01:06:41,445 --> 01:06:43,125
and some crops and oh, okay.

1585
01:06:43,185 --> 01:06:44,645
And oh, collars

1586
01:06:44,645 --> 01:06:49,485
and the sort of inspired
by gorian slave positions

1587
01:06:49,665 --> 01:06:51,125
and using one's body.

1588
01:06:51,225 --> 01:06:54,725
I'm like, this, this
should be so sexy to me.

1589
01:06:55,185 --> 01:06:58,125
But all I could think
was, this is so unfair.

1590
01:06:59,065 --> 01:07:01,845
You've got the, the monarch
of your fucking country

1591
01:07:01,845 --> 01:07:03,965
that they then, the way
their, their system is,

1592
01:07:03,965 --> 01:07:05,565
they basically treat
them like they're dead

1593
01:07:05,565 --> 01:07:06,725
because they're no longer human.

1594
01:07:06,725 --> 01:07:08,765
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.
So they even have a,

1595
01:07:08,765 --> 01:07:10,805
like a fake funeral for people who change

1596
01:07:10,805 --> 01:07:12,645
because their spirit has died.

1597
01:07:12,665 --> 01:07:14,205
And yet we're in the queen's head.

1598
01:07:14,205 --> 01:07:15,485
And I'm like, no, the fuck it hasn't.

1599
01:07:15,745 --> 01:07:18,325
She just has abilities that she
doesn't know how to control.

1600
01:07:18,945 --> 01:07:21,565
And she's kind of pissed
because she's in prison

1601
01:07:21,745 --> 01:07:23,565
and being made to do things
she doesn't want to do.

1602
01:07:23,565 --> 01:07:27,485
Guess what? Uh, I, I probably lash out too

1603
01:07:27,705 --> 01:07:30,725
and probably seem to go a
little feral too, right?

1604
01:07:31,045 --> 01:07:33,645
<laugh>. So this whole
time I'm thinking, okay,

1605
01:07:33,735 --> 01:07:34,805
we're getting through and yeah,

1606
01:07:34,805 --> 01:07:36,045
we're going through the non-consent.

1607
01:07:36,045 --> 01:07:38,085
And that's, that's, you get

1608
01:07:38,085 --> 01:07:39,405
to have your feelings about that, right?

1609
01:07:39,405 --> 01:07:41,085
Whether in fantasy or not. Mm-Hmm.

1610
01:07:41,125 --> 01:07:42,605
<affirmative> dubious consent. Okay?

1611
01:07:43,825 --> 01:07:47,525
But I keep waiting for
the, but this is unfair

1612
01:07:47,525 --> 01:07:52,125
because at no point in the story
do we get proof in the real

1613
01:07:52,125 --> 01:07:54,325
time of the story that, oh,

1614
01:07:54,325 --> 01:07:56,845
look at this feral changeling
who's no longer human.

1615
01:07:57,255 --> 01:07:58,485
We're told about it.

1616
01:07:59,345 --> 01:08:01,885
But since we're never
given context about, well,

1617
01:08:01,885 --> 01:08:04,005
what was this person's
circumstances, right?

1618
01:08:05,105 --> 01:08:07,565
Did they go feral because
they never had an outlet

1619
01:08:07,625 --> 01:08:10,445
for dealing with oppression
and their anger and whatever?

1620
01:08:11,065 --> 01:08:12,485
Or were they mistreated?

1621
01:08:12,485 --> 01:08:14,285
Because one, you're trained
to be a pleasure slave.

1622
01:08:14,385 --> 01:08:17,125
And then the thing that's
supposed to be the guiding light

1623
01:08:17,125 --> 01:08:18,165
and that makes it all better,

1624
01:08:18,225 --> 01:08:22,205
is this guy who's developed
this system, he handpicks

1625
01:08:22,425 --> 01:08:24,645
who these pleasure slaves are sold off to.

1626
01:08:24,985 --> 01:08:26,285
And if they are mistreated

1627
01:08:26,505 --> 01:08:29,125
and he finds out about
it, he takes 'em back.

1628
01:08:29,215 --> 01:08:30,805
Right? And he doesn't let you keep them.

1629
01:08:30,805 --> 01:08:33,045
And he's blacklisted folks from being able

1630
01:08:33,045 --> 01:08:34,725
to own one of his pleasure slaves.

1631
01:08:34,785 --> 01:08:36,885
But as with all systems,

1632
01:08:37,345 --> 01:08:40,605
people found a workaround
in very illegal, inhumane,

1633
01:08:40,895 --> 01:08:42,005
awful, awful ways.

1634
01:08:42,465 --> 01:08:46,725
And he was so like, oblivious to it.

1635
01:08:46,745 --> 01:08:49,205
It wasn't until the queen who's now

1636
01:08:49,915 --> 01:08:53,765
this pleasure slave is entrapped
in, in that, that he goes,

1637
01:08:53,905 --> 01:08:56,245
oh, I should have known, but I didn't.

1638
01:08:56,245 --> 01:08:59,565
And I'm like, right, <laugh>.

1639
01:08:59,665 --> 01:09:03,085
And so then at the end, I
won't, I don't wanna split.

1640
01:09:03,325 --> 01:09:06,365
'cause if you, if this intrigues
you, feel free to read it.

1641
01:09:06,385 --> 01:09:08,725
If, if you're like, okay, okay,
I'm not doing non-consent,

1642
01:09:08,965 --> 01:09:09,965
I totally understand that.

1643
01:09:10,065 --> 01:09:12,245
But I, I need other people to read this.

1644
01:09:12,405 --> 01:09:14,845
'cause I need to know if I'm
completely seeing this wrong.

1645
01:09:15,385 --> 01:09:18,245
No. Are we on audio?

1646
01:09:18,465 --> 01:09:19,965
I'm gonna keep going
'cause podcast listeners.

1647
01:09:19,965 --> 01:09:24,045
But for a, uh, for
video folks, um, if you,

1648
01:09:24,045 --> 01:09:25,165
hopefully you can still hear my voice

1649
01:09:26,225 --> 01:09:27,765
so you can keep talking.

1650
01:09:28,175 --> 01:09:31,325
Sorry for the interruption.
So I kind of need somebody

1651
01:09:31,325 --> 01:09:35,325
to read this book with me
to see if this is, if like,

1652
01:09:35,325 --> 01:09:36,325
if I'm just misreading it.

1653
01:09:36,325 --> 01:09:40,765
Because by the end, this
one guy who controls this

1654
01:09:41,545 --> 01:09:45,565
one, um, part of this pleasure slave

1655
01:09:47,185 --> 01:09:52,005
is decided he will make changes
from what he can control.

1656
01:09:53,465 --> 01:09:57,005
Um, but it doesn't, it
doesn't change the system.

1657
01:09:57,305 --> 01:09:59,045
It doesn't change what the monarchy does.

1658
01:09:59,045 --> 01:10:00,045
It doesn't change the government.

1659
01:10:00,045 --> 01:10:01,485
It doesn't change how everybody's treated.

1660
01:10:01,715 --> 01:10:04,685
It's just the few people he can
control how they're treated.

1661
01:10:05,345 --> 01:10:09,155
Um, and I just like

1662
01:10:11,905 --> 01:10:14,075
what I wanted, I wanted them
to have their happy ending,

1663
01:10:14,145 --> 01:10:16,555
even though I could certainly
make the argument of it.

1664
01:10:16,555 --> 01:10:17,915
Because what happens is

1665
01:10:17,915 --> 01:10:19,075
because she's still a pleasure slave.

1666
01:10:19,075 --> 01:10:20,515
They, the collars help.
We'll, back, by the way.

1667
01:10:20,515 --> 01:10:22,675
Yeah, I see that the collars
help minimize their power.

1668
01:10:22,735 --> 01:10:24,155
So they can't be lashing out everywhere.

1669
01:10:24,215 --> 01:10:27,595
And I actually don't un
blame that part at all,

1670
01:10:27,595 --> 01:10:29,435
because there was nobody
there to teach them

1671
01:10:29,435 --> 01:10:30,715
what the fuck to do with their powers.

1672
01:10:30,735 --> 01:10:34,715
And they in high emotion,
um, when they're scared,

1673
01:10:34,715 --> 01:10:36,995
when they're angry, they could hurt people

1674
01:10:36,995 --> 01:10:38,555
because they had these powers
they didn't understand.

1675
01:10:38,555 --> 01:10:39,795
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. So like the

1676
01:10:39,795 --> 01:10:40,995
collar part didn't even bother me.

1677
01:10:41,265 --> 01:10:44,915
That was fine. I could like,
I could see an argument for

1678
01:10:44,915 --> 01:10:47,555
that at least at the
beginning stages of all this.

1679
01:10:48,735 --> 01:10:50,595
But the queen never had
to be a queen again,

1680
01:10:50,955 --> 01:10:54,715
<laugh> <laugh>, she air
quote, chose her partner.

1681
01:10:55,095 --> 01:10:56,235
But did she,

1682
01:10:56,235 --> 01:10:57,835
because she never got

1683
01:10:59,295 --> 01:11:03,155
to fully decide her own life
in full agency ever again.

1684
01:11:03,895 --> 01:11:05,595
Um, there was never any point

1685
01:11:05,595 --> 01:11:08,275
where you could see if
there was a societal change,

1686
01:11:08,655 --> 01:11:11,275
the things she was allowed
to do, no spoilers at the end

1687
01:11:11,465 --> 01:11:13,525
because she's having her happy ever after.

1688
01:11:14,055 --> 01:11:17,045
We're still couldn't
be known by everybody.

1689
01:11:18,385 --> 01:11:23,325
And so I'm like, like, am I
just too idealistic to think

1690
01:11:23,325 --> 01:11:26,445
that the happy ending shouldn't
just be for the character.

1691
01:11:26,465 --> 01:11:30,325
It should be that, hey,
maybe we can find a way

1692
01:11:30,325 --> 01:11:33,885
to undo this system of
oppression and change it.

1693
01:11:34,425 --> 01:11:36,925
And you know, maybe it was
the author meant to imply that

1694
01:11:36,925 --> 01:11:38,885
by saying, this one
person will make a change.

1695
01:11:38,885 --> 01:11:40,685
And so that's how change is made slowly.

1696
01:11:41,365 --> 01:11:45,645
I could even see how the way it ends

1697
01:11:45,645 --> 01:11:49,005
and who the new monarch becomes, like,

1698
01:11:49,175 --> 01:11:50,445
maybe, but there's nothing.

1699
01:11:50,495 --> 01:11:52,445
Maybe I need it more spelled out for me.

1700
01:11:52,905 --> 01:11:54,285
It was too open-ended

1701
01:11:54,285 --> 01:11:56,205
and there was nothing that
gave a clear direction

1702
01:11:56,205 --> 01:11:59,565
that this system will not always be here.

1703
01:11:59,625 --> 01:12:02,325
It will change. You're not
getting to see it in this book,

1704
01:12:02,865 --> 01:12:04,365
but it, the possibility is there.

1705
01:12:04,365 --> 01:12:08,125
And I'm like, I, this is
such a well written book.

1706
01:12:08,345 --> 01:12:10,365
The kink was fairly well written.

1707
01:12:10,725 --> 01:12:12,765
I got into the kink once she was

1708
01:12:13,315 --> 01:12:16,605
more enthusiastically involved
in what was happening.

1709
01:12:16,605 --> 01:12:18,565
And it wasn't happening to her.

1710
01:12:19,955 --> 01:12:23,805
Like, I can suspend disbelief

1711
01:12:24,145 --> 01:12:28,285
and kind of like in my dark
fantasy kind of thing, go along

1712
01:12:28,285 --> 01:12:29,805
with stuff that I would never be okay

1713
01:12:29,805 --> 01:12:32,325
with in real life if it makes sense.

1714
01:12:33,145 --> 01:12:35,325
But there were all
these suppositions about

1715
01:12:35,345 --> 01:12:36,405
who changelings were

1716
01:12:36,675 --> 01:12:39,565
that we never actually
saw in the text for real.

1717
01:12:39,825 --> 01:12:42,885
So that told me that they were
just using their hatred of

1718
01:12:42,885 --> 01:12:45,165
what had happened to their
ancestors few hundred years

1719
01:12:45,445 --> 01:12:47,445
before as the basis for their hate.

1720
01:12:47,445 --> 01:12:48,765
And it wasn't based in reality.

1721
01:12:48,765 --> 01:12:50,445
Like if the story had been, oh no,

1722
01:12:50,445 --> 01:12:51,925
they really do go fucking feral.

1723
01:12:51,925 --> 01:12:53,205
Let me show you how this works

1724
01:12:53,585 --> 01:12:56,445
and this is the best way
to keep everybody safe.

1725
01:12:56,995 --> 01:12:59,765
Then I could've gone, okay, okay,

1726
01:12:59,875 --> 01:13:01,925
this I'll suspend disbelieve
this kind of makes sense.

1727
01:13:01,925 --> 01:13:03,085
But it was not like that.

1728
01:13:03,425 --> 01:13:05,205
The, the prejudice

1729
01:13:05,345 --> 01:13:08,525
and the bigotry was like just
right there in your face.

1730
01:13:08,745 --> 01:13:12,125
And it, it like never
really got addressed.

1731
01:13:12,915 --> 01:13:16,725
Like, I dunno, it made what was

1732
01:13:16,725 --> 01:13:18,245
otherwise a really good book.

1733
01:13:18,785 --> 01:13:20,445
So fucking disappointing to me.

1734
01:13:31,765 --> 01:13:33,085
I just <laugh>

1735
01:13:33,425 --> 01:13:37,085
and I knew, I I came across the book, um,

1736
01:13:37,545 --> 01:13:39,565
in sponsored posts on Instagram.

1737
01:13:40,445 --> 01:13:43,405
I read a sample of it to
see, that's my new trick

1738
01:13:43,405 --> 01:13:45,325
for making sure I don't DNF do not

1739
01:13:45,325 --> 01:13:46,405
finish all kinds of books.

1740
01:13:46,725 --> 01:13:48,205
<laugh>. I read a sample
if it's available,

1741
01:13:48,705 --> 01:13:50,565
if the sample pulls me
in, I'll read the book.

1742
01:13:50,595 --> 01:13:52,005
Even if it's not what
I would normally read.

1743
01:13:52,825 --> 01:13:54,045
Sample pulled me in.

1744
01:13:54,585 --> 01:13:57,765
But the sample shows you
shows the Queen changing.

1745
01:13:58,825 --> 01:14:01,565
And me realizing within
like two, three chapters

1746
01:14:01,625 --> 01:14:04,885
how unfair what's about
to happen to her is like,

1747
01:14:04,885 --> 01:14:06,085
it was unfair anyway,

1748
01:14:06,185 --> 01:14:07,685
but getting to see it through her eyes.

1749
01:14:07,785 --> 01:14:10,165
It just, for a reader, it
made it that much more real

1750
01:14:10,165 --> 01:14:12,085
because you were going, like,

1751
01:14:12,085 --> 01:14:14,045
before you were being told
this is what they're like

1752
01:14:14,065 --> 01:14:15,165
and you're like, are they?

1753
01:14:15,945 --> 01:14:17,805
And then you're learning in
real time with the character

1754
01:14:17,805 --> 01:14:19,325
that this is, this is awful.

1755
01:14:19,465 --> 01:14:21,525
And so I was actually
dreading reading the book

1756
01:14:21,725 --> 01:14:24,085
'cause I was thinking it,

1757
01:14:24,145 --> 01:14:26,885
is it gonna be unfair the
whole fucking way through?

1758
01:14:26,905 --> 01:14:28,685
Now look, I know life
is unfair. I get that.

1759
01:14:28,685 --> 01:14:31,685
But come on, it's fantasy and romance.

1760
01:14:32,205 --> 01:14:34,725
I, I, yes, things can be unfair,

1761
01:14:34,825 --> 01:14:39,605
but give me, give me
the unrealistic <laugh>

1762
01:14:40,165 --> 01:14:41,485
<laugh>, uh, ability to go, oh,

1763
01:14:41,485 --> 01:14:42,525
how life really can be

1764
01:14:42,525 --> 01:14:43,685
fixed if people will just work together.

1765
01:14:43,685 --> 01:14:44,965
Which we all know is true, but we

1766
01:14:44,965 --> 01:14:46,045
all know people don't
always work together.

1767
01:14:46,045 --> 01:14:47,045
Like, you know what I mean? Right.

1768
01:14:48,385 --> 01:14:49,565
And I dreaded reading it

1769
01:14:49,685 --> 01:14:51,365
'cause I was very worried it was gonna be

1770
01:14:51,545 --> 01:14:53,085
unfair the whole way through.

1771
01:14:53,265 --> 01:14:57,525
And I am so sorry to my logical
thinking analytical brain.

1772
01:14:57,585 --> 01:14:59,085
It was unfair the whole way through.

1773
01:14:59,085 --> 01:15:00,645
Even with her finding her happy ending

1774
01:15:00,955 --> 01:15:03,045
because the way life is structured,

1775
01:15:03,235 --> 01:15:04,645
what if she changed her mind tomorrow?

1776
01:15:04,825 --> 01:15:08,085
It was no longer happy.
Sucks to suck. I guess.

1777
01:15:08,275 --> 01:15:13,165
Like I just, And I

1778
01:15:13,165 --> 01:15:15,485
kind of wish I had read
the, the Gore books

1779
01:15:15,485 --> 01:15:18,765
because there was kind of this
whole, oh, these women have

1780
01:15:18,765 --> 01:15:19,765
to be enslaved

1781
01:15:19,785 --> 01:15:21,405
for their own good and
they're pleasure slaves.

1782
01:15:21,405 --> 01:15:25,165
And there's like all that
like, it, it made me think of

1783
01:15:25,165 --> 01:15:28,405
what I think the Gore books
are probably kind of like,

1784
01:15:28,705 --> 01:15:31,285
but since I didn't read
them, what I don't know is,

1785
01:15:31,285 --> 01:15:34,885
does the gorian world, even
by suspending disbelief,

1786
01:15:34,885 --> 01:15:36,645
y'all make sense, right?

1787
01:15:36,755 --> 01:15:39,205
Like this, in this world
that's been crafted,

1788
01:15:39,205 --> 01:15:43,525
it air quote has to be this
way because of the system

1789
01:15:43,545 --> 01:15:44,765
and the world and

1790
01:15:44,765 --> 01:15:47,245
what in the world air
quote actually happens.

1791
01:15:47,505 --> 01:15:49,805
Mm-Hmm <affirmative>.
And, and I don't know

1792
01:15:49,925 --> 01:15:51,805
'cause I've never read those
books, so I can't answer that.

1793
01:15:51,985 --> 01:15:55,005
But if that's the case, then that to me is

1794
01:15:55,005 --> 01:15:56,005
where this book falls down

1795
01:15:56,005 --> 01:15:57,485
because we are seeing all the evidence of

1796
01:15:57,485 --> 01:15:58,845
where it doesn't have to be this way.

1797
01:15:58,845 --> 01:15:59,885
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>, they are

1798
01:16:00,285 --> 01:16:01,445
choosing for it to be this way.

1799
01:16:01,865 --> 01:16:05,725
And it is actively harming
people because of that.

1800
01:16:06,035 --> 01:16:08,965
Like, the whole third act conflict was

1801
01:16:08,965 --> 01:16:13,485
because the system, even
while trying to be fair

1802
01:16:13,505 --> 01:16:17,485
and kind to these women
still created space

1803
01:16:17,745 --> 01:16:19,445
for people to abuse it.

1804
01:16:19,465 --> 01:16:22,245
And for people to you, I just, oh,

1805
01:16:28,005 --> 01:16:28,925
- I don't know. <laugh>

1806
01:16:29,605 --> 01:16:31,165
- Ophelia said maybe
she'll write a second book.

1807
01:16:31,185 --> 01:16:34,605
And this is a prequel. I
went to look at her, uh,

1808
01:16:34,605 --> 01:16:36,845
author website and there's no indication

1809
01:16:36,845 --> 01:16:38,325
that doesn't mean something won't change.

1810
01:16:38,325 --> 01:16:39,645
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>,
this is considered a

1811
01:16:39,645 --> 01:16:41,445
standalone as far as I could tell.

1812
01:16:41,445 --> 01:16:42,925
It didn't look like there
were any other books

1813
01:16:42,925 --> 01:16:44,165
even of that universe.

1814
01:16:44,185 --> 01:16:47,205
And I could not see if
there was any plan for there

1815
01:16:47,265 --> 01:16:48,565
to be more.

1816
01:16:49,025 --> 01:16:51,005
If there are, if there if that happened,

1817
01:16:51,085 --> 01:16:52,365
I would read them just so I could kind

1818
01:16:52,365 --> 01:16:53,845
of get the satisfaction
of going, okay, do we,

1819
01:16:53,905 --> 01:16:55,245
do we move this forward a little bit?

1820
01:16:55,745 --> 01:16:58,245
Do we actively change these things?

1821
01:16:59,665 --> 01:17:02,165
But it is, the way it was advertised

1822
01:17:02,165 --> 01:17:03,805
to me is yes, it's dark.

1823
01:17:04,025 --> 01:17:06,525
And yes, there's, you definitely
read the trigger warnings.

1824
01:17:06,525 --> 01:17:09,685
Like, for real, for real.
But like, it's, it's a fun,

1825
01:17:09,985 --> 01:17:11,005
you know, dark romance.

1826
01:17:11,145 --> 01:17:14,525
And I'm like, this is not fun,
<laugh>, I'm not having fun.

1827
01:17:15,185 --> 01:17:17,405
I'm ready to ride a dawn for these women.

1828
01:17:18,315 --> 01:17:19,605
This is some bullshit. Like,

1829
01:17:20,505 --> 01:17:24,485
and just as does happen
in, in systemic crap,

1830
01:17:24,815 --> 01:17:26,325
there were people who did benefit.

1831
01:17:26,585 --> 01:17:29,485
One of the, the women
that rose up to as much

1832
01:17:29,485 --> 01:17:30,805
of a leadership position

1833
01:17:30,865 --> 01:17:34,445
as a woman can attain in this
system within the training,

1834
01:17:34,625 --> 01:17:37,605
the guys training place, she, um,

1835
01:17:37,905 --> 01:17:39,245
had been in an abusive marriage.

1836
01:17:39,265 --> 01:17:42,005
And when she got her powers,
she went, oh shoot, fire

1837
01:17:42,665 --> 01:17:43,805
boo burned his ass.

1838
01:17:43,805 --> 01:17:45,965
And I went, good for you
sister. Good for you.

1839
01:17:46,585 --> 01:17:51,245
And then her skills were
fully utilized in this space,

1840
01:17:51,625 --> 01:17:52,725
um, as a trainer.

1841
01:17:52,755 --> 01:17:55,125
Like he, he made her kind
of in charge of stuff.

1842
01:17:55,625 --> 01:17:57,285
He was not, he was one of those people

1843
01:17:57,285 --> 01:18:00,285
that he was not genuinely
a bad human being,

1844
01:18:00,585 --> 01:18:03,045
but he benefited from the system,

1845
01:18:03,045 --> 01:18:05,285
which I know I see the
symbolism there, I get it.

1846
01:18:05,625 --> 01:18:10,125
But to me, if that's the point
is to, to, to call this out,

1847
01:18:10,185 --> 01:18:13,245
but we're talking about
romance and happy endings

1848
01:18:13,245 --> 01:18:15,485
and fantasy, then there
should be room to show, Hey,

1849
01:18:15,485 --> 01:18:16,885
we can move away from this.

1850
01:18:17,025 --> 01:18:18,685
And I just didn't, I didn't get that.

1851
01:18:19,285 --> 01:18:21,685
I didn't get that sense at all. <laugh>.

1852
01:18:22,425 --> 01:18:25,805
And maybe, maybe I'm not
meant to, maybe I'm meant

1853
01:18:25,805 --> 01:18:26,885
to be pissed off about it.

1854
01:18:27,105 --> 01:18:28,285
I'm sure shit I've spent

1855
01:18:28,385 --> 01:18:30,925
how long talking about this fucking book.

1856
01:18:31,235 --> 01:18:33,205
I've been thinking about
it nonstop since I,

1857
01:18:33,255 --> 01:18:34,485
since I finished it.

1858
01:18:34,735 --> 01:18:36,485
Uhhuh <affirmative>. And
maybe that's the point.

1859
01:18:36,505 --> 01:18:38,205
And I admire that if that's the point.

1860
01:18:38,395 --> 01:18:42,965
Like I, but fuck <laugh> it sold.

1861
01:18:43,485 --> 01:18:46,805
I don't, and I dunno, maybe,
maybe, maybe that's the point.

1862
01:18:46,985 --> 01:18:49,165
And I would like to believe
that that's the point

1863
01:18:49,165 --> 01:18:51,125
because I am so pissed off <laugh>,

1864
01:18:51,425 --> 01:18:55,085
but I couldn't, like, I, in,
in fantasy when I'm reading,

1865
01:18:55,405 --> 01:18:58,445
I can kind of get off on
some, you know, non-consent,

1866
01:18:58,475 --> 01:18:59,605
even dubious consent.

1867
01:18:59,605 --> 01:19:04,325
Like, but this time I was so
in it with that the, the queen.

1868
01:19:04,525 --> 01:19:06,445
I was like, this is, this is so wrong.

1869
01:19:06,635 --> 01:19:10,005
They even say there's even a
whole part of the, part of the,

1870
01:19:10,145 --> 01:19:12,525
the explanation of this
world, these pleasure slaves

1871
01:19:12,755 --> 01:19:15,405
that women who change
and they were servants

1872
01:19:15,465 --> 01:19:16,805
or they were poor.

1873
01:19:17,665 --> 01:19:19,565
Um, they adjust better

1874
01:19:19,565 --> 01:19:23,485
because under his system,
their lives air quote, this,

1875
01:19:23,485 --> 01:19:24,645
this is from them improved.

1876
01:19:25,105 --> 01:19:28,445
And the high born women and
the nobility struggled the most

1877
01:19:28,475 --> 01:19:30,245
because they had all

1878
01:19:30,245 --> 01:19:32,365
of the limited freedom
they would've had anyway

1879
01:19:32,365 --> 01:19:34,005
as women in this patriarchal society

1880
01:19:34,525 --> 01:19:35,965
actually was a matriarchal society.

1881
01:19:35,965 --> 01:19:37,765
That's another part that
kind of pissed me off.

1882
01:19:37,765 --> 01:19:39,645
Where were the women
standing up for other women?

1883
01:19:39,675 --> 01:19:42,205
Like, what the fuck? Anyway, like they,

1884
01:19:42,205 --> 01:19:43,805
that was a whole point they made of, oh,

1885
01:19:43,805 --> 01:19:46,165
they always suffer the most
because they had the most pride

1886
01:19:46,185 --> 01:19:47,445
and it had to be crushed out of them.

1887
01:19:48,985 --> 01:19:52,485
And if the premise was
true that they turned feral

1888
01:19:52,485 --> 01:19:54,165
and they will hurt people
even that they love.

1889
01:19:54,265 --> 01:19:56,765
And they, that was shown
I'd have gone, okay,

1890
01:19:56,795 --> 01:19:58,285
this world, this is how this world works.

1891
01:19:58,355 --> 01:20:01,325
This was an imperfect fix,

1892
01:20:01,325 --> 01:20:03,045
but it's the best one
they've come up with so far.

1893
01:20:03,075 --> 01:20:04,605
Blah, blah, blah. No,

1894
01:20:06,745 --> 01:20:07,745
- No.

1895
01:20:12,425 --> 01:20:17,365
- So, yeah. Hmm. I did not
go looking deep enough into

1896
01:20:17,365 --> 01:20:18,485
the author's background

1897
01:20:18,505 --> 01:20:20,405
or what the author has
said about the book.

1898
01:20:21,065 --> 01:20:24,605
Um, so I don't know if I'm
definitely getting the fucking

1899
01:20:24,605 --> 01:20:27,645
point <laugh> what the
author was trying to convey.

1900
01:20:28,045 --> 01:20:31,725
- <laugh>,
- I I part of me kind of hopes.

1901
01:20:31,725 --> 01:20:34,165
So, because what I don't
want is for it to be

1902
01:20:34,185 --> 01:20:35,805
so well written and the author

1903
01:20:35,825 --> 01:20:37,565
to be oblivious to what they've done.

1904
01:20:37,625 --> 01:20:39,565
Mm. That would bother me.
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

1905
01:20:39,565 --> 01:20:40,805
Mm-Hmm <affirmative>. That
really would bother me.

1906
01:20:40,865 --> 01:20:44,525
If there's a purpose for
this, for the reader, then

1907
01:20:46,125 --> 01:20:47,525
I definitely respect that.

1908
01:20:48,265 --> 01:20:52,445
Um, but if there was no
thought put into that mm-Hmm,

1909
01:20:52,485 --> 01:20:53,805
<affirmative> and that was accidental

1910
01:20:53,985 --> 01:20:57,205
or the, the author didn't
see what they were doing

1911
01:20:57,835 --> 01:20:59,405
then I'm actually more pissed off <laugh>.

1912
01:21:02,105 --> 01:21:04,685
- Ah.
- So

1913
01:21:07,785 --> 01:21:10,245
anyway, it was very well
written and well crafted though.

1914
01:21:10,425 --> 01:21:12,405
And if you are okay with non-consent

1915
01:21:12,425 --> 01:21:15,285
and that kind of thing, I,
I would recommend it mostly.

1916
01:21:15,525 --> 01:21:16,565
'cause I need to know if anybody else

1917
01:21:16,745 --> 01:21:18,005
has a similar reaction.

1918
01:21:18,445 --> 01:21:21,445
I don't, I don't, I can admit
I could be overreacting.

1919
01:21:21,525 --> 01:21:22,885
I don't think I am. I just,

1920
01:21:23,445 --> 01:21:26,205
I feel like I could have
written, uh, a college

1921
01:21:27,145 --> 01:21:29,445
lit essay on this fucking shit <laugh>.

1922
01:21:30,715 --> 01:21:34,815
And now I kind of wish I like,
I wish I did that because I,

1923
01:21:35,535 --> 01:21:36,695
- I have so many fucking thoughts,

1924
01:21:36,995 --> 01:21:39,495
- You know, listening to
you here, I'm, you need

1925
01:21:39,495 --> 01:21:42,335
to start a a, a book review tube.

1926
01:21:42,795 --> 01:21:45,135
- Here's the thing. I tried
this when I was writing book

1927
01:21:45,135 --> 01:21:46,455
reviews and just trying
to do it on Instagram.

1928
01:21:47,995 --> 01:21:49,615
The moment it becomes an obligation,

1929
01:21:50,225 --> 01:21:51,335
don't wanna do it. Don't wanna do

1930
01:21:51,335 --> 01:21:51,815
- It. Mm-Hmm.

1931
01:21:52,125 --> 01:21:53,615
- Okay. To the point that I like freeze up

1932
01:21:53,615 --> 01:21:57,095
and can't, like, I'll just
like whatever my brand

1933
01:21:57,095 --> 01:22:00,295
of divergence neurodivergency is, it just

1934
01:22:01,505 --> 01:22:02,655
stops in its tracks.

1935
01:22:02,655 --> 01:22:04,735
Like, nope. I think it's

1936
01:22:04,735 --> 01:22:06,615
because my perfectionism,
even though I am working

1937
01:22:06,635 --> 01:22:09,495
to overcome that kicks in and
I'm like, am I doing it right?

1938
01:22:09,915 --> 01:22:11,095
Am I doing it well? Mm.

1939
01:22:11,605 --> 01:22:13,775
What if I'm not, oh, let's go be

1940
01:22:14,355 --> 01:22:17,095
bad about bad at something
else in front of other people.

1941
01:22:19,125 --> 01:22:22,575
Look, I have gotten used
to since 20 fucking 15

1942
01:22:23,475 --> 01:22:25,415
not being very good at
this in front of y'all.

1943
01:22:25,615 --> 01:22:26,935
'cause I got all these
years of experience,

1944
01:22:26,935 --> 01:22:28,535
but that doesn't make it easy

1945
01:22:28,715 --> 01:22:30,695
to just do it again with something else.

1946
01:22:31,055 --> 01:22:34,535
<laugh>. Yeah.

1947
01:22:35,435 --> 01:22:38,095
So there you go. That's
the rant. That's been,

1948
01:22:38,755 --> 01:22:39,815
- That's been, yeah.

1949
01:22:40,295 --> 01:22:41,335
Building. Yeah. Yeah.

1950
01:22:43,365 --> 01:22:48,005
- I I I also think I would've
felt better about the book

1951
01:22:48,705 --> 01:22:50,245
if the point is to be mad.

1952
01:22:50,245 --> 01:22:53,405
Because if somebody else in the universe

1953
01:22:54,625 --> 01:22:56,725
was mad about it, by the end,

1954
01:22:56,745 --> 01:22:58,925
the queen is happy with her life.

1955
01:22:59,145 --> 01:23:03,125
And there, I don't recall
reading any internal monologue

1956
01:23:03,125 --> 01:23:06,445
or whatever internal thoughts of, yeah,

1957
01:23:06,455 --> 01:23:07,525
maybe we should fix this.

1958
01:23:07,755 --> 01:23:10,165
Like maybe, I think
there was a little bit,

1959
01:23:10,225 --> 01:23:15,045
but not in the like, this is
wrong and we need to fix this.

1960
01:23:15,045 --> 01:23:17,645
Like, there was, I can understand
if the book didn't end on

1961
01:23:17,645 --> 01:23:19,685
it being fixed because
that's not how systems work.

1962
01:23:19,965 --> 01:23:23,325
I understand that. But like
there was no call like,

1963
01:23:24,205 --> 01:23:27,765
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know

1964
01:23:28,125 --> 01:23:29,125
- <laugh>.

1965
01:23:30,825 --> 01:23:35,125
- Anyway, this, this one will
is I, this rant is not done.

1966
01:23:35,125 --> 01:23:37,045
Gotten it outta my system.
I will not keep ranting.

1967
01:23:37,045 --> 01:23:38,245
Don't worry <laugh>. Um,

1968
01:23:38,505 --> 01:23:40,005
but for anybody who's
interested, it's called

1969
01:23:40,105 --> 01:23:41,165
to call a queen.

1970
01:23:43,825 --> 01:23:46,045
- It
- Yeah. It's, anyway,

1971
01:23:46,425 --> 01:23:47,425
- Anyway.

1972
01:23:47,425 --> 01:23:47,985
Who

1973
01:23:49,545 --> 01:23:51,485
- All the thoughts and feels y'all all

1974
01:23:51,545 --> 01:23:52,545
- The thoughts and feels?

1975
01:23:53,265 --> 01:23:57,815
- Um, I have not read a
lot of kink stuff lately.

1976
01:23:58,045 --> 01:24:00,495
Like I've read a lot of faded mates stuff.

1977
01:24:00,685 --> 01:24:02,455
I've read a lot of shifter stuff.

1978
01:24:03,155 --> 01:24:06,815
Um, I keep accidentally slipping
into the Omega verse world

1979
01:24:06,835 --> 01:24:09,255
and it's okay, but it doesn't draw me in.

1980
01:24:09,255 --> 01:24:10,855
Like, if you love it, I'm happy for you.

1981
01:24:10,875 --> 01:24:12,735
But it's, and I don't know if it's

1982
01:24:12,735 --> 01:24:13,815
that I just haven't read enough.

1983
01:24:13,815 --> 01:24:15,695
Well-written stuff like, I don't know.

1984
01:24:16,175 --> 01:24:19,935
I, But not a lot of like

1985
01:24:21,085 --> 01:24:22,615
genuinely kink stuff.

1986
01:24:22,775 --> 01:24:24,055
I have Absolutely.

1987
01:24:24,895 --> 01:24:26,615
I think I'm about to read something kinky

1988
01:24:26,615 --> 01:24:29,775
because Katie Roberts
just released a book,

1989
01:24:30,055 --> 01:24:34,535
I think it's the Succubus
something Dream something from a

1990
01:24:34,535 --> 01:24:36,375
series that she had started years ago.

1991
01:24:36,915 --> 01:24:40,175
Um, and it's the only series
that I know of by Katie.

1992
01:24:40,175 --> 01:24:43,255
Robert that's on, um, Kindle Unlimited.

1993
01:24:43,835 --> 01:24:45,295
And that book just came out in her books.

1994
01:24:45,295 --> 01:24:46,335
Even when they're not trying to

1995
01:24:46,335 --> 01:24:47,375
be kinky, there's a kink element.

1996
01:24:47,375 --> 01:24:48,255
Like there's just something,

1997
01:24:48,255 --> 01:24:49,375
something's a little kinky there.

1998
01:24:49,675 --> 01:24:51,455
And she writes kink very fucking well.

1999
01:24:51,875 --> 01:24:53,135
Um, and so I'm,

2000
01:24:53,135 --> 01:24:54,495
that's the next one I'm
definitely gonna read.

2001
01:24:54,555 --> 01:24:57,655
But everything else is
like, it hasn't really been,

2002
01:24:58,515 --> 01:25:01,295
and it's not, I don't know.

2003
01:25:01,375 --> 01:25:03,815
I get, I think it's a
little bit like this book.

2004
01:25:04,055 --> 01:25:06,375
I don't want something
about it to disappoint me.

2005
01:25:07,435 --> 01:25:10,535
And so, but

2006
01:25:11,885 --> 01:25:12,885
- Yeah.

2007
01:25:12,965 --> 01:25:17,735
- Yeah.
- Deep breath. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

2008
01:25:18,235 --> 01:25:19,575
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative> <laugh>.

2009
01:25:20,255 --> 01:25:21,815
- I, I think I've run outta steam, but,

2010
01:25:21,875 --> 01:25:24,695
and I know we should probably
let these lovely people go on

2011
01:25:24,695 --> 01:25:27,135
about their day, but like, I
also like being here. I know

2012
01:25:27,325 --> 01:25:28,325
- It's one 30.

2013
01:25:28,335 --> 01:25:30,175
- I know also the
14-year-old is probably like,

2014
01:25:30,995 --> 01:25:32,855
are my parental figures around, right?

2015
01:25:33,055 --> 01:25:35,295
I I I could use some, I don't know.

2016
01:25:35,485 --> 01:25:36,615
- Yeah. Uh,

2017
01:25:36,755 --> 01:25:38,095
- He, he's not hungry enough.

2018
01:25:38,215 --> 01:25:39,535
'cause I haven't heard
him in the kitchen also,

2019
01:25:39,535 --> 01:25:40,735
but I've been ranting so I

2020
01:25:40,735 --> 01:25:42,095
would've missed all kinds of things. I,

2021
01:25:42,175 --> 01:25:43,175
- I haven't heard
- Any.

2022
01:25:43,175 --> 01:25:44,175
Okay, good. Good to know. Good to know.

2023
01:25:45,245 --> 01:25:47,095
- Yeah. It's right behind me, but

2024
01:25:48,475 --> 01:25:51,095
- I'm not as hot as I was.

2025
01:25:51,115 --> 01:25:53,375
My toes are actually
chilly. You're welcome.

2026
01:25:53,395 --> 01:25:55,295
My face is hot, but I've
been ranting Welcome.

2027
01:25:55,295 --> 01:25:57,735
Did you bump the air
again for me? Yes. Wow.

2028
01:25:57,735 --> 01:26:00,815
You let it be at what most,
most people would consider a a,

2029
01:26:01,255 --> 01:26:02,855
a temp moderate climate in their house.

2030
01:26:02,875 --> 01:26:05,325
We keep it warm. 'cause we do
are not paying a three, four,

2031
01:26:05,325 --> 01:26:06,685
$500 electric bill.

2032
01:26:06,685 --> 01:26:09,605
Y'all, we are just not just
keep taking clothes off until

2033
01:26:10,745 --> 01:26:11,805
you to the point

2034
01:26:11,805 --> 01:26:14,245
where other people are not
uncomfortable with looking at you.

2035
01:26:14,265 --> 01:26:17,165
But no. So I understand
why we keep it warmer than

2036
01:26:17,785 --> 01:26:19,125
the average household.

2037
01:26:20,185 --> 01:26:22,605
Man, it sucks when your
internal combustion

2038
01:26:22,605 --> 01:26:24,045
engine is overheating,

2039
01:26:24,245 --> 01:26:25,965
- <laugh> <laugh>
- And there's

2040
01:26:25,965 --> 01:26:27,085
kids in, there's a kid in this house.

2041
01:26:27,165 --> 01:26:30,405
I can't walk around naked.
You know, if we get get

2042
01:26:30,425 --> 01:26:31,605
to a point in life when there's

2043
01:26:31,605 --> 01:26:32,805
no children in this house, I,

2044
01:26:32,905 --> 01:26:34,405
- That's a whole different
story. Best believe

2045
01:26:34,475 --> 01:26:36,565
- I'll walk around naked
when I'm hot, but <laugh>

2046
01:26:41,375 --> 01:26:42,375
- No.

2047
01:26:43,305 --> 01:26:44,305
Okay.

2048
01:26:44,785 --> 01:26:45,995
- Okay. I guess we should go.

2049
01:26:46,175 --> 01:26:48,195
We didn't eat lunch and I am hungry. Same.

2050
01:26:48,655 --> 01:26:51,155
I'm not, I'm not gonna do
any meaningful work after

2051
01:26:51,155 --> 01:26:51,835
- This. Me

2052
01:26:51,835 --> 01:26:52,835
- Either.

2053
01:26:52,835 --> 01:26:53,675
I have to prep some orders that are going

2054
01:26:53,675 --> 01:26:54,915
out tomorrow. Yeah. I've

2055
01:26:54,915 --> 01:26:57,755
- Got one more left that I have Yeah.

2056
01:26:57,815 --> 01:26:59,115
To touch. But yeah,

2057
01:26:59,265 --> 01:27:00,835
I'll take care of that.
But yeah, other than

2058
01:27:00,835 --> 01:27:02,075
- That, I'm gonna take
advantage of the fact

2059
01:27:02,075 --> 01:27:03,715
that when you're self-employed, as long

2060
01:27:03,715 --> 01:27:05,155
as there's no deadlines looming.

2061
01:27:05,205 --> 01:27:06,875
- Right. You just
- Sit down sometimes.

2062
01:27:06,985 --> 01:27:08,155
Yeah. We don't do that very often.

2063
01:27:08,335 --> 01:27:10,555
- It doesn't happen very often.
No, it does not. Fuck yeah.

2064
01:27:10,555 --> 01:27:12,195
Today it is, today is that day,

2065
01:27:13,215 --> 01:27:14,215
- So yeah.

2066
01:27:14,335 --> 01:27:18,075
- Yep. - If you do read to
call her a queen, first of all,

2067
01:27:18,135 --> 01:27:19,515
if you are part of our Patreon

2068
01:27:19,615 --> 01:27:20,955
and have access to the Discord server,

2069
01:27:21,215 --> 01:27:22,635
please go and talk to me.

2070
01:27:22,635 --> 01:27:25,075
There. We have a whole
thread on Kinky Books

2071
01:27:25,455 --> 01:27:27,275
and if you are not part
of that and read it

2072
01:27:27,275 --> 01:27:28,515
and want to like email

2073
01:27:28,615 --> 01:27:30,595
or whatever, whatever, like
contact in whatever way.

2074
01:27:31,055 --> 01:27:35,155
Uh, I just, I'm not
thinking that necessarily

2075
01:27:35,155 --> 01:27:36,275
that other people's opinions will

2076
01:27:36,275 --> 01:27:37,555
necessarily change my mind.

2077
01:27:37,555 --> 01:27:39,555
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. But like,
maybe there's a perspective

2078
01:27:39,735 --> 01:27:41,395
I'm not getting and I've missed

2079
01:27:41,575 --> 01:27:44,755
and God, god knows that's not impossible.

2080
01:27:44,755 --> 01:27:48,155
Right. But I just, anyway. Okay. <laugh>.

2081
01:27:48,255 --> 01:27:51,355
- So yeah. My, my my, what I
told Kayla this morning was

2082
01:27:51,355 --> 01:27:52,915
that, um, you know, when these,

2083
01:27:53,305 --> 01:27:56,115
when these concerts start back up again

2084
01:27:57,025 --> 01:27:58,755
next going into fall. Fall,

2085
01:27:58,755 --> 01:27:59,755
- Yeah.

2086
01:27:59,755 --> 01:28:03,435
- Um, you know, we need to put into work

2087
01:28:03,655 --> 01:28:04,795
to take the next day off.

2088
01:28:05,025 --> 01:28:06,315
- Yeah. We, we need to talk

2089
01:28:06,315 --> 01:28:08,475
to HR about using our PTO <laugh>.

2090
01:28:09,825 --> 01:28:12,315
It's not PTO and you work for yourself.

2091
01:28:12,375 --> 01:28:13,795
If you don't work, you don't get paid,

2092
01:28:14,055 --> 01:28:15,435
but whatever, whatever.

2093
01:28:16,015 --> 01:28:18,995
And you know what, normally
the concerts are on Thursdays.

2094
01:28:19,025 --> 01:28:20,475
Yeah. And that would've been way easy.

2095
01:28:20,475 --> 01:28:22,155
We're just taking Friday
off. Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>.

2096
01:28:22,175 --> 01:28:23,515
Um, but yeah, we'll

2097
01:28:23,515 --> 01:28:24,515
- See.

2098
01:28:24,515 --> 01:28:25,955
- <laugh> we'll see. Anyway.
Yeah. We should go. Mm-Hmm.

2099
01:28:25,995 --> 01:28:27,075
<affirmative>, thanks for being

2100
01:28:27,145 --> 01:28:28,145
- Here.

2101
01:28:28,145 --> 01:28:28,635
Thanks for hanging with us to the bitter,

2102
01:28:28,635 --> 01:28:29,635
- Bitter fucking end.

2103
01:28:29,635 --> 01:28:32,515
Yeah. Thanks for, um, going along on

2104
01:28:32,515 --> 01:28:33,835
that rant journey with me.

2105
01:28:33,835 --> 01:28:36,535
Mm-Hmm. <affirmative>. Mm-Hmm.
<affirmative>. Um, yeah.

2106
01:28:36,535 --> 01:28:37,535
Hopeful. We'll see Friday

2107
01:28:37,555 --> 01:28:39,135
if I'm still wearing
the finger condom. Yeah.

2108
01:28:39,135 --> 01:28:41,335
- Right. Or
- A version of the finger condom. Mm-Hmm,

2109
01:28:41,375 --> 01:28:42,375
- <affirmative>.

2110
01:28:42,375 --> 01:28:44,495
- Okay. I guess we should go. Okay. Bye.

2111
01:28:44,715 --> 01:28:44,935
- Bye.

