[{"start": 0.0, "end": 7.44, "text": "Music.", "newpara": true}, {"start": 7.436, "end": 11.526, "text": "Hey, welcome to episode 71 of Waking Up to Narcissism. I am your host, Tony Overbay.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Hey, welcome to episode 71 of Waking Up to Narcissism.", 7.44, 10.41, 1.0], ["I am your host, Tony Overbay.", 10.41, 11.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 11.526, "end": 15.646, "text": "I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist and also host of the Virtual Couch Podcast.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist", 11.53, 13.19, 1.0], ["and also host of the Virtual Couch Podcast.", 13.53, 15.65, 1.0]]}, {"start": 15.646, "end": 17.365, "text": "And now, yes, it has finally been released.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And now, yes, it has finally been released.", 15.65, 17.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 17.746, "end": 22.406, "text": "The trailer is out of Murder on the Couch, the true crime meets therapy podcast", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The trailer is out of Murder on the Couch,", 17.75, 20.61, 1.0], ["the true crime meets therapy podcast", 20.61, 22.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 22.406, "end": 23.253, "text": "with my daughter, Sydney.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["with my daughter, Sydney.", 22.41, 23.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 23.766, "end": 30.446, "text": "Please go find that. I'll have a link in the show notes. And the actual episode one drops on Monday,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Please go find that.", 23.77, 24.95, 1.0], ["I'll have a link in the show notes.", 24.95, 26.06, 1.0], ["And the actual episode one drops on Monday,", 26.45, 30.45, 1.0]]}, {"start": 30.446, "end": 34.526, "text": "but you can go follow or subscribe right now. The trailer is up there.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but you can go follow or subscribe right now.", 30.45, 33.29, 1.0], ["The trailer is up there.", 33.29, 34.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 34.641, "end": 38.683, "text": "And even that, she's put so much production work into it. I'm very excited about that.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And even that, she's put so much production work into it.", 34.64, 37.09, 1.0], ["I'm very excited about that.", 37.09, 38.68, 1.0]]}, {"start": 38.966, "end": 41.365, "text": "Now, let me take you on my train of thought. One of my favorite things to do,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Now, let me take you on my train of thought.", 38.97, 40.33, 1.0], ["One of my favorite things to do,", 40.33, 41.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 41.606, "end": 47.966, "text": "when I ended last week's episode, episode 70, where we were talking about the five different types of narcissism,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["when I ended last week's episode, episode 70,", 41.61, 44.75, 1.0], ["where we were talking about", 44.75, 45.59, 1.0], ["the five different types of narcissism,", 45.59, 47.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 47.966, "end": 49.981, "text": "I had a lot of thoughts, a lot to say,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I had a lot of thoughts, a lot to say,", 47.97, 49.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 50.126, "end": 56.777, "text": "and I went on for 40 minutes, 45 minutes, and I only got through two of the five types of narcissism.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and I went on for 40 minutes, 45 minutes,", 50.13, 53.85, 1.0], ["and I only got through two of the five types of narcissism.", 53.85, 56.78, 1.0]]}, {"start": 56.906, "end": 62.526, "text": "So I sat down to start up with the same article and go into number three,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So I sat down to start up with the same article", 56.91, 60.51, 1.0], ["and go into number three,", 61.01, 62.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 62.526, "end": 64.438, "text": "which is called antagonistic narcissism.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which is called antagonistic narcissism.", 62.53, 64.44, 1.0]]}, {"start": 64.888, "end": 70.704, "text": "But then I went down just an ADHD, narcissistic, emotionally immature rabbit hole", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But then I went down just an ADHD, narcissistic,", 64.89, 68.96, 1.0], ["emotionally immature rabbit hole", 69.25, 70.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 71.046, "end": 76.286, "text": "and started reading some research that was tied to the concepts around antagonistic narcissism", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and started reading some research", 71.05, 72.81, 1.0], ["that was tied to the concepts around antagonistic narcissism", 72.81, 76.29, 1.0]]}, {"start": 76.286, "end": 78.707, "text": "from this Psych Central article that I referenced last week.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["from this Psych Central article that I referenced last week.", 76.29, 78.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 79.166, "end": 85.323, "text": "And that just had me fascinated with some of the deeper concepts around antagonism,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And that just had me fascinated", 79.17, 81.39, 1.0], ["with some of the deeper concepts around antagonism,", 82.25, 85.32, 1.0]]}, {"start": 85.766, "end": 88.348, "text": "and emotional immaturity and narcissism.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and emotional immaturity and narcissism.", 85.77, 88.35, 1.0]]}, {"start": 88.888, "end": 95.566, "text": "And then I found a Psychology Today article that I am going to take a break on part two.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And then I found a Psychology Today article", 88.89, 91.48, 1.0], ["that I am going to take a break on part two.", 91.89, 95.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 95.566, "end": 97.806, "text": "We'll get to part two.", "confidence": 0.87, "timestamps": [["We'll get to part two.", 95.57, 97.81, 0.8733443021774292]]}, {"start": 97.107, "end": 102.937, "text": "Next week, but we're gonna do a an entire episode on understanding the narcissist,", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["Next week, but we're gonna do a an entire episode on understanding the narcissist,", 97.11, 102.94, 0.9889835119247437]]}, {"start": 103.397, "end": 110.097, "text": "antagonistic attachment style because I love talking about attachment and this is from Julie Hall and she writes on", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["antagonistic attachment style because I love talking about attachment and this is from Julie Hall and she writes on", 103.4, 110.1, 0.9889835119247437]]}, {"start": 110.277, "end": 117.357, "text": "Psychology Today column called the narcissist in your life, but she's better known for another website that I've referred to.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["Psychology Today column called the narcissist in your life, but she's better known for another website that I've referred to.", 110.28, 117.36, 0.9889835119247437]]}, {"start": 117.993, "end": 124.132, "text": "She's the author of the narcissist in your life and founder of the narcissist family files and and she has amazing work there,", "confidence": 0.99, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["She's the author of the narcissist in your life and founder of the narcissist family files and and she has amazing work there,", 117.99, 124.13, 0.9889835119247437]]}, {"start": 124.697, "end": 131.417, "text": "So I'll have a link to the narcissist family files as well. So I'm gonna use her article from psychology today", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["So I'll have a link to the narcissist family files as well. So I'm gonna use her article from psychology today", 124.7, 131.42, 0.963885486125946]]}, {"start": 131.737, "end": 137.017, "text": "Understanding the narcissist antagonistic attachment style is sort of the backdrop or the muse for today's episode", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["Understanding the narcissist antagonistic attachment style is sort of the backdrop or the muse for today's episode", 131.74, 137.02, 0.963885486125946]]}, {"start": 137.137, "end": 145.057, "text": "And before we get to that I have a poem by a guy and it's somebody that has sent me some really good feedback and I really appreciated that so here", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["And before we get to that", 137.14, 138.74, 0.963885486125946], ["I have a poem by a guy and it's somebody that has sent me some really good feedback and I really appreciated that so here", 138.74, 145.06, 0.963885486125946]]}, {"start": 145.057, "end": 151.417, "text": "Is yet another shout out to anyone who is is a man who feels like they are in a relationship?", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["Is yet another shout out to anyone who is is a man who feels like they are in a relationship?", 145.06, 151.42, 0.963885486125946]]}, {"start": 151.417, "end": 156.414, "text": "Relationship with an emotionally immature or narcissistic or borderline personality disordered wife,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Relationship with an emotionally immature or narcissistic", 151.42, 154.26, 1.0], ["or borderline personality disordered wife,", 154.26, 156.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 157.037, "end": 161.617, "text": "or if you are a guy who feels like, you know what, I'm resonating with this maybe concept", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or if you are a guy who feels like, you know what,", 157.04, 159.86, 1.0], ["I'm resonating with this maybe concept", 159.86, 161.62, 1.0]]}, {"start": 161.617, "end": 165.337, "text": "around emotional immaturity, maybe not the biggest fan of being called a narcissist,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["around emotional immaturity,", 161.62, 162.74, 1.0], ["maybe not the biggest fan of being called a narcissist,", 162.74, 165.34, 1.0]]}, {"start": 165.579, "end": 168.792, "text": "but I think that this is something I wanna do some work around, self-confront,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but I think that this is something I wanna do", 165.58, 167.38, 1.0], ["some work around, self-confront,", 167.38, 168.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 169.137, "end": 174.457, "text": "then please do email me at contact at tonyoverbay.com and my amazing assistant Naomi has been reaching out", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["then please do email me at contact at tonyoverbay.com", 169.14, 172.07, 1.0], ["and my amazing assistant Naomi has been reaching out", 172.18, 174.46, 1.0]]}, {"start": 174.457, "end": 181.225, "text": "and contacting some of the people that have already send in inquiries so that we can put a group together soon.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and contacting some of the people that have already", 174.46, 177.36, 1.0], ["send in inquiries so that we can put a group together soon.", 177.5, 181.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 181.577, "end": 182.782, "text": "So I would love to hear from you.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So I would love to hear from you.", 181.58, 182.78, 1.0]]}, {"start": 183.417, "end": 188.137, "text": "And then before I get to the poem though, I also love this and the person who sent me this,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And then before I get to the poem though,", 183.42, 185.7, 1.0], ["I also love this and the person who sent me this,", 185.7, 188.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 188.137, "end": 192.377, "text": "I didn't know if she wanted me to say her name or not, but I'm guessing maybe she's a teacher,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I didn't know if she wanted me to say her name or not,", 188.14, 189.88, 1.0], ["but I'm guessing maybe she's a teacher,", 190.34, 192.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 192.377, "end": 194.809, "text": "but she just said one of her eighth grade students told her a joke.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but she just said one of her eighth grade students", 192.38, 194.08, 1.0], ["told her a joke.", 194.14, 194.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 195.017, "end": 198.897, "text": "So she sent me a joke and it just shows, I don't think eighth grade,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So she sent me a joke and it just shows,", 195.02, 197.78, 1.0], ["I don't think eighth grade,", 197.78, 198.9, 1.0]]}, {"start": 198.897, "end": 204.072, "text": "I had a clue about anything about, well, anything, narcissism, gaslighting, that sort of thing.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I had a clue about anything about,", 198.9, 200.87, 1.0], ["well, anything, narcissism, gaslighting,", 200.98, 203.06, 1.0], ["that sort of thing.", 203.06, 204.07, 1.0]]}, {"start": 204.177, "end": 206.217, "text": "But so here's the joke. She said, one of my eighth grade students", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But so here's the joke.", 204.18, 205.02, 1.0], ["She said, one of my eighth grade students", 205.02, 206.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 206.217, "end": 212.877, "text": "me this one. Him. I've got a joke about gas lighting. Me. Oh, what is it? Him. I already told it to you.", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["me this one. Him. I've got a joke about gas lighting. Me. Oh, what is it? Him. I already told it to you.", 206.22, 212.88, 0.979936420917511]]}, {"start": 214.398, "end": 218.088, "text": "If I had a more produced podcast, I would throw a little laugh track in there.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["If I had a more produced podcast, I would throw a little laugh track in there.", 214.4, 218.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 218.494, "end": 221.519, "text": "But that's kind of, I've got to hand it to an eighth grader for understanding that.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But that's kind of, I've got to hand it to an eighth grader for understanding that.", 218.49, 221.52, 1.0]]}, {"start": 221.87, "end": 225.848, "text": "Okay, so let me get to the poem. And this was submitted by someone, a guy that has given me", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Okay, so let me get to the poem. And this was submitted by someone, a guy that has given me", 221.87, 225.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 225.848, "end": 230.808, "text": "some phenomenal feedback. And so I was really grateful for him to take the time to put together", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["some phenomenal feedback. And so I was really grateful for him to take the time to put together", 225.85, 230.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 230.808, "end": 235.768, "text": "a poem. And he literally titled it, Poem from a Guy, with a lot of exclamation points. I'm a big", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["a poem. And he literally titled it, Poem from a Guy, with a lot of exclamation points. I'm a big", 230.81, 235.77, 1.0]]}, {"start": 235.768, "end": 240.568, "text": "fan of exclamation points. And he gave me permission to read this. 15 years. I can't", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["fan of exclamation points. And he gave me permission to read this. 15 years. I can't", 235.77, 240.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 240.568, "end": 242.809, "text": "I can't believe I lived like that for 15 years.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I can't believe I lived like that for 15 years.", 240.57, 242.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 242.968, "end": 246.545, "text": "It's hard to describe to somebody the depth and strength of constant fears.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["It's hard to describe to somebody the depth", 242.97, 244.67, 1.0], ["and strength of constant fears.", 244.67, 246.55, 1.0]]}, {"start": 247.108, "end": 251.468, "text": "Would she try to take my son away or leave me for broke? Was I the crazy one?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Would she try to take my son away or leave me for broke?", 247.11, 249.88, 1.0], ["Was I the crazy one?", 250.15, 251.47, 1.0]]}, {"start": 251.468, "end": 253.414, "text": "I wish all of it was a joke.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I wish all of it was a joke.", 251.47, 253.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 253.548, "end": 256.448, "text": "Slowly but surely, I stopped being the person that I was meant to be.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Slowly but surely, I stopped being the person", 253.55, 255.47, 1.0], ["that I was meant to be.", 255.47, 256.45, 1.0]]}, {"start": 257.208, "end": 261.48, "text": "To avoid any conflict, I found myself in prison, but after so long, wanted to be free.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["To avoid any conflict, I found myself in prison,", 257.21, 259.53, 1.0], ["but after so long, wanted to be free.", 259.53, 261.48, 1.0]]}, {"start": 262.108, "end": 266.863, "text": "If I love her the right way, if I say the right thing, or pray hard enough, things will surely change.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["If I love her the right way, if I say the right thing,", 262.11, 264.71, 1.0], ["or pray hard enough, things will surely change.", 264.71, 266.86, 1.0]]}, {"start": 267.828, "end": 272.04, "text": "The more I tried, the worse things got. I thought, man, this is really strange.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The more I tried, the worse things got.", 267.83, 269.99, 1.0], ["I thought, man, this is really strange.", 269.99, 272.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 272.308, "end": 275.847, "text": "I wanted so badly to be understood, to feel safe or feel like I was heard.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I wanted so badly to be understood,", 272.31, 274.07, 1.0], ["to feel safe or feel like I was heard.", 274.07, 275.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 276.288, "end": 281.474, "text": "Instead, I was told how I felt. I was torn down, lied to. Most times, I didn't say a word.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Instead, I was told how I felt.", 276.29, 278.08, 1.0], ["I was torn down, lied to.", 278.25, 279.87, 1.0], ["Most times, I didn't say a word.", 279.87, 281.47, 1.0]]}, {"start": 282.188, "end": 285.633, "text": "I was constantly accused of cheating when that was never, ever true.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I was constantly accused of cheating", 282.19, 283.99, 1.0], ["when that was never, ever true.", 283.99, 285.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 286.148, "end": 289.783, "text": "Yet, when I caught her red-handed, she blamed me, what am I to do?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Yet, when I caught her red-handed,", 286.15, 288.03, 1.0], ["she blamed me, what am I to do?", 288.03, 289.78, 1.0]]}, {"start": 290.488, "end": 294.599, "text": "I tried to end it, I tried to leave, but kept repeating the cycle again and again.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I tried to end it, I tried to leave,", 290.49, 292.19, 1.0], ["but kept repeating the cycle again and again.", 292.19, 294.6, 1.0]]}, {"start": 295.108, "end": 298.628, "text": "While it was toxic and destructive, it was familiar, predictable, comfortable,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["While it was toxic and destructive,", 295.11, 296.71, 1.0], ["it was familiar, predictable, comfortable,", 296.71, 298.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 298.628, "end": 300.19, "text": "despite all of its pain.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["despite all of its pain.", 298.63, 300.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 301.208, "end": 305.042, "text": "There were times I wanted to take my own life. That's how desperate it seemed to be.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["There were times I wanted to take my own life.", 301.21, 303.37, 1.0], ["That's how desperate it seemed to be.", 303.37, 305.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 305.668, "end": 308.922, "text": "When I discovered waking up to narcissism, my eyes began to see.", "confidence": 0.94, "timestamps": [["When I discovered waking up to narcissism,", 305.67, 307.47, 1.0], ["my eyes began to see.", 307.47, 308.92, 0.8786935806274414]]}, {"start": 309.966, "end": 313.432, "text": "I didn't know what I didn't know, and once I did, I couldn't go back.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["I didn't know what I didn't know, and once I did, I couldn't go back.", 309.97, 313.43, 1.0]]}, {"start": 313.954, "end": 317.42, "text": "This knowledge, this wisdom became power and put me on a forward track.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["This knowledge, this wisdom became power and put me on a forward track.", 313.95, 317.42, 1.0]]}, {"start": 318.095, "end": 322.236, "text": "That doesn't mean I wasn't scared. In fact, it's been the most difficult thing I've ever done.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["That doesn't mean I wasn't scared. In fact, it's been the most difficult thing I've ever done.", 318.1, 322.24, 1.0]]}, {"start": 322.659, "end": 325.882, "text": "To stand up for myself and my child, our new life has begun.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["To stand up for myself and my child, our new life has begun.", 322.66, 325.88, 1.0]]}, {"start": 326.431, "end": 329.843, "text": "I wish this was the end of the story, but our lives are still entangled.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I wish this was the end of the story, but our lives are still entangled.", 326.43, 329.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 330.419, "end": 333.993, "text": "As I continue to heal stronger each day, my heart becomes less mangled.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["As I continue to heal stronger each day, my heart becomes less mangled.", 330.42, 333.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 334.533, "end": 338.008, "text": "I hope one day I'll be fully free and even experience true love.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I hope one day I'll be fully free and even experience true love.", 334.53, 338.01, 1.0]]}, {"start": 338.539, "end": 346.936, "text": "My faith has brought me this far and hope is a gift from above.\" That was beautiful. So, I appreciate you sending that. You know who you are.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["My faith has brought me this far and hope is a gift from above.\"", 338.54, 342.19, 1.0], ["That was beautiful. So, I appreciate you sending that. You know who you are.", 343.2, 346.94, 1.0]]}, {"start": 346.936, "end": 348.658, "text": "So, thank you so much for sending that poem.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So, thank you so much for sending that poem.", 346.94, 348.66, 1.0]]}, {"start": 348.973, "end": 354.851, "text": "Okay, let's get to today's topic. So, understanding the narcissist antagonistic attachment style.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Okay, let's get to today's topic.", 348.97, 351.04, 1.0], ["So, understanding the narcissist antagonistic attachment style.", 351.3, 354.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 354.977, "end": 358.623, "text": "Julie Hall, here's what it means, what it looks like, and the damage that it does.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Julie Hall, here's what it means, what it looks like, and the damage that it does.", 354.98, 358.62, 1.0]]}, {"start": 359.172, "end": 365.576, "text": "So, she talks and gives this overview. The key point, securely attached people, which I've tried to talk about more and more", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So, she talks and gives this overview.", 359.17, 361.5, 1.0], ["The key point, securely attached people, which I've tried to talk about more and more", 361.5, 365.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 365.663, "end": 376.256, "text": "over the last few episodes that the secure attachment, which I maintain that it is very rare to have had a secure attachment with your parent, just because we didn't talk about mental health.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["over the last few episodes that the secure attachment, which I maintain that it is very rare to have had a secure attachment with your parent, just because we didn't talk about mental health.", 365.66, 376.26, 1.0]]}, {"start": 376.412, "end": 386.616, "text": "We really didn't. So if you are old enough to be listening to a podcast, most likely you are still coming from this age of we're finally talking about mental health and emotions.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["We really didn't. So if you are old enough to be listening to a podcast, most likely you are still coming from this age of we're finally talking about mental health and emotions.", 376.41, 386.62, 1.0]]}, {"start": 386.755, "end": 393.616, "text": "And we're we're saying that, OK, we need to do a better job of teaching emotional stability and emotional intelligence in particular.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And we're we're saying that, OK, we need to do a better job of teaching emotional stability and emotional intelligence in particular.", 386.76, 393.62, 1.0]]}, {"start": 394.038, "end": 397.243, "text": "So, securely attached people, though, have mutually supportive relationships.", "confidence": 0.89, "timestamps": [["So, securely attached people, though, have mutually supportive relationships.", 394.04, 397.24, 0.8914587497711182]]}, {"start": 397.99, "end": 412.84, "text": "And if you didn't see or have a secure attachment with parents, then you didn't know what you didn't know and you're jumping into relationships without understanding that a secure attachment means that you can be and think and feel the way that you want to feel and think and be.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And if you didn't see or have a secure attachment with parents, then you didn't know what you didn't know and you're jumping into relationships without understanding that a secure attachment means that you can be and think and feel the way that you want to feel and think and be.", 397.99, 412.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 412.84, "end": 424.84, "text": "And you can still maintain a relationship with someone and they don't see that as a slight or as a criticism and you don't have to be put down because of your beliefs. You can actually both share your beliefs.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And you can still maintain a relationship with someone and they don't see that as a slight or as a criticism and you don't have to be put down because of your beliefs. You can actually both share your beliefs.", 412.84, 424.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 425.276, "end": 431.84, "text": "She says narcissists have an antagonistic attachment style based on predation, competition, and parasitism.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She says narcissists have an antagonistic attachment style based on predation, competition, and parasitism.", 425.28, 431.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 432.37, "end": 440.67, "text": "That's where it's going to get really interesting. So the narcissist antagonism in relationships traumatizes individuals and families and even larger social groups.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["That's where it's going to get really interesting.", 432.37, 433.84, 1.0], ["So the narcissist antagonism in relationships traumatizes individuals and families and even larger social groups.", 434.19, 440.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 441.003, "end": 445.684, "text": "And I think this does lead into that concept though when she says families around the narcissistic family system", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I think this does lead into that concept though when she says families around the narcissistic family system", 441.0, 445.68, 1.0]]}, {"start": 445.963, "end": 451.572, "text": "and how that antagonistic style of the narcissist does keep everyone in the family walking on eggshells.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and how that antagonistic style of the narcissist does keep everyone in the family walking on eggshells.", 445.96, 451.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 452.247, "end": 459.152, "text": "So, she says that humans are highly social, collaborative species with intricately complex interdependency.", "confidence": 0.96, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So, she says that humans are highly social, collaborative species with intricately complex interdependency.", 452.25, 459.15, 0.9562216997146606]]}, {"start": 459.242, "end": 464.66, "text": "Julie's speaking my language. When I talk about this codependency and this enmeshment, I mean, we really are these collaborative people", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["Julie's speaking my language. When I talk about this codependency and this enmeshment, I mean, we really are these collaborative people", 459.24, 464.66, 0.9562216997146606]]}, {"start": 464.66, "end": 470.711, "text": "designed to deal with emotion in concert with another human, designed to solve projects in collaboration with another human.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["designed to deal with emotion in concert with another human, designed to solve projects in collaboration with another human.", 464.66, 470.71, 0.9562216997146606]]}, {"start": 471.386, "end": 476.364, "text": "But then when one of those humans needs to make sure that they're better, and that means everyone else is worse,", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["But then when one of those humans needs to make sure that they're better, and that means everyone else is worse,", 471.39, 476.36, 0.9562216997146606]]}, {"start": 476.688, "end": 478.831, "text": "then this is where things become a problem.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["then this is where things become a problem.", 476.69, 478.83, 0.9562216997146606]]}, {"start": 479.038, "end": 482.94, "text": "So, she said, we raise children together, we work together, we learn together, we eat", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So, she said, we raise children together, we work together, we learn together, we eat", 479.04, 482.94, 1.0]]}, {"start": 482.94, "end": 487.22, "text": "together, we play together, the list goes on, and the glue that bonds us is this common", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["together, we play together, the list goes on, and the glue that bonds us is this common", 482.94, 487.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 487.22, "end": 489.21, "text": "capacity and desire for attachment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["capacity and desire for attachment.", 487.22, 489.21, 1.0]]}, {"start": 489.74, "end": 495.1, "text": "So this drive to connect and to share, protect, care, we are these pack animals.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So this drive to connect and to share, protect, care, we are these pack animals.", 489.74, 495.1, 1.0]]}, {"start": 495.1, "end": 497.26, "text": "We belong to a tribe, a herd.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["We belong to a tribe, a herd.", 495.1, 497.26, 1.0]]}, {"start": 497.26, "end": 500.98, "text": "The book, The Happiness Trap, lays it out so beautifully that one of the reasons it", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The book, The Happiness Trap, lays it out so beautifully that one of the reasons it", 497.26, 500.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 500.98, "end": 506.84, "text": "can be so difficult to be happy is because we are so afraid of saying or doing the wrong", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["can be so difficult to be happy is because we are so afraid of saying or doing the wrong", 500.98, 506.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 506.84, "end": 509.32, "text": "thing that will get us kicked out of the tribe.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["thing that will get us kicked out of the tribe.", 506.84, 509.32, 0.9601722955703735]]}, {"start": 509.753, "end": 514.543, "text": "Because our caveman brain still worries that if I am booted out of the tribe and I'm on the outside circle", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Because our caveman brain still worries that if I am booted out of the tribe and I'm on the outside circle", 509.75, 514.54, 1.0]]}, {"start": 514.831, "end": 519.583, "text": "I'm the first one to go. I'm the first one to be eaten by the the tiger the woolly mammoth", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm the first one to go. I'm the first one to be eaten by the the tiger the woolly mammoth", 514.83, 519.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 519.583, "end": 527.303, "text": "Whatever that looks like so we do though desire to connect share protect and care because that will bring us safety", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Whatever that looks like so we do though desire to connect share protect and care because that will bring us safety", 519.58, 527.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 527.56, "end": 529.023, "text": "But then how do we do that?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But then how do we do that?", 527.56, 529.02, 1.0]]}, {"start": 529.567, "end": 535.703, "text": "And how do we do that and then still feel like we are growing and and learning and not just trying to manage the whole,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And how do we do that and then still feel like we are growing and and learning and not just trying to manage the whole,", 529.57, 535.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 536.303, "end": 538.723, "text": "Environment around us so that we don't get booted out.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Environment around us so that we don't get booted out.", 536.3, 538.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 539.569, "end": 545.723, "text": "So antagonistic attachment. She says securely attached humans approach relationships cooperatively.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So antagonistic attachment. She says securely attached humans approach relationships cooperatively.", 539.57, 545.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 545.723, "end": 550.723, "text": "They work together to achieve shared goals, seek and give empathetic validation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["They work together to achieve shared goals, seek and give empathetic validation.", 545.72, 550.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 550.723, "end": 558.723, "text": "They share accurate and truthful information. They express affection and vulnerability to build trust and intimacy in their relationships.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["They share accurate and truthful information.", 550.72, 553.72, 1.0], ["They express affection and vulnerability to build trust and intimacy in their relationships.", 553.72, 558.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 558.843, "end": 565.723, "text": "So even if there's a conflict, you can have a disagreement, but mutual support is the foundation of the relationship.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So even if there's a conflict, you can have a disagreement, but mutual support is the foundation of the relationship.", 558.84, 565.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 565.723, "end": 574.723, "text": "And respect and love are not at stake, even if people have disagreements, or even if people have different opinions and different values,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And respect and love are not at stake, even if people have disagreements, or even if people have different opinions and different values,", 565.72, 574.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 574.723, "end": 580.592, "text": "then that isn't a threat to the relationship because the mutual support is the foundation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["then that isn't a threat to the relationship because the mutual support is the foundation.", 574.72, 580.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 581.132, "end": 587.38, "text": "And if that mutual support is the foundation, then love and respect, those aren't at stake just because somebody has a different opinion.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And if that mutual support is the foundation, then love and respect, those aren't at stake just because somebody has a different opinion.", 581.13, 587.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 587.929, "end": 592.723, "text": "She says, by contrast, for the narcissistic personality attachment with others is antagonistic.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She says, by contrast, for the narcissistic personality attachment with others is antagonistic.", 587.93, 592.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 592.723, "end": 601.478, "text": "A concept in biology, and this is the stuff that I did not even recognize the significance of the term antagonistic narcissism or antagonistic attachment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["A concept in biology, and this is the stuff that I did not even recognize the significance of the term antagonistic narcissism or antagonistic attachment.", 592.72, 601.48, 0.9984859228134155]]}, {"start": 602.0, "end": 606.384, "text": "But she said, antagonistic is a concept in biology that refers to a relationship in which,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But she said, antagonistic is a concept in biology that refers to a relationship in which,", 602.0, 606.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 607.003, "end": 609.994, "text": "one organism benefits at the expense of another.", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["one organism benefits at the expense of another.", 607.0, 609.99, 0.9465029835700989]]}, {"start": 610.831, "end": 617.384, "text": "So common forms of antagonism in nature are predation, basically talking about predators, competition, and parasitism.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So common forms of antagonism in nature are predation, basically talking about predators, competition, and parasitism.", 610.83, 617.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 617.808, "end": 622.393, "text": "So then I love that she lays these three dynamics out in narcissistic human relationships.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So then I love that she lays these three dynamics out in narcissistic human relationships.", 617.81, 622.39, 1.0]]}, {"start": 622.393, "end": 628.952, "text": "So we can, again, anywhere we're talking about narcissism, you can insert emotionally immature or unhealthy relationships.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So we can, again, anywhere we're talking about narcissism, you can insert emotionally immature or unhealthy relationships.", 622.39, 628.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 629.475, "end": 637.108, "text": "Because we're talking a spectrum of behaviors. So predation. A predator typically kills and eats its prey to gain life-giving energy.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Because we're talking a spectrum of behaviors.", 629.47, 631.39, 1.0], ["So predation. 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Veiled threats, and then our beloved triangulation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm just joking, I'm just kidding, those kind of barbs.", 686.93, 689.65, 1.0], ["Veiled threats, and then our beloved triangulation.", 689.65, 692.92, 1.0]]}, {"start": 693.293, "end": 696.172, "text": "Even your doctor, even my doctor says that you're crazy.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Even your doctor, even my doctor says that you're crazy.", 693.29, 696.17, 1.0]]}, {"start": 696.753, "end": 700.813, "text": "Or I was talking with your sister. You know, all the people that I've been talking to", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Or I was talking with your sister.", 696.75, 698.65, 1.0], ["You know, all the people that I've been talking to", 698.65, 700.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 700.813, "end": 703.383, "text": "all agree that you are crazy.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["all agree that you are crazy.", 700.81, 703.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 704.493, "end": 708.333, "text": "So whatever the strategy, and however well it is rationalized or disguised,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So whatever the strategy,", 704.49, 705.59, 1.0], ["and however well it is rationalized or disguised,", 705.77, 708.33, 1.0]]}, {"start": 708.333, "end": 711.017, "text": "the purpose is to bully the other person into submission.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["the purpose is to bully the other person into submission.", 708.33, 711.02, 1.0]]}, {"start": 711.333, "end": 718.732, "text": "So as a predator, they need that person to then fall into submission so that they have power.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So as a predator, they need that person", 711.33, 715.16, 1.0], ["to then fall into submission so that they have power.", 715.49, 718.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 719.173, "end": 722.053, "text": "So it sounds very dramatic, but I would imagine people listening", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So it sounds very dramatic,", 719.17, 720.42, 1.0], ["but I would imagine people listening", 720.53, 722.05, 1.0]]}, {"start": 722.053, "end": 725.053, "text": "to this podcast right now can identify with times", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to this podcast right now can identify with times", 722.05, 725.05, 1.0]]}, {"start": 725.053, "end": 727.194, "text": "where they felt like this is just a power struggle,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["where they felt like this is just a power struggle,", 725.05, 727.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 727.693, "end": 733.973, "text": "and that if I just give in and let go of the need to even have equality or reciprocity", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and that if I just give in and let go of the need", 727.69, 731.25, 1.0], ["to even have equality or reciprocity", 731.25, 733.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 733.973, "end": 736.502, "text": "or to be heard or understood, then it will be better.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or to be heard or understood, then it will be better.", 733.97, 736.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 736.613, "end": 741.382, "text": "And while it may get rid of your anxiety or get rid of the discomfort for a moment,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And while it may get rid of your anxiety", 736.61, 738.85, 1.0], ["or get rid of the discomfort for a moment,", 738.85, 741.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 741.493, "end": 743.983, "text": "It's only feeding that narcissistic supply.", "confidence": 0.94, "timestamps": [["It's only feeding that narcissistic supply.", 741.49, 743.98, 0.9363136887550354]]}, {"start": 744.857, "end": 750.767, "text": "Number two, she talks about competition. So competition is another type of relational antagonism. It's a characteristic of narcissism,", "confidence": 0.97, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Number two, she talks about competition. So competition is another type of relational antagonism. 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They do not have to ask. They are taking, you know,", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["kicks in and then it is their food. They do not have to ask. They are taking, you know,", 777.71, 782.47, 0.98427414894104]]}, {"start": 782.467, "end": 786.767, "text": "let me eat first. All of these things that just almost feel like predatory with a dose", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["let me eat first. All of these things that just almost feel like predatory with a dose", 782.47, 786.77, 0.98427414894104]]}, {"start": 786.767, "end": 792.2, "text": "of competition. But then again, family members as competitors for resources. The resources", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["of competition. But then again, family members as competitors for resources. 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There's our good friend validation. If I get all the validation, then I win and.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["acknowledgement. There's our good friend validation. If I get all the validation, then I win and.", 807.73, 813.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 813.607, "end": 817.607, "text": "There isn't room for people to validate because that's even where you see the most, I want", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["There isn't room for people to validate because that's even where you see the most, I want", 813.61, 817.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 817.607, "end": 821.979, "text": "to say adult of people, but that might be a little bit of a paradox that are saying,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to say adult of people, but that might be a little bit of a paradox that are saying,", 817.61, 821.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 822.069, "end": 826.165, "text": "but don't you like the way I did it better? But mine was better, right? And it can be", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but don't you like the way I did it better? But mine was better, right? 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That is such a key component.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["win if someone else loses.", 845.73, 847.09, 0.9603269696235657], ["That is such a key component.", 847.09, 848.25, 0.9603269696235657]]}, {"start": 848.667, "end": 851.885, "text": "Narcissists continually work to undermine and one up those around them.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["Narcissists continually work to undermine and one up those around them.", 848.67, 851.88, 0.9603269696235657]]}, {"start": 852.461, "end": 862.84, "text": "And sometimes the one-up is taking a victim status to take a little one-under and then just jump back around and now I have you in my control because you're giving me attention, even from a victim standpoint.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["And sometimes the one-up is taking a victim status to take a little one-under and then just jump back around and now I have you in my control because you're giving me attention, even from a victim standpoint.", 852.46, 862.84, 0.9567526578903198]]}, {"start": 863.687, "end": 868.177, "text": "So, narcissists continually work to undermine, again, that one-upping, while asserting their", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So, narcissists continually work to undermine, again, that one-upping, while asserting their", 863.69, 868.18, 1.0]]}, {"start": 868.177, "end": 869.979, "text": "superiority and greater entitlement.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["superiority and greater entitlement.", 868.18, 869.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 870.257, "end": 874.39, "text": "So typical competitive narcissistic behaviors within families and then other social groups,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So typical competitive narcissistic behaviors within families and then other social groups,", 870.26, 874.39, 1.0]]}, {"start": 874.867, "end": 878.977, "text": "will include everything from comparing, you know, my stuff's better than their stuff,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["will include everything from comparing, you know, my stuff's better than their stuff,", 874.87, 878.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 878.977, "end": 883.777, "text": "or I bet that their stuff isn't even as nice as they think it is, or bragging, seems", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or I bet that their stuff isn't even as nice as they think it is, or bragging, seems", 878.98, 883.78, 1.0]]}, {"start": 883.777, "end": 889.497, "text": "kind of that one's pretty obvious, but over-talking, where I need to get my point across first.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["kind of that one's pretty obvious, but over-talking, where I need to get my point across first.", 883.78, 889.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 889.497, "end": 891.585, "text": "I'm going to talk bigger. I'm going to one-up.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm going to talk bigger.", 889.5, 890.5, 1.0], ["I'm going to one-up.", 890.5, 891.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 891.777, "end": 899.497, "text": "That is one of the things that I think is so fascinating. A long time ago, so protecting the emotionally immature, I remember being in a situation", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["That is one of the things that I think is so fascinating.", 891.78, 894.42, 1.0], ["A long time ago, so protecting the emotionally immature, I remember being in a situation", 894.42, 899.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 899.497, "end": 903.377, "text": "where someone had pointed out to me, hey, just let me bring something up about one of", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["where someone had pointed out to me, hey, just let me bring something up about one of", 899.5, 903.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 903.377, "end": 905.682, "text": "your kids and watch what happens with this other individual.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["your kids and watch what happens with this other individual.", 903.38, 905.68, 1.0]]}, {"start": 906.297, "end": 912.92, "text": "And I didn't understand where they were coming from. 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And I just thought, man, that is", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["a friend of mine's daughter was way better than that. And I just thought, man, that is", 921.94, 926.46, 1.0]]}, {"start": 926.457, "end": 932.577, "text": "just in this person's nature or DNA that even if they can pull another person, someone else", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["just in this person's nature or DNA that even if they can pull another person, someone else", 926.46, 932.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 932.577, "end": 937.697, "text": "that they can say, oh, I know someone that's better than somehow they win. So the over", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that they can say, oh, I know someone that's better than somehow they win. 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self-preserving instincts and the ability", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["also alienates that person from his or her own self-preserving instincts and the ability", 1117.02, 1121.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1121.836, "end": 1124.239, "text": "to maintain safe personal boundaries.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to maintain safe personal boundaries.", 1121.84, 1124.24, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1124.736, "end": 1129.696, "text": "She then kind of wraps things up talking more about this hidden abuse so that people who", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She then kind of wraps things up talking more about this hidden abuse so that people who", 1124.74, 1129.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1129.696, "end": 1135.136, "text": "are narcissistic seldom make this antagonism transparent because the reason that they'll", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["are narcissistic seldom make this antagonism transparent because the reason that they'll", 1129.7, 1135.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1135.402, "end": 1137.067, "text": "suffer negative consequences if they do.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["suffer negative consequences if they do.", 1135.4, 1137.07, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1137.476, "end": 1140.569, "text": "And I feel like that goes back to the concept of when people say, do they know?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I feel like that goes back to the concept of when people say, do they know?", 1137.48, 1140.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1141.64, "end": 1146.656, "text": "But if you are incredibly emotionally immature or narcissistic and did not ever see a healthy", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But if you are incredibly emotionally immature or narcissistic and did not ever see a healthy", 1141.64, 1146.66, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1146.656, "end": 1151.896, "text": "version of a relationship growing up where people did not take ownership, did not support", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["version of a relationship growing up where people did not take ownership, did not 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Let me go around the horn.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So let me try them all.", 1241.71, 1242.95, 1.0], ["Let me go around the horn.", 1242.95, 1243.9, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1244.192, "end": 1247.632, "text": "I'm kidding, I love you. That's hilarious, that's scary.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm kidding, I love you.", 1244.19, 1245.57, 1.0], ["That's hilarious, that's scary.", 1245.75, 1247.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1247.632, "end": 1249.425, "text": "I'm gonna leave you, I'm gonna tell everybody,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm gonna leave you, I'm gonna tell everybody,", 1247.63, 1249.42, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1249.572, "end": 1253.854, "text": "I'm a horrible person, and then I'm gonna repeat this until you finally interact.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm a horrible person, and then I'm gonna repeat this", 1249.57, 1252.25, 1.0], ["until you finally interact.", 1252.25, 1253.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1254.652, "end": 1258.572, "text": "And if you don't, then they don't know how to get that supply.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And if you don't, then they don't know", 1254.65, 1256.61, 1.0], ["how to get that supply.", 1256.61, 1258.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1258.572, "end": 1263.292, "text": "She says it's common then for narcissists to cultivate an agreeable, generous, charming, caring,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She says it's common then for narcissists to cultivate", 1258.57, 1260.73, 1.0], ["an agreeable, generous, charming, caring,", 1260.73, 1263.29, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1263.292, "end": 1269.392, "text": "pious, or noble persona to attract a partner and to win favor in social or professional context.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["pious, or noble persona to attract a partner", 1263.29, 1265.97, 1.0], ["and to win favor in social or professional context.", 1266.33, 1269.39, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1269.492, "end": 1272.972, "text": "And here's another thing I appreciated about this article. 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