[{"start": 0.0, "end": 7.44, "text": "Music.", "newpara": true}, {"start": 7.436, "end": 12.086, "text": "Hey, welcome to episode 69 of Waking Up to Narcissism. I am your host, Tony Overbay.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Hey, welcome to episode 69 of Waking Up to Narcissism.", 7.44, 10.76, 1.0], ["I am your host, Tony Overbay.", 10.97, 12.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 12.086, "end": 16.266, "text": "I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist and host of the Virtual Couch Podcast", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist", 12.09, 13.64, 1.0], ["and host of the Virtual Couch Podcast", 14.19, 16.27, 1.0]]}, {"start": 16.266, "end": 22.785, "text": "and the Waking Up to Narcissism Premium Question and Answer Podcast and soon to come Murder on the Couch,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and the Waking Up to Narcissism", 16.27, 17.75, 1.0], ["Premium Question and Answer Podcast", 18.21, 19.97, 1.0], ["and soon to come Murder on the Couch,", 20.41, 22.78, 1.0]]}, {"start": 23.046, "end": 24.144, "text": "Therapy Meets True Crime.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Therapy Meets True Crime.", 23.05, 24.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 24.686, "end": 31.026, "text": "And if you wanna find out more about any of the podcasts or the Magnetic Marriage Workshop, which is a $19,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And if you wanna find out more about any of the podcasts", 24.69, 27.49, 1.0], ["or the Magnetic Marriage Workshop, which is a $19,", 27.49, 31.03, 1.0]]}, {"start": 31.026, "end": 34.299, "text": "you didn't know what you didn't know about marriage and relationships workshop,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["you didn't know what you didn't know", 31.03, 32.09, 1.0], ["about marriage and relationships workshop,", 32.09, 34.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 34.526, "end": 36.234, "text": "it's an hour and a half long.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["it's an hour and a half long.", 34.53, 36.23, 1.0]]}, {"start": 36.766, "end": 44.039, "text": "If you go to the show notes, there's a Linktree link. It's link.tree slash virtual couch.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["If you go to the show notes, there's a Linktree link.", 36.77, 40.95, 1.0], ["It's link.tree slash virtual couch.", 41.07, 44.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 44.166, "end": 49.215, "text": "And there you can sign up for the newsletter and you can find the links to the courses and programs", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And there you can sign up for the newsletter", 44.17, 45.69, 1.0], ["and you can find the links to the courses and programs", 45.69, 49.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 49.406, "end": 51.358, "text": "and all the things that are coming up. That would be wonderful.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and all the things that are coming up.", 49.41, 50.57, 1.0], ["That would be wonderful.", 50.73, 51.36, 1.0]]}, {"start": 51.886, "end": 57.466, "text": "And if you would be so inclined, if you are one who would write a review or subscribe", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And if you would be so inclined,", 51.89, 53.97, 1.0], ["if you are one who would write a review or subscribe", 53.97, 57.47, 1.0]]}, {"start": 57.466, "end": 61.639, "text": "or rate wherever you listen to podcasts, that is always something that would be appreciated.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or rate wherever you listen to podcasts,", 57.47, 59.31, 1.0], ["that is always something that would be appreciated.", 59.31, 61.64, 1.0]]}, {"start": 61.966, "end": 64.564, "text": "And I'm trying to do more with clips on the YouTube channel.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I'm trying to do more with clips on the YouTube channel.", 61.97, 64.56, 1.0]]}, {"start": 64.886, "end": 69.074, "text": "So if you find the Virtual Couch YouTube channel, subscribing to that would be wonderful as well.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So if you find the Virtual Couch YouTube channel,", 64.89, 67.17, 1.0], ["subscribing to that would be wonderful as well.", 67.37, 69.07, 1.0]]}, {"start": 69.506, "end": 73.972, "text": "And I think I mentioned in the past that I'm putting up more reels on Instagram", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I think I mentioned in the past", 69.51, 71.17, 1.0], ["that I'm putting up more reels on Instagram", 71.31, 73.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 74.106, "end": 75.266, "text": "and those are making it up.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and those are making it up.", 74.11, 75.27, 1.0]]}, {"start": 75.266, "end": 82.506, "text": "So if you find it's TonyOverbay underscore LMFT and a lot of content going up on a pretty much a daily basis", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So if you find it's TonyOverbay underscore LMFT", 75.27, 78.63, 1.0], ["and a lot of content going up on a pretty much a daily basis", 79.07, 82.51, 1.0]]}, {"start": 82.506, "end": 85.603, "text": "over on TikTok. The world of TikTok therapy is pretty fascinating.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["over on TikTok.", 82.51, 83.47, 1.0], ["The world of TikTok therapy is pretty fascinating.", 83.47, 85.6, 1.0]]}, {"start": 86.226, "end": 89.086, "text": "So let's get to today's topic. We're gonna talk about anxiety,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So let's get to today's topic.", 86.23, 87.83, 1.0], ["We're gonna talk about anxiety,", 87.83, 89.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 89.586, "end": 93.2, "text": "but one of the things I wanna do first is I just have so many poems now,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but one of the things I wanna do first", 89.59, 90.87, 1.0], ["is I just have so many poems now,", 90.87, 93.2, 1.0]]}, {"start": 93.666, "end": 98.773, "text": "from the Women's Facebook group, and I would love if any of the men listening", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["from the Women's Facebook group,", 93.67, 95.61, 1.0], ["and I would love if any of the men listening", 95.61, 98.77, 1.0]]}, {"start": 98.906, "end": 103.566, "text": "that are poets as well, that would like to express maybe the frustration that they're having,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that are poets as well,", 98.91, 100.01, 1.0], ["that would like to express maybe the frustration", 100.11, 102.73, 1.0], ["that they're having,", 102.73, 103.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 103.566, "end": 107.721, "text": "whether it's in their own relationships to emotionally immature or narcissistic women,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["whether it's in their own relationships", 103.57, 105.65, 1.0], ["to emotionally immature or narcissistic women,", 105.65, 107.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 108.226, "end": 112.042, "text": "or if they are poetic and waking up to their own emotional immaturity,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or if they are poetic and waking up", 108.23, 110.81, 1.0], ["to their own emotional immaturity,", 110.81, 112.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 112.226, "end": 115.805, "text": "please email me at contact at tonyoverbay.com and continue.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["please email me at contact at tonyoverbay.com", 112.23, 114.78, 1.0], ["and continue.", 114.95, 115.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 116.226, "end": 120.106, "text": "I've got a few more emails this week from therapists, which is wonderful,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I've got a few more emails this week from therapists,", 116.23, 119.15, 1.0], ["which is wonderful,", 119.15, 120.11, 1.0]]}, {"start": 120.106, "end": 121.266, "text": "because I want to do more with that.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["because I want to do more with that.", 120.11, 121.27, 1.0]]}, {"start": 121.266, "end": 126.926, "text": "Therapists who are referring people to the podcast, or therapists who are also working in the world", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["Therapists who are referring people to the podcast,", 121.27, 123.63, 0.9863475561141968], ["or therapists who are also working in the world", 124.11, 126.93, 0.9863475561141968]]}, {"start": 126.926, "end": 132.306, "text": "of emotional immaturity or narcissism, and men, men who are ready to group,", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["of emotional immaturity or narcissism,", 126.93, 128.6, 0.9863475561141968], ["and men, men who are ready to group,", 129.17, 132.31, 0.9863475561141968]]}, {"start": 132.566, "end": 133.506, "text": "then that would be wonderful.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["then that would be wonderful.", 132.57, 133.51, 0.9863475561141968]]}, {"start": 133.506, "end": 138.466, "text": "Please continue to reach out at contact at TonyOrbea.com.", "confidence": 0.83, "timestamps": [["Please continue to reach out at contact at TonyOrbea.com.", 133.51, 138.47, 0.8288188576698303]]}, {"start": 137.564, "end": 142.134, "text": "So let me start, well actually before I start with a poem, I just want to take you on a little train of thought.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So let me start, well actually before I start with a poem, I just want to take you on a little train of thought.", 137.56, 142.13, 1.0]]}, {"start": 142.134, "end": 147.134, "text": "I think this will have to do with the topic today. Today we're going to talk about anxiety, we're going to talk about uncertainty,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I think this will have to do with the topic today. Today we're going to talk about anxiety, we're going to talk about uncertainty,", 142.13, 147.13, 1.0]]}, {"start": 147.134, "end": 152.614, "text": "we're going to talk about the unknown, and that plays I think a much larger role in the world of emotional immaturity", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["we're going to talk about the unknown, and that plays I think a much larger role in the world of emotional immaturity", 147.13, 152.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 152.614, "end": 154.938, "text": "and people that are in relationships with emotionally immature people,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and people that are in relationships with emotionally immature people,", 152.61, 154.94, 1.0]]}, {"start": 155.379, "end": 159.844, "text": "because they are continually trying to manage other people's emotions or manage their own anxiety,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["because they are continually trying to manage other people's emotions or manage their own anxiety,", 155.38, 159.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 160.24, "end": 164.093, "text": "which doesn't allow a lot of space or opportunity for people to just be.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which doesn't allow a lot of space or opportunity for people to just be.", 160.24, 164.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 164.354, "end": 174.788, "text": "For people to just be and explore and do and figure out what matters to them when they don't even realize how much emotional bandwidth is being spent on trying to manage, manage their emotions, manage other people.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["For people to just be and explore and do and figure out what matters to them when they don't even realize how much emotional bandwidth is being spent on trying to manage, manage their emotions, manage other people.", 164.35, 174.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 175.445, "end": 187.067, "text": "But then when you do have people that start to recognize that they are enough, they start to recognize their own worth, they start to recognize that it's 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249.595, "text": "But he would just go in depth about movie reviews. And so when he started to really feel like, okay, I want to figure out who I am, but I don't even know what to do first. You kind of go for a little bit of what seems like the low hanging fruit. And I said, what would that look like if you wrote movie reviews? And at the time, everybody had a blog. I think the sites were called Blogger. I think maybe Google bought that out. But you had a blog and then he said, well, I don't know. And nobody would listen. Nobody would read it. And I don't know if it would go anywhere. And that's part of the yeah, buts. Yeah, but maybe I would want to. But yeah, but nobody's going to read it.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But he would just go in depth about movie reviews. And so when he started to really feel like, okay, I want to figure out who I am, but I don't even know what to do first. You kind of go for a little bit of what seems like the low hanging fruit. And I said, what would that look like if you wrote movie reviews? And at the time, everybody had a blog. I think the sites were called Blogger. I think maybe Google bought that out. But you had a blog and then he said, well, I don't know. And nobody would listen. Nobody would read it. And I don't know if it would go anywhere. And that's part of the yeah, buts. Yeah, but maybe I would want to. But yeah, but nobody's going to read it.", 220.74, 249.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 250.595, "end": 254.335, "text": "To care and I don't know how to promote it. And that's not even the point. So if the point", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["To care and I don't know how to promote it. And that's not even the point. 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And then he was saying, okay, I wonder, I wonder if,", 263.63, 266.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 267.355, "end": 272.875, "text": "I could pack in the review to just a few lines because he was a man of few words, a lot of", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I could pack in the review to just a few lines because he was a man of few words, a lot of", 267.35, 272.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 272.875, "end": 278.415, "text": "depth, but few words. And so just joking, I said, what if you did a haiku and you did", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["depth, but few words. 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So the first one is about Pixar's Up.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["read you a couple of haiku movie reviews. So the first one is about Pixar's Up.", 305.97, 311.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 312.226, "end": 318.775, "text": "Love, loss, and regret all in the first 10 minutes. Better pack Kleenex. That's it.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Love, loss, and regret all in the first 10 minutes. Better pack Kleenex. That's it.", 312.23, 318.77, 1.0]]}, {"start": 319.346, "end": 326.735, "text": "But boy, it kind of encapsulates everything. There's another one haiku from Lord of the Rings, The Return of the King. Not only that, but the extended", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But boy, it kind of encapsulates everything. There's another one haiku", 319.35, 322.73, 1.0], ["from Lord of the Rings, The Return of the King. Not only that, but the extended", 322.73, 326.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 326.735, "end": 331.608, "text": "edition. Couldn't them eagles simply fly the ring bearer all the way to doom? That,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["edition. Couldn't them eagles simply fly the ring bearer all the way to doom? That,", 326.73, 331.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 332.295, "end": 338.143, "text": "is deep and it is true. I've wondered the same thing. So here is the haiku from the", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["is deep and it is true. I've wondered the same thing. So here is the haiku from the", 332.29, 338.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 338.295, "end": 341.975, "text": "Facebook group and actually what I should do is it's gonna sound like I'm", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Facebook group and actually what I should do is it's gonna sound like I'm", 338.29, 341.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 341.975, "end": 351.095, "text": "doing this in real time or I already know this but I am going to pause and remind people and myself what a haiku consists of. So I googled what is a haiku", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["doing this in real time or I already know this but I am going to pause and", 341.97, 345.05, 1.0], ["remind people and myself what a haiku consists of. So I googled what is a haiku", 345.05, 351.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 351.095, "end": 355.735, "text": "and it is a Japanese poem of 17 syllables in three lines of five, seven,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and it is a Japanese poem of 17 syllables in three lines of five, seven,", 351.09, 355.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 355.735, "end": 360.815, "text": "and five, traditionally evoking images of the natural world. And now let me tell", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and five, traditionally evoking images of the natural world. And now let me tell", 355.73, 360.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 360.815, "end": 364.952, "text": "what ADHD looks like, there was a haiku generator and I'm doing everything within my power to", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["what ADHD looks like, there was a haiku generator and I'm doing everything within my power to", 360.81, 364.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 365.255, "end": 368.615, "text": "not just go play with that because I only have a few minutes before my first client", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["not just go play with that because I only have a few minutes before my first client", 365.25, 368.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 368.615, "end": 372.795, "text": "arrives and I would like to lay down some of this content so I can come back and finish", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["arrives and I would like to lay down some of this content so I can come back and finish", 368.61, 372.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 372.795, "end": 374.413, "text": "it in the not too distant future.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["it in the not too distant future.", 372.79, 374.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 375.075, "end": 381.675, "text": "So back to the haiku. 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This is by Daniel. It's medically reviewed by Daniel Wade, who's a licensed clinical social worker, and written by Crystal Raepol.", "confidence": 0.99, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["An article from Healthline.com. This is by Daniel. It's medically reviewed by Daniel Wade, who's a licensed clinical social worker, and written by Crystal Raepol.", 670.14, 679.29, 0.9868854880332947]]}, {"start": 679.644, "end": 684.622, "text": "And it is called 12 Signs That You've Experienced Narcissistic Abuse, Plus How To Get Help.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["And it is called 12 Signs That You've Experienced Narcissistic Abuse, Plus How To Get Help.", 679.64, 684.62, 0.9868854880332947]]}, {"start": 685.523, "end": 691.851, "text": "The article begins with a definition of narcissistic personality disorder, talking about it being a complex mental health condition,", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["The article begins with a definition of narcissistic personality disorder, talking about it being a complex mental health condition,", 685.52, 691.85, 0.9868854880332947]]}, {"start": 692.436, "end": 697.649, "text": "that typically involves a grandiose or inflated sense of self, extreme need for admiration and attention, among other symptoms.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["that typically involves a grandiose or inflated sense of self, extreme need for admiration and attention, among other symptoms.", 692.44, 697.65, 0.9868854880332947]]}, {"start": 698.225, "end": 708.793, "text": "And so this is where I want to jump off the map a tiny bit and talk about, again, I think that narcissistic personality disorder is being talked about a lot, but it's a pretty small percentage of the population.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so this is where I want to jump off the map a tiny bit and talk about, again, I think that narcissistic personality disorder is being talked about a lot, but it's a pretty small percentage of the population.", 698.22, 708.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 709.163, "end": 720.758, "text": "But if we talk about emotional immaturity and start with a place that we are pretty much all emotionally immature in so many different areas, but then those who are seeking help are looking to become more emotionally mature.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But if we talk about emotional immaturity and start with a place that we are pretty much all emotionally immature in so many different areas, but then those who are seeking help are looking to become more emotionally mature.", 709.16, 720.76, 1.0]]}, {"start": 721.289, "end": 725.727, "text": "And that requires a lot of introspection, a lot of self-confrontation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And that requires a lot of introspection, a lot of self-confrontation.", 721.29, 725.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 726.114, "end": 729.544, "text": "And so if you are asking yourself, again, if I am the narcissist,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so if you are asking yourself, again, if I am the narcissist,", 726.11, 729.54, 1.0]]}, {"start": 730.174, "end": 738.222, "text": "if you are literally asking yourself that, you're probably asking because you've been listening and researching and wondering and doing and trying to read and discover and find out,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["if you are literally asking yourself that, you're probably asking because you've been listening and researching and wondering and doing and trying to read and discover and find out,", 730.17, 738.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 738.636, "end": 742.714, "text": "and those are not traits or characteristics of narcissistic personality disorder.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and those are not traits or characteristics of narcissistic personality disorder.", 738.64, 742.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 743.272, "end": 747.809, "text": "So there may be some emotional maturity, immaturity on the way to maturity,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So there may be some emotional maturity, immaturity on the way to maturity,", 743.27, 747.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 748.286, "end": 751.698, "text": "but definitely not narcissistic personality disorder at that point.", "confidence": 0.89, "timestamps": [["but definitely not narcissistic personality disorder at that point.", 748.29, 751.7, 0.8887354135513306]]}, {"start": 752.428, "end": 756.839, "text": "She says that common types of narcissistic manipulation include triangulation,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["She says that common types of narcissistic manipulation include triangulation,", 752.43, 756.84, 1.0]]}, {"start": 757.361, "end": 761.115, "text": "which is somebody who is trying to pull someone else, a third person, into your conflict,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which is somebody who is trying to pull someone else, a third person, into your conflict,", 757.36, 761.11, 1.0]]}, {"start": 761.646, "end": 764.41, "text": "and that is trying to reinforce their own opinion or their position.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and that is trying to reinforce their own opinion or their position.", 761.65, 764.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 765.004, "end": 768.29, "text": "And this can happen in so many different ways. Once you're aware of triangulation,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And this can happen in so many different ways. 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And that was one of those things as a therapist", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So triangulation, it just makes no sense whatsoever.", 830.44, 833.56, 1.0], ["And that was one of those things as a therapist", 833.92, 836.24, 1.0]]}, {"start": 836.238, "end": 838.678, "text": "that the more that I was working with clients over the years", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that the more that I was working with clients over the years", 836.24, 838.68, 1.0]]}, {"start": 839.038, "end": 843.858, "text": "and couples where that was one of the situations where that was just not the way that we normally work", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and couples where that was one of the situations", 839.04, 841.36, 1.0], ["where that was just not the way that we normally work", 841.36, 843.86, 1.0]]}, {"start": 843.858, "end": 848.118, "text": "to couples therapy, where someone's coming in and saying, yeah, I was talking to your sister,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to couples therapy, where someone's coming in and saying,", 843.86, 846.84, 1.0], ["yeah, I was talking to your sister,", 846.84, 848.12, 1.0]]}, {"start": 848.118, "end": 849.031, "text": "I was talking to your brother,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I was talking to your brother,", 848.12, 849.03, 1.0]]}, {"start": 849.438, "end": 853.28, "text": "I was talking to my friends at work, and it was all about, I was talking about them about you,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I was talking to my friends at work,", 849.44, 850.7, 1.0], ["and it was all about, I was talking about them about you,", 850.78, 853.28, 1.0]]}, {"start": 853.685, "end": 858.699, "text": "and I mean, they agree that you should get help, you should change, and that's just not the way", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and I mean, they agree that you should get help,", 853.68, 856.36, 1.0], ["you should change, and that's just not the way", 856.36, 858.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 858.978, "end": 861.22, "text": "an emotionally mature person interacts.", "confidence": 0.86, "timestamps": [["an emotionally mature person interacts.", 858.98, 861.22, 0.8630688190460205]]}, {"start": 862.192, "end": 873.598, "text": "Next she talks about the narcissistic manipulative tactic of gaslighting. 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1101.825, "text": "She goes on to say that these tactics will confuse you, they can make you question your sense of reality, they damage your self-esteem.", "confidence": 0.94, "timestamps": [["She goes on to say that these tactics will confuse you, they can make you question your sense of reality, they damage your self-esteem.", 1096.93, 1101.83, 0.9405646920204163]]}, {"start": 1103.084, "end": 1108.053, "text": "So, Crystal brings up a term that I haven't used on the podcast. It's narcissistic victim syndrome.", "confidence": 0.99, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So, Crystal brings up a term that I haven't used on the podcast. It's narcissistic victim syndrome.", 1103.08, 1108.05, 0.9866237044334412]]}, {"start": 1108.575, "end": 1113.814, "text": "She said it's a term that collectively describes the specific and often severe effects of narcissistic manipulation.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["She said it's a term that collectively describes the specific and often severe effects of narcissistic manipulation.", 1108.58, 1113.81, 0.9866237044334412]]}, {"start": 1114.481, "end": 1125.247, "text": "So, while it isn't a recognized mental health condition, many experts acknowledge narcissistic abuse can have serious long-lasting impact on mental health, which it can. It absolutely will rob you of your sense of self.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["So, while it isn't a recognized mental health condition, many experts acknowledge narcissistic abuse can have serious long-lasting impact on mental health, which it can. It absolutely will rob you of your sense of self.", 1114.48, 1125.25, 0.9866237044334412]]}, {"start": 1126.049, "end": 1130.294, "text": "And she said that keep in mind that abuse and narcissism aren't always related.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And she said that keep in mind that abuse and narcissism aren't always related.", 1126.05, 1130.29, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1130.294, "end": 1135.494, "text": "A diagnosis of narcissistic personality disorder doesn't automatically translate to abusive behavior.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["A diagnosis of narcissistic personality disorder doesn't automatically translate to abusive behavior.", 1130.29, 1135.49, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1135.494, "end": 1138.697, "text": "Many people who engage in abuse don't have narcissistic personality disorder.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Many people who engage in abuse don't have narcissistic personality disorder.", 1135.49, 1138.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1139.345, "end": 1142.505, "text": "But regardless, a mental health diagnosis never excuses abusive behavior.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But regardless, a mental health diagnosis never excuses abusive behavior.", 1139.34, 1142.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1143.099, "end": 1150.715, "text": "She said that people choose to abuse and manipulate others, and it's possible to live with traits of narcissism or any personality disorder without becoming abusive.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said that people choose to abuse and manipulate others,", 1143.1, 1145.69, 1.0], ["and it's possible to live with traits of narcissism or any personality disorder without becoming abusive.", 1145.69, 1150.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1151.435, "end": 1162.76, "text": "And I think that what can be really difficult in that scenario is if somebody is opening up about their own emotional immaturity and then they hear a phrase or a sentence like that where it's people choose to abuse and manipulate others.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And I think that what can be really difficult in that scenario is if somebody is opening up about their own emotional immaturity and then they hear a phrase or a sentence like that where it's people choose to abuse and manipulate others.", 1151.44, 1162.76, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1163.201, "end": 1177.094, "text": "That is true. By definition, it's true. And it can feel really difficult for somebody that has extreme emotional immaturity bordering on narcissistic traits and tendencies or personality disorders when in those moments they feel as if they do not have a choice.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["That is true. By definition, it's true. 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And so then, you know, again, I'm not trying to split hairs here, but I feel like I do have people that are listening to the Waking Up to Narcissism podcast that are starting to do a little self-confrontation. And so if you feel, if you almost feel offended when you hear that, well, I'm not choosing to abuse or manipulate, I'm just now starting to understand or wake up, well, I'm grateful that that's the place that you're at. But that's even more of a reason to try to go find help from somebody that knows a little bit more around emotional immaturity, or", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["codependency. And so then, you know, again, I'm not trying to split hairs here, but I feel like I do have people that are listening to the Waking Up to Narcissism podcast that are starting to do a little self-confrontation. And so if you feel, if you almost feel offended when you hear that, well, I'm not choosing to abuse or manipulate, I'm just now starting to understand or wake up, well, I'm grateful that that's the place that you're at. But that's even more of a reason to try to go find help from somebody that knows a little bit more around emotional immaturity, or", 1203.05, 1232.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1232.814, "end": 1236.454, "text": "narcissistic personality disorder or any of those narcissistic traits and", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["narcissistic personality disorder or any of those narcissistic traits and", 1232.81, 1236.45, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1236.454, "end": 1243.312, "text": "tendencies. Because yeah, it might be something where before you know it you're in this amygdala hijack state because of this deep fear of abandonment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["tendencies. 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That's the area to sit", 1243.84, 1247.13, 1.0], ["with that discomfort and then really you can grow from there.", 1247.13, 1250.76, 0.8377463817596436]]}, {"start": 1251.387, "end": 1256.374, "text": "So she said, with that in mind, here are 12 signs that might suggest you've experienced narcissistic abuse.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So she said, with that in mind, here are 12 signs that might suggest you've experienced narcissistic abuse.", 1251.39, 1256.37, 0.9975537657737732]]}, {"start": 1256.996, "end": 1259.174, "text": "The first is they seem so perfect, at first.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The first is they seem so perfect, at first.", 1257.0, 1259.17, 0.9975537657737732]]}, {"start": 1259.705, "end": 1264.666, "text": "Narcissistic abuse tends to follow a clear pattern, though this pattern might look a little different depending on the type of the relationship.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Narcissistic abuse tends to follow a clear pattern, though this pattern might look a little different depending on the type of the relationship.", 1259.71, 1264.67, 0.9975537657737732]]}, {"start": 1265.224, "end": 1272.137, "text": "Research from 2019 suggests that in a romantic relationship, this abuse typically begins slowly after you've fallen hard and fast.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Research from 2019 suggests that in a romantic relationship, this abuse typically begins slowly after you've fallen hard and fast.", 1265.22, 1272.14, 0.9975537657737732]]}, {"start": 1272.137, "end": 1273.74, "text": "We call that one the love bombing.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["We call that one the love bombing.", 1272.14, 1273.74, 0.9975537657737732]]}, {"start": 1274.316, "end": 1278.537, "text": "She said it's no wonder you fell for him. 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Narcissistic manipulation and abuse are often so subtle that in public, these behaviors might be so well disguised that others hear or see the same behaviors and they fail to recognize them as abuse.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["Next, she says that people doubt that the abuse took place.", 1366.73, 1369.19, 0.9609571099281311], ["Narcissistic manipulation and abuse are often so subtle that in public, these behaviors might be so well disguised that others hear or see the same behaviors and they fail to recognize them as abuse.", 1369.19, 1378.29, 0.9609571099281311]]}, {"start": 1378.904, "end": 1381.45, "text": "This is where we come up with the death by a thousand cuts episode.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["This is where we come up with the death by a thousand cuts episode.", 1378.9, 1381.45, 0.9609571099281311]]}, {"start": 1382.055, "end": 1384.05, "text": "She said you might not even fully understand what's happening.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["She said you might not even fully understand what's happening.", 1382.06, 1384.05, 0.9609571099281311]]}, {"start": 1384.05, "end": 1388.61, "text": "You only know that you feel confused or upset or even guilty for your quote mistakes.", "confidence": 0.96, "timestamps": [["You only know that you feel confused or upset or even guilty for your quote mistakes.", 1384.05, 1388.61, 0.9609571099281311]]}, {"start": 1389.293, "end": 1392.73, "text": "And even in the scenario of parenting, a narcissistic parent might gently say,", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["And even in the scenario of parenting, a narcissistic parent might gently say,", 1389.29, 1392.73, 0.9788537621498108]]}, {"start": 1393.29, "end": 1396.93, "text": "Are you sure you want to eat dessert? 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I'm sure that they never meant to hurt you.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["You might have just misunderstood those things.", 1416.17, 1418.01, 1.0], ["I'm sure that they never meant to hurt you.", 1418.01, 1419.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1420.01, "end": 1422.583, "text": "And that's where we get back into that world of the Switzerland friends.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And that's where we get back into that world", 1420.01, 1421.33, 1.0], ["of the Switzerland friends.", 1421.33, 1422.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1422.77, "end": 1426.562, "text": "Well, at least it wasn't this bad, or I'm sure you're not remembering everything correctly.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Well, at least it wasn't this bad,", 1422.77, 1424.33, 1.0], ["or I'm sure you're not remembering everything correctly.", 1424.82, 1426.56, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1427.15, "end": 1433.53, "text": "And this doubt that people instill can be harmful, because not only does it dismantle your faith", "confidence": 1.0, 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which only", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said if your loved ones don't understand, you'll likely feel pretty alone, which only", 1522.31, 1525.13, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1525.131, "end": 1528.918, "text": "increases your vulnerability to further narcissistic manipulation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["increases your vulnerability to further narcissistic manipulation.", 1525.13, 1528.92, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1529.341, "end": 1532.571, "text": "Because then the person that's abusing you may pull you back in with kindness or even", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Because then the person that's abusing you may pull you back in with kindness or even", 1529.34, 1532.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1532.571, "end": 1534.446, "text": "apologies or pretending the abuse never happened.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["apologies or pretending the abuse never happened.", 1532.57, 1534.45, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1534.941, "end": 1537.451, "text": "And there's that cycle, that continued cycle 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deal with emotion in concert with another human,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And we are, again, I love the phrase, where we're designed to deal with emotion in concert with another human,", 1567.46, 1571.8, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1572.21, "end": 1577.332, "text": "but it's another emotionally mature human being, not someone that's going to take advantage of or manipulate you", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["but it's another emotionally mature human being, not someone that's going to take advantage of or manipulate you", 1572.21, 1577.33, 0.9900671243667603]]}, {"start": 1577.755, "end": 1580.294, "text": "and the things that you hope to connect on.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["and the things that you hope to connect on.", 1577.76, 1580.29, 0.9900671243667603]]}, {"start": 1581.329, "end": 1586.231, "text": "She talks about one of the signs that you freeze up. People respond to abuse and other trauma in so many different ways", "confidence": 0.99, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["She talks about one of the signs that you freeze up. 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We've got the freeze. Then we have the fawn. The fawning is where it's so, yeah, you're right.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So we get that fight or flight. We've got the freeze. Then we have the fawn. The fawning is where it's so, yeah, you're right.", 1641.6, 1646.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1646.92, "end": 1650.044, "text": "But just to try to get out of that that uncomfortable moment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But just to try to get out of that that uncomfortable moment.", 1646.92, 1650.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1651.169, "end": 1658.623, "text": "Here's the stuff that I start seeing as a therapist. She talks about one of the results of this narcissistic victim abuse is you have trouble making decisions.", "confidence": 0.99, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Here's the stuff that I start seeing as a therapist.", 1651.17, 1653.31, 0.992323100566864], ["She talks about one of the results of this narcissistic victim abuse is you have trouble making decisions.", 1653.31, 1658.62, 0.992323100566864]]}, {"start": 1658.722, "end": 1663.151, "text": "She said a pattern of devaluation and criticism can leave you with very little self-esteem and confidence.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["She said a pattern of devaluation and criticism can leave you with very little self-esteem and confidence.", 1658.72, 1663.15, 0.992323100566864]]}, {"start": 1663.916, "end": 1669.031, "text": "This narcissistic manipulation often involves frequent implications that you make bad decisions and you can't do anything right,", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["This narcissistic manipulation often involves frequent implications that you make bad decisions and you can't do anything right,", 1663.92, 1669.03, 0.992323100566864]]}, {"start": 1669.031, "end": 1671.235, "text": "And aren't you glad that you have that narcissist in your life?", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["And aren't you glad that you have that narcissist in your life?", 1669.03, 1671.24, 0.9457830786705017]]}, {"start": 1672.18, "end": 1676.672, "text": "So an abusive partner may call you stupid or ignorant outright or often with a falsely affectionate tone.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So an abusive partner may call you stupid or ignorant outright or often with a falsely affectionate tone.", 1672.18, 1676.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1677.158, "end": 1680.903, "text": "Honey, you're just so dumb. How would you manage without my help? I don't even know how you'd make it through a day.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Honey, you're just so dumb. How would you manage without my help? I don't even know how you'd make it through a day.", 1677.16, 1680.9, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1681.723, "end": 1685.26, "text": "And over time, you might start absorbing these insults and attaching them to your self-perception", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And over time, you might start absorbing these insults and attaching them to your self-perception", 1681.72, 1685.26, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1685.657, "end": 1690.53, "text": "and then constantly second-guess yourself as a result. And unfortunately, I see that in my office so often where people even say,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and then constantly second-guess yourself as a result.", 1685.66, 1687.53, 1.0], ["And unfortunately, I see that in my office so often where people even say,", 1687.53, 1690.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1690.53, "end": 1693.53, "text": "I don't know. I don't even know if I'm making any sense. I don't know if I'm right.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I don't know. I don't even know if I'm making any sense. I don't know if I'm right.", 1690.53, 1693.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1693.53, "end": 1695.136, "text": "I don't know what the right thing to do is.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I don't know what the right thing to do is.", 1693.53, 1695.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1695.883, "end": 1699.439, "text": "Because these gaslighting tactics can also make you doubt your decision-making abilities.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Because these gaslighting tactics can also make you doubt your decision-making abilities.", 1695.88, 1699.44, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1700.114, "end": 1705.849, "text": "So if somebody is manipulating you into believing that you imagine things that actually took place, you might continue doubting your perception of events.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So if somebody is manipulating you into believing that you imagine things that actually took place, you might continue doubting your perception of events.", 1700.11, 1705.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1706.281, "end": 1709.945, "text": "And then this uncertainty can affect your ability to make decisions well into the future.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And then this uncertainty can affect your ability to make decisions well into the future.", 1706.28, 1709.94, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1710.584, "end": 1716.99, "text": "And I want you to, even if you're doing this on the inside, start recognizing how you feel, what you think.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I want you to, even if you're doing this on the inside, start recognizing how you feel, what you think.", 1710.58, 1716.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1716.99, "end": 1721.531, "text": "And we want to get to this place where you eventually will start trusting your gut.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And we want to get to this place where you eventually will start trusting your gut.", 1716.99, 1721.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1721.711, "end": 1726.83, "text": "We want to operate from that place of trusting your gut. In emotionally healthy and mature relationships, that's where we start.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["We want to operate from that place of trusting your gut.", 1721.71, 1723.71, 1.0], ["In emotionally healthy and mature relationships, that's where we start.", 1723.71, 1726.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1726.83, "end": 1730.31, "text": "I may have my opinion, but my wife is certainly going to have her opinion.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I may have my opinion, but my wife is certainly going to have her opinion.", 1726.83, 1730.31, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1730.722, "end": 1734.35, "text": "And I want to say, tell me more. What's that like? Because we're in this together.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I want to say, tell me more.", 1730.72, 1731.83, 1.0], ["What's that like?", 1731.83, 1732.51, 1.0], ["Because we're in this together.", 1732.51, 1734.35, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1734.485, "end": 1736.91, "text": "It's this edification. One plus one is three.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["It's this edification.", 1734.48, 1735.83, 1.0], ["One plus one is three.", 1735.83, 1736.91, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1736.95, "end": 1740.67, "text": "Not one person is right. Therefore, the other one must be wrong.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Not one person is right.", 1736.95, 1739.03, 1.0], ["Therefore, the other one must be wrong.", 1739.03, 1740.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1741.21, "end": 1744.35, "text": "She said one of the other traits of this narcissistic victim abuse is you always", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said one of the other traits of this narcissistic victim abuse is you always", 1741.21, 1744.35, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1744.35, "end": 1745.55, "text": "feel like you've done something wrong.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["feel like you've done something wrong.", 1744.35, 1745.55, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1745.693, "end": 1749.95, "text": "This key characteristic of narcissism is difficulty taking responsibility for any", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["This key characteristic of narcissism is difficulty taking responsibility for any", 1745.69, 1749.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1749.95, "end": 1751.59, "text": "negative actions or harmful behaviors.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["negative actions or harmful behaviors.", 1749.95, 1751.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1752.3, "end": 1756.63, "text": "If your partner literally doesn't say, I'm sorry, hasn't said I'm sorry, or that's", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["If your partner literally doesn't say, I'm sorry, hasn't said I'm sorry, or that's", 1752.3, 1756.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1756.63, "end": 1786.63, "text": "the one of the narcissistic apologies of, okay, fine, I guess I'm sorry, but then you are going to feel like you're the one that has done things wrong. And so often the pathologically kind person will then apologize in hopes that they are modeling behavior to their spouse. I was saying, you know, I, yeah, I, you know what, I am sorry about what I said or how I showed up and hoping that the, even the spouse at that point will say, you know what, I'm sorry too, but not, okay, good. I'm glad you are acknowledging that.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["the one of the narcissistic apologies of, okay, fine, I guess I'm sorry, but then you are going to feel like you're the one that has done things wrong. And so often the pathologically kind person will then apologize in hopes that they are modeling behavior to their spouse. I was saying, you know, I, yeah, I, you know what, I am sorry about what I said or how I showed up and hoping that the, even the spouse at that point will say, you know what, I'm sorry too, but not, okay, good. I'm glad you are acknowledging that.", 1756.63, 1786.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1784.744, "end": 1788.219, "text": "So this abuse of partners typically find some way to cast blame on you,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So this abuse of partners typically find some way to cast blame on you,", 1784.74, 1788.22, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1788.76, "end": 1791.794, "text": "and they might accomplish this through deceit. And she gives a couple of examples,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and they might accomplish this through deceit. And she gives a couple of examples,", 1788.76, 1791.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1791.794, "end": 1794.656, "text": "often by insisting that they said something that you have no recollection of,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["often by insisting that they said something that you have no recollection of,", 1791.79, 1794.66, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1795.277, "end": 1799.319, "text": "or getting so angry that you end up soothing them by apologizing and agreeing that you were wrong.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or getting so angry that you end up soothing them by apologizing and agreeing that you were wrong.", 1795.28, 1799.32, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1799.805, "end": 1802.594, "text": "And so often, again, this is just to get out of the discomfort of the moment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so often, again, this is just to get out of the discomfort of the moment.", 1799.81, 1802.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1803.234, "end": 1807.714, "text": "Unfortunately, a narcissist can just be so 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There we go.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["There's chronic fatigue or why am I drawing a blank on migraines?", 1884.13, 1887.55, 1.0], ["There we go.", 1887.55, 1887.88, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1888.754, "end": 1891.734, "text": "But she says that abuse can trigger anxious and nervous feelings that sometimes lead to", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But she says that abuse can trigger anxious and nervous feelings that sometimes lead to", 1888.75, 1891.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1891.734, "end": 1897.314, "text": "physical symptoms. 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You may not know whether they're going to criticize you or surprise you with a gift.", "confidence": 0.97, "timestamps": [["Because she said it's so unpredictable. 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And then there's this feeling of relief, but over time that relief when they aren't being mean, starts to just become flat.", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["And there's almost this just insane tension.", 1948.17, 1950.28, 0.9689281582832336], ["And then there's this feeling of relief, but over time that relief when they aren't being mean, starts to just become flat.", 1950.64, 1958.48, 0.9969198703765869]]}, {"start": 1958.479, "end": 1967.31, "text": "This flat affect or this feeling of what's called this anhedonia, which said worries about the constant stream of criticism and how to best handle the abusive behaviors that you're beginning to recognize,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["This flat affect or this feeling of what's called this anhedonia, which said worries about the constant stream of criticism and how to best handle the abusive behaviors that you're beginning to recognize,", 1958.48, 1967.31, 0.9969198703765869]]}, {"start": 1967.77, "end": 1973.108, "text": "constantly leave you on edge and you may not even know how to relax anymore since you might not feel safe letting your guard down.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["constantly leave you on edge and you may not even know how to relax anymore since you might not feel safe letting your guard down.", 1967.77, 1973.11, 0.9969198703765869]]}, {"start": 1973.918, "end": 1980.479, "text": "And I think that's one of the difficult things is people start having trouble with things like sleep and sleep is where you reset those cortisol levels in the brain.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And I think that's one of the difficult things is people start having trouble with things like sleep and sleep is where you reset those cortisol levels in the brain.", 1973.92, 1980.48, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1981.165, "end": 1992.479, "text": "And so even if you're just having these fits and spurts of sleep off and on and then you're hitting the next day and your brain hasn't fully had a chance to recuperate and to flush out the bad things from the day before,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so even if you're just having these fits and spurts of sleep off and on and then you're hitting the next day and your brain hasn't fully had a chance to recuperate and to flush out the bad things from the day before,", 1981.16, 1992.48, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1992.479, "end": 1997.579, "text": "before, then it's as if your baseline of cortisol or this stress hormone, the", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["before, then it's as if your baseline of cortisol or this stress hormone, the", 1992.48, 1997.58, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1997.579, "end": 2002.439, "text": "stress drug in your brain is operating from a higher baseline. 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And what would it look like if I change?", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["I get, but is it me? 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You can call 1-800-799-7233. This is again the National Domestic Violence Hotline or they even have an online chat available.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["There you can text LOVEIS to 866-331-9474. You can call 1-800-799-7233. This is again the National Domestic Violence Hotline or they even have an online chat available.", 2407.88, 2422.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2423.519, "end": 2434.299, "text": "But one of the most important things that you can do is start to find help. And that might even be just a phase of you starting to listen to more podcasts and watch more YouTube videos and read more books.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But one of the most important things that you can do is start to find help. And that might even be just a phase of you starting to listen to more podcasts and watch more YouTube videos and read more books.", 2423.52, 2434.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2434.951, "end": 2439.299, "text": "And that is being you're on the path of awareness of the light enlightenment.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And that is being you're on the path of awareness of the light enlightenment.", 2434.95, 2439.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2439.299, "end": 2442.099, "text": "You didn't know what you didn't know and now you're starting to learn.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["You didn't know what you didn't know and now you're starting to learn.", 2439.3, 2442.1, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2442.099, "end": 2444.999, "text": "You're starting to learn more about what what is happening in your life,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["You're starting to learn more about what what is happening in your life,", 2442.1, 2445.0, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2444.999, "end": 2447.999, "text": "but it's still gonna be really hard to do anything about it and just know that", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but it's still gonna be really hard to do anything about it and just know that", 2445.0, 2448.0, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2447.999, "end": 2450.903, "text": "that's a really difficult place to be but it's a real normal place to be and.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that's a really difficult place to be but it's a real normal place to be and.", 2448.0, 2450.9, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2451.599, "end": 2454.299, "text": "Eventually you're going to have more of a path of knowing what to do and you'll", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Eventually you're going to have more of a path of knowing what to do and you'll", 2451.6, 2454.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2454.299, "end": 2457.331, "text": "do it more than you don't and eventually you're going to become you're going", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["do it more than you don't and eventually you're going to become you're going", 2454.3, 2457.33, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2457.699, "end": 2461.699, "text": "to become this person that now is aware is helping yourself helping others,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to become this person that now is aware is helping yourself helping others,", 2457.7, 2461.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2461.699, "end": 2465.139, "text": "which is eventually going to help your family, your kids, those around you.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which is eventually going to help your family, your kids, those around you.", 2461.7, 2465.14, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2465.631, "end": 2469.358, "text": "And boy, I see you and I know that it's hard to be on this path or this journey,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And boy, I see you and I know that it's hard to be on this path or this journey,", 2465.63, 2469.36, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2469.952, "end": 2473.019, "text": "but just know that I'm glad you're on the path.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but just know that I'm glad you're on the path.", 2469.95, 2473.02, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2473.13, "end": 2475.179, "text": "And I'm not just going to drop the old, well, at least you're on the path,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I'm not just going to drop the old, well, at least you're on the path,", 2473.13, 2475.18, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2475.179, "end": 2478.099, "text": "because that might feel invalidating, but I'm grateful that you're on the path.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["because that might feel invalidating, but I'm grateful that you're on the path.", 2475.18, 2478.1, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2478.216, "end": 2482.618, "text": "So reach out if you have additional questions, comments, share this with somebody, if you think it'll help.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So reach out if you have additional questions, comments,", 2478.22, 2480.9, 0.9997156858444214], ["share this with somebody, if you think it'll help.", 2481.27, 2482.62, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2483.299, "end": 2489.217, "text": "You can contact me at contact at Tony Overbay dot com or through whatever the various social media platforms are as well.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["You can contact me at contact at Tony Overbay dot com or through", 2483.3, 2486.74, 0.9997156858444214], ["whatever the various social media platforms are as well.", 2487.26, 2489.22, 0.9997156858444214]]}, {"start": 2489.703, "end": 2492.8, "text": "And hang in there. Again, I see you, I know the work you're doing,", "confidence": 0.94, "timestamps": [["And hang in there.", 2489.7, 2490.98, 0.9390494227409363], ["Again, I see you, I know the work you're doing,", 2491.14, 2492.8, 0.9390494227409363]]}, {"start": 2492.979, "end": 2494.312, "text": "and I'll see you next week on Waking Up To Nerd.", "confidence": 0.91, "timestamps": [["and I'll see you next week on Waking Up To Nerd.", 2492.98, 2494.31, 0.9057381749153137]]}, {"start": 2494.32, "end": 2535.314, "text": "Music.", "newpara": true}]