[{"start": 0.0, "end": 7.44, "text": "Music.", "newpara": true}, {"start": 7.436, "end": 12.006, "text": "Welcome to episode 66 of Waking Up To Narcissism. I am your host Tony Overbay. I'm a licensed", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Welcome to episode 66 of Waking Up To Narcissism. I am your host Tony Overbay. I'm a licensed", 7.44, 12.01, 1.0]]}, {"start": 12.006, "end": 16.186, "text": "marriage and family therapist, host of the Virtual Couch podcast, as well as a few others.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["marriage and family therapist, host of the Virtual Couch podcast, as well as a few others.", 12.01, 16.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 16.33, "end": 21.926, "text": "Murder on the Couch, True Crime Meets Therapy, which maybe by the time you hear this, it is", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Murder on the Couch, True Crime Meets Therapy, which maybe by the time you hear this, it is", 16.33, 21.93, 1.0]]}, {"start": 21.926, "end": 27.241, "text": "being queued up and ready to be released. And the best way to find out what is coming next is please", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["being queued up and ready to be released. And the best way to find out what is coming next is please", 21.93, 27.24, 1.0]]}, {"start": 27.366, "end": 32.166, "text": "sign up for my newsletter. If you go to the show notes, there's a Linktree link that will say", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["sign up for my newsletter. If you go to the show notes, there's a Linktree link that will say", 27.37, 32.17, 1.0]]}, {"start": 32.166, "end": 38.246, "text": "link.tree something like that slash virtual couch and sign up for the newsletter and you can also", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["link.tree something like that slash virtual couch and sign up for the newsletter and you can also", 32.17, 38.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 38.246, "end": 43.206, "text": "send me questions. I've been told that there might be a little bit of a challenge with the", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["send me questions. I've been told that there might be a little bit of a challenge with the", 38.25, 43.21, 1.0]]}, {"start": 43.206, "end": 48.966, "text": "contact form but if so just send me an email at contact at tonyoverbay.com and I want to know", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["contact form but if so just send me an email at contact at tonyoverbay.com and I want to know", 43.21, 48.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 48.966, "end": 53.617, "text": "your questions, I want your stories, I want some poetry. We're going to talk about that today.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["your questions, I want your stories, I want some poetry. We're going to talk about that today.", 48.97, 53.62, 1.0]]}, {"start": 53.996, "end": 58.886, "text": "And I also want to encourage you to look in the show notes as well and find the waking up to", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And I also want to encourage you to look in the show notes as well and find the waking up to", 54.0, 58.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 58.886, "end": 64.206, "text": "narcissism premium question and answer podcast. It's $4.99 a month and those", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["narcissism premium question and answer podcast. It's $4.99 a month and those", 58.89, 64.21, 1.0]]}, {"start": 64.206, "end": 72.966, "text": "proceeds do go to help people that are that are dealing with emotionally immature narcissistic relationships. Everything from paying for some therapy,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["proceeds do go to help people that are that are dealing with emotionally", 64.21, 69.29, 1.0], ["immature narcissistic relationships. Everything from paying for some therapy,", 69.29, 72.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 72.966, "end": 77.966, "text": "courses, programs. Hopefully if the fund can grow to be able to help people with", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["courses, programs. Hopefully if the fund can grow to be able to help people with", 72.97, 77.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 77.966, "end": 81.246, "text": "everything from legal expenses and moving costs because a lot of times that", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["everything from legal expenses and moving costs because a lot of times that", 77.97, 81.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 81.38, "end": 89.766, "text": "that financial abuse is one of the things that keeps people in unhealthy relationships and it is an absolute form of control and that's some of the things", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that financial abuse is one of the things that keeps people in unhealthy", 81.38, 85.93, 1.0], ["relationships and it is an absolute form of control and that's some of the things", 85.93, 89.77, 1.0]]}, {"start": 89.766, "end": 99.886, "text": "that they just it break my heart. So today we're gonna talk about a difference between rules and cuts and at the time of this recording I still for", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that they just it break my heart. So today we're gonna talk about a", 89.77, 93.33, 1.0], ["difference between rules and cuts and at the time of this recording I still for", 93.33, 99.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 99.886, "end": 105.526, "text": "the life of me want to find some sort of creative title. So if you are listening", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["the life of me want to find some sort of creative title. So if you are listening", 99.89, 105.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 105.526, "end": 110.086, "text": "to this you have already seen what the title of the the episode will be and you", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to this you have already seen what the title of the the episode will be and you", 105.53, 110.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 110.086, "end": 114.886, "text": "will know if I finally just said forget it rules versus cuts or if I came up", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["will know if I finally just said forget it rules versus cuts or if I came up", 110.09, 114.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 114.886, "end": 119.442, "text": "with some clever something around commandments of narcissism or something to that effect.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["with some clever something around commandments of narcissism", 114.89, 118.29, 1.0], ["or something to that effect.", 118.29, 119.44, 1.0]]}, {"start": 120.054, "end": 125.046, "text": "But when we're talking about rules versus cuts, and you'll get 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140.993, "text": "where a lot of people will share poetry, so I just asked if maybe we could put everything in one place.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["where a lot of people will share poetry,", 136.15, 138.29, 1.0], ["so I just asked if maybe we could put everything", 138.29, 140.13, 1.0], ["in one place.", 140.13, 140.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 141.386, "end": 148.046, "text": "And so I really feel like this poem, it just encapsulates and captures what those cuts do", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so I really feel like this poem,", 141.39, 143.59, 1.0], ["it just encapsulates and captures what those cuts do", 144.05, 148.05, 1.0]]}, {"start": 148.046, "end": 148.966, "text": "or what those are like.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or what those are like.", 148.05, 148.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 148.966, "end": 155.806, "text": "And then I think that will then help us frame what the rules feel like when you are in these narcissistic", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": 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well.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["does not always have to have a flip top,", 166.51, 168.31, 1.0], ["that it can have a turning top as well.", 168.67, 170.8, 1.0]]}, {"start": 171.178, "end": 175.409, "text": "And that does not make you a horrible human being if you like one versus the other.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And that does not make you a horrible human being", 171.18, 174.13, 1.0], ["if you like one versus the other.", 174.13, 175.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 176.246, "end": 180.466, "text": "So let me start with this poem, and let me get a joke out of the way first", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So let me start with this poem,", 176.25, 178.51, 1.0], ["and let me get a joke out of the way first", 178.51, 180.47, 1.0]]}, {"start": 180.466, "end": 182.246, "text": "because I think this is, it's a beautiful poem.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["because I think this is, it's a beautiful poem.", 180.47, 182.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 182.246, "end": 183.466, 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Author unknown because I want to keep that confidential, but there", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So, let me read this. Author unknown because I want to keep that confidential, but there", 211.0, 217.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 217.705, "end": 221.345, "text": "are a lot of poems in the group that I want to read over the coming weeks, so we'll do", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["are a lot of poems in the group that I want to read over the coming weeks, so we'll do", 217.71, 221.35, 1.0]]}, {"start": 221.345, "end": 227.545, "text": "that as well. So, it says, I'm lost in your fears. They twist and turn, winding this way", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that as well. So, it says, I'm lost in your fears. They twist and turn, winding this way", 221.35, 227.55, 1.0]]}, {"start": 227.545, "end": 233.185, "text": "and that, then back again. An infinite circle. The lies slide like vines over the forest", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and that, then back again. An infinite circle. The lies slide like vines over the forest", 227.55, 233.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 233.185, "end": 238.945, "text": "floor. I trip over the rocks of blame that you throw at my feet. I get peaks of sunlight,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["floor. I trip over the rocks of blame that you throw at my feet. I get peaks of sunlight,", 233.19, 238.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 238.945, "end": 240.108, "text": "but catch only glimpses.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but catch only glimpses.", 238.95, 240.11, 1.0]]}, {"start": 240.585, "end": 244.015, "text": "The thick branches and leaves shroud the light and crowd the path.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The thick branches and leaves shroud the light", 240.59, 242.99, 1.0], ["and crowd the path.", 242.99, 244.02, 1.0]]}, {"start": 244.465, "end": 250.038, "text": "I find myself crouching lower and lower, taking up less space to make room for your ego.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I find myself crouching lower and lower,", 244.47, 246.83, 1.0], ["taking up less space to make room for your ego.", 247.29, 250.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 250.685, "end": 255.565, "text": "The night is drawing, but now I see the stars. They are my hopes and dreams.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The night is drawing, but now I see the stars.", 250.69, 253.57, 1.0], ["They are my hopes and dreams.", 254.11, 255.57, 1.0]]}, {"start": 256.065, "end": 260.499, "text": "It surprised me when I learned the opposite of love is not hate, but fear.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["It surprised me when I learned the opposite of love", 256.07, 258.59, 1.0], ["is not hate, but fear.", 258.59, 260.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 261.065, "end": 263.361, "text": "And the more I love, the less I fear.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And the more I love, the less I fear.", 261.07, 263.36, 1.0]]}, {"start": 263.945, "end": 269.816, "text": "I no longer hack away desperately at your fears. I trace them, and I see them for what they are.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I no longer hack away desperately at your fears.", 263.95, 266.95, 1.0], ["I trace them, and I see them for what they are.", 267.15, 269.82, 1.0]]}, {"start": 270.185, "end": 274.245, "text": "Fear of showing yourself because who you are might not be good enough.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Fear of showing yourself", 270.19, 271.53, 1.0], ["because who you are might not be good enough.", 271.63, 274.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 274.985, "end": 280.007, "text": "Fear of owning your choices because if you do, you'd have to accept the consequences.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Fear of owning your choices", 274.99, 276.61, 1.0], ["because if you do, you'd have to accept the consequences.", 276.75, 280.01, 1.0]]}, {"start": 280.665, "end": 285.201, "text": "Fear of taking off your mask because being vulnerable can leave you open for hurt.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Fear of taking off your mask", 280.67, 282.27, 1.0], ["because being vulnerable can leave you open for hurt.", 282.27, 285.2, 1.0]]}, {"start": 285.825, "end": 290.044, "text": "Fear of being wrong because being right gives you a false sense of worth.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Fear of being wrong", 285.83, 287.18, 1.0], ["because being right gives you a false sense of worth.", 287.71, 290.04, 1.0]]}, {"start": 290.865, "end": 294.14, "text": "The more I love and respect myself, the more clearly I see you.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["The more I love and respect myself,", 290.87, 292.63, 1.0], ["the more clearly I see you.", 292.63, 294.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 294.765, "end": 298.785, "text": "Your fears are not for me to hack away. I loosen my grip and climb.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Your fears are not for me to hack away.", 294.77, 296.72, 1.0], ["I loosen my grip and climb.", 296.99, 298.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 299.465, "end": 303.962, "text": "My view of this forest path has changed. Where it leads, I do not know.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["My view of this forest path has changed.", 299.47, 301.79, 1.0], ["Where it leads, I do not know.", 302.33, 303.96, 1.0]]}, {"start": 304.385, "end": 308.94, "text": "I look around and notice the air is thin up here and I'm afraid of heights.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I look around and notice the air is thin up here", 304.39, 307.35, 1.0], ["and I'm afraid of heights.", 307.83, 308.94, 1.0]]}, {"start": 309.265, "end": 313.387, "text": "But here, my wings can grow and the light of truth heals me.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But here, my wings can grow", 309.27, 311.11, 1.0], ["and the light of truth heals me.", 311.75, 313.39, 1.0]]}, {"start": 314.845, "end": 322.225, "text": "It's beautiful. It really is and talks about just what it feels like to trip over someone else's ego", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["It's beautiful.", 314.85, 315.69, 1.0], ["It really is and talks about just what it feels like", 315.69, 319.09, 1.0], ["to trip over someone else's ego", 319.73, 322.23, 1.0]]}, {"start": 322.225, "end": 323.821, "text": "and to find yourself being small.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and to find yourself being small.", 322.23, 323.82, 1.0]]}, {"start": 324.365, "end": 328.655, "text": "And I just, I love that analogy of climbing up to the top of the trees.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I just, I love that analogy of climbing up", 324.37, 327.39, 1.0], ["to the top of the trees.", 327.39, 328.65, 1.0]]}, {"start": 328.885, "end": 334.884, "text": "And sure, it's gonna be scary and you're afraid of heights, but ultimately that is the place where you'll grow.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And sure, it's gonna be scary and you're afraid of heights,", 328.89, 331.87, 1.0], ["but ultimately that is the place where you'll grow.", 332.53, 334.88, 1.0]]}, {"start": 335.165, "end": 339.645, "text": "So I'm just really, I appreciate people that have creative talents like that.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So I'm just really, I appreciate people", 335.17, 337.77, 1.0], ["that have creative talents like that.", 337.77, 339.65, 1.0]]}, {"start": 339.645, "end": 345.205, "text": "I feel like that poem says more in about two minutes than I'm gonna try to communicate to you", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I feel like that poem says more in about two minutes", 339.65, 343.09, 1.0], ["than I'm gonna try to communicate to you", 343.09, 345.21, 1.0]]}, {"start": 345.205, "end": 349.325, "text": "in the next 30 or 40 minutes with just trying to make sense of things", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["in the next 30 or 40 minutes", 345.21, 346.88, 1.0], ["with just trying to make sense of things", 347.37, 349.33, 1.0]]}, {"start": 349.325, "end": 350.458, "text": "that really just don't make sense.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that really just don't make sense.", 349.33, 350.46, 1.0]]}, {"start": 351.045, "end": 357.462, "text": "So on that note, there was a post that just, I thought it was a short post that then just ended up.", "confidence": 0.92, "timestamps": [["So on that note, there was a post", 351.05, 353.22, 1.0], ["that just, I thought it was a short post", 353.49, 356.29, 0.9783363938331604], ["that then just ended up.", 356.29, 357.46, 0.7841010689735413]]}, {"start": 358.479, "end": 368.967, "text": "Bring so much so much content in the group one of the members of the group said even though i've been out for almost two years i find it amazing how many rules i still catch myself following.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Bring so much so much content in the group one of the members of the group said even though i've been out for almost two years i find it amazing how many rules i still catch myself following.", 358.48, 368.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 369.507, "end": 380.715, "text": "Tony talks about death by a thousand cuts but i feel like i've had to live by a thousand rules i can see it's gonna take a long time to figure out what are truly my own choices instead of old programming.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Tony talks about death by a thousand cuts but i feel like i've had to live by a thousand rules i can see it's gonna take a long time to figure out what are truly my own choices instead of old programming.", 369.51, 380.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 381.138, "end": 387.296, "text": "And then she said, anybody else struggle with this? Which I can guess everybody that is in this situation struggles with this.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And then she said, anybody else struggle with this?", 381.14, 382.97, 1.0], ["Which I can guess everybody that is in this situation", 382.97, 386.22, 1.0], ["struggles with this.", 386.57, 387.3, 1.0]]}, {"start": 387.849, "end": 390.709, "text": "And a couple people commented and said they've been out for a year and it's amazing", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And a couple people commented and said", 387.85, 389.21, 1.0], ["they've been out for a year and it's amazing", 389.21, 390.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 390.709, "end": 392.886, "text": "how far they've come, but how many rules they still think about.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["how far they've come, but how many rules", 390.71, 392.09, 1.0], ["they still think about.", 392.09, 392.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 393.689, "end": 397.405, "text": "And somebody said, and not feel anxious while you're doing a specific 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I don't want to just immediately go to this concept of compromise because I think that's what our brain wants to do to try to make sense of what that would look like.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["There's really, there's middle ground. I don't want to just immediately go to this concept of compromise because I think that's what our brain wants to do to try to make sense of what that would look like.", 464.35, 472.69, 1.0]]}, {"start": 473.141, "end": 481.0, "text": "And sometimes we feel like, okay, well, I know what compromise is going to look like, he's going to get his way, so I might as well just acquiesce and give in, and it's not that bad anyway.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And sometimes we feel like, okay, well, I know what compromise is going to look like, he's going to get his way, so I might as well just acquiesce and give in, and it's not that bad anyway.", 473.14, 481.0, 1.0]]}, {"start": 481.36, "end": 491.047, "text": "But it's okay to have a conversation around, well, we'll get there with some of these examples, but honest to goodness, toothpaste lids, you're going to hear some really interesting ones today,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But it's okay to have a conversation around, well, we'll get there with some of these examples, but honest to goodness, toothpaste lids, you're going to hear some really interesting ones today,", 481.36, 491.05, 1.0]]}, {"start": 491.317, "end": 500.058, "text": "Where the more emotionally immature or narcissistic person just says this is how it works and and the everybody knows is not an answer.", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["Where the more emotionally immature or narcissistic person just says this is how it works and and the everybody knows is not an answer.", 491.32, 500.06, 0.9458387494087219]]}, {"start": 500.553, "end": 507.62, "text": "Yes i will give this example until the cows come home that i still remember someone talking about the concept of common sense.", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["Yes i will give this example until the cows come home that i still remember someone talking about the concept of common sense.", 500.55, 507.62, 0.9458387494087219]]}, {"start": 508.07, "end": 517.099, "text": "And then i bring up the example of in some countries where a baby sneezes and an apparent immediately puts their mouth around that nose and sucks up and spits out.", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["And then i bring up the example of in some countries where a baby sneezes and an apparent immediately puts their mouth around that nose and sucks up and spits out.", 508.07, 517.1, 0.9458387494087219]]}, {"start": 517.684, "end": 521.545, "text": "And that's common sense to that person. And then to somebody else,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And that's common sense to that person.", 517.68, 519.84, 1.0], ["And then to somebody else,", 520.34, 521.54, 1.0]]}, {"start": 521.861, "end": 524.868, "text": "that might be the most disgusting thing they've ever heard of, and why don't they use a tissue?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that might be the most disgusting thing", 521.86, 523.22, 1.0], ["they've ever heard of, and why don't they use a tissue?", 523.22, 524.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 525.705, "end": 531.345, "text": "Yet then for another person, using a tissue just seems crazy because why am I wasting tissue paper?", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Yet then for another person,", 525.7, 527.3, 1.0], ["using a tissue just seems crazy", 527.3, 528.94, 1.0], ["because why am I wasting tissue paper?", 528.94, 531.34, 1.0]]}, {"start": 531.345, "end": 534.762, "text": "Or, and I'm gonna get it all on my face and I'm gonna walk around.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Or, and I'm gonna get it all on my face", 531.34, 533.9, 1.0], ["and I'm gonna walk around.", 533.9, 534.76, 1.0]]}, {"start": 535.085, "end": 539.985, "text": "So it's just, let's just look at the way that people do things and why they like doing them", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So it's just, let's just look at the way", 535.08, 537.9, 1.0], ["that people do things and why they like doing them", 537.9, 539.98, 1.0]]}, {"start": 539.985, "end": 544.61, "text": "the way they do, and if we start from there, now we're gonna actually have adult mature conversations.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["the way they do, and if we start from there,", 539.98, 541.91, 1.0], ["now we're gonna actually have adult mature conversations.", 542.34, 544.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 545.305, "end": 548.661, "text": "Love or control? not both in an adult relationship.", "confidence": 0.89, "timestamps": [["Love or control?", 545.3, 546.4, 0.9248740673065186], ["not both in an adult relationship.", 546.86, 548.66, 0.86341392993927]]}, {"start": 549.417, "end": 568.178, "text": "So to the original poster I had said once again you're creating content for me and for the world and I just said that anybody seeing this post let's talk about rules and I just said can you share the rules that you heard and I feel like okay we've got death by a thousand cuts but I don't know control by a thousand rules but I really feel like this is something that will resonate.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["So to the original poster I had said once again you're creating content for me and for the world and I just said that anybody seeing this post let's talk about rules and I just said can you share the rules that you heard and I feel like okay we've got death by a thousand cuts but I don't know control by a thousand rules but I really feel like this is something that will resonate.", 549.42, 568.18, 0.9887314438819885]]}, {"start": 568.79, "end": 572.733, "text": "So the first person that chimed in with a lot of rules she said here are a few rules off the top of my head.", "confidence": 0.99, "timestamps": [["So the first person that chimed in with a lot of rules she said here are a few rules off the top of my head.", 568.79, 572.73, 0.9887314438819885]]}, {"start": 573.381, "end": 575.713, "text": "Protein is the cornerstone of every meal and must be present.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Protein is the cornerstone of every meal and must be present.", 573.38, 575.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 576.235, "end": 579.867, "text": "So you can see already where we're going to go. That this is something that is being preached and told.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So you can see already where we're going to go.", 576.24, 577.87, 1.0], ["That this is something that is being preached and told.", 577.87, 579.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 579.867, "end": 584.867, "text": "And while there may be some truth in some of the rules, we're open to interpretation.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And while there may be some truth in some of the rules,", 579.87, 582.87, 1.0], ["we're open to interpretation.", 582.87, 584.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 584.867, "end": 587.867, "text": "And I know my wife and I talk about this so often.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I know my wife and I talk about this so often.", 584.87, 587.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 588.154, "end": 591.867, "text": "Let's just take this one for example. Protein as the staple of every meal.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Let's just take this one for example.", 588.15, 589.87, 1.0], ["Protein as the staple of every meal.", 589.87, 591.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 591.998, "end": 596.634, "text": "And then who's to say that in a few years we'll find out that the nation is over-proteined.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And then who's to say that in a few years", 592.0, 593.87, 1.0], ["we'll find out that the nation is over-proteined.", 593.87, 596.63, 1.0]]}, {"start": 597.192, "end": 604.187, "text": "So being able to make an informed decision is wonderful. and being able to also have your choice in that decision", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So being able to make an informed decision is wonderful.", 597.19, 600.87, 1.0], ["and being able to also have your choice in that decision", 601.28, 604.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 604.187, "end": 605.42, "text": "is a powerful thing as well.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["is a powerful thing as well.", 604.19, 605.42, 1.0]]}, {"start": 606.636, "end": 608.751, "text": "So back to her rules. She said here are the rules that she had heard.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So back to her rules.", 606.64, 607.45, 1.0], ["She said here are the rules that she had heard.", 607.45, 608.75, 1.0]]}, {"start": 609.147, "end": 611.083, "text": "Again, protein, cornerstone of every meal must be present.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Again, protein, cornerstone of every meal must be present.", 609.15, 611.08, 1.0]]}, {"start": 611.587, "end": 615.251, "text": "If meat wasn't highly visible, it was a constant barrage of complaints and questions.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["If meat wasn't highly visible,", 611.59, 613.11, 1.0], ["it was a constant barrage of complaints and questions.", 613.11, 615.25, 1.0]]}, {"start": 615.587, "end": 617.79, "text": "Is there meat in this? Where's the meat? I can't taste the meat.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Is there meat in this?", 615.59, 616.43, 1.0], ["Where's the meat?", 616.43, 617.27, 1.0], ["I can't taste the meat.", 617.27, 617.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 618.407, "end": 621.667, "text": "Now to someone that is on a plant-based diet, then if they are hearing that,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Now to someone that is on a plant-based diet,", 618.41, 620.16, 1.0], ["then if they are hearing that,", 620.39, 621.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 621.667, "end": 624.649, "text": "sometimes the word meat can literally give a visceral reaction,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["sometimes the word meat", 621.67, 622.63, 1.0], ["can literally give a visceral reaction,", 623.02, 624.65, 1.0]]}, {"start": 625.307, "end": 629.087, "text": "but then to the person who is saying where's the meat, then they are going to say", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but then to the person who is saying where's the meat,", 625.31, 627.87, 1.0], ["then they are going to say", 627.87, 629.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 629.087, "end": 631.5, "text": "that the person on a plant-based diet doesn't know what they're talking about.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that the person on a plant-based diet", 629.09, 630.51, 1.0], ["doesn't know what they're talking about.", 630.51, 631.5, 1.0]]}, {"start": 632.027, "end": 633.814, "text": "So we can have different opinions.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So we can have different opinions.", 632.03, 633.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 634.427, "end": 639.027, "text": "And here's the one I've alluded to two times already. All toothpaste must have a screw-on cap", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And here's the one I've alluded to two times already.", 634.43, 636.69, 1.0], ["All toothpaste must have a screw-on cap", 637.03, 639.03, 1.0]]}, {"start": 639.027, "end": 640.889, "text": "instead of a flip cap regardless of brand.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["instead of a flip cap regardless of brand.", 639.03, 640.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 641.367, "end": 645.707, "text": "Rationalized by flip caps are messier. If I did happen to buy a flip cap,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Rationalized by flip caps are messier.", 641.37, 643.71, 1.0], ["If I did happen to buy a flip cap,", 644.11, 645.71, 1.0]]}, {"start": 645.707, "end": 648.316, "text": "then I would hear comments about it almost daily until it was gone.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["then I would hear comments about it", 645.71, 646.85, 1.0], ["almost daily until it was gone.", 646.85, 648.32, 1.0]]}, {"start": 648.747, "end": 652.667, "text": "And I understand that unfortunately that's the relationship that some people are in", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I understand that unfortunately", 648.75, 650.43, 1.0], ["that's the relationship that some people are in", 650.43, 652.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 652.667, "end": 658.167, "text": "where they feel like, you know, it's not a big deal. I'll get the screw cap or whatever that looks like.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["where they feel like, you know, it's not a big deal.", 652.67, 654.67, 1.0], ["I'll get the screw cap or whatever that looks like.", 654.67, 658.17, 1.0]]}, {"start": 659.056, "end": 663.26, "text": "But we're back to that death by a thousand cuts vibe or control by a thousand rules.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But we're back to that death by a thousand cuts vibe", 659.06, 661.61, 1.0], ["or control by a thousand rules.", 661.61, 663.26, 1.0]]}, {"start": 663.527, "end": 666.294, "text": "She said next, we don't waste food in this house. There's the rule.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said next, we don't waste food in this house.", 663.53, 665.69, 1.0], ["There's the rule.", 665.69, 666.29, 1.0]]}, {"start": 666.527, "end": 670.696, "text": "If I needed to throw away rotted, expired or moldy food, I had to justify and defend it.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["If I needed to throw away rotted, expired or moldy food,", 666.53, 668.99, 1.0], ["I had to justify and defend it.", 668.99, 670.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 671.247, "end": 673.532, "text": "So much so that I struggled to throw anything away.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So much so that I struggled to throw anything away.", 671.25, 673.53, 1.0]]}, {"start": 674.347, "end": 679.086, "text": "She said he would also go through the trash to make sure I wasn't throwing things away without him knowing.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["She said he would also go through the trash", 674.35, 676.01, 1.0], ["to make sure I wasn't throwing things away", 676.01, 678.19, 1.0], ["without him knowing.", 678.19, 679.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 679.767, "end": 686.306, "text": "So apparently it was very important for him to be the throwaway police or the wasted food police", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So apparently it was very important for him", 679.77, 682.37, 1.0], ["to be the throwaway police or the wasted food police", 682.37, 686.31, 1.0]]}, {"start": 686.687, "end": 692.265, "text": "or fill in the blank. 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I had to tell him after the fact if I was getting even a single trim on my hair.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["He was also very rigid about my hair length, our kids hair length. I had to tell him after the fact if I was getting even a single trim on my hair.", 703.78, 710.42, 0.9970888495445251]]}, {"start": 711.161, "end": 716.193, "text": "Otherwise, I had to promise not to cut too much because the kids needed to have certain lengths of hair.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Otherwise, I had to promise not to cut too much because the kids needed to have certain lengths of hair.", 711.16, 716.19, 0.9970888495445251]]}, {"start": 716.851, "end": 720.383, "text": "She said the bed must be made at all times, unless being slept in, of course.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said the bed must be made at all times,", 716.85, 718.69, 1.0], ["unless being slept in, of course.", 718.94, 720.38, 1.0]]}, {"start": 720.383, "end": 722.863, "text": "And so if some of you are saying, okay, well, it sounds reasonable.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so if some of you are saying,", 720.38, 721.42, 1.0], ["okay, well, it sounds reasonable.", 721.42, 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then everybody is working.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Another common one,", 733.74, 734.62, 1.0], ["if dad is working, then everybody is working.", 734.62, 736.82, 1.0]]}, {"start": 736.923, "end": 741.058, "text": "She said, this is present both in my childhood home and my home with my husband.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said, this is present both in my childhood home", 736.92, 739.26, 1.0], ["and my home with my husband.", 739.68, 741.06, 1.0]]}, {"start": 741.463, "end": 744.183, "text": "If dad was doing chores, then everyone else had better be doing chores.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["If dad was doing chores,", 741.46, 742.54, 1.0], ["then everyone else had better be doing chores.", 742.54, 744.18, 1.0]]}, {"start": 744.183, "end": 747.305, "text": "But she said, the thing is the distribution of work was already highly imbalanced.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But she said, the thing is the distribution of work", 744.18, 746.06, 1.0], 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It didn't work. I had to learn that this was his issue and not mine to fix.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said, I followed this for the first few years of our marriage. It didn't work. I had to learn that this was his issue and not mine to fix.", 1014.74, 1020.42, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1020.956, "end": 1031.948, "text": "And, you know, at times, I don't know why, but I feel like, I mean, I'm a marriage and family therapist. I've seen well over a thousand couples and a sex therapist talk about this all the time.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And, you know, at times, I don't know why, but I feel like, I mean, I'm a marriage and family therapist. 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They would like friction on their genitalia, quite frankly.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["The discomfort is that they would like to have sex. They would like friction on their genitalia, quite frankly.", 1078.51, 1083.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1083.972, "end": 1088.419, "text": "I feel like that is not saying, I desire a deep connection. I desire an emotional connection.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I feel like that is not saying, I desire a deep connection. I desire an emotional connection.", 1083.97, 1088.42, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1088.815, "end": 1094.212, "text": "We are not working up the ladders of intimacy. There is not verbal intimacy.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["We are not working up the ladders of intimacy. 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So at that point, if we're connected verbally and emotionally, cognitive, intellectually, then we can be in two completely different places from a spiritual place as well because we respect each other.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And up above that one is spiritual intimacy. So at that point, if we're connected verbally and emotionally, cognitive, intellectually, then we can be in two completely different places from a spiritual place as well because we respect each other.", 1118.61, 1131.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1131.612, "end": 1140.612, "text": "And we are, of course, we have different opinions. And how fascinating is it that I can have this opportunity to connect with another human being that has such different experiences, but we care about each other.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And we are, of course, we have different opinions. 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It really is. So then she said, yeah, she felt like she internalized that if I couldn't do something well or perfect, I should not pursue it at all. She said, I had to learn that mistakes and failing are just learning opportunities and not character flaws.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And it's insane. It really is. So then she said, yeah, she felt like she internalized that if I couldn't do something well or perfect, I should not pursue it at all. She said, I had to learn that mistakes and failing are just learning opportunities and not character flaws.", 1264.04, 1278.92, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1280.383, "end": 1286.587, "text": "So, if you are a parent that is not wanting your kid to do something, I would love for", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["So, if you are a parent that is not wanting your kid to do something, I would love for", 1280.38, 1286.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1286.587, "end": 1290.907, "text": "a quick self-check-in. 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But if you don't want to take them because you are worried that they will not be good, that's a you thing. And if you are telling yourself, but I don't want them to do it because I don't want them to get picked on or bullied because kids are mean, which I understand that. But I will just say, go ahead and set a few bucks aside each month for therapy someday for the kid then to say,", 1305.17, 1334.96, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1335.351, "end": 1339.807, "text": "I was never even given a chance for the kids to bully me. I was never even given the opportunity", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I was never even given a chance for the kids to bully me. I was never even given the opportunity", 1335.35, 1339.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1339.924, "end": 1343.363, "text": "to see if it was something that I liked. And I feel like that's one that I hear often.", "confidence": 0.98, "timestamps": [["to see if it was something that I liked. 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When she said, I internalized that his life activities and choices were the most important in our home, and I sent the message that it was okay to ignore my own needs, this is one of the things that if you are struggling with, if I stay in an unhealthy relationship for the kids, and I understand that there are so much unknown out there, but I worry, as a therapist, as a podcaster, as somebody that works with this population so often, that I worry that this is the message that's being sent to the kids.", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["And let me just take a moment here. When she said, I internalized that his life activities and choices were the most important in our home, and I sent the message that it was okay to ignore my own needs, this is one of the things that if you are struggling with, if I stay in an unhealthy relationship for the kids, and I understand that there are so much unknown out there, but I worry, as a therapist, as a podcaster, as somebody that works with this population so often, that I worry that this is the message that's being sent to the kids.", 1431.3, 1459.46, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1460.078, "end": 1463.088, "text": "That if the, let's say in this scenario,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["That if the, let's say in this scenario,", 1460.08, 1463.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1463.088, "end": 1465.875, "text": "and I'm working with men that are in incredibly", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and I'm working with men that are in incredibly", 1463.09, 1465.88, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1466.168, "end": 1469.764, "text": "unhealthy relationships with narcissistic and emotionally immature and abusive women,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["unhealthy relationships with narcissistic", 1466.17, 1467.93, 1.0], ["and emotionally immature and abusive women,", 1467.93, 1469.76, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1470.468, "end": 1473.608, "text": "which is a whole, again, I know I did an episode about it a few weeks ago,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which is a whole, again, I know I did an episode", 1470.47, 1472.21, 1.0], ["about it a few weeks ago,", 1472.21, 1473.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1473.608, "end": 1478.928, "text": "but it's a whole different ballgame, and it is really scary because the man often", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["but it's a whole different ballgame,", 1473.61, 1474.87, 1.0], ["and it is really scary because the man often", 1475.25, 1478.93, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1478.928, "end": 1481.188, "text": "is not being given any benefit of a doubt.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["is not being given any benefit of a doubt.", 1478.93, 1481.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1482.322, "end": 1487.733, "text": "But in this scenario, if you are buffering and trying to manage your husband's relationship", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But in this scenario, if you are buffering", 1482.32, 1484.8, 1.0], ["and trying to manage your husband's relationship", 1485.01, 1487.73, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1488.128, "end": 1493.228, "text": "to protect the kids because you're worried that divorce will be bad for the kids.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to protect the kids because you're worried", 1488.13, 1491.03, 1.0], ["that divorce will be bad for the kids.", 1491.03, 1493.23, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1493.228, "end": 1497.428, "text": "These are the things that I worry. Again, a kid gets their external validation from their parents.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["These are the things that I worry.", 1493.23, 1494.31, 1.0], ["Again, a kid gets their external validation", 1494.31, 1496.32, 1.0], ["from their parents.", 1496.71, 1497.43, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1498.068, "end": 1503.703, "text": "And so if the validation that they are going to have, if the validation that they are going to get,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so if the validation that they are going to have,", 1498.07, 1501.87, 1.0], ["if the validation that they are going to get,", 1501.87, 1503.7, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1504.428, "end": 1511.948, "text": "is going to, in essence, be trying to learn how to navigate the emotions of a large adult human being", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["is going to, in essence, be trying to learn", 1504.43, 1507.27, 1.0], ["how to navigate the emotions of a large adult human being", 1507.27, 1511.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1511.948, "end": 1517.143, "text": "that is their parent that they are seeking to go to for guidance and for support and for safety,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that is their parent that they are seeking", 1511.95, 1513.52, 1.0], ["to go to for guidance and for support and for safety,", 1513.97, 1517.14, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1517.708, "end": 1522.788, "text": "then that's what it feels like to be them is gonna be someone that is learning how to read the room", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["then that's what it feels like to be them", 1517.71, 1520.37, 1.0], ["is gonna be someone that is learning how to read the room", 1520.37, 1522.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1522.788, "end": 1527.433, "text": "and put their needs second and try to go small when the other person goes big.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and put their needs second and try to go small", 1522.79, 1526.25, 1.0], ["when the other person goes big.", 1526.25, 1527.43, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1528.348, "end": 1531.308, "text": "But if you are developing a secure attachment with your kid,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But if you are developing a secure attachment with your kid,", 1528.35, 1531.31, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1531.308, "end": 1534.588, "text": "which means that they're the ones that are actually going through and experiencing life", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which means that they're the ones", 1531.31, 1532.63, 1.0], ["that are actually going through and experiencing life", 1532.63, 1534.59, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1534.588, "end": 1537.317, "text": "and you are there to say, tell me about it, how was it?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and you are there to say, tell me about it, how was it?", 1534.59, 1537.32, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1537.468, "end": 1539.991, "text": "What was that like? Do you wanna keep doing that? Or what else are you thinking?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["What was that like?", 1537.47, 1538.31, 1.0], ["Do you wanna keep doing that?", 1538.31, 1538.87, 1.0], ["Or what else are you thinking?", 1539.13, 1539.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1540.648, "end": 1543.228, "text": "Instead of, I don't like that, I don't think you should do that,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Instead of, I don't like that,", 1540.65, 1541.99, 1.0], ["I don't think you should do that,", 1541.99, 1543.23, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1543.228, "end": 1545.671, "text": "I can't believe you're asking me of that, do you know how that affects me?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["I can't believe you're asking me of that,", 1543.23, 1544.55, 1.0], ["do you know how that affects me?", 1544.55, 1545.67, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1546.188, "end": 1552.708, "text": "There's a lot of I's and me's there not the cool kind that are I worry or I wonder or I would like to know. So that", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["There's a lot of I's and me's there", 1546.19, 1547.59, 1.0], ["not the cool kind that are I worry or I wonder or I would like to know. 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I'm impulsive.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["So, they don't want to have to admit that, yeah, you're right, sometimes I'm a little bit controlling about money, and other times I just spend. 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Can we work on this together? Can we deal with emotion in concert with each other, with another human being?", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["Can we hold ourselves? Can we work on this together? Can we deal with emotion in concert with each other, with another human being?", 1670.01, 1676.19, 0.948773980140686]]}, {"start": 1676.852, "end": 1681.147, "text": "Because that is where growth occurs. Not in the hiding, not in the playing small.", "confidence": 0.95, "timestamps": [["Because that is where growth occurs. 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And what's that like for you? Because then I get to say, man,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["tell me more. And what's that like for you? Because then I get to say, man,", 1701.46, 1705.06, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1705.061, "end": 1709.369, "text": "let me see what that is like for me. Let me do a little self-confrontation. Check this out.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["let me see what that is like for me. Let me do a little self-confrontation. Check this out.", 1705.06, 1709.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 1709.621, "end": 1712.661, "text": "Here's how I'm feeling now. And I never realized that. What's your experience?", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["Here's how I'm feeling now. And I never realized that. 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And if you try a clarifying question,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["you have to guess the right answer, or he gets mad. And if you try a clarifying question,", 2530.61, 2533.79, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2533.791, "end": 2538.751, "text": "he gets mad and barks, it's a yes or no question. Now, I read those as quickly as I could because", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["he gets mad and barks, it's a yes or no question. Now, I read those as quickly as I could because", 2533.79, 2538.75, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2538.856, "end": 2544.031, "text": "that's the confusion. That even if you try to slow down and stop and make sense of these things,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that's the confusion. That even if you try to slow down and stop and make sense of these things,", 2538.86, 2544.03, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2544.031, "end": 2548.831, "text": "they're going to change. More people chimed in, you're so right, rules like when the movie is", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["they're going to change. More people chimed in, you're so right, rules like when the movie is", 2544.03, 2548.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2548.831, "end": 2552.831, "text": "over you have to stay in your seat and watch the credits until the credits are all the way done.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["over you have to stay in your seat and watch the credits until the credits are all the way done.", 2548.83, 2552.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2553.592, "end": 2557.871, "text": "Somebody else chimed in and said, yep, that's one for me too. And another person did say,", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["Somebody else chimed in and said, yep, that's one for me too. And another person did say,", 2553.59, 2557.87, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2557.976, "end": 2561.523, "text": "reading all this made me realize something, that my husband is hyper vigilant about", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["reading all this made me realize something, that my husband is hyper vigilant about", 2557.98, 2561.52, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2561.928, "end": 2565.231, "text": "not appearing controlling. That there are definitely examples of him having rules around", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["not appearing controlling. That there are definitely examples of him having rules around", 2561.93, 2565.23, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2565.231, "end": 2566.826, "text": "around kitchen cleaning, money, et cetera.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["around kitchen cleaning, money, et cetera.", 2565.23, 2566.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2567.351, "end": 2570.931, "text": "But she said, here's what's funny or weird about it. He uses himself as the standard", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["But she said, here's what's funny or weird about it.", 2567.35, 2569.18, 1.0], ["He uses himself as the standard", 2569.31, 2570.93, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2570.931, "end": 2572.092, "text": "which I should be measuring myself.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["which I should be measuring myself.", 2570.93, 2572.09, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2572.611, "end": 2576.17, "text": "He's under the impression that if he's doing or not doing something, I should be too.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["He's under the impression that if he's doing", 2572.61, 2574.41, 1.0], ["or not doing something, I should be too.", 2574.41, 2576.17, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2576.531, "end": 2580.291, "text": "This way, he doesn't think he's being controlling. For example, she said he decided to stop buying", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["This way, he doesn't think he's being controlling.", 2576.53, 2578.01, 1.0], ["For example, she said he decided to stop buying", 2578.01, 2580.29, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2580.291, "end": 2581.832, "text": "his protein powder because of cost.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["his protein powder because of cost.", 2580.29, 2581.83, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2582.371, "end": 2585.154, "text": "And so now he's recently berated me about not using mine.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And so now he's recently berated me about not using mine.", 2582.37, 2585.15, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2585.802, "end": 2592.132, "text": "His rationality, he stopped buying his, so I should too. Same happens with cleaning the kitchen. Now that he's cleaning it more,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["His rationality, he stopped buying his, so I should too.", 2585.8, 2589.12, 1.0], ["Same happens with cleaning the kitchen. Now that he's cleaning it more,", 2589.6, 2592.13, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2592.132, "end": 2595.237, "text": "everybody needs to be better about putting their dishes in the dishwasher right away,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["everybody needs to be better about putting their dishes in the dishwasher right away,", 2592.13, 2595.24, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2595.768, "end": 2599.414, "text": "even though he was never that diligent about the dishes when I was the one cleaning.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["even though he was never that diligent about the dishes when I was the one cleaning.", 2595.77, 2599.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2600.026, "end": 2604.608, "text": "His control is super covert to me and like others have said, uses a great deal of guilt.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["His control is super covert to me and like others have said, uses a great deal of guilt.", 2600.03, 2604.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2605.148, "end": 2608.372, "text": "And even more so though, he puts rules on communication because that's less tangible", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And even more so though, he puts rules on communication because that's less tangible", 2605.15, 2608.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2608.372, "end": 2612.612, "text": "than him controlling how much money I spend. I'm not allowed to make faces when I talk,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["than him controlling how much money I spend. I'm not allowed to make faces when I talk,", 2608.37, 2612.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2612.612, "end": 2615.952, "text": "no interrupting him in his long rants, don't be on my phone while he's talking,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["no interrupting him in his long rants, don't be on my phone while he's talking,", 2612.61, 2615.95, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2616.392, "end": 2623.692, "text": "act very interested but not too emotional. None of these rules apply to him and if I break one, then he uses that as an excuse to turn into a raging", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["act very interested but not too emotional. 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And while I feel we", 2623.69, 2627.37, 1.0], ["could go on and maybe we'll save this for a part two, but I'll wrap it up with", 2627.37, 2630.81, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2630.94, "end": 2635.132, "text": "a comment that really did, I know I can use this phrase a lot, breaks my heart.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["a comment that really did, I know I can use this phrase a lot, breaks my heart.", 2630.94, 2635.13, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2635.999, "end": 2643.052, "text": "But one of the women in the group said, one thing that I really am having issues on learning in my brain, even though I'm still married, she said, is that my worth", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["But one of the women in the group said, one thing that I really am having", 2636.0, 2638.85, 1.0], ["issues on learning in my brain, even though I'm still married, she said, is that my worth", 2638.85, 2643.05, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2643.052, "end": 2647.972, "text": "or worthiness of love directly correlates with my productivity. If I do enough, things", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["or worthiness of love directly correlates with my productivity. If I do enough, things", 2643.05, 2647.97, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2647.972, "end": 2652.372, "text": "are copacetic. If I'm not productive enough, I'm met with anger, tantrums, name-calling.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["are copacetic. If I'm not productive enough, I'm met with anger, tantrums, name-calling.", 2647.97, 2652.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2652.372, "end": 2656.852, "text": "She said, my therapist is trying to really drill into me that my worth is not based on", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["She said, my therapist is trying to really drill into me that my worth is not based on", 2652.37, 2656.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2657.037, "end": 2660.852, "text": "productivity. And I think that's one of the challenges here. And people had chimed in", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["productivity. And I think that's one of the challenges here. And people had chimed in", 2657.04, 2660.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2660.852, "end": 2664.892, "text": "and related as well. One of the people said, I can really relate. When my therapist sent", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and related as well. One of the people said, I can really relate. When my therapist sent", 2660.85, 2664.89, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2664.892, "end": 2668.722, "text": "me a copy of my treatment plan for therapy, the word busyness was highlighted and underlined.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["me a copy of my treatment plan for therapy, the word busyness was highlighted and underlined.", 2664.89, 2668.72, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2669.412, "end": 2673.664, "text": "That we're so much more than that, but it's so hard to undo, and we didn't become busy", "confidence": 1.0, "newpara": true, "timestamps": [["That we're so much more than that, but it's so hard to undo, and we didn't become busy", 2669.41, 2673.66, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2673.972, "end": 2678.273, "text": "producers in a vacuum. It was an important protector at some point, and maybe still is.", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["producers in a vacuum. It was an important protector at some point, and maybe still is.", 2673.97, 2678.27, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2678.706, "end": 2684.372, "text": "And I think that's one of the most, the largest challenges with this, the group of kind people", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["And I think that's one of the most, the largest challenges with this, the group of kind people", 2678.71, 2684.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2684.372, "end": 2689.612, "text": "that are in these relationships with emotionally immature or narcissistic people, whether again,", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["that are in these relationships with emotionally immature or narcissistic people, whether again,", 2684.37, 2689.61, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2689.612, "end": 2694.212, "text": "male, female, whatever the dynamic is, that you're a kind person trying to make sense", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["male, female, whatever the dynamic is, that you're a kind person trying to make sense", 2689.61, 2694.21, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2694.212, "end": 2699.312, "text": "of things, trying to do enough because when you do, then that's some of the times where", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["of things, trying to do enough because when you do, then that's some of the times where", 2694.21, 2699.31, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2699.312, "end": 2703.852, "text": "you are met with some bit of validation. But then when these rules, these rules just continue", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["you are met with some bit of validation. But then when these rules, these rules just continue", 2699.31, 2703.85, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2703.852, "end": 2707.992, "text": "to change and they aren't enough and they are crazy making because you are absolutely", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to change and they aren't enough and they are crazy making because you are absolutely", 2703.85, 2707.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2707.992, "end": 2712.372, "text": "losing your sense of self, then that can be this position where you just start to feel", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["losing your sense of self, then that can be this position where you just start to feel", 2707.99, 2712.37, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2712.372, "end": 2719.552, "text": "like I just can't make sense of anything because it's nonsense. So if you have additional examples", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["like I just can't make sense of anything because it's nonsense. So if you have additional examples", 2712.37, 2719.55, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2719.552, "end": 2725.552, "text": "of these rules, send them to me. Contact at tonyoverbay.com and we'll do additional episodes", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["of these rules, send them to me. Contact at tonyoverbay.com and we'll do additional episodes", 2719.55, 2725.55, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2725.552, "end": 2729.112, "text": "based off of this because I guarantee that there are going to be people that are going", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["based off of this because I guarantee that there are going to be people that are going", 2725.55, 2729.11, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2729.433, "end": 2735.412, "text": "to just resonate with this concept of these rules. These just double standard or passive", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["to just resonate with this concept of these rules. These just double standard or passive", 2729.43, 2735.41, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2735.412, "end": 2740.352, "text": "aggressive or do as I say, not as I do rules. And again, just know that if that's what you're", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["aggressive or do as I say, not as I do rules. And again, just know that if that's what you're", 2735.41, 2740.35, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2740.352, "end": 2744.192, "text": "dealing with in your relationship, it's not an emotionally mature, healthy relationship", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["dealing with in your relationship, it's not an emotionally mature, healthy relationship", 2740.35, 2744.19, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2744.192, "end": 2747.992, "text": "and it's okay for you to do things the way that you want to do them and especially to", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["and it's okay for you to do things the way that you want to do them and especially to", 2744.19, 2747.99, 1.0]]}, {"start": 2747.992, "end": 2752.272, "text": "be able to have conversations about this. So, I appreciate your time and I will see", "confidence": 1.0, "timestamps": [["be able to have conversations about this. So, I appreciate your time and I will see", 2747.99, 2752.27, 0.9982970356941223]]}, {"start": 2752.272, "end": 2754.154, "text": "next week on waking up to narcissism.", "confidence": 0.89, "timestamps": [["next week on waking up to narcissism.", 2752.27, 2754.15, 0.8863162398338318]]}, {"start": 2754.16, "end": 2784.967, "text": "Music.", "newpara": true}]