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and had a particular

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interaction

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that I explained my actions to her through

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the lens of Buddhist psychology,

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in the car.

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And after she actually followed my explanation,

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I said, oh,

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that's what I'm gonna share this week. And

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she said, I think you should, and I

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think you should call it Doritos.

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So my so this is Doritos

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or actually Dorito.

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So my other daughter, every now and then,

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buys snacks, brings them to our house, leaves

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them in the cupboard.

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And for the most part,

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I'm okay.

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I can I like, I don't like, there's

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most

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junk food, I don't have a thing for?

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But every now and then, she'll leave something

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that just kind of irks

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at me.

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And there has been this little bag of

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Doritos

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in the cupboard

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for, I don't know, like, 3 or 4

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months now.

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And I haven't eaten Doritos in a long

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time, but I know,

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you know, like, I know

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me and Doritos. Like, I I I have

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had enough experience.

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And the only thing that was, like, my

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saving grace is that

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I try very hard to be mostly vegan.

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And thank goodness these were nacho cheese flavored.

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And, you know, like, I would go, oh,

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yeah. Nacho cheese. Not doing that.

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And so then, I guess, about 2 days

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the other daughter and I were driving across

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town to some big appointments. She hadn't had

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time to grab lunch or to eat lunch

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before we were going, so she opens up

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the cupboard

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and grabs whatever she can to snack on

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in the car, including the bag of Doritos.

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And so we get in the car, and

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I don't know what your experience is with

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Doritos, but my experience is also very palpable.

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What happens when someone opens a bag of

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Doritos in a closed space like a car.

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Like, you open it, and then all of

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a sudden, everyone smells

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Doritos.

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And I'm sure that there are people in

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this room that that would just gross you

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out. I'm not one of them.

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and, like, now the smell is just everywhere.

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and then finally I go, oh, just hand

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me over one. And so she does,

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and I take it, and I eat it.

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of, like, bite

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and then

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flavor

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explosion,

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that's really

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internally

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in here.

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if I didn't have

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a lot of years of practice, my next

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statement would have been, oh, those are bad

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for you. Just hand them over and let

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me eat the rest of them for you.

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station and get me a bag too.

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You know, like, they they just I I

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am the research subject that they used for

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what is the perfect combo of salt,

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little bit of tangy,

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in this crisp

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thing

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that just, like, goes

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so back to Buddhist psychology.

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So, you know, like, I took a breath.

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I do have practice. I didn't pull over

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at the gas station. I didn't,

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try to get get the bag. I didn't

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even eat more of her Doritos.

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I I found myself instead

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explaining to her my reaction via the lens

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of Buddhist psychology.

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There's this great talk on dharma seed right

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now. I sent it out on the community

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email. If you're not on the community email

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and you want to be, just email me.

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I can't remember the title exactly, but it's

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something like

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finding a suitable

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home for the heart and the body.

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a guy named Chaz de Caprio

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Caprio. I'm not sure how you pronounce his

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name. I listen to him every now and

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then because I really appreciate,

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his teachings.

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about,

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a old Pali word, a Buddhist term

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one of those

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that,

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gets talked about fairly regularly.

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About half of the talks I hear on

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the Chitta,

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go, oh, yeah. Got it. And about the

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other half, I go, oh, no. Wait a

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minute. I thought I got it, and now

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I don't.

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So it's it's it's it's used in a

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lot of different ways,

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and I invite you to take

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my,

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understanding

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of the chitta.

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Hold it lightly. This is just how I

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working with my own reckoning of this term

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in a way that has been

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very, very

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useful

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if you sat here with me at all,

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you know my brain hand model that from

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Dan Siegel that I refer to all the

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time.

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through the lens of

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observation of the mind 26 100 years ago

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before MRIs and all of that. And so

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it's worded a little differently, and I find

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that when

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when somebody shines the light

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on a part of me

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in a little bit of a different way,

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more of my own internal flavors.

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this is my my take.

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lots of appreciation to the the talk I

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mentioned,

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as a way to finally feel like, oh,

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I can actually talk about this now.

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So, Chitta, you may have heard the term

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bodhicitta,

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awakened heart.

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chitta, chitta, chitta, I guess, is the way

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it's usually pronounced.

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I have heard is mind.

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the word instead heart,

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for it. So it's part of our capacity

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of awareness.

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problem solving that's an analytical,

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rational problem.

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Machita

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is everything else.

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emotive,

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and seeking to connect,

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feel

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louder,

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what it is feeling.

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what it connects with

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That day in the car, what was loudest

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at that first moment was a Dorito.

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the chitta was, like, awake,

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by the smell of Dorito.

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He says it's the part of the mind

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that gets bamboozled

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explanation, which I think is

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very useful, is not 5 senses, but 6

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with whatever

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experience is loudest

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in any of those sick sick stores.

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to be sensorially

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loud and hookable.

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it is our own anxiety

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that when it connects to, it can, like,

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part of the mind that gets hijacked, bamboozled,

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such a good word,

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with the person you met, like, 3 minutes

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wonderful this

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connects with whatever is loudest in our since

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without training,

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grabs in,

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with it. That's the wiring.

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That's what this body, mind, heart,

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has as part of its its inborn capacity.

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The second characteristic

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of the chitta

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is that it also has this,

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and I don't use this word lightly,

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astoundingly

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beautiful

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capacity

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to turn back and reflect on itself,

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to, like, taste

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what it has taken in

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and

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and open up to wisdom,

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like, self reflect,

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contemplate

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wisdom about that experience.

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For me, that moment of eating that Dorito,

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I mean, there is, like, this boom

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of, like, total flavor

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and, like, right

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how do you say I can't get any

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words out today. Simultaneously.

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Oh, I did it.

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Simultaneously

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with the taste was instant craving.

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Like, really, really, really, really strong craving.

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Thankfully,

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my chitta was functioning and had this capacity

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to turn back and self reflect.

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And in that self reflecting,

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of craving.

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I really don't like that sense of

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I got to have more Doritos or whatever

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it is.

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I dislike that sense of craving more than

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I like the taste of Doritos.

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That's the self reflection

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that when it is trained deep enough,

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it can start to it just naturally

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educates us.

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It naturally is built

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in to be a door to wisdom

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when we have

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enough training to

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support that turning back on self reflection.

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And the third piece that's so important to

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name,

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it does this through connection with our body.

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The more

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attuned we are

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with

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our body's

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reaction

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to what is happening,

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the more that is the wisdom pool

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that the Chitta draws from.

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There is this, like, really

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astoundingly

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beautiful

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capacity

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of learning

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what is

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wholesome.

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Not in that sense of judgment,

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but in that sense of what is natural

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leaning in the direction of my healing.

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Like, we can feel that.

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I could feel I really wanted another Dorito,

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and everything in my body

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did not.

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And it was just, like, really clear.

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The the desire for the taste of it

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was not in alignment

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with what feels good and nourishing

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for me. And a thing like a Dorito,

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it's a really useful thing.

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You know, like, find your example of what

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is the Dorito for you

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that you can that's, you know, got the

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hook,

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but there is enough training, there is enough

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whatever

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that you can examine

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the hook,

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that you can explore

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what that hook is doing

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for you. If the hook is too strong,

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that self reflective capacity, it just gets it

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just bamboozled.

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It just gets bamboozled.

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And and we just go down. So you

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don't want some you don't wanna start with,

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like, your hardest thing. You wanna pick something

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on the level of a Dorito chip,

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whatever that is for you,

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and really

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allow

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the chitta

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that is

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you,

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that is part of your natural inborn system

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to reflect,

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the whole experience

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in the body, heart, and mind

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of what happens,

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and feel

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that the body, heart, and mind, in that

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moment,

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naturally

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does know

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what is in the direction of my healing

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and what is not.

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I'm just thinking of that line from the

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Mary Oliver poem, the wild geese.

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You only have to let the soft animal

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of your body

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love what it loves.

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You only have to let the soft animal

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of your body

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love what it loves.

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Isn't that kind

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of astoundingly beautiful

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That our path of healing

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is in coming to understand what the soft

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animal of our body

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loves.

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So

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let me do just a very short practice

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with this.

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Invite

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you to close your eyes.

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Take a breath in.

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Breathe out.

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Feel the heat.

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Breathe out the heat.

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And see if you can bring to mind

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something for you

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that has some charge, has some hook,

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but it's something that you can work with,

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a Dorito chip.

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Something that's kind of

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irritating,

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And and this works in both ways. It

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can be that thing we want,

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and it can also work the other way,

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the thing we don't want.

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Like, another example might be the person who

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cuts you off in Charlotte traffic, and you

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just feel that urge

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to do whatever it is that you might

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do,

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that's not part of your practice

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in that moment, the reactivity

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in that moment.

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Remember, the chitta

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connects with what is loudest

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in the untrained sensory

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field.

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The untrained sensory the untrained

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scitta connects with whatever is loudest in the

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sensory field.

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So once you have your example,

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feel the reaction.

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Maybe it is wanting to let those words

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come out of your mouth when the person

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cuts you off. Or maybe it is wanting

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to grab the whole bag of Doritos

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and eat them.

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Feel whatever the reaction is, and then feel

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what that feels

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like in your body

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when you have that taste of the reactivity.

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And then let yourself

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know this is your capacity

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of self reflection.

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Be aware

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of knowing,

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of curiosity,

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of the ability to turn and feel and

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look and learn

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from whatever this reactivity is.

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Like, not try to make the reactivity go

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away,

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but use the reactivity

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as your teacher

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and feel into that capacity

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to reflect

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on the reactivity

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here.

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Feel it as an act of care.

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As an act of care,

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what would be a natural

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way of meeting the reactivity

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for you?

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Maybe it is just to take a breath,

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but to stop. Stop.

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Take a breath. Observe with kindness.

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Proceed.

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Maybe you wanna offer it some sort of

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phrase,

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like the phrase we use in our meditation.

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May I have compassion and understanding

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for myself just as I am.

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It's not necessary that the reactivity

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go away.

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More important is you noticing

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your capacity to turn and look with care.

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And feel how

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This

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This is

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the birthright

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of the Chitta,

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that it is trainable.

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The more

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you give room appreciation and

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space

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for the to simply reflect

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on the experience,

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the wiser it becomes.

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It starts to have these insights, like, I

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dislike the craving for the chip

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more

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than I like the taste of the chip.

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I didn't have to think that through.

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I could just feel it.

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The body knew that,

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and it told me.

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What might your chitta tell you?

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When you open to listen and give it

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space to simply meet

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and connect

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with you

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and your experience

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with care.

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Thank you.