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So last week, I brought my book, and

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we had an extra 1 and so grateful

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to see it gone on the shelf, but

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I was relying on pulling it off self

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to use it.

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But I have that I want on my

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phone so that will work.

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The book.

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Self just beautiful

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beautiful book.

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The first free women,

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it... And I think I may have misrepresented

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a little bit last week.

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So they're in the Poly canon, which is

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the Poly was the language, the original teachings

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of the Buddha

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were first written down in.

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There is a collection

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of

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accounts

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by early buddhist nuns of their awakening,

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and it's

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has kind of been this hidden jewel

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for a long time in the midst of

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the canon, and I'm sure it's emerged over

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and over in lots of ways in various

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times.

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But for us

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here now, there's a guy named Maddie, Wine

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gap

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who

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reads Poly,

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found, you know, found his way into these

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teachings

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and the more time he spent with these

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teachings from these early buddhist nuns, these nuns

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of like 2000

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years ago, who left accounts,

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moving

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and helpful

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enough that they spoke to this guy,

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2000

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years later

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and became his root teaching, his root teacher.

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And so he really spent about 5 years,

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just

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immersed

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in reading,

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they're, like 70 or 80 of them something

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like that, reading them over and over.

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living them as his primary

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guide,

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to

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to his practice and his way of life,

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and his his own gradual

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opening

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And what he found is he lived with

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them long enough, he began to be inspired

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to

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write poems.

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And so it's not it's not a direct

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translation by any means.

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These are

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a poem

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inspired by each.

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Of the the accounts

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in there.

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And last week, I shared the elephant.

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And I had planned to do 2, but

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of course, there's never time for that. There's

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good time for 1. So I wanna do

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the second 1 that that I brought, do

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it, share that 1 today.

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If you were here last week, you know

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how we sometimes

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break up and and look together at at

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a particular point or passage,

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if you haven't done that with me before,

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you weren't here last week, Me tell you

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a little bit about how

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I wanna do this with us altogether.

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There's a old Christian practice called le,

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vimeo.

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it

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was

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brought forth as a means to take people

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as they contemplated

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the scripture, take people out of their heads

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and into their hearts.

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It's a way of not

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analyzing or thinking about a passage.

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It's a way of bodily

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engaging.

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With the words

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to see what comes forth from you,

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with with these particular words. And it's a

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very... It's a very

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step by step way of doing this,

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so then there was a guy named Gregory

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Kramer who,

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some of you may know through insight dialogue,

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and he took this old Lexi theo.

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D practice and kind of reformed it a

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bit for

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buddhist

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contemplation,

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and then I knew of both of those,

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and I took them and I do whatever

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I want with them.

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And so you have my version,

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and it's usually a point that that we've

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done this before with. And it's a very

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set kind of way.

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So, like, the first reading, you just

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hear it. You just let it land.

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Not trying to think about it. The words

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just flow through, flow out.

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You listen for a word or a phrase

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that... And I said just land with the

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first 1, but the second reading really when

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you listen for a word or a phrase

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that does have some sort of internal landing

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place for you, some sort of of resonating

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for you. For The third round

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is

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you pay attention to what that is in

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your body.

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What is it when you

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when you hear that phrase, what happens?

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Literally in your body in your heart?

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And then the fourth fourth round is just

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a sharing. So I think it's best done

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and small group

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and I'll do this very formally as a

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meditation.

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Okay.

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So the first reading

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from,

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via Maddie Wine.

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Victor.

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Remember for this reading, just allow the words

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to flow through.

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When everyone else was meditating,

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I'd be outside circling in the hall,

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I went to confess. I'm hopeless.

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I said,

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the elder nun smiled.

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Just keep going.

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She said.

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Nothing

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stays in orbit

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forever.

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If this circling is all you have,

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why not make this circling

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your home?

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I did as she told me and went

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on circling

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in the hall.

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If you find yourself partly in and partly

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If you find yourself drawn to this path,

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and also drawing away.

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I can assure you

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you are in good company

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keep

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going.

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Sometimes the most

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direct path

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isn't a straight line.

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Allow a word

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or phrase,

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to land for you,

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I'd be outside. Circling in the hall.

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I went to confess,

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I'm hopeless,

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the elder non

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smile.

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Just keep going.

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She said,

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nothing stays in orbit forever.

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If the circling is all you have,

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why not make this circling?

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Your home.

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I did as she told me.

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And went on circling in the hall.

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partly out.

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If you find yourself drawn to this path

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and also drawing away.

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I can assure you

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you're in good company.

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keep

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going.

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the most

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direct path

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isn't a straight line.

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So in your small group,

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you feel comfortable.

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You can allow whatever

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word or phrase, and you don't have to

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explain it or anything, just the simple word

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or phrase.

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Allow yourself to feel right now whatever landed

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for you.

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And then in your small group, a chance

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to listen and share.

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What that word or phrase might be for

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you,

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and then moving back into the silence

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And so take a moment

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to

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feel what you need and what you heard

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me.

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Feel how it lands in the body

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and the heart

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your sharing be very simple at this point.

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You don't have to explain just really, really

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simple.

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Take a moment right now to feel how

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they land in your body and your heart.

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sensations,

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emotions,

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qualities,

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and then a simple sharing of just

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that

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with your group.

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You can begin that now.

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Sorry. The clock is always moving.

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So just take a moment to sit back,

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and again feel what you shared.

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Or feel what you didn't have time to

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share,

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either is good,

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and what you heard

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Just breathe in and out with that for

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a moment or 2.

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And then this final round with your group.

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Is just an open sharing, whatever you want

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to share with your group.

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And it will be a short time to

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make sure you kind of pick 1 or

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2 things

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for some concise of sharing.

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So thank you for working with that with

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conditions as it is,

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and just invite you to sit for a

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moment.

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Notice what you shared, what you heard,

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what else is present for you.

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And what in these words

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was useful for you to carry

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into your day.

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Into your practice

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into the next moment now,

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We have just a couple of minutes if

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anyone's willing to go couple people willing to

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do a short share would love to hear

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1 or 2 people if you're willing.

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I'll just say for me that line,

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the most direct path, sometimes the most direct

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path, is not a straight line.

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We think if I'm gonna be mindful, I

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should be able to figure out the next

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step that makes the sense in terms of

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the mythology of doing it right, and it

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always looks good. And it just doesn't work

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that way.

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The most direct path is meeting what's here,

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not some mythology

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mythological straight line,

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The baby that means the next step to

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be just right will never learn to walk.

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Yeah.

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Thank you. Yeah.

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Victor.

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When everyone else was meditating,

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I'd be outside circling in the hall.

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Finally, I went to confess, I'm hopeless

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I said.

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My elder nun smiled.

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Just keep going.

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She said,

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Nothing stays in orbit forever.

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If this circling is all you have.

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Why not make this circling

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your home?

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I did that she told me and went

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on circling

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in the hall.

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If you find yourself partly in and partly

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out

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If you find yourself drawn to this path

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and also drawing away.

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I can assure you you are in... Good

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company.

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Just keep

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going

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and

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Sometimes the most direct path

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isn't

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a straight line.

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May our willingness

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to show up in this moment.

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And the next

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and the next,

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wherever

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the moment is landing on even if it's

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not a straight line.

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Mere willingness to show up on the direct

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path of our life as it is.

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Bring forth a healing for ourselves,

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that makes us more available

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in a world that needs available people.

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May I practice be of service?

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Inward and outward.

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Thank you.

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Monthly being with you all.